not completely happy with the results

The Importance of Moana and Mulan

1. Strong female POC leads!!!!

2. Everything below

I’ll start off with the 90′s Disney film. You know what my favorite thing about Mulan is? In the beginning, she’s lamenting about never being able to follow the path her parents wish for her and make them proud (there’s literally an entire song about this):

Originally posted by pactressia

And I remember me, a little Chinese girl, watching that film knowing that pressure all too well (I’m sure that many other people from many other cultures can also relate). Please don’t call me out on generalization but if there’s one thing I’ve noticed about Chinese customs/traditions/etc. is that there’s this alarmingly toxic idea that if you don’t make your parents proud then you’re essentially a failure, that if you don’t bring honor to your family then everything you’ve done is worthless.

Now, Moana deals with this idea in a different way. It’s discussed in the form of a girl who longs for something forbidden when she should be learning how to properly lead her village like her father and all of her ancestors before him. She also has an entire song about her obligations and rebellious wishes and how she just has to stamp them down (which Auli’i sings beautifully):

Originally posted by dailyauliicravalho

Older me watching this saw some serious Mulan parallels. I also really appreciated the film as a whole, but I explain all of that later on. The two of them try. They try their best to be the perfect daughter that their parents want:

Originally posted by jimhawkens-moved

Originally posted by babs-e

It was obvious that they both care and love their families enough to make the effort, but it’s also very obvious that their hearts just weren’t in it enough:

Originally posted by salmonypink

Originally posted by smallpurplefork

It’s like dreaming of becoming an award-winning actress but forcing yourself to drop the idea in favor of going for something “practical”, then spending the rest of your life behind a desk miserable and filled with regret. That sounds dramatic, I know, but nobody really knows how many lives we have, so you should treat it like you only have one chance. Anyways, through the course of the film, Moana and Mulan move aside from that filled-with-regret route and both defy what everyone’s telling them to do and go off to have some pretty wild adventures:

Originally posted by eilizabeth-olsen

Originally posted by disneyasastrology

Moana finally does pursue that forbidden dream of hers by setting out to sea and essentially saving her known world, whereas Mulan puts all of her frowned upon, “unladylike” martial arts to use by saving China. Moana gets to lead her people to a brighter future and Mulan gets to see her parents filled with pure pride.

Making yourself proud and feeling personally accomplished is more important than trying to match up with other peoples’ standards. Spending your entire life trying to satisfy other people doesn’t sound very great, or fulfilling, or pleasant. Of course to some degree that’s needed, especially in the workplace or at school, but you shouldn’t plan your entire future on it. Growing up I always assumed that when my parents finally said “I’m proud of you” with every fiber of their being then I had done it. I had done everything I was supposed to, and now I should feel happy. But somewhere at the end of middle school when I was being suffocated with high expectations and being asked to plan for classes I wouldn’t be taking until I was seventeen, I realized that isn’t the case. They can say they’re proud and be happy but I won’t be. I kept this thought around until I did something completely out of the ordinary, something that wasn’t in their plan, and although it made things a little rough between us, the result of it was terribly shocking to me.

They said it. They said “I’m proud of you” in a way that I had never heard before, and hearing it like that during this particular event was like something out of a dream.

And this is the point I was trying to use Moana and Mulan to get across. You can make your parents/family proud in ways other than those that they have set for you. You can make them proud without following the exact road they’ve directed you to.

Originally posted by kittycheshirestuff

Originally posted by yourdisneyside

And if they’re still not proud after all of your bravery and hard work, then screw them.


I’ve been struggling to figure out why my hair is so dry even though I DC weekly, co-wash twice a week, and cleanse and seal my hair properly. I’ve been using Shea Moisture for years but it wasn’t working anymore and I discovered that they completely changed their formulas in order to suit people with that of an…errr..straighter, finer hair texture. So I threw them out and tried some new products! These are the results I’ve been getting for the past month. I’m very happy with my new regimen :)

1. Grape seed oil
2. Extra Virgin olive oil
3. Olive Oil Eco Styler Gel
4. Maui Moisture Agave hair mask
5. Maui Moisture Shea Butter conditioner
6. As I Am Double Butter Cream
7. Mielle Organics Babassu Mint deep conditioner



Shonda Rhimes logic:
It is completely unrealistic for a couple to actually be happy and for a marriage to actually last.

