Remember, beta’d but still subject to change. An extra special hug to @eala-musings and @akai-echo who have really been great about talking plot points through with me. I don’t know where I’d be without you!
She felt her fury overtake her, though she couldn’t be sure who she was really angry with - herself, Peeta, Gale, the situation, life? But she was livid and she was doing nothing to contain it. “You know, I wasn’t the one who gave you the brilliant advice to tangle your life up in this way. I know what I need to do. But please don’t act like what you have to offer is in any way equivalent to what Gale would give me. He would do anything for me. He’s done nothing wrong here.”
“But you don’t love him. And you were stringing him along way before I came along,” Peeta said.
Katniss narrowed her eyes at him. “Maybe. But I’ve never cheated on him before. So, please with the life advice.” She grabbed her bow holder and her backpack and slung them both clumsily over her shoulder, the tip of her bow in particular smacking her hard on the cheek. Peeta said nothing as he followed her to the door, helping her pull open the heavy, metal thing. As she made to fly through, though, he caught her hand, forcing her to look his way.
“You’re right. I’m the last person to give relationship advice. My life is a clusterfuck.” He brought a hand up to her cheek, his thumb rubbing a magnetic path over her lips. “But I swear to you, I want to do more than pass the time with you. You are the only thing my mind keeps returning to, over and over. Seeing you, even for a few hours, and talking to you is the highlight of my week. There are some things I can’t give you.” He bent to leave a feather-like kiss on her cheek, whispering the last words in her ear. “But there are other things that only I can do for you. Remember that when he’s tempting you away with some lame, colorless version of happily ever after.”
She turned until her nose was just brushing his. “I’m trying to do right by him, not because of you or even because of me but because he didn’t ask for this.” She made to turn away but stopped, looking him straight in the eye again. “And if your life is such shit, why don’t you do something about it?”
Tarjei seemed very off and completely over playing Isak during all of season 4 imo. I think your paragraph about how much attention he got hit the nail on the head and is probably the reason why he portrayed Isak with a bit of distance this season. It makes me sad for Tarjei that people are so intrusive and entitled (not to mention creepy with all the sexual stuff). I hope it'll finally stop now but I'm not sure it will :/
Yeah, I completely agree. While I am simultaneously very happy that someone as talented as Tarjei (even though we didn’t really see his full potential as you said, in this season) has recieved recognition, it is just so ironic that the person who was most keen on having privacy out of everyone in the cast ends up with the most stalkers.
The massive international hype surrounding Skam is going to die down within a few months, and it’s probably going to be a huge relief for all of them. Since Tarjei is so passionate about acting, I sometimes felt really bad for him this season when it seemed to me that he didn’t enjoy portraying Isak as much as he did in previous seasons.
[BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOI I love the fact that you change your coloring with your mood okay like bless u do you, as RM says <3] Jiminie Crickets, okay, I gotta know. WHERE did you get your hair done because it's adorable. If you did it you should hook me up because I want purple hair. -Pinocchio Anon <3 [your adorable btw as always and don't let anyone ever get you down. Again. Do You.]
JM: He said it was for sure to make someone f-fall for me, which is silly, right?? But he said next time someone said.. that about me, he’d knock their teeth out. He did pretty good on my hair though.. Taetae makes really weird friends-
Hey, I was just wondering if you could tell us more about being a freelance sound recordist and how it is for you? Only if you're comfortable! If not, please delete this message
Oh no I don’t mind at all. It’s not really that interesting though, so sorry for those who don’t give a shit about it and just want fanfics and such ^^’.
So I went to a filmschool in London, and discovered that “sound” is a very ungrateful job. I mean, if the sound is good, no one is ever gonna tell you “great sound buddy, thanks !”, but if you mess up ? Oh God you’ll never hear the end of it. Besides, other departments in film tend to forget you. LIKE THE LIGHT GUYS AND THEIR FUCKING DIRECTOR OF PHOTOGRAPHY !! Yeah sure, put lights all around, so that no matter where I stand, you can see the shadow of my goddamn boom. Anyway. It’s not easy, and at the same time, sound guys are also usually the most chill on set. We’re walking paradoxes.
