There are moments in my life that I have tied so closely with certain songs.

Some good moments, funny memories that will always put a smile on my face.

Then there are the heartbreaking songs. The songs that don’t sound significant to anyone else but me. These are the songs I avoid, terrified that they’ll bring back a renewed sense of pain if I ever listen to them.

I know some people will just say, “but it’s just a song, it can’t hurt you.”

To that, I’ll say, you’re right. It is just a song… but music is powerful. 

Music can be healing but it can also be haunting.

Maybe one day I’ll be brave enough to listen to those songs once again because I miss them dearly before they were tarnished.


I hope everyone has a fabulous start to their work week! I’m very excited to get to work on Out of the Park and start posting it!! No, I haven’t forgotten about the Fall drabbles and some one shots that need to be done. Just balancing my writing to-do’s with life.

Happy Monday everybody!

Reading Hiatus

So, after that last ask, it occurred to me just how behind I am on my reading of things I am tagged in! Beginning October 1, I am going to take a posting hiatus and just go back through my tags and try to catch up on what I have been tagged in and haven’t read yet. Because of the timing of this, I’m going to put off the debut of Out of the Park until after my reading hiatus. I don’t want to start a new story, then pause on posting it. In the meantime, I’ll work on finishing the Fall drabbles and one-shots, and get a start on reading if I can!

Originally posted by slytherin-bookworm-guy

5 Q’s Tag Game

I was tagged by @suliistya (x), thank yooouuu (I’m still not sure that you’re real)

Rules: Answer the 5 following questions, tag 10 people.

1. What is your follower count?

Something as wild as… 36! *gasp*

2. How many are you following?


3. How many posts do you have queued/scheduled?

98. I queue pretty much everything. It’s a habit and that way I don’t suddenly spam 20 posts.

4. How long have you had your tumblr?

Overall 2,5 years but this one for less than a month.

5. Tag 10 people.


@wildcas @nutmegmish @babybluecas @katteens @feathereddean @righteuos @caramelapplecas @sunshineimpala @glowingdean (plz notice me i want to talk to you guys.  🙈)

@octomoosey tagged me to post two things I like about myself and then pass it on to the first 10 people you see on your dash

1) I like my sense of humour. I’ve been told by friends I can be pretty funny, and I love making people laugh (with me, not at me preferably)

2) I like that I’m open-minded about pretty much everything and can accept that people like different things (as long as it follows the ground rule of “not harming anyone”). I often think it must be so tiring to be a bigot, purist or snob etc. because you spend so much time being afraid of and/or hating whatever it is, surrounding yourself with all that negativity. I don’t have that problem. Live and let live, and let others like what they like (as long as they obey The Rule).

I’m tagging @winchestre @shanandco0825 @autumnjensen @envydean @royalrowena @mishcollins @gowatchthebees @bold-sartorial-statement @princesscas and @flydestiel

5 Qs Tag Game

Thank you so much for tagging me,@casandean! Your blog is fantastic :D

Rules: Answer the 5 following questions, tag 10 people.

1) What is your follower count?

        About 80 so far. I’m still pretty new…

2) How many are you following?

        I think just over 150 blogs

3. How many posts do you have queued/scheduled?

        I still don’t know how it works, so 0. If someone could please explain that’s be great :)

4. How long have you had your tumblr?

        Ever since Misha did his GISHWHES Takes Tumblr thing; that’s why I started

5. Tag 10 people.

         If I haven’t tagged you and you want to do this, feel free to do it :)

I tag (more than 10 people; sue me): @suliistya @bluestar86 @miss-devonaire @bubblesmorebubbles @cabinboyjackles @happycas @ozonecologne @istillbelieveindestiel @agent-superwholockian @awed-frog @pinkypiejr12 @that-fucking-flamingo-shirt @assbuttboyfriends @aslightsgoflashing @clockworkpearlgirl @amadtributewithaship @sams-red-plaids @onceuponadestiel @bbycas @the-faerie-circle @sandraugiga @thesassygayangelfriend @cocklesheadboop @bubblemish @seraphmisha

Personal Tag Questions

I was tagged by @angvlicmish, @astrumdean, and @heyheyitme Thanks so much!!!♥

rules: tag 20 bloggers you’d like to get to know

nicknames: um… the only one that i can think of is ‘tae’, which i’m not to fond of lol

gender: female

zodiac: aquarius

height: i’m guessing that i am around 5′4′”

hogwarts house: i took the test a while ago but i don’t remember. it was either hufflepuff or gryffindor 

favorite color: blue, but especially light blues

time rn: 10:03 pm

average hours of sleep: on weekdays 6-8 and on weekends 8-9

last thing I googled: sports injuries for an assignment in my sports medicine class.

bands/artists: alessia cara, the weeknd, sam smith, there’s a lot more but that would take forever

dream trip:  hawaii (i know, boring, but i really wanna go lol)

dream job: actress or singer (but i can’t do either of those things.) maybe a youtuber. 

wearing rn: a coca cola shirt and shorts

age of blog: about a year and 3 months

following: 199, but a lot more soon 

posts: 7,678 

what I post about: j2m, destiel, cockles, team free will, spn, anything to do with spn and the spn cast in general, and occasional text posts.

when did my blog peak: uhh earlier this year i guess, then again compared to some people i’m still irrelevant haha

do I get daily asks: no :c i probably get one or two a month if that lol

url: well i like the word radiate and i like cas so i got ‘radiatecas’

I tag: (not gonna do 20 people lol) @tequilasdean, @coffeedcas, @deanscolette, @angelicdmitri, @tabbycas, and @suliistya. If you have already done this or don’t want to do it then ignore.♥

I was tagged by @destielonfire and @shannon-kind to post two things I like about myself and then pass it on to the first 10 people you see on your dash .

1) I like the fact that I have a thirst for knowledge and i am always eager to read and learn new things, be it a new language, a musical instrument, the medical practices in ancient Egypt or the latest observations on the behavior of neutron stars.

2)I like the fact that I have a generally positive attitude and always try to cheer the people around me up (even though i have the weirdest sense of humor and I am the typical bad pun™ friend ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ). I think that everyday life is stressful and hard enough as it is without wallowing on the negative aspects and have found that positive reinforcement works wonders both on academic performance and interpersonal relationships. Also, laughing. Laughing is awesome and I’m really happy to spread it around (:

Tagging @coffeeisoxygen @autvmnackles @timetraveldean @deanscolette @destiel-is-cockles-fault @royalrowena @the-faerie-circle @malevolent-dean @k6034 @castielbabyangelface