not just that there's a bunch of fan girls who want to see it lots

I was wondering if any [past or present] Jonerys, Pro-Daenerys fans like myself feel this way.....?

Firstly Id say please be nice i just enjoy analyzing the shit out of fandoms I like, (im a history/polysci major ((with an emphasis on Peace Justice and & Conflict Studies)) all i do is analyze and try to be diplomatic lmao) but considering all they petty drama between both ships as well as pro/anti Daenerys stans ON BOTH SIDES I’m going to be “That Person” and at least ask for people to be respectful/civil, I want to hear from everyone and their metas/what they think which is why i tagged like, all the tags, no matter if you love her/the ship or cant stand it, as long as everyone can keep civil

So firstly I’ve loved Dany both books and show from the beginning. She’s gorgeous, wants to be the best person she can be, and her hair/fashion style game is always ON POINT.  That being said, somewhere around season 5 i think i’ve found my opinion on her cooling a little bit, ep after ep, till now. Like I still like her bc she was my first character love on the show but I’ve def soured in my opinion on her. Maybe it’s because I love learning about the subject that im more baised (im hoping thats the case) but she just seemed to have no interest in actual governance, just the reputation (esp of being the ‘rebel queen’)/the awe/the power/the thrill of the adoration that went along with it to the point where I feel like though she still wants to be a ‘good queen’ or at least wants to be seen that way, she doesnt want to do much work for the title. Like yeah she freed all the slaves and that was a def progressive and awesome move on her part (major props! slavery is sin and im glad someone recognized that who had the power to do something about it) but she didnt handle that aftermath or ensuing problems well at all nor really mulled heavily on the subject to find the best solution. She just got fustrated with pretty basic/common (albeit complex in themselves) issues of standard governance and kind of went agh! fuck this! (obv not actual quotes but that was the vibe I got). And then ESPECIALLY after season 7 her character has kind of nagged at me in the back of brain which i hate but its inherent like its just a feeling i cant help it?? I just dont know why to be honest that Im feeling so negative towards this character i used to love.  The whole ‘ bEnD thE knEe ‘ thing w/ Jon and yet pinning it on Jon’s pride not equally on his and her own was more than a little hypocritical, when hon they can discuss it later like at that point they have two common enemies the WW and Cersei they both want to do away with, and then again with the Bend the Knee or Die bit w/ the Lannister soldiers. In fact the whole sequence before that point felt kind of villinous I dearsay, I mean  deliberately burning the harvest that most of westeros needs for the winter or even strategically not willing to try, and well, nOOt intentionally burn the food considering its winter, the harvest is over (so likely not much is gonna grow in the time being) when she has a G I A N T ass army of her own to think of feeding???? Like i get it is war shit happens soldiers die but the F O O D ? Was that an impuslive in the moment mistake or did she just not give a fuck? And back to the aftermath scene/Bend the Knee 2.0, her speech was again quite hypocritical…and burning dickon?????? not willing to keep prisoners???? either bend or die??? I actually am glad she did away with Papa Tarly bc he was an awful human, but dickon????? a young idealistic man about to loose his father??? the heir to a major ally/house???? And honestly that bend or die strategy is soooooo dumb bc now she cant trust any of them like theyre only bending the knee out of self preservation homie, no one wants to die. they bend  the knee to survive and now they all of the sudden think youre their queen? Nah fam, prisoners were better, all you got are spies in your camps or people willing to backstab you at the smallest promise of coin. And i dont want that for my girl

IDK the whole “im gonna BREAK THE WHEEL,,,,,,,,yet im stating my claim mainly on my housename (aka the predominant force of said wheel for a literal dynasty) and the fact that i can scare people who otherwise are unconvinced bc lets be real westeros has had a bad run of rulers a lot of which were Targs in the past couple decades, into submission bc ill burn you otherwise???” doesnt sit well with me nor does it feel like the character ive been rooting for the past five-ish seasons. She just doesnt seem to put into effort on understanding Westeros, why things go wrong, being self-critical or sharing the blame,thinking on what a “good” ruler would do…. anyone else feeling this way and if so do you think this is just shitty writing? D&D butchering her character? or a new arc for her? perhaps the way shes always been? She just seems like a tantruming child bratty and entitled idk (a beautiful child but still) 

As for jonerys…… im not gonna go into it much but how are other shippers happy????????? I honestly dont understand. I was SO looking forward to this season/this ship. like so much! But it felt so forced? And i know a lot of people claim its cause its rushed but tbh we’ve had a lot of romances in a similar time frame that felt like A C T U A L romances…..even Talisa/Robb who the Northerners will prob compare any of this too were so much better. THIS WAS MY EPIC SHIP DUDE. I feel the dany side of things (took a while but theres def heart eyes) and yet Jon???? He felt hollow. Still does even after sex. Im so disapointed but more than that I cant see the romance or the chemistry. He looks constipated. Hes never smiled like with his teeth around her the way hes done w others he cares deepily about (ygritte, toramund, sansa, even fkin gendry in the first scene they had together). He never reveals anything about himself. And between the “my queen” ep (and remember he was look warm when discussing her to toramund throughout it) and the previous the only thing that changed was that he saw the actual difference dragons made against WW. You could argue she saved them all too but that doesnt make you fall in love w someone out of the blue and also people have saved his ass before and??? Sansa w the vale anyone??? (Not an argument for jonsa js its happened) (though ill admit ive transitioned to loathing jonerys and loving jonsa more as a potential couple in the space of seven eps where if you asked me I wouldve been like PSH u cray. I never thought it would happen in a mill years but D&D ruined my ship and here i am! Shipping aside tho since its best too look at these things as neutral as possible).  Anyways the sigh of his after she left and when he pretended to be asleep…. idk. The only scene that felt genuine and where Jon smiled and it didnt look like a full on grimace and they actually kinda joked around was really nice and at the pit at the finale and if they do a LOT more of basic romance stuff like that I could ship it again but. It was followed by boatsex and boy. 

I was hoping boatsex might rekindle my like for the two together. I could see the chemistry the passion. I was hoping the passion would overwhelm me and make up for the rest. But instead……like there was no foreplay, it lasted 2 seconds, and it was overplayed by brans voice and a reminder of future conflict or at the very least major angst b/w the two. i didnt see the parallel between regear and lyanna playing alongside their scene as anything romantic or that it should be taken as such. and the look they shared…. I was hoping jon would bring it bc Dany’s look in her eyes is like soooo smitten and adorable and say what you will I still have a space in my heart for her and still dont want her to suffer, but again Jon looks like oh shit/constipated. And not in a good oh shit way either. 

There is a bunch more too but Imma stop there bc Im just tired at this point. 