It is totally and completely realistic for a bombing, drowning, hospital shooting, two car crashes (one fatal), getting hit by a bus, stage 4 cancer, babies with OI and no brain, insane child birthing circumstances, electrocution, icicle stabbing, brutal beating, and not one But TWO plane crashes (or near plane crash…won’t know until Thursday) to happen to the same group of about 15ish people and for literally every single marriage they enter to result in divorce and/or premature death.

No Strings (VI)

Author: kpopfanfictrash

Pairing: You / Jimin

Rating: PG-13

Word Count: 4,120

Summary: It started off as such a simple question. How to know if you’re bad in bed? Of course when you asked, you didn’t imagine Jimin would actually answer.

Originally posted by softsugamon

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- covers up the truth about his sister hosting a party at their house while their parents were out for a wedding dinner so that she would not get into trouble

- when her friends leave behind bottles of alcohol after the party, he keeps them quickly so that their parents wouldn’t find out about the alcohol or the party

- stands up for his sister and asks for his mother to trust his younger sister when she is overprotective and suspicious of her children

- talks to his younger sister about religion and points out that it is more important to live like you believe in Allah than to say you believe in Allah; and in doing so, alleviates her worry about liking a guy who does not believe in Allah 

- wants his sister to be happy because if she’s sad, he will be sad too 

- does not tell his younger sister to resent their mother for being overprotective; he teaches his younger sister that their mother was merely born in a ‘different country in a completely different time’, resulting in differences in opinions but she ultimately only wants the best for her children

- supports his sister when she reveals she is crushing on his close friend 

- only wants his sister to be with a good guy  

- makes his sister smile


“The Null Sector has been neutralized, operation complete, great work agent McCree.” 
_“So I’m clear to come home sir ?”
“Not until I finish with Morrison, but you done well kid, go back with the Overwatch Strike Team, we’re in this mess together after all.”
_“Got it, commander Reyes ! McCree out. ”

  Live stream result ! 
  Uprising finally ended and I’m super happy that I got some of the event skin, included the Blackwatch McCree, so the guys deserve a breather after hear the good news. Thank you all Overwatch players that joined me and made the event much more fun !

Sehun | Oh Sehun

One Day

You attend your sister’s wedding with your boyfriend Sehun - along with his group members - and you begin to think about your future.

Fortunately Intoxicated

A very drunk Sehun comes to say something very important and over due to you.

Truth or Dare (M)

You’re playing ‘Truth or Dare’ with your best friend Sehun and he’s determined to get you to admit that you like him

A While Now

You are EXO’s stylist noona and the boys are constantly trying to hint Sehun’s huge crush on you

Practically Perfect

Your best friend keeps insisting for you to date her boyfriends friend and you refuse to meet him. Little do you know that fate had exactly that planned for you…

Every Step of the Way

You find out a life changing decision and you’re not sure how your boyfriend Sehun will react, so you try to keep it to yourself. But his oblivion doesn’t last long.

Just Hold Me

(University AU)Sehun gets back from a long day of classes and all he wants to do is come to your dorm room and cuddle.

New Butterflies

(High School AU) You are in a detention with your best friend Sehun - who actually decided to show up to one for the first time - and things seem a little different whilst shelving the books.

Confession Confusion  

(High School AU) You are determined to find out who Sehun likes even though you have feelings for him yourself.

Possessive Trait

(High School AU) You are grouped up with Jongdae and Baekhyun during Chemistry and Sehun can’t help but feel a little neglected *cough* Jealous *cough* when you hang out with the boys 

No Promises  

(High School AU) The popular Sehun asks for help with homework and gets your number and ends up falling for you as he spends time with you in classes

Overlooked Efforts

(Harry Potter AU) You claim to be not jealous of Sehun’s new study accomplice, deciding to make him jealous in revenge. Well that ends well…

Game Day

(Harry Potter AU) The star player of Slytherin -who also happens to be your boyfriend- is intently waiting for you to watch him at his Quiditch game, but you’re unsure whether to go or not.

Not -so-Secret Date

I let out a little giggle as he looked up at me flashing me that charming smile of his. I began running my fingers through his scalp as he continued to watch me with pure adoration in his eyes

Because I Love You

Maybe a highly appreciative boyfriend is something we all deserve, I’m just really lucky I have one…

Tree Topper

“I wish we could stay like this forever Y/N” He seriously sighed into my neck, as I reached down and ran my fingers through his soft locks, nodding in agreement.