So because not a lot of people would like to do such an “unfashionable” job that is just ungrateful and shit…the movie business, they always look for sound recordist and boom operators (the boom op’ is the one who has the “boom” (long stick) with the mic on it and stick it in the actors’ faces :D, and the sound recordist is the one who makes sure the sound is good, who play with the balance of the sound etc etc sometimes you can be both at the same time, and then it’s a hassle haha small budget movies ya know).
My ultimate goal is to make my own movies. Being film a director (and writer, wether for films or actually publishing novels) is one of my dream. But it’s not easy to get into the business with no connections at all…So what am I doing ? Sound. The sound guy is ALWAYS around, ready to get in action, so he sees and hears EVERYTHING. It’s great. I learned a lot from watching other people do stuffs. BESIDES, if you’re pro, nice, if you don’t complain and shit, they’ll remember you, they’ll talk to you, and get excited when they know you wanna make films too. I have SO MANY business cards I gain thanks to this job. SO many. Right now I’m just waiting to finish writing my movie script to really try and get started, in the meantime…I basically answer add of people looking for sound recordist and/or boom ops. I mainly work on small movies, but damn it’s enough to pay the bills…I also worked for TV a few times, but it’s annoying because people, even more than in the movie business, thinks they’re just the goddamn best you know ? And I have a tendencies of not taking people’s shit…I got fired from a job in TV because of this, but you know what ? I found another and longer job because someone “liked my guts” so…But I’m rambling. Sorry about that, I realize that maybe I’m not answering your question, so I’m gonna try to wrap that up quick :
I go around (I rarely work in my home country, France, because I can’t stand the movie business here) with my equipment (sometimes they have their own), and I record sounds for people who hire me. It sounds like it’s difficult, but it’s not. I mean, the job isn’t easy, especially since I’m a girl and there’s mainly MEN doing this job, but it’s easy to find an actual job. With a more than decent pay. And of course, the more you work, the more people know you :-). I’m moving to Australia in September, I don’t know ANYONE THERE but the movie business is booming, so I have big hopes and such…Anyway, did I answer your questions ? I feel like I totally didn’t. There’s so many things to say about this job…I love it, even though I don’t want to end my days doing it, it’s great.
I have trouble with pants fitting over my big thighs and butt. What are some good kind of pants that will fit me nicely and help me pass as a guy?
I’ve heard board shorts do a good job of making hips look a little smaller. I’m not really sure about other pants though. Some sweatpants work pretty well for colder weather. Personally I try to find some pants in the “women’s” section that have a more masculine cut (straight-leg instead of form-fitting etc.), but I understand if that might not work for you.
Can you do hip hop unit ver. of along their best friend out?? I love your blog btw xx
Sure! thanks for the request!
S.Coups: He’d try to appear like he’s not scared. But really he is. He would pretend to be confident and ask out his friend, secretly expecting the worst.
WonWoo: Shy, shy, shy.. Can’t believe that he’s actually asking his best friend out in the moment. Almost stops completely in the middle of asking them out on a date.
Mingyu: Doesn’t see anything weird about asking his best friend out. He feels as though the friendship is so strong that even if they say no, it won’t be awkward afterwards. He’s pretty confident.
Vernon: This kid is gonna be rambling on and on before he even gets to the point of asking them out. He’ll tell to them about how their such a good friend and it’s really cheesy but sweet. Then he’d ask them out quickly, with a grin on his face.
hello um i want to make a side blog and i'm still relatively new to tumblr? but i'm not sure what would happen..who would be able to see it? would it be connected to my original blog somehow or would nobody know unless i mentioned i had it? (i really like your blog btw :D)
Hello! Thank you!
Well you don’t have to connect your blogs if you don’t want and no one can see your side blog if you decide to password protect it. No one would know your main blog unless you told your side blog followers and vice versa.
Though, you should check out tumblr’s help center for more explanations about side blogs!