So many things were just….off this season. And it cant all be blamed on the “rushed” time frame. I’ve read the undercover lover theory and hon it makes the most sense (not perfect sense but still, more than what we’ve been poorly spoon fed) but im not willing to believe it just yet. Still, maybe D&D are just butchering a lot of things like making the romance believable and stuff for the sake of time that could be true i guess. But they like to go AHA GOT U so 

Idk I dont find a lot of meta in the jonerys tag bc honestly (((((i think its bc the tag and ship are more popular and theirs more people both good and bad)))) it doesnt seem like snowballing theories is something all fans take really well in the tag at all. But whatever. I really want to know, is there any meta or theories im missing to either validate the icky feeling Im haveing about D or her “romance” or on the flipside anything that might make me change my mind about it? Theories, meta people!

I just want to reiderate im not trying to hate on anyone or any point of view and I will flag any comment anti one ship or person or another if its plain hateful or rude. I just want to understand it and see what Im missing, esp because of how much I was looking forward to her arc and jonerys’ dynamic and how much the words “falling short” dont seem to cover it. And to see if im not the only one to either have critique on the ship or her character [or even actually change ships]

Also i apologize for how much ive said “IDK” i just….. I DONT KNOW 

God look at that quality header. Graphic design is my passion.


Skam is BACK and this time I get to watch from the first clip! Fandom has been in uproar and I have so many feelings and opinions I’ve been coming apart at the seams. A lot of polarising opinions, questions, concerns, outrage. Not to mention the totally anticipated yet still alarming racism and islamophobia considering our main is a POC Muslim girl this time around.

So I thought I’d take the time to collate all my thoughts and feelings into a daily/weekly breakdown for each episode! I try to be as subjective and clear headed as possible while watching this show and take in the messages, lessons and information Julie Andem et al are providing. Forgive me if I happen to project a little or get wild in my enthusiasm as a muslim growing up europe this season is so #relatable I’ve been shook since the second we got the trailer and still in a state of disbelief that this is actually happening. So as someone very invested I thought why not share my two cents with the class.

Disclaimer: Everything here is my personal thoughts and opinions. They do not represent the views of all Muslims or POC. It’s just my own take on the show.

Im gonna try doing this Day by Day depending on the lengths ( this gets wordy I don’t shut up I’m Sorry)

Breakdown 1 >> Next

Monday 10.04.17 1:28

Okay here we are the famous opening scene. In true Skam fashion we see Sana on the train watching the streets of what i assume is Oslo go by, intersped with images relevant to the main themes of this season. Trump, images of war in what could be syria or palestine ( don’t quote me on that I honestly couldn’t tell you which), the hijabi mascot of the women’s march, the french beach hijabi lady indcedent, images of the army and missiles firing. Right off the bat they ain’t fucking around.

The street ad of two women in bikini’s which Robyn sings “All of these girls a mess I’ve seen it all before I’m not impressed” Sana watches all of this impassively, dare I say haughty even. That is until she finds herself staring at a bunch of dudebros have an ab contest in the street. Sana is human and she stares. Robyn insists “None of them make me feel anything” in direct conflict with what we see cause Sana’s expression is intrigued, appreciative even, shes smirking. That is until she startled out of it by the Azaan for Zuhr going off on her phone.

Hello Relatable AF moment #1 ( honestly why am I counting there’s already a million)

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some ole bullshit (again)

AIGHT ladies and gents and everyone, you’ve probably seen this  twitter post basically showing Xander Berkeley (Gregory) messaging a 19 year old and whatnot. I’m not going to explain it bc i want u to read it for yourselves. This is going to be a long-ass post so hold on tight. I just got home from Cuba, and I was without internet for a week so I’ve missed 98% of the shit thats gone down this week. 

So to start I want to talk about the messages sent between Xander and Karma (that’s her twitter name) 

1.) One of the big things taken out of context here is the fact that during one of the messages, there was a comment made that, if not read correctly, made it seem as if Xander were a pedophile. (which he is not) That is a really fucking big accusation and shouldn’t be taken lightly at all. Other than that the messages speak for themselves, although Karma posted screenshots as well as a 2 min video, which u can find on her page. It’s some pretty solid evidence, and I’ve analyzed it and can’t find anything that would make it seem fake. 

2) My biggest problem with this is that Xander is, ya know, married with two kids (both girls) so the whole situation is extra fucked. The girl he messaged is my age (19) which constitutes as an adult, but theres still somewhat of a power inbalance with the fact that he’s a celebrity and, ya know, 61. Legally there’s nothing wrong, but socially…yeah. There’s a lot of things in the messages that I’m not even going to go over bc the link is above.

3) Steven Ogg did post a tweet defending Xander, but deleted it. It was most likely a knee-jerk reaction to seeing his friend getting hate, so hopefully he realized what was happening and saw all the messages and whatnot. Does that make him “human scum” or “trash?” no, it doesn’t you fucking freaks. Jesus.

So in terms of the raw evidence/messages, that’s about all I have to say. In my opinion the dude is fucked and shouldn’t have done what he did, however, the way the situation was handled is an entirely different story, which I’m going to talk about below. It’s a real shame, too, because Xander and I have interacted plenty of times and I never got any sort of creepy/pervy vibe from him (then again, I never got any weird vibes from the 19 year old who sexually abused me when i was 15) (which now that i think about it means he was a pedophile) so yeah.

Anywho, for the next part of this - this doesn’t really have to do with this situation in particular, but something that social media (twitter especially) has made a “trend” of sorts - publicly “exposing” people (mainly celebrities) via the internet. The situation with Xander just made me want to talk a bit about it because it’s happened so many times its seems, and it’s something that really, really worries me about people (younger people especially) and social media. 

In no way am I giving a free pass to people who do shit like what Xander did. I just personally feel like there’s this terrible mentality that we have to share anything and everything with the world via social media, and in this case it’s something that should have been kept private. This should not concern anyone other than Xander, his wife, Karma, and possibly Xander’s employer. Mainly due to two reasons 1) the sake of the victim and their mental healthy 2) the fact that when information if put out to be read by thousands of people, you have no clue what the context is, where it’s coming from, what could be someones interpretation of the situation not the truth, etc. you’ve also inadvertently drawn in people such as cast members  - Lauren, Norman, JDM, Austin, Seth, Christian, etc. - who might not want to be involved in stuff like this. 3) once the information is out there, you have absolutely no control over who see’s it and where it goes. You’ve forfeited the right to privacy. You no longer ‘own’ what you post. There are already articles being written about the situation that Karma had nothing to do with, and this could be really, really dangerous for a lot of the parties involved when it comes to what the truth really is, and who is affected, mainly because now this shit is going to follow you. 

The next thing, and I think this has to do with the TWD fandom in particular. And this is just my opinion.