Pin Me Down

“Come on Y/N, I was actually hoping for some competition” He cockily smirked, hovering over me as I rolled my eyes for the billionth time during the fight.

Tracing Patterns

I let a small smile take over my lips before slowly turning in his arms, which still didn’t stop his subconscious actions.

Hold me Close

I let out a little sigh before removing my hand, and finally looking up at his bare upper-half, just to flash him a tired smile before shutting my eyes again.

Unwind (M)

He sighed a little in content, and I continued to play with his locks in the attempt of relieving some of the stress from the day.

Leave a Mark (M)

Deciding to take matters into my own hands, I tucked my head into the crook of his neck and let out a little sigh.

Something New

I cut off his pointless rambling as I placed my small hands on his cheeks and pulled him into a kiss to reassure him of my happiness

Surprise Arrivals

I couldn’t help but marvel at her hopes of seeing him so soon. Missing him was one of the hardest things for her, yet she fought through it like the strong girl Sehun and I raised her to be.

Sunrise Serenity (M)

 I lightly leaned my back against his bare chest as he placed his head snugly into the crook of my neck, and I continued to now quietly hum the words.

Shut Up and Kiss Me 

I pulled away unwillingly and giggled as he leant his head back up trying to follow my lips; raising my eyebrow at the smug smirk plastered onto his face.

Last First Kiss

From his luscious lips, down to his perfectly jawline in addition to his long - single mole adorned - neck, which were all tied together by his beautiful milky white skin; complimenting his sharp features almost too perfectly.

Kiss Under the Stars (M)

My heart gently fluttered when I felt him lowering his body a bit to rest his head on my shoulder, taking me by surprise as he nuzzled his face into the crook of my neck.

Jealous Drive (M)

I shook my head at him before deciding to walk back to the comfort of the bar, but he was quick to grab my wrist and pull me to his front. “Dance with me” He brought his soft lips to my ear.

Fun in the Sun

As soon as you gave up and decided to wait for him at the shore, you felt a pair of hands grab your hips delicately and all you could do was let out a shriek at the top of your lungs in surprise.

Baby Steps - Daddy Daughter Day - Morning Routine

New dad Sehun is more than a little nervous and hesitant of his father skills, so you have to reassure him of how great of a dad he is.

Walking Away - Always Be the One

Letting you go seemed to be one of the worst decisions Sehun had made, but would you be willing to forgive him if he tried winning you back?

Stone Cold - Happiness in You (ft Kim Jongin)

Jongin is excited to introduce you to his new girlfriend, being completely oblivious of the fact that you have feelings for him. But there is only person keeping you emotionally stable through this, and it happens to be your friend Oh Sehun.

Don’t Say You Love Me (ft Park Chanyeol) - Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 ||

Your singleness becomes a bother to your brother like best friends Baekhyun and Junmyeon. This results in them setting out to find you your so-called soul mate, without consulting you of course. But will they both decide to agree on the same guy to be your perfect match?

anonymous asked:

But are we really sure that Lapis had forgiven Peridot about basically being stranded against her will in this planet by her, and because of this she had that terrible fusing experience with Jasper. She seems fine with it, but what if shes just bottling her resentment up? What if shes just playing along only to please Steven? Do you think that she genuinely forgave her, bad writing or theres actually some grudge in her heart?

She absolutely has forgiven Peridot, and absolutely isn’t just playing along to keep Steven happy.  And there’s no bad writing here, my friend.

If her relationship with Peridot was merely a facade, then there are a few things that would completely stop making sense as a result of this.  For instance:

Originally posted by giffing-lazuli

The pair of them were sitting watching the TV together in Beta before Steven even arrived…

…and had been sat together all night stargazing and then watching the sun rise - again, when Steven wasn’t around.

If Lapis was “living a lie”, then she wouldn’t continue her “act” when Steven isn’t around.  She’d have literally no reason to do that - we know that her and Peridot do sometimes spend a bit of time apart (such as when Peridot goes to Funland with her friends in Too Short To Ride), so surely she’d just constantly keep her distance from Peridot if Steven wasn’t there, and continue “pretending” as soon as Steven reappeared.

Not to mention that the barn’s redecoration was blatantly a collaborative effort…

…as was growing all of these vegetables…

…and this…

and this.

Also note how all of these things actually happened in Steven’s absence - again, this would be one hell of an “act” if it repeatedly continued even when Steven wasn’t there.  And yet, it does continue.

