FIRST! Also, legit question, as a beast who DESPERATELY wants to know, how do you manage to contend with using gear, given the fetishization that's taken place with yourself? I mean..how do you not overdo it? how do you respect it, while simultaneously get off on it? I feel like I want to start a cycle SO FUCKING BAD but I know it takes respect and discipline, and I feel like I don't think I could handle it! How did you master that?
It is tempting to pump myself full of gear, and I do fantasize about it. Somehow, I’m able to keep the doses and the stacks within bounds. I consult with coaches who are really sharp, and I talk to my doctors. So at least 1 foot is in the sane side of this.
I tend to draw a little heavy from the vials but no more than 1 or 2 tic marks on the syringe, which is .1 or .2 mL, which isn’t going to make a huge difference or be dangerous. I have occasionally experimented, like last summer when I ran about 800 mg per week of test as part of a stack. All it did was make me itch. That’s an odd side effect that I get occasionally, and it was pronounced during that time. Now I know to keep it down to 500 mg per week.
I know a lot of meatheads, gay and straight, for whom gear is very erotic. Some of those guys do tend to run some pretty heavy stacks. We like to talk about it practically as if it’s porn. I love to watch and hear the straight guys getting all hot and bothered as they talk about stacks they’ve run, what they’re going to try next, how fucking horny it makes them when they’re on. It’s like I get to talk about explicit sex with both of us into the same thing. Hot as fuck with my straight bros especially.
When I’m planning a stack, I talk to my best resources, the guys with the most and best experience, and I stick pretty closely with what they recommend.