For the love of God stop stanning celebrities

The TWD fandom has a huge problem with this shit, and I think its part of why the reaction to all this has become one giant mob mentality ie. ur either “with” or “against” and anyone who disagrees is “trash.” That is NOT how situations like this need to be handled, and another result of why situations like these should be left private. Celebrities are not ur personal toys to project your ideals on. They are human beings. And at the end of the day, what they do will not effect your life whether you think it will or not. In no way am I saying that you have to support an artists behavior should they be homophobic, racist, etc. but you have to understand that you cannot forfeit their right to make mistakes or do fucked up shit just because you enjoy their work/like some of the things they say. One of the biggest fucking things I’ve seen is people trying to count how many TWD cast members are unfollowing Xander, as if that’s somehow a correct gage of how the cast feels about him. As if you know him more personally than Steven or Austin or Lauren. (news flash: you don’t. I’ve talked to him a bunch and hell not even I knew this shit was coming) As if the whole thing is just some fun spectacle for you to watch cause ur bored that the shitshow that is TWD isn’t back on until October. Some of ya’ll need to understand that these are REAL people. This is the same fandom that bodyshamed Alanna, and ran JOSH off social media for no reason at all. So you’ll have to forgive me if I’m not a little bit exasperated with TWD fans in general. 

So yeah. Long post, but I felt like I needed to say some things about the whole situation. The whole thing is a clusterfuck and I think what happened is wrong on both sides. (Karma is an adult, but like I said, to me 19 is still socially a child) I think at the end of the day this should have been dealt with privately, but I wish Karma all the best. If you want to message her on twitter to ask questions she said that she’s open - just be respectful. 

I’m going to tag some people bc I want them to see this. I’m also probably not really returning to the TWD fandom (if I do it will be strictly Negan or Simon material) I’m focusing more on Transformers, Attack on Titan, DC, Marvel, and some other stuff. 

(if u want me to remove ur tag let me know, mainly bc i know some people dont like to be tagged in drama) if u want to add things or share ur thoughts go ahead

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anonymous asked:

Why is h//ang the foo/ l trash?

okay, so, i want to be clear here: im a fanfic writer myself. i havent posted much for this fandom, but i DO write, and i know how hard it can be. so take me seriously when i say that i really dont like shitting on other authors, but this mess really is inexcusable. im gonna explain, but THIS link right here will also help a lot for anyone reading this. if you want to start from the beginning you can add a /chrono to the end of the link. also this is going to be stupid long because ive held this in for awhile so. readmore.

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consider this: SMH & one direction

i just wanna talk about smh and 1d ok im so sorry this wasnt supposed to be this long i have no control 

  • dex grew up with sisters (let me have this he has a bunch of sisters ok) so not only was he completely unable to escape one direction he was not allowed to get away with any sort of ‘bands that have mainly young female fanbases are not real music’ misogyny that lots of teen boys and adult males have 
    • so he likes 1d he doesnt advertise but he had to listen to them a lot so he knows their entire discography and what they have some good songs ok bro 
    • so yeah they find their way into his workout playlists so fucking what man they’re fucking hype songs 
    • his fave is niall bc hes chill and just wants to drink beer and play his guitar and listen to dad rock and he’s irish (dex is irish and is grandma loves niall bc she’s irish and what a sweet young lad) he’s not like die hard niall stan but he knows all of the 1d discourse from his sisters debating (im willing to listen to other opinions my back up is louis bc hes a punk) 
    • he save up one year (and got help from his fam) to get tickets for his sisters to see a wwa concert as a birthday/christmas/every holiday present bc theyre expensive and they dont have a lot of money 
      • his mom technically bought the tickets he just helped pay for them and the girls surprised him with a ticket for him to come with (mama poindexter: well i cant let them go alone who’s gonna watch them you have to go make sure they dont get arrested for doing something stupid) dex played it cool but it was such a fun concert and so fun to hang out with his sisters tooo
  • nursey now is a goddamn hipster u cant tell me he isnt into a bunch of british alternative bands and bc of his brit music phase he knew about one direction from the very start at the x factor stage (he definitely mentions this all the goddamn time when they start becoming popular but he chills out through the years)
    • hes been to at least one concert for every tour (he even got tickets to the madison square garden show) - he went to every concert with his sister but it was his idea to go and she was just there to keep an eye on him
    • also a big reason he got into the band was zayn like heres a pakistani muslim boy who’s super talented with these white dudes and that representation is super important (i also hc nursey as muslim or at least partially but zayn is a brown muslim boy killing it so yeah its awesome) 
    • but nurseys fave tho is harry especially when harry is a total hoe with long hair and jewelry and those red carpet looks like nursey is in love but also in awe bc those sparkly boots and that floral suit like those are iconic Looks™ and nursey loves it bc gender isnt real and he loves hoe looks (zayn is like 1.5 tho bc nursey is in love)
      • nursey tries to serenade dex with little things one day when they’re chilling by the pond on the grass and dex punches him bc nursey is making him emo even when he knows dex doesnt have emotions (in public in front of people who can see him cry)
  • bitty likes them they’re no beyonce but theyre fun and attractive and yeah hes gonna have some fun dancing to them he isn’t really up with all the drama and disc*urse until the boys have 1d nights and they watch this is us and the concert dvds bc he learns a lot 
    • he loves 2013 era harry and all the time liam (that boy is thicc and bitty 100% does not swoon)
  • holster like come tf on holster loves them he unironically and passionately loves one direction completely unashamed he does not care for your opinions and no one makes fun of him bc he’s a 6′4 fucking big ass hockey player who could drop kick u across campus if he wanted to
    • he claims he doesnt have a fave but he would die for all of them 
    • his fave rotates seasonally and he has a different fave for each era 
    • he went to the tmh tour and he’s gone to every tour since - he goes with his sisters bc its a bonding topic for them he sits at the edge of the floor or at the end of a row on the sides bc hes so tall he feels so bad and he tries to stay out of the way of the little girls behind him but hes nice to them and talks to them and so they like him even if hes a giant
    • but really he and his sisters are so close bc they have a lot of similar interests and they talk about pop culture stuff and its hard to keep intouch when hes away so much but they have group chats about 1d and tv shows and stuff so its so nice for them to keep up a strong bonding time 
  • ransom is a britney bitch and holster dragged him into 1d. he’s in it for the memes and the drama really. (he likes the songs and thinks its fun but he wouldnt have been a fan and gone to concerts if it wasnt for holtz)
    • holster takes him to the wwa concert and they have a blast 
    • holster also drags his ass to see this is us opening night (they both cry)
  • chowder just loves everyone and he doesnt understand why people hate 1d (or other pop artists with majority young female fan bases that ppl hate bc misogyny) when theyre so fun he’s not an active /fan/ until smh has team bonding nights involving one direction jam sessions and concert dvd watching and drunk history
  • on such 1d nights they put on one of the dvds and it accidentally turns into a drinking game (mainly drinking bc this part of my god did u see that !!! THAT NOTE CHANGE !!!! and ZAYN WHY !!!! and other painful parts) and some of them *cough* nursey dex and holster *cough* get possibly the most drunk they ever get bc of this 
    • theres loud awful drunk singing along and some sobbing (this is definitely not based off of any sort of personal experience whatsoever nope never done this before) 
    • after the movie when everyone is so drunk they talk about 1d history which is how the veterans teach the others about the exciting drama and disc*urse  
  • lardo is a bad bitch who is tough as fuck and manages a division I mens hockey team and every single one of them is afraid of her. AND she would not let any bro tease her for liking one direction bc why the fuck not. 
    • she has plenty of their songs thrown in arting playlists and in pump up playlists 
    • and she knows theres nothing better to cheer holster up when he’s having a rough day than a 1d dance sesh 
    • dont forget where you belong is the first song on her team bonding playlist bc its a love song to ur bandmates which transfers very well to love songs to ur teammates 
  • shitty unapologetically loves 1d and boy bands and girl bands and he supports all things that young girls love but are not taken seriously bc girls like them 
    • he’s written at least 3 papers/projects on the misogyny surrounding young girls and their interests and involvement in fandom and also boybands (he tries to fight all guys who disrespect girls’ interests and the power of teenage girls)
    • he’ll randomly show up to a 1d night bc obvi he’s in that gc and he’s ready to party and express emotions and dance and talk drama 
    • he loves harry bc “THAT FLOW MAN!!! HIS FLOW IS SO SICK!!!”
    • he cried when harry posted the pic of the hair he chopped off and cried when he saw the another man shoot where harry was defying all sorts of societal norms it was beautiful and his flow is still so nice even this short its ok it’ll grow back better than before
  • one friday night the lax bros sneak over to try to prank the haus and peak in the window and see half of the hockey team in the living room drunk off their ass singing loudly to a one direction concert on the tv - holster and nursey jumping around attempting to dance along, ransom clinging to bitty on the floor crying about a ‘hiatus’, bitty soothing ransom, dex forgetting about the drink in his one hand to drink rum from the bottle, shitty naked (not surprising) and slow dancing with a life sized cut-out of harry styles with tears streaming down his face (more surprising), and chowder lying on the couch singing through mouthfuls of pie 
  • they walk back to the lax bro house without executing the prank and they never mention it again