Because it’s no act.

Originally posted by geekylaugifs

How could Lapis possibly fake this reaction?  And why would she even do that?  Surely faking forgiveness would be enough, right?

Why would she constantly fake these loving looks (some of which she gives to Peridot when Steven isn’t even around)?  Why not just fake a simple friendship?  Why take it this far when there’s literally no need (given that Steven just wanted them to be freinds in the first place)?

Why would she make a point of saying that it took her a little while to be comfortable enough to sleep, whilst giving Peridot this look?  She clearly sleeps when Peridot is around – but, if she hated Peridot, then surely she wouldn’t do this?  People are at the most vulnerable when they’re sleeping, but she’s comfortable enough to do this around Peridot.

Why would she bother even playing along with Peridot when Steven wasn’t even on the same planet as them?

The answer is, of course, that her relationship with Peridot is 100% genuine.  There’s no reason why this wouldn’t be the case, and there’s absolutely no evidence to the contrary in the canon.

Do what makes you happy. Take care of yourself. Be carefree. We’re not going to live forever, and when you really think about it, it’s really not that long in the grand scheme of things. So live gracefully. Stop chasing towards material things and being someone that you’re not. Life is far too short to be anyone but yourself and to be doing anything that you’re not completely in love with.

Her soul knew, but she didn’t. Her life had changed completely since that moment, her destiny was intertwined to another person, which results to be the twin soul of her soul. She didn’t expect this in her life, but her soul did. Her soul was happy to have found that soul so identical to hers after a long time. It felt like coming back home again, the place where she has been from that moment on.
—  twinflames-doesexist
Writing Loners

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Final Fantasy XIV is an online video game that I occasionally dabble in that recently announced that players will be able to play as the “Samurai” class. 

As Final Fantasy XIV is home to a fairly congested roleplaying community, I fully predict such samurai characters to fully engage in hamfisted concepts like bushido, honour, and “the way of the sword” with about as much subtlety as a fifty-ton bomb demolishing a high rise apartment complex in a fiery apocalypse, complete with screaming children and unfortunate escapees leaping from windows.

In equal measure, I fully expect such characters to be “loners with dark pasts”, “seeking atonement”, or desiring solitude for completely arbitrary and laughable reasons.

Now perhaps this is just my cynicism, but I’ve seen many a trainwreck wherein a character is less “lone noble ronin wandering the country and rescuing peasants” and more “sword-wielding sociopath inexplicably killing random people who have very justified intentions”.

This post was written to try to stem that tide.