Open adoption anon again. So Ryan isn't their kid, exactly, but maybe he is kind of a refugee. When Geoff and Jack are first starting, they take out another local crew. It's rough and doesn't care about members. Ryan was recruited as a young teen, and has been hardened/maybe traumatized. And Jack sees him and immediately gets attached and is not having her boy traumatized and they help him work through it? And eventually he is part crewmate part child even though he isn't much younger than them
I love this. He’s not really their kid, but he’s totally their kid. He gets in trouble with the LSPD, Jack marches down to the police station at two in the morning, three small children in tow, with Geoff hurrying after her making sure she doesn’t kill anyone. He gets hurt during a heist and Jack scolds him for being reckless while cleaning his wounds. One time he doesn’t text her when he leaves town and when he returns she says, “You’re grounded.” And, like he’s an adult, but HE STILL DOESN’T LEAVE THE HOUSE FOR A WEEK.
Is Netflix different in each country? Because 😭😭😭😭I just wanna watch Teen Wolf 😭😭😭😭 but I can't! None of the sites I've tried are free, work without a credit card, and actually have it on there 😭😭😭
I’m not sure but I know that you can watch Teen Wolf on Netflix if you change your country to Sweden. Last time I checked Season 1-5 was available there, I don’t know about Season 6A though. And I really don’t know any other sites than the ones I’ve already told you about. :(
If anyone knows where this sweetheart can watch Teen Wolf for free please let us know. 💕
So I said no to going out with my boyfriend tomorrow so I can stay in and watch hunter x hunter... am I a bad person? :">
Dude, no way. Idk, so here’s my thing and maybe I’m jaded but like. Just because you’re in a relationship with someone, it doesn’t mean you owe them all of your time. You know? Personally, even though I love all of my friends, I often tell them I need time for myself and am likely to be non-responsive for a few hours to a day just because I need to regroup and enjoy time by myself. It’s always good to make time for the people you care about, sure, but like… when it’s at the expense of yourself, it’s not really worth it.
So what I’m saying is kick back, relax, get some candy or popcorn or some kind of comfort food and just lay in bed watching hxh all day cause it’s good for the damn soul. lol. I hope this helped and your day is fun!!
TalesFromTheFrontDesk: My last shift in a land based hotel.
It’s been fun fellow front desk agents! Working the front desk has been a blast and I don’t regret any interactions from the crazy people to the unicorns.
I had planned to return to school in the fall. My plans have changed. I’m not sure if its for the best but I’m really excited about it. I’ll be transitioning from the hotel industry into the cruise industry. I accepted an offer to become a fitness instructor for a major cruise line! The position comes with a substantial raise in pay and I’ll have virtually no living expenses.
A cruise ship is basically a floating hotel so I suppose I can still hang around here.
I’m feeling a bit down though. I’ve been at this property for six years. It’s weird knowing that tonight is the last night that I will walk through these doors. It’ll be my last time clocking out with the god forsaken clock in machine that rarely works.
AND - I just had to walk a guest for the last time. I’m fairly certain that walking cruise guests to a different cruise ships won’t be part of my job description.
i seen the question about sharing daddy and i honestly don't like it but my daddy really wanted to bring in another little. I told him i didnt want to share but i tried it just to make him happy. It didnt work out though because i want all my daddy's attention. Im not sure how to handle the situation because i dont wanna keep him from something he really wants but i also want him all to myself :c what do i do?
Always communicate your feelings. If your daddy respects and loves you he will listen to how you feel and he will do the right thing.
John: Canonballs in IMMEDIATELY, he is yelling and he is fucking excited move out of the way this boy is coming through!! Also, because he has a breath aspect I am 413% certain that he can stay underwater for indefinite amounts of time and you can bet your ass he’s going around grabbing people’s feet to freak them out. He and Terezi have a contest to see who can make the most people jump, I will not say who wins I will only say that it is unfortunate for everyone involved. He and Dave are an unstoppable chicken team, they have never lost and will do Whatever It Takes to make sure that remains true.