anonymous asked:

could you compile a guide to the smiths, please?

The Band

Johnny Marr

  • John Martin Maher, aka the Angel of Radness
  • guitarist
  • legally changed his birth name to Johnny Marr so it would be a pun on the French phrase j’en ai marre (i’m fed up)
  • the most precious, the most pure, the most rad of all the cinnamon rolls that ever have been or ever will be, the most unproblematic of all faves
  • im not even kidding he has never done anything terrible in his life you will find no reciepts, everyone loves him, no one has ever said a bad word about him 
  • the greatest guitarist of his generation, quite literally changed the face of british pop and rock, entirely possible that without him there would be no such thing as indie or alternative music today
  • married to the wondrous Angie (they left school together when they were 15 and have been together ever since). they have two grown up kids and a dog called Riff
  • hes super healthy he doesnt do drugs or smoke or drink AND he’s a vegan and runs like five miles a day
  • he’s fifty one and wears eyeliner and silver nail varnish what does one even say to that
  • the B) emoji is based on johnny marr
  • has an honourary doctorate from salford university so technically he’s Dr. Marr
  • you would think that he is too indie pop 4 u but he has a secret life as a FUNK MASTER, his first band was named FREAK PARTY and he’s bffs with The Nile Rogers and named his son after him (exhibit a: johnny gets down and funky with chic)
  • oh ye i made eye contact with him at a gig and he winked at me
  • sorry this is long and personal but i love my Guitar Dad


  • Stephen Patrick Morrissey, known commonly as just Morrissey, but also as Moz, Mozzer, Misery Mozzery, and Steve
  • a twat
  • the word ‘problematic’ was invented specifically for morrissey
  • im just gonna get the bad stuff out the way to start with: has said a bunch of awful racist/misogynistic things, yes he gets taken out of context, no they cannot be justified or excused, he shouldnt say them and it pains my heart to think of it bc everything else he says is so good and wonderful how are they the same man
  • moving on
  • likes: manchester, tea, cats, oscar wilde, sixties girl groups, james dean, bikes, flowers, the new york dolls, animals, johnny marr, being alone
  • dislikes: manchester, margaret thatcher, robert smith, the monarchy, the meat industry, people who eat meat, people in general, being alive
  • has very few friendships or relationships and just sort of lives alone with his cats
  • a fan once wrote to him and told him she felt self concious wearing her hearing aid to a gig and after that he used to wear hearing aids onstage :)
  • other things he liked to do onstage: swing around large bunches of flowers and stuff them in his arse pocket, lie on the floor, hug fans (it became a problem), write things on his chest and rip off his shirt to reveal the message, yodel
  • “I have always personally been starved of romance. However, in 1982 someone stepped on my foot in Woolworths. That’s about the closest I’ve got.”
  • he used to say he was asexual in the eighties and then said he wasnt and was only celibate and most recently said he was “humansexual” (”attracted to human beings - but not many”) but im woefully uninformed on this topic someone else can help you perhaps before i put my foot in it and say the wrong thing
  • always really really sweet to his fans he used to always respond to fanmail in the eighties and its just? really sweet? i mean he also hates all humanity so its a weird dichotomy but
  • when he published his biography in 2013 is was entitled “Autobiography” and published on release by penguin classics
  • honestly its a real/love hate thing? either you despise every hair in his quiff or you would die for him theres no inbetween

Andy Rourke

  • Andrew Rourke
  • bassist
  • oh andy
  • sweet sweet precious andy
  • childhood friend of johnny marr, left school with johnny and angie, was in Freak Party with johnny
  • honestly just! the most beautiful
  • oh yeah he had a daughter at nineteen so all those photos of andy in the smiths are photos of an Actual Father, a bona fide Hot Dad
  • what else is there to say i love andy

Mike Joyce

  • drummer
  • aka “””Milk Juice””” (thats a tumblr fandom thing tho dont take that into the real world)
  • oh wait someone already did
  • there’s a bit of bitterness here bc he sued moz and marr in 1996 for a 25% share of the smiths royalties (expect lots of 25% jokes)
  • please dont hate him tho hes a good man and an excellent drummer
  • morrissey wishes him “the very worst for the rest of his life”
  • he used to be in a punk band its very  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Craig Gannon

