not mine i am not that great

retailridicule  asked:

I don't remember the post I saw on your blog, but it spoke to my soul. Demi was something I hadn't heard before. Labels aren't for everyone, but this has helped me realize that I'm not a horrible person for those odd, short periods of attraction to my friends once I get to know them. It's done wonders for my marriage, since I realized that his drive starts physical & mine is tied to emotional closeness. You saved my marriage and self worth. I am so thankful for this blog. Keep being amazing <3

OH MY GOD *fans face and sniffles* That was so great. I hope you don’t mind me publicly sharing this, I’ll delete it if you want. I just really want to circle and highlight this part: 

I realized that his drive starts physical & mine is tied to emotional closeness.

That’s such a valid, important, personal and freeing thing to know about yourself.

l@vender

the cold air of childhood homes
bites at my soaking skin
for today i sat in rain eight years until
my body dissolved into the earth

when you hold out your hands, palms
turned towards the sky as if
begging for something to be placed
inside them, and the rain tempers down
to each curve and cut of your fingers,
that is when it seems as though
you are truly part of it all,
when the past drains itself
into the present -

isnt there some far off story where snow
is the great equalizer of men; we pretend
i echo them, i echo
what i have read and yet
i am not men

rain is my song and my taste.
the storm that seeks and finds
each leaf and bloom and blade
whispered to me the truths that i have
wished i knew - the truth that i
am born of carbon and
light.

and in the faintest murmmur,
the rain asked how i
have survived these days;
i have wept and fasted away my time
until the rain washed these cheeks
of mine and everything hummed
of lavender…

i was one. i am all. i was none.
i let millenium pass

and walked on fire to feel the rain
keep pouring down

the signs as the ap english lang exam

Aries: writing the argumentative essay about donald trump

Taurus: when your mom’s a communist and you’re just a snail

Gemini: actual monetary currency

Cancer: the hedonistic treadmill

Leo: the “fake news” essay

Virgo: gandalf in the bowels of the minas tirith

Libra: bishop sheen and billy graham throwing rocks at you

Scorpio: colloquial

Sagittarius: et al

Capricorn: libraries are going extinct

Aquarius: artifice is the most essential skill

Pisces: “advanced capitalism”

whenever i talk about my girlfriend around straight people, a few things usually happen; they go quiet, the atmosphere changes, someone changes the topic very quick, etc. (which are similar “methods” for people to ignore and distance someone they feel doesn’t belong in the group, you know?) i usually say things like “oh, my girlfriend loves that movie!” or “my girlfriend is great at computers so she always helps me when mine is acting up”, ya know, regular everyday things that relate to the topic we are discussing. lately i’ve really started to realize why the entire mood usually changes with me mentioning of my girlfriend - straight people always feel like gay people are oversharing just by mentioning their partner. to straight people, i’m overstepping some kind of boundary just by mentioning that i have a girlfriend. to them, me saying “my girlfriend” is entirely synonymous with me out of the blue saying “i am a lesbian”, a statement that is somehow inherently oversharing and too much information, as well as a real quick and easy way of involuntarily distancing myself from the group that i in that moment am not fully a part of anymore.

shiro, after holding allura’s hand: yeah, i held her hand. i was pretty smooth if i say so myself

keith: shut up before i kick you

shiro: you’re just jealous because you haven’t held lance’s hand. oh wait -

keith: don’t you dare say it!

shiro: he doesn’t remember 

keith: you’re dead to me shirogane

Slytherin Headcanons

• saying ‘shut up’ while laughing
• being extremely nice and understanding towards their friends but unapologetically sarcastic towards others
• speaking of sarcasm: they speak it fluently
• ‘I love you but I love myself more’
• going on long hikes by themselves
• they either go to bed early or don’t sleep at all
• they sleep with stuffed animals but deny it
• they never give up
• challenges are a great pastime
• saying ‘Tragic.’ way too often
• not everyone of them likes Snape
• 'No I am NOT good at potions and you can NOT copy my homework’
• falling asleep to rain
• nearly everyone of them has referred to Draco as a 'wimp’ or 'sissy’
• they will kill you if you insult their pet
• being proud of their background no matter who they are
• yes, there are muggleborn Slytherin’s
• they inniciate snowball fights
• complaining about small things
• 'I AM NOT YELL…I am not yelling.’


Gryffindor Headcanons

Hufflepuff Headcanons

Ravenclaw Headcanons

@doddleoddle and @thatsthat24 singing New York, New York 🎶 

that video was amazing and just ahhh they’re just so great 💕
this was drawn for dedim which I am doing on instagram at mtnartwork

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💕A compilation of SHINee doting on Jonghyun, 2016-2017 💕 

Happy birthday to this gorgeous, adorable, talented man! I am constantly blown away by your talent, passion and empathy for the world, and you make us so proud. Here’s to a healthy 2017, and another year of great music! 

concept: me, sitting in a café and revising my notes. on the table are my favourite stationery and drink, and I am thinking about the great things I have planned for later. I enjoy my studies a lot, and am able to manage my time so I can both study and relax doing what I love. I have a healthy sleeping-schedule and am refreshed and at peace with myself and my life.

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And all I was supposed to feel was grateful. I was supposed to just shut up and be thankful that I had these great parents who wanted me when my birth parents didn’t. But the truth is you never wanted me, either. What are you talking about? I was a replacement for your dead baby. That’s all I’ve ever been.  You got it all wrong, son.  No, I’ve spent my life striving for perfection, and you know why, Dad? ‘Cause I live in fear. That if I let up for a moment, I will remember that I am unwanted.

#LastYoungRenegade - out July 2nd, 2017

Who is the Last Young Renegade?

After all this time writing music, playing in a band- checking moment after moment off the bucket list- collecting mistakes, making memories, I wondered what it might be like to write about myself if I wasn’t the one standing in my shoes. Who am I from the other side of the mirror?

I tried to change perspective in my approach to writing and center in on all of the different versions of me that other people might have met over the years, through the ups and the downs, in the public eye and behind closed doors. Would I like this person? Do I like this person? Do I even recognize this person anymore?

I realized that there’s a lot more to me than I’m usually ready to acknowledge, both good and bad. In that realization, I noticed a common thread. We are who we are, even when we try our hardest not to be.

It’s a challenge to accept it sometimes. I gave those other sides of me a persona, and a name– then came the stories like a flood. It was a way for me to confront demons without having to sit at the dinner table with them.

That’s the journey on this record: a story of self-realization. Of growing into your own skin through the eyes of someone watching it all unfold on the big screen, wearing a ‘Frankie Says Relax’ t-shirt. Like watching an old familiar movie, but suddenly you’re Marty McFly.

We tried a lot of new things on this album, all within the context of what we love so much about All Time Low– There’s no denying that we were binge watching Stranger Things at the time, while also reflecting on the loss of some of our favorite musicians; Prince, Bowie, George Michael… I think the influence comes through in the best ways. We all felt pulled to exciting and different places as we searched for inspiration, approaching something that’s become so familiar to us from a new direction.

I truly hope everyone listening enjoys this record as much as I do. It’s been an amazing journey.The album comes out June 2nd and will be available for pre-order on Friday, Feb 24th. We’ll also be posting some pre-order merch bundles, so stay tuned! Pre-order options will be up on alltimelow.com.

Tracklist
1.
Last Young Renegade
2. Drugs & Candy
3. Dirty Laundry
4. Good Times
5. Nice2KnoU
6. Life of the Party
7. Nightmares
8. Dark Side of Your Room
9. Ground Control (feat. Tegan and Sara)
10. AfterglowxoAlex