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why the signs are sad
  • <p> <b>Aries:</b> Is extremely independent so all they know is to pile way too much pressure on themselves. They end up doubting their own abilities and are often never comforted because they're always perceived as energetic & optimistic.<p/><b>Taurus:</b> Everyone depends on them because of their trustworthy demeanour. This means they bear the burden of their own and other peoples issues. Because of their stable nature, changes/natural stress can result in crippling anxiety.<p/><b>Gemini:</b> Is determined to keep up their bubbly façade. They try drown their own issues out with good times & long talks so they're never alone with their own thoughts. Nobody knows about the internal identity crisis that is destroying them from the inside out.<p/><b>Cancer:</b> Tearing themselves apart trying to decide what they want in life. They dwell on the past and constantly can't decide between their resentments and their fears. Theses contradictions often prove to be too hard to handle and make them prone to breakdowns.<p/><b>Leo:</b> Always worried about what the world thinks of them. They hide it well but they are very sensitive to the slightest comments & their ego is insatiable, often requiring them to over-think things and question themselves. Sadly, Leos value their dignity fiercely and will suffer in silence to keep their pride intact.<p/><b>Virgo:</b> Their thirst for knowledge and order have them constantly over-analysing every situation. Their brain is always striving for a purpose so without being assured that they are essential to someone, they can be left feeling useless & dejected. Barely anyone can sense their struggles because they are so detached. They appear cold and unapproachable when they are actually afraid of being hurt/rejected.<p/><b>Libra:</b> Consistently seeking peace and acceptance. They give themselves endlessly trying to make others happy and in the end are left asking who they really are. Because of this, they lack self-confidence and desperately try complete themselves through the approval of others. They're always tired from trying to prove themselves but just can't will themselves to stop.<p/><b>Scorpio:</b> Nearly always misunderstood. This aspect combined with their hesitance to trust leaves them with few people they can confide in. They're very picky with who knows what about them because they feel secure with full control over a situation. When something goes wrong within their plan, they are intensely anxious over the result and keep their strong fear of failure hidden from everyone. They're so bottled up that their emotions can hit them like a brick wall at any point, leaving them broken with nobody to talk to.<p/><b>Sagittarius:</b> Barely ever gets sad. So energetic and enthusiastic that they feel held back by emotional obligations and attachments. They perceive sad spells as wastes of energy and prefer to be seeking knowledge and exploring their world. On the rare occasion they are sad, it's probably because of another persons selfish actions, still, their hurt won't last long and they'll come back learning a lot from the experience.<p/><b>Capricorn:</b> Constantly tiring themselves out while they try to prove themselves. Underneath their strong, collected exterior is an uninterrupted feeling that they are unworthy. Because they seek structure and approval, they need to be told that they are appreciated to sense the security they seek. Without acknowledgement from people around them they become vulnerable and will only continue to blame themselves.<p/><b>Aquarius:</b> Seemingly above emotions. They are driven by their intellect and will see things for what they are instead of over-thinking something and unnecessarily making themselves sad. Often, they will take the criticism and disagreements of others personally and with offence but the dejection usually won't last long. Their biggest weakness is their detachment from others. This can lead to a disregard for other peoples feelings and eventually their own. Can be in denial about their sadness for a long time before they seek help.<p/><b>Pisces:</b> Has a knack for making things worse for themselves. Their sensitivity and loyalty often has them suffering for the sake of the people they love and leaving themselves no choice but to escape their own problems. Inside, their emotions are often extreme and conflicting so when they finally feel the weight of their issues, the aftermath can be severe. Their escapist ways of self-indulgence and procrastination only serve to amplify their sadness and unless they're constantly stimulated by their situation, they can dangerously spiral into a routine of self-pity & negligence.<p/></p>

anonymous asked:

What do you think the RFA+Saeran would do if them and MC wanted to have kids but one of them was infertile?

Obstetrics and gynecology wasn’t exactly my favorite during my uni days (I preferred anatomy and pathophysiology), but this was interesting to read up on! Enjoy!


RFA + Saeran react to inferility


  • It’s not like you couldn’t get pregnant, but you’ve had miscarriage upon miscarriage
  • He was overjoyed when he finally thought you could have a baby that one time when the test came back positive
  • Only to find out that it was a cancerous mass that started to develop inside your uterus
  • You had to undergo chemotherapy for a year, and he was there to support you all the way
  • You finally finished your treatment cycles and was finally declared cancer-free, but then you were advised to not try to get pregnant within a year
  • You weren’t getting any younger, and the chances of you having a safe pregnancy were getting slimmer
  • He was worried too, but he tried to cheer you up as best as he can; however, you just wouldn’t come out of your slump.
  • He suggested that you use a surrogate instead, and you readily agree
  • The process of finding the right surrogate was longer than expected, but you found one at last
  • There was nothing wrong with your eggs and his sperm, so you had the fertilized egg artificially implanted on the surrogate
  • Cried when he finally had the baby in his arms


  • Neither of you were sterile, but you just couldn’t get pregnant even after two years of trying.
  • He wondered if it had to do anything about your busy schedules
  • So he decided to go on hiatus for a few months to see if you could conceive.
  • But still, nothing.
  • He was ready to be a dad, dammit.
  • But he couldn’t blame you either.
  • However, one of your younger cousins secretly gave birth out of wedlock, and asked if you could take in the child for her instead because she was scared of her family rejecting her.
  • He was unsure at first, but he couldn’t say no when he saw you look longingly at the infant.
  • So you took the baby in, and legally put them in your family register
  • Enjoyed every minute of being a father, even if it meant that you had to take turns waking up in the middle of the night to take care of the child.
  • Loved them just the same even when you finally got pregnant a year after.


  • What were that chances of both of you being infertile, right?
  • But her excessive caffeine intake caused her to have immature eggs
  • You had painful menstrual periods, and upon having yourself checked, you discovered that there were abnormal growths in your ovaries
  • Was worried about your condition more than hers, so she urged you to have yourself treated first
  • Read up on possible options for having kids, and discussed them with you.
  • You were a little terrified when she had you watch a video of childbirth, so you both opted for adoption instead.