  • the hidden fifth smith not so many people know about him
  • in 1986 andy was fired from the smiths (for his drug use i think), legend says that he woke up one morning to find a postcard from morrissey on the windscreen of his car which said “You have left The Smiths” (morrissey denies this but andy doesnt and honestly i believe andy over moz) (also im very sketchy on the details so dont eat me)
  • he was gone for two weeks and in the meantime craig gannon took over on bass, but when andy came back he stayed on as rythym guitarist and played on a few tracks and toured with them
  • a good and beautiful guy honestly (tho i think he also sued for royalties so :/)
  • here he is (to the left of morrissey)

sorry abt the pic they just look really good here and i want to cry

  • the smiths formed in manchester in 1982 when johnny marr knocked on morrisseys front door and pressed his face to the glass. please read this article abt the whole thing i cry
  • morrissey descibes their meeting. im fine :) (thats me screamin with my mouth closed)
  • what can i say? johnny and moz were phenomenal together they wrote so many good songs (they wrote ‘half a person’ in four and a half minutes! FOUR AND A HALF MINUTES!)
  • He was different with me than he was with everybody else. I couldn’t have given my music to anybody - anybody else, and he appreciated it more, because he just fell in love with it, and that went on all the way through the band. In many ways he was my biggest fan really.” - Johnny Marr
  • but they were only together for five years :( johnny and morrissey fell out and everything got really stressful and. yeah ill just give some quotes bc im sad
  • “One night we had a conversation and he said “ I think it’s about time and I’ve had enough” and I was saying “Yes I understand” but I really didn’t mean it I really didn’t think he’d completely pull the plug.” - Morrissey
  • “Morrissey asked me to do a farewell gig at one point, but I said no. It just seemed like a bad idea… We actually got together a few times [afterwards]. We went for a walk in the country, we went out to dinner one night, and later we just went for a long drive. It was really good to see each other away from any scenes. Like everyone, in private we’re quite different characters. I know the real Morrissey and he knows the real me.” - Johnny Marr
  • “I think Johnny understood Morrissey more than anyone else in the world… It was almost illogical, the gulf that was coming between Johnny and Morrissey, and you couldn’t put it down to any one thing. Again, it was almost like Morrissey living out his doomed fantasies. I think at some point one of them thought, “I can’t do this. You’re saying you want to be on in this stuff but when I move towards you, you move away. Or vice versa. There’s no rhythm between us.” Whereas before, they were finishing each other’s sentences.” - Grant Showbiz (sound engineer)
  • and then johnny wrote moz this letter which he kept and kept and printed in his autobio in 2013 more than 25 years later :) :)) :))))))

The Albums

The Smiths

  • their first album and one dear to my heart
  • recieves a lot of criticism from fans and the band bc of the mess surrounding production and the poor sound quality but! who cares its beautiful
  • caused quite a stir when it came out bc it was so subversive and unapologetically Not About Hetero Romance so the press were scratching their heads a lot
  • the first single had this cover and andy talks about the mortification he felt trying to show his dad his bands first single can u imagine
  • tbh the subject matter is very weird and ambiguous and a bit morbid (theres a song about the moors murders for example) but its also very sweet and funny. typical smiths tbh
  • the cover is a still from an Andy Warhol film called ‘Flesh’ but morrissey wrote the album notes as CULLED FROM ANDY WARHOLS FLESH which sounds a lot more ominous

Hatful of Hollow

  • a compilation album
  • unhappy with the quality of The Smiths the band decided to put out a compilation early on
  • essential listening tbh - u will learn soon enough that all smiths compilations are necessary
  • oh yeah some smiths records had a secret etched message from morrissey. on this album: THE IMPOTENCE OF ERNEST/IAN (ian was johnnys brother)

Meat Is Murder

  • the album that inspired a generation of vegetarians
  • ITS SO GOOD i cant ever stop listening to it tbh
  • so so many classic tracks
  • a bit more stridently political (vegetarianism, jabs at the monarchy and english school system, railing against the injustices of corporal punishment)

The Queen Is Dead

  • considered by many to be their finest album (not by the band tho they think strangeways is the best)
  • every single track on here is so sublimley good how do you even articulate your feelings towards i know its over or frankly mr shankly or some girls are bigger than others WHAT DO I SAY

The World Won’t Listen

  • personally this is my favourite smiths compilation altho its often overlooked bc most of the tracks appear elsewhere
  • HOWEVER it contains stretch out and wait and money changes everything so its like. objectively the best (fight me irl)

Louder Than Bombs

  • the better known american compilation album
  • REALLY REALLY ESSENTIAL SONGS its so good i love it

Strangeways, Here We Come

  • the last studio album :(
  • technically and musically their best its really ~experimental~ and different (for them)
  • Morrissey -  “We say [that it’s our best album] quite often. At the same time. In our sleep. But in different beds.”
  • features moz on piano in death of a disco dancer
  • title refers to strangeways prison in manchester
  • im gona weep if ur gonna go this is the way to do it
  • secret etching: GUY FAWKES WAS A GENIUS


  • the posthumous live album
  • released as a contractual obligation so mozzer had to pick all the tracks by himself after they’d broken up :(
  • he wanted to call it The Smiths In Heat but the label wouldn’t let him
  • contains the instrumental track The Draize Train and a really neat Marie’s The Name (Of His Latest Flame)/Rusholme Ruffians mashup
  • feat. craig gannon on guitar
  • anyway its really good
  • secret etching: PEEPHOLISM

Other Projects

Morrissey’s Solo Career

  • moz went solo after the smiths broke up and hes been massivley successful
  • the sideburns got more intense and he gradually got grumpier and grumpier
  • idk this is just my opinion but i feel that solo moz is a very different creature to smiths moz? sort of. less tender and gentle? there’s a line from i know its over that says “its so easy to laugh/its so easy to hate/it takes strength to be gentle and kind” and i feel maybe solo moz stopped caring about that so much. not that he was incapable of it -theres a lot of heartbreakingly good stuff he wrote as a solo artist- but i feel he tends more towards sarcasm and polemic than the dry humor he had in the smiths
  • THAT BEING SAID i love solo moz’s stuff there’s some glorious stuff in here so to all the angry asks im gonna recieve i say its just my opinion please dont eat me alive
  • hes released 10 studio albums as a solo artist; Viva Hate, Kill Uncle, Your Arsenal, Vauxhall And I, Southpaw Grammar, Maladjusted, You Are The Quarry, Ringleader Of The Tormentors, Years Of Refusal, and World Peace Is None Of Your Business
  • hours of entertainment can be gleaned from merely perusing the titles of solo morrissey tracks, do yourself a favour and have a look


  • after he left the smiths johnny formed an ALTERNATIVE DANCE SUPERGROUP with New Order frontman Bernard Sumner and occasionally with Neil Tennant of the Pet Shop Boys
  • its pretty much the greatest thing that ever happened to me its the perfect intesection of every one of my interests
  • three albums; Electronic, Raise The Pressure, Twisted Tenderness
  • they never officially dissolved things but they havent really been active since 1999 so

Johnny’s Other Projects

johnny is a massively prolific musician and has collaborated with almost everyone on the planet, including but not limited to:

  • paul mc cartney
  • the pretenders
  • the the
  • bryan ferry
  • billy bragg
  • kirsty mccoll
  • talking heads
  • beck
  • oasis
  • then he had a sort of band called Johnny Marr + The Healers and they had one album (Boomslang)
  • and then he was the guitarist for Modest Mouse for three years
  • and then he was The Cribs guitarist
  • helped hans zimmer with the soundtrack for inception and amazing spider-man 2, is working on something else with him atm i think
  • then in 2013 he went solo! he sang on his own album! everyone died bc who knew that Guitar Dad had such a beautiful voice!
  • his two solo albums are The Messenger and Playland
  • and then he played on Noel Gallagher’s Ballad Of The Mighty I and we all died a bit more

More Fun Smiths Facts

seventeen mall!au

ever since i wrote the hoshi + arcade prompt i couldnt stop thinking about this. i know i have like 4 different things going on BUT I HAD TO GET THIS OUT OF MY SYSTEM IM SORRY

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anonymous asked:

(1/3) LetAdrienEat got me thinking and I feel like I've not seen anyone address how being a famous model at such a young age has affected Adrien? Like it obviously involves him getting dragged around the city and then getting yelled at by a photographer (which he seemed kinda uncomfortable with in stormy weather tbh?) while also having random adults messing with his hair/clothes/makeup has gotta be pretty stressful in itself, not mention the effect it probably has on his already low self esteem.

