not over the break up

no more apology texts. no more reckless highway speeding. no more scribbled poetry in the back of spanish class. there is nothing left to lose. there is nothing left for you.

you haven’t seen me since i dyed my hair and it’s nice to have something you didn’t get to ruin. i’m dressing different too and lipsticking my way out of the girl you tore apart. i can finally breathe easy. i can finally be grateful that i never really meant it when i kissed you.

look, it’s me without you. look, i’m doing just fine. look, goddamn it, i’m lighter than i’ve been in months. there are seven billion people on the planet. i don’t think you matter so much anymore.

—  I MET SOMEONE WITH YOUR NAME AND DIDNT FLINCH // s. osborn

3.12.16 // 7:21 am

i could never
be her
you never
spoke
about me
the way
you did
about her

She
was fascinated
by the same
things
i was
but she
could express it

She
looked
at the world
in a way
different than i
and you
were fascinated
by that
not
by
me

I told you
we all
have our person
and i knew
she was
yours
but
you
were mine

—  the things i could never tell you
REPEAT AFTER ME:
I deserve someone better.
I deserve someone better.
I deserve someone better.
—  Repeat until you accept that there is no going back no matter how much you still love them. Tolerate NO mistreatments. Respect yourself.