Dave: Is just chillin, he cares more about keeping his shades dry than swimming around. He will go hard as hell in Marco Polo tho, if you thought he was too cool to jump at the nearest person faster than the speed of light you were wrong buddy he will do what it takes to WIN. Also, when he is the Marco he will (unfairly) target Karkat. This is frustrating. “I’m not even being that loud” Karkat protests for the umpteenth time Dave tags him. “Bullshit” everyone else says, but there’s still a rule that Dave can’t tag Karkat more than five times in a row because really Dave we know you love hearing him yell but Enough Please.
Karkat: Is Bad At Marco Polo. He is so loud. My son. Please. Is very hesitant to get into the water at first bc he’s sensitive to the cold and would rather angrily sweat than deal with the initial shock of getting in. Dave will patiently chill nearby until Karkat is ready, or Dave decides that Karkat is ready in which he will absolutely drag him in. Karkat does not know how to swim so he won’t go past the shallow end, and considering how short he is, uh, that’s not very much of the pool. Dave has to carry him sometimes which he complains about A Lot but secretly kind of likes it whoops. Karkat and Sollux are the shittiest chicken team, Karkat is too afraid of falling in to have any sort of effective strategy and Sollux is like “Karkat just push him” and sort of plows into the other team which just leads to Karkat screeching and nothing gets done.
Roxy: LOVES SWIMMING WITH HER FRIENDS!!! Real people?? That she’s hanging out with?? And you KNOW she’s excited to wear that cute as fuck bikini she alchemized months ago ‘just in case’ ;) ;) ;). After years of knowing Jane and her silly prankster shenanigans, John will absolutely not get the drop on her no sir, he tries to grab her foot she will raise that leg and pull the boy out of the water and give him the Mom Look™. This is war. John will not win. She loves being with Jane and Roxy and her boys!! She is just full of so much love it’s incredible. She deserves this so much.
Calliope: Doesn’t know much about swimming or why humans (and trolls ish) find it so enjoyable, but Roxy is excited so she is too! Interestingly enough, cherubs Do Not Float. Roxy is waving a nervous Callie into the pool and she’s coming down the ladder and once it gets to her chin everyone expects her to do something but no, she makes it to the bottom of the pool and just walks like normal over to where Roxy is. The water level comes up to just below her nose and she has to tilt her head back to speak. “Like this?” She asks excitedly, ‘uh,,, yeah,,,like that’ everyone responds nervously, giving big smiles and thumbs up because they don’t want to disappoint her.
Jade: A master swimmer, she and Jake grew up on an island in the middle of the goddamn pacific my girl knows how to GO. No one realized how fucking ripped Jade was. Jade is ripped as heck. She’s got back and shoulder muscles like an absolute goddess and everyone is like holy shit? Jade? Have you been benching pumpkins all these years? She likes chilling with Jane and Roxy and Calliope because she has been longing for some gals to hang with forever. Not that she doesn’t love Rose, she does, it’s just, they have such differing personalities and anyways it’s kind of hard being around her and Kanaya bc they’re so cute it makes your teeth hurt.
Rose: She and Kanaya have matching floppy sun hats, they love laying out in the sun because Kanaya is a little nervous around water thanks to a certain sea-dweller *cough* eridan *cough*. Rose doesn’t mind, her swimsuits are more for show than swim anyways. She’s got some really cool and intricate goth-y ones and some nice lighthearted pastel ones, an orange and yellow fancy one-piece and a frilly lavender one. Rose has a new appreciation for sunlight but still religiously applies sunscreen because a home girl may be immortal, but fuck if she is gonna deal with any nasty sunburns after defeating the fucking embodiment of evil.
