sorry i cant shut up but im freaking out so im just. gonna keep typing until i calm down, although im pretty sure that’s not how it works lmao.
reasons i feel like shit today:
- my friend hasnt responded to my text from 2 days ago (during which i cancelled on weekend plans) which is pretty much a guarantee that she’s mad at me
- i have no energy to do anything at all, including make posts for femslash week, even though that’s literally all i Want to do
- this is superficial but since i stopped taking birth control my skin has been horrible again and it’s only getting worse and i have another photoshoot next weekend and the thought of being so exposed w/o makeup, even for like. 15 minutes. make me want to cry. i feel so ugly this week and i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate
- i had an awful dream that me and my sister hated each other and now im so sad and so tense, u know how dream feelings sometimes Linger even tho they’re not true bc they just feel so real?
- im so stressed about my friend because we keep having these weird not-quite-fights in which she’s disappointed in me and then i try 110% to make her like me again and it’s f&^%ing draining.
- i still feel physically sick w anxiety & on the verge of a panic attack!!
- i still feel like crying!!