not feeling it

But actually what the fuck

let’s just make a list of all the what the fuckery

  • the first half hour was liz and kirk floating in the ocean being boring and also red, mr. kaplan, tom, and dembe waiting around for people to answer their phone calls
  • kirk is really fucking creepy and i can’t believe liz is buying this shit (i can’t shake the feeling that it’s all a big set up ALSO just because their “summer palace” is in tact doesn’t mean their normal house in russia didn’t burn to the fucking ground like come on how stupid can you get
  • super duper done with the mommygate and red’s alleged affair with katarina like nope thanks but no thanks over ittttttt (they were careful though about how they phrased things when talking about red’s past with liz. kirk said red is obsessed with her. that’s better than forcing daddygate down our throats i guess. also kaplan said “when you put a baby in my arms”. a baby not your baby. good i guess)
  • okay i’ll admit that ressler and liz hug was adorbs. I DON’T SHIP KEENLER NOT FOR ALL THE CANON IN THE WORLD but i like their relationship in a brother/sister kinda way and i’m glad he was the one to get to her first (SINCE APPARENTLY IT COULDN’T BE RED WHATEVER I’M NOT BITTER)
  • WE DIDN’T EVEN GET A REUNION OF ANY KIND UM FUCK EVERYTHING LIKE I GET THAT RED IS ANGRY AND THAT’S FINE I LIKE A LITTLE DRAMA BUT WTF THERE’S ONLY SO MUCH DELAYED GRATIFICATION I CAN TAKE
  • and then liz just had to RUN into tom’s arms like eww come on ugh
  • after all that shit they still didn’t get agnes what the actual fuck I’M GETTING BORED WITH ALL THE RUNNING AROUND AND CHASING BAD GUYS HELLO PEOPLE
  • AND DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON MR. KAPLAN. I GET THAT RED IS ANGRY BUT WTF MR. KAPLAN LOVES YOU DON’T YOU SHIT ON THAT AND WHEN HE SAID “THE ACRE IS YOURS” I WAS LIKE YES YOU GO BABY DO THE RIGHT THING AND THEN HE FUCKING SHOT HER AND I LITERALLY YELLED “NO!” AT THE TV LIKE UM NOT FUCKING ACCEPTABLE EXCUSE YOU AND THEN THEY LINGERED OVER HER BODY TOO LONG AND HER HAND TWITCHED AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FUCKETY FUCK DOES ANYONE EVER DIE ON THIS SHOW WHAT NOW
  • to make things even better NEXT WEEK LOOKS JUST AS BORING AND WE WON’T GET A SPECIAL REUNION JUST LIZ DEMANDING THINGS FROM RED AFTER SHE HURT HIM MORE THAN SHE CAN IMAGINE SHE BETTER FUCKING SAY SORRY AT LEAST IS2G I’M SO OVER THIS
  • *INCOMPREHENSIBLE SCREECHING*

Originally posted by slerpuff

I got asked out by two (2) cute boys this week, one from linguistics and one from beat gen, and I don’t know how to text either of them that I’m flattered by their offer but currently in the middle of a deep internal pilgrimage ripe with sexual confusion and muddled self-identity on the crossroads of a structured, religious past and a fogged future ultimately culminating in the fact that I am not in a great place to date.

6

You said you knew what was wrong with me. Prove it.

Sometimes. Usually they just die in general. many, many people have spoken with more grace about the Bury Your Gays trope than me, but the gist is that there are incredibly few gay characters in media to begin with, and they are killed off at comparatively alarmingly high rates–sometimes just because they tend to occupy that important-but-not-TOO-important character slot that means they’re slated for death when the show needs a dramatic moment, sometimes it’s coded as a creepy punishment for perceived sexual deviancy. One way or another, gay characters, particularly lesbians + bi women, dying in media is a Thing, and it’s a bad thing I refuse to perpetuate, because the LGBT community deserves to see people like themselves get happy endings and right now they overwhelmingly do not.

“What message does this send to LGBT audiences? For many, it indicates that the stories of queer characters—and especially women—are disposable… On a greater level, representation matters because many still yearn for greater opportunities to see their lives positively depicted in popular media. “LGBT viewers long to see their own happy endings reflected back to them,” the Hollywood Reporterwrites. “Underrepresented groups—from people of color to people with disabilities to LGBT people—who are denied that kind of positive representation in our shared culture naturally have a harder time imagining it for their own lives. When death, sadness and despair are the predominant stories we’re told, particularly for younger viewers, it can seem like a self-fulfilling prophecy… Writers’ rooms and producers often can’t imagine other storylines for queer people that don’t revolve around their sexualities, meaning that when they finally get what they want (i.e., love or sex), they’re no longer necessary. Television might be a dangerous place to be queer, but there’s nothing more deadly than a medium that still doesn’t know how to treat LGBT people with basic humanity.” (source)