Kanaya: As previously stated, very nervous around water, but so so happy to be in the sun?? It’s not as bright as the one on Alternia which is fine because that means her troll friends can enjoy it too, but she’s literally just so happy to be around people that enjoy the sun the way she does because she’s felt wrong and different about it for years and she finally found someone that understands her ahhshshsjs. She designs all of Rose’s swimsuits and loves seeing her wear them. When it gets dark out, she likes to turn on the glow a little and all these cute little furry wingbeasts will flock to her?? “Those are moths” Rose tells her. “These are my children now” Kanaya pats Rose’s arm, they’re her children too because that’s how human marriage works she’s pretty sure
Dirk: Is so awkward oh my godddd, a little uncomfortable in his body actually? This boy might have muscle but he is all arms and legs and doesn’t know what to do with them because he’s never fuckifnfnfn been around people before. Doesn’t say “Marco” during Marco Polo, he just listens. Breath too loud? You’re tagged. Splash a little? Tagged. Move? Tagged. He’s never Marco for more than two minutes because he’s so in tune with his reflexes that no one even stands a chance. With Jake on his shoulders, they make a decent chicken team, but they’re too worried about each other to be effective. “You okay up there?” He wants to make sure. Someone is tipping Jake over oh no get him off my shoulders is he okay, oh he’s fine, yes I know how the game works Roxy, no Rose why don’t you get in the pool and do a better job before you come for me like that. Rose and Kanaya, in an extremely rare occurrence, do get in for a round of chicken. They beat Dirk and Jake almost immediately. They return to the deck. This never happened and we don’t speak of it.
Jake: Is bad at Marco Polo, he’s an amazing swimmer but he’s not…quiet. After growing up on that island, fighting and swimming, Jake is also Ripped as Heck. Dirk blushes his fucking ass off the first time he sees Jake shirtless. Jake acts all clueless like oh? What’s wrong Dirk? Is something the matter? But he knows exactly what he’s doing and if he’s subtly flexing in front of him, well. That can’t be helped. He may suck during chicken with Dirk, but with Jade on his shoulders? Hoo boy, they give Dave and John a run for their money. He is also John’s favorite to grab the feet of because his reactions are always so over the top with his phrasing. “Horsefeathers!” He grabs at his foot in panic because his first thought is it was one of the monsters from his island, then he sees it was just John who is laughing his ass off because, horse feathers? Really? “I say,” Jake huffs indignantly even though he’s smiling now. “Warn a fellow!”
Jane: Looks rockin’ in her swimsuits because she’s wearing the whole high waisted pinup style ones and?? She’s super gorgeous? Roxy makes sure to tell her that every five seconds just in case she forgets. She and Roxy make a decent chicken team, usually they’re laughing so hard by the end of it that whoever was on top can’t do anything and they fall off because they don’t care about winning they’re just having such a good time. She and Roxy take turns carrying Callie around when the water gets too deep, not that Callie needs to be above the water per se as she seems to have no trouble breathing, but it just makes everyone a little more comfortable and anyways Callie loves it.
Terezi: Killer at Marco Polo for obvious reasons, sometimes she gets tagged on purpose just to show off how quickly she can find people. The only person she’s never been able to get is John, he uses his windy powers to obscure his scent so she can’t “see” him. He is her Marco Polo white whale. One day, John, one day. She and Vriska are terrifying during chicken, Vriska will plow full speed towards the opposing team and Terezi is ready to Throw Hands. The most intense games are between them and John and Dave, both John and Terezi are on top and they fuckin battle it out so hard that Dave and even Vriska start to get nervous on the bottom.
Sollux: Says the water feels slimy. “No shit,” Karkat tells him. “It’s water you fucking shitstain.” Sollux cheats during chicken by using his psiionics to keep Karkat on his shoulders which only makes Karkat mad because he’s terrified of falling in and holy shit Sollux I don’t care what you think your powers are doing I’m gonna fall in fuck fuck fuck. “No I got you” Sollux assures him. He does not. Karkat is not got. Oh well. Sollux mostly likes chilling on inner tubes, plural. He has a blue one and a red one because he’s too tall to fit in just one. “Get a bigger inner tube” Karkat complains. “Perhaps get one of those long, recliner like ones?” Kanaya suggests. No. Sollux will use two inner tubes. He will make the sacrifice of comfort for his aesthetic.
SU WANTED THEORY: The Pink Conspiracy; Homeworld Civil War Imminent!
Holy hell. Thanks to the Wanted special, we have a timeline granted a very rough timeline of the gem war, and now know around when Pink was shattered.