(2/3) Then add that to his other academic/sporting/social responsibilities and it’s just??? so much??? I imagine while Felix certainly has a hefty schedule himself which is definitely no less challenging, his is more academically based (since he doesn’t fence or model and sports require socialising) and so a lot more static and…quieter?? (I guess is the way to describe it)

(3/3) I guess what this is all leading up to what are your thoughts on it? And also what would Felix do if he saw Adrien running himself into the ground or having a stress breakdown? (Also I just want to say that I love your twin au so much!! And all your art is so amazing so thank you!!)

i think the reason adrien’s modeling situation hasn’t been discussed much yet is because the show hasn’t given us much to discuss. this is one of the main problems right now; they’re taking things on a very slow drag when it comes to learning about adrien and his personal life - and as much as i love knowing that marinette made another hat or has another boy going gooey over her or has suddenly sprouted an elite prowess for video games we never saw from her before, marinette actually isn’t who i want to know about right now! 

i know adrien is going to be explored eventually, don’t get me wrong on that, but i think they might have taken a misstep by showing right from the start that he’s, basically, got a more complex and interesting setup than marinette. and i understand why that is - it’s so little girls watching the show can identify with marinette without too many specific things setting them apart; marinette is supposed to be pretty and sweet and well-loved and comparably bland to the supporting characters - but the problem is that they’ve introduced the probability of so many issues for adrien very early in the game and are now holding off on exploring them! 

this is making the older fans (i.e. the fans more focused on worldbuilding and character development and less appeased by a bunch of glitter and magic) pretty antsy, because now it seems like the writers are going out of the way to create new stuff for marinette to show off in her arsenal of multi-talents (some of which will probably never be relevant again after one episode, like her gaming skills) instead of going into depth with what’s already been established. as i said before, i’m aware the entirety of the first season is supposed to be filler and non-linear worldbuilding so this makes sense, but i can’t help thinking that overall decision in the first place was a poor one. the first season is supposed to be the hook, and what little bait is on that hook isn’t being used!

but yeah, back to the first point in all this; we don’t know what adrien thinks about everything he does. we know he doesn’t want to model as a career but apparently has fun in the shoots, that he doesn’t like signing autographs, that he hates his father’s “money-fixes-everything” attitude to their relationship but is also behaving very well because his father is still grieving for his mother and adrien wants to be there for him. we know a good bit about his home life, but how his fame and work affects him is yet to be seen at all!

like, how is he treated during shoots (aside from the very lax one in the park); like a real person or just a pretty doll? does he mind being touched and manhandled by wardrobe/makeup or is he okay with it? does he like seeing his face everywhere in paris or is it intimidating? can he go anywhere like a normal person without being recognised and accosted? what are those seemingly scheduled meetings with his father, and does gabriel cancel them as often as he cancels doing anything else with adrien? is adrien less lonely now he has plagg? have things changed for him at the animal shelter he volunteers at since he’s become some percentage of cat? what was his first day of school like, when he finally met regular kids just like him? did he become friends with nino slowly and shyly or just immediately latch to him as True Best Bros? does he realise marinette likes him but not reciprocate because he thinks she only likes what she’s seen in magazines, just like everyone else? is that why he’s so set on ladybug; because her opinion of him isn’t clouded by all the glitzy photoshoots and advertising and teen blogging sites? WHAT ARE HIS DIETARY PLANS IS HE EATING ENOUGH BECAUSE IT DOESN’T SEEM LIKE HE IS

i mean, shit, there’s just so much to know about him, and yet most of the character-building right now is focused on marinette when adrien is supposed to be (just about, since he is the deuteragonist) equally represented in the show! like i said, i know a lot of this will probably come, but it’s a hard wait when it’s so interesting and all we’re getting thrown at us is either more marinette filler or more shipping development.

but man, in terms of felix and the twin AU, things would be a little different for adrien since he has someone there to tell him when things are unfair - with such a skewed personal life he doesn’t seem to be a good judge himself of when it’s okay to speak out or fight back, and i think that’s why he puts up with so much from gabriel in canon. i like to think if adrien’s really slamming himself into the ground with too much work and emotional stress felix would take some stuff over for him - they are identical twins, after all; a little hairspray and some wash-in tan and you wouldn’t be able to tell the difference save for adrien suddenly being much stricter about boundaries and limits.

cutthroat kitchen au: porridge time (pt. 3)

