Harry couldn’t breathe. He felt like he was trapped in his own body. He had heard what you said, but he couldn’t even begin to process what the words meant.
“What?” Harry breathed.
“I lost the baby, Harry.”
You waited for a response. There was none. All you could hear was the sound of Harry’s heavy breathing and your own heartbeat drumming in your ears. It was a painful silence, a loud silence that overpowered you. You felt something wet on your face and realized that you were crying. When it happened, you hadn’t let yourself feel anything. You locked yourself away in your apartment, trying to stop yourself from calling Harry.
You couldn’t call Harry. It had been six months since he released the song, and almost a year since you showed up on his doorstep, three weeks after everything ended between the two of you. Maybe he had a right to know, but you couldn’t deal with yet another part of your life that you had ruined. The doctors told you that it wasn’t your fault. You had done everything right; you took the vitamins, you didn’t drink, you ate healthy foods, you exercised. But everything had gone wrong and you felt like it was your fault. Like the universe was laughing at you. You were at the low point of your life; you broke up with Harry (a fucking mistake that you would regret forever), you lost the baby, you were working a shitty job to pay for the cost of your apartment that you had shared with Harry. An apartment that you could easily afford between the two of you, but once Harry moved out, you were struggling to keep the lights on. You couldn’t take it anymore. You were sick of this. You jumped up from your seat at the dining table and began throwing your few possessions into your suitcase.
A week later, you were sitting at another dining table in another apartment. The apartment was smaller and a little seedy, but you had to take what you could get. You couldn’t be in that apartment anymore. The one where you had so many memories with Harry. The one where you made the baby… and lost it. It was a painful reminder of all your stupid mistakes.
So, yeah. Harry deserved to know. But you couldn’t tell him. Every time you picked up the phone to call him, all you could think about was that song. The song that bared his pain to the world, that revealed how much you had hurt him. You couldn’t face talking to him, not when you could barely face yourself. That was when you deleted his number.
It felt like an eternity before he spoke. As the silent tears streamed down your face, you heard him whisper, “Why didn’t you tell me?”
At that, you started to audibly cry, unable to hold back the emotions that you had repressed for months and months.
“Love?” He said, using the pet name you hadn’t heard in almost a year. “We need to talk about this. In person. We can’t do this over the phone.”
“I’m due back on Wednesday. Can I come to the apartment then?”
“Sure, Harry,” you said reluctantly. You didn’t want to face him. Not after what you did to him. But you knew you had to. “Harry? I… um… I moved apartments.”
“Oh… okay. That’s fine… just give me the new address.”
You relayed your new address, hesitant to tell him where your new apartment was, as it wasn’t in the best part of London. You were thankful when he didn’t comment, though you knew he was aware of the quality of your place.
This is my reward for working my butt off at inking today.
In case it wasn’t…horribly obvious…*sweats*…these two are my top two favorite characters from Undertale, and I don’t think I’ve ever drawn them directly interacting.
Which is a tragedy because the possibilities of their dynamic are hilarious.
I had a lot of fun working this piece and the results make me very happy.💕
Can’t always get the simple things you want now can you? Especially when you’re John Constantine.
City of Demons is one of my ultimate favourite comics. It’s a very compelling story with all the disturbing horror and twists that you love with Hellblazer. Huge bonus also is that it’s paired with incredible art by Sean Murphy. My clear all time favourite and i keep coming back over and over to drawing pieces inspired of it. Here I tried to mix my style to the style of the comic, maybe even trying to mix in Constantine and maybe this is more or less unintentional rework of this old City of Demons art from 2014 •[redbubble]