According to Blue Zircon here, Rose Quartz and her terrifying renegade Pearl started the rebellion, then a few hundred years later, Pink is shattered. The way it’s explained, we don’t know if there was any more warring immediately following that, or if that’s what caused the order to evacuate before the Diamonds used the corruption song. For this theory, I’m going with the latter.
Then we’re hit with a bombshell;
Gemkind was lied to. Not just a huge bunch of the population. Gemkind.
The people of Homeworld were told the Earth was destroyed. From what we’ve seen so far, we can safely assume only the Diamonds and a select few elites know of the Earth’s existence. (Peridot, Jasper, the Rubies, etc), and by “the Diamond attack”, of course, they’re probably referencing this;
This changes everything. Why did they lie about the Earth? Besides the obvious; You’d want your people to think you’re all-powerful, what i mean is that’s quite a lie to keep up. Why go through all the trouble?
During The Trial, Blue Diamond makes clear the story everyone knows,
But that’s impossible. Bismuth says in her debut, “It can cut a gem’s physical form in an instant, destroying the body, but never the gem.”. Our only other eyewitness is Eyeball Ruby, who couldn’t tell Ame-Jasper apart from the real Jasper.
She can’t tell Purple from Orange? Color plays such a huge role in their society, so important the Crystal Gems called themselves that because crystals have no color! It’s a symbol of their independence from the Diamond Authority. You’re telling me a war-hardened Ruby missed such an important detail as Jasper’s color? The others I can forgive, one of them didn’t even know who Pink Diamond was so we don’t know how new they are, but Eyeball? Is she colorblind?? Either way, we don’t know if she mistook whoever shattered Pink Diamond for Rose Quartz, or if Rose just used a different sword. Her testimony is unreliable.
Oh, and by the way?
Is your problem Yellow D?
Yellow Diamond was clearly obstructing justice, and she lost it when Blue Zircon accused them of Pink’s shattering, almost as if the lawyer got too close. At first with her song “What’s the use of feeling Blue?” , we think Yellow Diamond wants to help Blue move on. But now that title’s double-meaning rings out to me and it scares me. “What’s the use of feeling, Blue?” Blue wants closure, not just the cheap revenge Yellow is offering her. Closure means knowing the truth so you can move on. If Yellow Diamond cares as much for Blue as she shows, why is she in such a rush to get Blue to bury this? You don’t just rush someone’s grieving. It’s clear Yellow doesn’t want her to know about something.
Still not convinced? Look at Yellow Pearl here.
Wtf was that worried glance for? Since when does Yellow Pearl give a damn about anyone but her Diamond? That’s not a “oh shit are you okay Blue?” look, that’s a “Shit, are we screwed?” look.
Now. Personally, I never believed the rebellion was strong enough to fend off all 4 Diamonds and their homeworld forces alone. It never made sense, especially with Rose’s message of peace and Bismuth being bubbled for essentially advocating for murder. (though in these circumstances I really don’t blame her someone un-bubble my bb) Something’s wrong here.
Pink Diamond loved humans remember? Where did that come from? Sure, she plucked them up as trophies, but hold on. They’re not on display here, or in any way a display of her power. They’re kept nice and safe and com fortable, like pets. Rose Quartz didn’t understand the concept of love until Greg and her “fused” in the episode “We Need To Talk”, what if this was all Pink knew how to do? Would she have been fine seeing the Earth destroyed just to kill off Rose’s Rebellion? Blue doesn’t think so. Yellow Diamond does call it a “silly zoo” in her song after all, she doesn’t seem very supportive of Pink or Blue Diamond.
Then there was this little scene.
Idk if anyone else has mentioned this, but I think Blue and Pink were in love. That’s what’s implied here, at least to me. They just paralleled Greg’s grief over Rose to Blue’s over Pink Diamond. That can’t be an accident.
What if Pink started to help Rose Quartz and the rebellion grew into such a threat that White Diamond needed her…removed? Rose did get her Pearl after all.