pre-game | round one auction

  • if any of them thought that the normal kitchen experience came anywhere close to the cutthroat one
  • well they’d never had one of their arms tied to a woman half (or twice) their height
  • or their stoves replaced with a bunch of wood in a pot
  • chef carter tries not to let it get to her but at least they could have given her two campfires
  • this is just inefficient
  • or just had to work in the same kitchen as shaw i mean even that is a stressor in itself
  • shes like a tiny angry lintball
  • chef reese doesnt know whether to worry about stepping or her or being bitten on the calf
  • not to mention the way that harold finch is wandering around the kitchen
  • finch is enjoying the way that he can make chef reese freeze in place just by looking at him
  • no one’s ever had a crush on him before
  • at least, no one that he knows of (but then again he’s never seen the html shrines devoted to him on the cutthroat kitchen fan forums)
  • (which is probably for the better)
  • chef reese’s only sabotage is the camp stove, and his own failure to pick the right ingredients
  • (and his aching, burning crush on harold finch)
  • (loser)
  • originally he was going to do a coffee oatmeal with a bruléed banana topping and whipped cream
  • unfortunately his bananas are currently tumbling through the cutthroat kitchen laundry service
  • the oatmeal will still work on the camp stove, though. he just needs to figure out a topping
  • and to stop getting distracted by harold’s eyes
  • they’re so blue
  • why did he think this was a good idea
  • chef carter is making a polenta
  • and its going to be the best damn polenta that the judge has ever eaten in their life
  • shaw really wasnt thinking when she gave the military cook the ability to make a campfire i mean that IS part of training, shaw!! what were you thinking!!
  • she can’t help but brag
  • “good thing i spent all that time in basic training, right, chef shaw?”
  • her voice is like when you suck on a hard candy for too long and it cuts your tongue open
  • sweet. but sharp
  • shaw looks over
  • carters campfire is roaring in a cartoonish way
  • like she literally just breathed on it and it erupted into magnificent flames
  • what the fuck
  • shes like a dragon
  • an absolutely gorgeous, talented, dragon chef
  • put the feelings away, shaw. its time to cook
  • “i was hoping all that time in your state of the art kitchen made you forget your roots.”
  • that’s a lie and everyone knows it
  • “forgetting my roots isn’t in my nature, shaw”
  • “isn’t in mine, either”chef root throws in
  • reese and carter snort
  • shaw is speechless
  • if theres one thing more confusing than someone with a crush on her its someone with a crush on her who makes puns
  • she does the best she can to ignore root while literally tied to the woman
  • carter is making a ham and cheese polenta with a herb garnish
  • and shes not going to make a single mistake, mark her words
  • okay except when she just used paprika instead of red pepper flakes
  • it was red ok
  • she wasnt paying attention
  • no one needs to know
  • good thing harold is too busy staring at reeses ass when he bends over to notice
  • she has her shit together
  • and despite his near-constant blush, so does chef reese
  • which is in stark contrast to chef shaw and chef root
  • first off, the closer shaw gets a look at root’s basket, the more it becomes clear that the woman has no fucking plan
  • there’s oats. there’s definitely oats
  • a lot of chocolate. some fruits
  • there’s also.. tilapia?
  • and are those… quail eggs?
  • root’s dragging her over to the sink for water before she can look any closer
  • “i guess i can’t just stick the taser in here, can i?”
  • a metal pot of water
  • on a metal table
  • on a metal floor
  • this isn’t how shaw wanted to die
  • “don’t you dare, root.”
  • “have it your way, sweetie”
  • shaw wishes she’d stop batting her eyelashes
  • especially when they’re so pretty
  • it’s hard to remember she’s competition
  • she drags root over to her side of the station so she can start preparing her own shit while root tries to figure out how to warm her food
  • (she ends up burning a loaf of bread in a pot, and holding her other pot on top. finch lets it happen)
  • (probably because he hadn’t thought about that whole “electrocution” thing before filming)
  • (even geniuses have their off moments)
  • shaw was GOING to make a cream of wheat-fresh fruit reduction swirl
  • but lucky charms =/= cream of wheat
  • she throws the cereal in the food processor, loads it up with whole milk, vanilla, and melon chunks, and hopes for the best
  • there are no words to describe the dish that root is making because it doesn’t fit with any idea of a porridge that shaw’s heard of
  • the girl can chop, though. even with one hand
  • root’s technique is good
  • but everyone has to wonder if she has a little help behind the scenes with the concepts usually
  • after the 20 minute mark, even root and carter are too focused to make comments
  • 30 minutes is over too soon
  • except for shaw, for whom 30 minutes could not have come faster
  • she was seriously considering gnawing off her own arm just to have a free range of motion again
  • she thinks she probably could have finished the next two rounds before bleeding out
  • probably
  • “chefs? i believe your cooking time is over. if you could just step away from your stations…”
  • finch gets a good look at the food before the judge comes down
  • he’s actually… impressed
  • chef root’s bowl may look a little like a baked bowel movement, but everyone else has actually done quite a good job with what he gave them
  • he smiles a little, to himself, when he looks at chef reese’s dish
  • (that smile makes reese feels like he just won all 25k)
  • finch tries to convince himself not to favour the man too strongly just because he has such beautiful cheekbones
  • and such rugged hands
  • and such a pleasant disposition
  • and- well. finch tries to keep his thoughts civil
  • the judge comes down from the tower- lionel fusco, world renowned cookbook author/food critic. finch smiles when he sees him, and hopes that he’ll be able to catch a longing look from chef reese in the final cut of the episode
  • “what do you got for me today, glasses?” fusco says, clapping finch on the shoulder
  • fusco is a large man
  • finch is not
  • if he werent steeled for it the shoulder clap might have just sent him face first into a bowl of oats
  • reese doesnt notice, though, of course he doesnt, hes too busy watching the way that finchs fingers are tapping gently on podium in front of him
  • “hello chef fusco. i was thinking, if you were amenable, we might record an episode of cutthroat kitchen?”
  • carter snorts. she thinks she might get along with this guy
  • if it werent for the whole “food preperation based torture” thing
  • though she could probably get over that too.
  • carter can get over a lot of things
  • “yeah, very funny, big guy. what am i tasting today?”
  • finch chuckles. “porridge, chef fusco. after you.”
  • “chef carter, please tell chef fusco what you made.”
  • she has a bowl of yellow, creamy polenta. a smaller bowl than she anticipated, though- most of it got burnt to the pot
  • don’t tell chef shaw
  • it’s garnished with some fresh, green herbs, and paper-thin tomato slices
  • “what i made for you today was a smoky, cheesy fresh summer morning polenta, topped with a tomato salad”
  • fusco smiles back at her. she likes this lady  
  • he grabs a tomato slice with his fingers, pops it in his mouth. takes a spoonful of the polenta
  • he nods and sticks out his bottom lip in acknowledgement
  • “i like whatcha did here, carter-”
  • he says her name like “cah-ta”
  • it reminds her of her childhood. she likes it
  • “polenta? really good. tomato salad? really good.”
  • she beams
  • “the aftertaste, though? sorry to say, but it crosses over from “smoky” to “burnt”. overall, good dish. just be careful with that seasoning”
  • “yes, chef”
  • that isn’t a bad start at all
  • especially not compared to
  • “chef root, tell us about your.. creation”
  • it really does look like a turd in there
  • nestled in the plate like… in a toilet
  • “hey, lionel,” shes smiling with all her teeth
  • like she knows something he doesnt
  • “this is a chocolate-starfruit, um, fried oatmeal? it has a side of fresh cream, too.”
  • reese snickers. who the hell puts chocolate with starfruit?
  • fusco tries to break off a part with the spoon
  • its rock hard.
  • he keeps trying for a comically long time
  • ends up picking it up and taking a bite out
  • anyone whos seen the show knows that face
  • “chef root. you trying to poison me?”
  • for a second everyone worries that she actually is
  • “if i was, lionel, you’d know.”
  • finch frowns at the same time that chef shaw smiles
  • “this thing’s like tropical fruit hardtack. couldn’t eat another bite of it if i tried. and the presentation….”
  • “plus- that ain’t porridge”
  • cut to interview with root
  • “maybe lionel didn’t like my oatmeal biscuit. but sameen still had that cereal. i wasn’t worried”
  • when chef shaw describes her dish as a “marshmallow melon cream of wheat,” every muscle in finch’s body twitches
  • “unique. i like it”
  • fusco takes a dainty sip out of his spoon
  • “marshmallow, you said?”
  • “yes chef” shaw grimaces. she hates it when people question her
  • even celebrity chef lionel fusco
  • “yeah, i’m not tasting marshmallow. the melon ain’t bad, though. and you don’t see a warm melon dish that often- and you got me wondering why, now. it’s good”
  • holy shit. thats high praise
  • he takes a second spoonful and shaw feels like flipping off the rest of the contestants
  • “easy on the sugar next time, tiger”
  • “thanks, chef.”
  • “what do you have for chef fusco, chef reese?”
  • he’s served his coffee oatmeal in a parfait glass, swirled together with whipped cream
  • topped with a couple of espresso beans
  • he thinks it looks classy, at least
  • “this is a coffee & cream oatmeal parfait. thank you.”
  • hes such a quiet person compared to the other three
  • fusco dunks the spoon in, takes a bite
  • his eyes widen
  • reese looks at the other contestants for support
  • two -_-s and a ovo
  • thats not support
  • “ya weren’t kidding when you said coffee, were you?”
  • chef fusco regains his composure
  • well, what composure he usually has
  • “not bad, don’t get me wrong- it’s just strong. lemme take it with some of the cream”
  • he takes another bite. his expression is less dire this time
  • “great flavour development, though” hes nodding as he says it “definitely warn a guy next time, starbucks. all in all, it ain’t that bad”
  • “thank you, chef.”
  • director zoe speaks up from the sidelines
  • “reese. you have to stop whispering”
  • “thank you, chef” he says a little louder
  • its weird to hear him speaking at a regular volume
  • she gives him a thumbs up
  • the cameras stop rolling for a moment while harold and lionel eat some more of each dish, walk behind their podiums, chat a little
  • zoe counts them in
  • “so, chef fusco. the time has come for you to eliminate one of our contestant, here. sad as it may be.”
  • “yeah, glasses, i’m weeping over here. for my teeth, at least- chef root, i’m sorry to say, but the crispy fruit cacao puffs just aren’t doing it for me.”
  • close up on roots face
  • she doesnt even look disappointed
  • shes just.. there
  • its obviously unsettling finch. he clears his throat
  • “i’m going to need that 22,000$ back, chef root. i hope that your purchase was well worth the price.”
  • root walks up with her cash, turns around and makes sure her hair flips over her shoulder as she does
  • “wouldn’t change it for the world, harry”
  • shaw
  • shaw has no idea what to say
  • root winks
  • “see you in the green room, sameen”
Social Anxiety