Listen fam, you can think whatever you want about our Pearl, she’s formerly White Diamond’s. Her gem’s in the right place. Rose would have needed someone on the inside to help her rebellion, and it would be a great show of power to say.. steal the Big Boss’s favorite slave?? The one servant White Diamond would have taken everywhere? Pearl must have known all of White’s secrets, and because of who White Diamond is, all of Homeworld’s secrets. All it would have taken is an offer of freedom.
With Pink Diamond and White Pearl on her side, the Crystal Gems would have been a massive threat to Homeworld.
I think Pink Diamond’s shattering is a conspiracy that White and Yellow are keeping from Blue, because she and Pink were too close. They couldn’t allow Pink’s side to bolster the rebellion and start a gem civil war, so, Yellow and White found a way. Once Pink was shattered, they corrupted the survivors to silence any witnesses from the other side and pinned it on Rose Quartz to unify all of Gemkind against her and her Crystal Gems forever. They could accept the lie that the Earth was destroyed in a great retribution for their fallen Diamond, making her a martyr instead of a traitor and saving the Diamond Authority legacy.
Now, there’s the question of who. Well, White Pearl did betray White Diamond… wouldn’t it just be so poetic, to if not have Pink Pearl kill her master, not warn her about it?
Also, about what Yellow D said last..
Uh are you sure you want that Yellow D? His mom started a rebellion. He has everything he needs right there now, plus, maybe an unlikely ally?
i don't remember if this has been discussed before but do you know why lexa was so smiley and almost playful in that scene in 304 when she was telling clarke about aden?
Alright, my brain is currently melting away because of the unbearable heat, so I hope this will make sense even though I’m not really sure about it. BUT. I wanted to answer this question because we kinda see the scene in a very different way. Maybe it’s my angsty soul, but I actually don’t think Lexa is being that playful in that scene. Actually… there are certain elements about it that I actually find sad, mostly because they speak of how Lexa is, of the way she thinks and sees things. In this particular case, the way she sees Clarke. Or even better, the way she reads Clarke’s reaction to the situation. But let me try to make myself more clear. (x)
The scene begins with Lexa asking Aden to stay so she can introduce him to Clarke. She proceeds to praise him, making sure Clarke knows his value, and to explain what is going to happen in case she should die during the duel with Roan.
I love how much you can read on Clarke’s face here. The initial confusion. Then, most important, the slight panic and worry at the mention of Lexa’s possible death. Her eyes actually go wide at that. Then, the moment when she connects the dots, when she realizes why Lexa is introducing her to this child, because he’ll likely be the next Commander. They’re mostly talking politics, but basically, everything about this scene revolves around one thing: Lexa’s death. And here we get to the part I actually find pretty sad.
Lexa sees the confusion and fear on Clarke’s face and, in a rare occasion when it comes to Lexa understanding and knowing Clarke, she misreads what she sees.
What does she tell Aden? “Clarke worries about her people.” Clarke worries about her people. This tiny smile, almost resigned in a way, appears on her face, and she explains to Aden the apparent reason for Clarke’s worried expression. And this is what pains me: the thought that Clarke might be worried about her doesn’t cross Lexa’s mind. Her death is a reason for concern in the sense that it could lead to potential danger for Clarke’s people, not a concern because it would mean that, you know, she would be gone. Lexa talks about her death constantly and nonchalantly because she has been taught not to value her life outside of the confinements of her position as Commander. At worst, she sees it as an inconvenience, definitely not as a tragedy. Add the delicate condition of Clarke and Lexa’s relationship to this, the baby steps towards rebuilding trust and growing close again, and it’s pretty easy to understand why Lexa doesn’t think Clarke’s worry might have anything to do with her as Lexa the girl, not the Commander.
This is why she has Aden explain what he would do if she were to die, how he would still protect Skaikru and accept them into the Coalition. This is why I think she smirks. In her head, she has it all covered: Clarke has no reason to worry because she took care of every small detail to ensure Skaikru’s safety in case of her death.
Except that Clarke has every reason to worry, because she doesn’t care just about her people. She cares about Lexa.