Requested: no

A/n: Hi directioners, I guess if we still classify ourselves as that.. This is an imagine for them Niall girls ;) (like moi) hope you enjoy! Send in some requests!

Pairing: Niall, Y/N

“I don’t give a fuck, I’m sick of it, that’s why I dont go out, Ni…. No… NO NOT BECAUSE IM JEALOUS, NIALL, YOU CAN’T PULL THAT SHIT ON ME AGAIN!……. Just go by yourself, the other lads are there why do I need to be?…., fine okay, bye” I slammed my phone down on the nighstand beside the bed, niall has been at me all week to come to a red carpet event, it was a huge deal for them and their new album Four, as much as I wanted to go support not only the band itself but my boyfriend, I couldn’t.

I sighed, and got myself out of bed. Niall doesn’t know much about how my social anxiety works, he thinks I just think it up and have an excuse to stay home all day. All the other lads try to tell him,and get him to understand, but he just doesn’t listen. I made my way down stairs, and sat on the couch in the living room. I grabbed the remote and turned the TV on to see what was happening at the event.

“I think its our best one yet,” harry spoke

“Its a big success, and the steal my girl music video is out soon, would you like to tell us a bit about it?” the women asked.

“Uh yeah, I mean I hope the fans enjoy it. Theres been a lot of work put into it and we love it so we hope they love it too.” Zayn said.

After that I kind of zoned out, mostly just focusing on how quiet niall was and how sad he looked. He looked like he had been crying his eyes out, they were puffy and red and even though he had make up on you could see it. The interviewer had left, leaving the band to talk. Harry was patting Niall’s back and whispering something, the way his lips moved I could tell he told him

‘It’ll be okay don’t worry’

That’s when I got to my feet, looking out the window I was relieved to see no fan in sight outside. I ran up the stairs and got changed. Knowing me, I’ll probably have some sort of anxiety attack while doing this, but I have to face myself and go.

“Its Y/N!”

“Y/N can we get a picture!?”

“Look who finally showed up! She actually comes out of the house”

“Yeah what a lazy bitch, she never interacts with fans Niall deserves so much more”

“Y/N sign my book, please!!!”

All the comments roared through my ears as I walked by the fence. Some disgusting ones I heard, but ignored, and kept walking. The security guard guided me to where everyone was, but during the walk it was an open area and a bunch of fans surrounded me. Shouting, holding out their phones and notebooks in my face. I felt my heart race. Butterfly’s starting to form in my stomach, feeling like horses as the time went on. They started grabbing at my hair and clothes, almost tearing them off. I was trying my best not to cry or burst out cuss words towards them.

Then a bunch of flashing cameras began blinding me. I felt a grip on my wrist, pulling me out of the crowd of fans. After the person kept pulling me farther from the crowd, I finally look up seeing Louis.

“Louis! Thank you so much… I don’t think I would of survived another minute” I told him

“Its alright, Niall’s been crying ever since he last called you. He finally just realized what your fear ment and he felt so horrible. We tried our best to keep him here and looking happy but its hard” he said, letting go of his grip on my wrist.

He lead me to the back room where the other lads were. I saw Niall sitting on the couch with his face burried in his hands. Liam was sat beside him, and once he realized I was there he stood up.

“Let’s leave them alone, I think they would appreciate it” Liam said, gesturing the others to leave with him. They all got up and left the room, leaving me and a sobbing Niall. I sat down on the couch beside him and rubbed his back.

“Ni, you don’t have to be upset I’m fine.” I said. He continued to let out small sobs. He shook his head, and moved them out of his hands.

“Its my fault I didn’t need to yell at you for it all, I never meant it y/n. I just got so caught up with everything”

“Hey, its fine okay? I get it. Its not your fault”

“It is, I always make you go places without realizing the fear and hurt you feel from it all. I’m sorry I’m so fucking sorry” he choked out, letting a couple more fresh tears fall down his face. I sighed and cupped his cheeks, wiping away tears with my thumbs. I looked into his blue eyes and spoke

“Listen, Its fine, I’m not mad of upset with you for it. I understand when you go out you wanna be able to have me around and at times I don’t mind, there’s just certain places I don’t like going because of what happens in my mind. I try my best, and I made it here, all by myself. I’m getting use to it, I really am.” I said, I saw a small smile form on his lips, making me smile as well.

“I love you, you know that right?” He said. I nodded and pecked his lips.

“Awwe” I turned around to see Harry standing in the doorway, doing his little childish cupcake pose with his hands under his chin.

“Harry! I said to leave them alone!” Liam said from behind him, he smacked the back of Harry’s head. Harry let out a long “ow” while he rubbed the back of his head that liam smacked.

“You’re such a loser, harry! Go make yourself useful find a girlfriend instead of eyeing mine” niall said, intertwining our hands. Harry rolled his eyes, and flipped his hair before walking away, leaving me and niall to laugh about it.

“By the way, I love you too” I said booping his nose.

~ Nemo x