  • Your ovaries have stopped working during your early 20’s, even before you met him
  • He still married you even when he knew your condition, and didn’t tell his father about it
  • However, being the only child, he had the responsibility of producing an heir
  • When his father learns of your infertility, he urges Jumin to separate with you and find a woman who can give him a child.
  • But he can’t do that to you, no.
  • Wouldn’t even consider surrogate services because he didn’t trust them to just cut off connections after giving birth and getting paid.
  • Not even in-vitro fertilization because that would require donor eggs.
  • Familial responsibilities still require him to have a child though.
  • You also wanted a child, and would look longingly at couples with children
  • Started hosting charity projects for orphans and orphanages, claiming that it was all about social responsibility and giving the company a good image.
  • There was a charity drive for orphanages that C&R hosted, and you went together with him that day
  • You couldn’t take your eyes off a particular baby boy, and he saw how happy you were when one of the staff put him in your arms
  • Decided to adopt the infant on the spot
  • Adoption processing took a while, and it made headlines upon headlines
  • Chairman Han was especially furious with him, insisting that you should’ve had an artificial conception instead
  • But he’d come to love the baby too, and would go through anything just to keep the both of you safe and loved.


  • Was overjoyed when he found out you were with child
  • He was so excited that he was finally going to have kids
  • But then, you got involved in a hit and run accident on your 8th month
  • The doctors had no choice but to remove your uterus in order to save your life
  • However, they couldn’t save the baby
  • Was worried and devastated upon hearing about what happened, but he couldn’t bring himself to see you personally
  • It took him a few days before he finally had the courage to go visit you
  • You looked so frail and depressed
  • After all, you just lost your child and the ability to conceive another one
  • Neither of you could look at each other’s eyes
  • Both of you blurt out “I’m sorry“ at the same time
  • You maintain eye contact with him for a couple of seconds before you both break down in each other’s arms
  • Realized that he shouldn’t have been selfish and went to see you right away when you started putting the blame on yourself
  • “It-it’s alright, MC. I’ll still love you, and we can still be a family even if it’s just us and Saeran”


  • The drugs he was forcefully given had affected more than just his psyche
  • It also resulted in him having a low sperm count and low sperm quality
  • He was initially against Saeyoung volunteering to have his sperm used instead, but gave in once you expressed your desire to have kids
  • So you underwent a procedure to have his brother’s sperm artificially implanted in you
  • Wasn’t really happy about the knowledge that Saeyoung was technically the father, and this would cause you to have arguments.
  • Did a complete turn around when he finally had the infant in his arms.
  • Unexpectedly turned out to be a good parent, and would even let his brother co-parent sometimes.
Komaeda and Hinata in DR2.5

Before you ask, yes. This is a sequel to That Post, where I waste my time on a university thesis-worthy essay trying to convince you why the Danganronpa 2.5 OVA both brought a decent conclusion to Komaeda as a character, and showcased Komaeda and Hinata as perfect for each other. Am I looking too deep into everything? Possibly. Do I regret it? Nope.

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I’ve recently become aware of the fact that I have a very particular interpretation of Seto’s ambition towards building amusement parks that would be open freely to orphaned children. I’m going to preface this by saying that I in no way think this dream of his is anything but a positive. But I did always understand it as existing within the boundaries of limited empathy. I didn’t think it was a coincidence that Seto’s dream is based specifically in righting the greater wrongs that had personally victimised him in his life. I assumed that, when Seto fostered this dream in his youth, alone and uncared for at the orphanage, it was primarily a power fantasy. It was a dream about having the resources and sway to turn his life around. To be the one holding the reins that could decide and create a positive outcome for him and his brother (and the limited number of others whose struggles he could directly identify with).

By this understanding, contrary to Seto’s thoughts, it’s not his heart he’s rediscovering, it’s his sense of direction. Seto was successful in grabbing power from Gouzaburou but, in the process, he succumbed to Gouzaburou’s doctrine of being motivated by (and thus perpetuating) hatred. This moment is then a ratification of Seto’s purpose in his struggle against Gouzaburou - once his ambitions and need for power were not fueled by hate, but fueled by a need to see him and his brother to a place of safety and joy. Seeing this original goal through - regardless of how idealistic and ill-formed - is the only way to ‘win’ his ‘shadow game’ against Gouzaburou.

– And that’s all well and fine, but it seems I’ve been overlooking that there are other ways of interpreting what’s happening here. Given how poorly attuned modern Seto is to reading other people’s emotions, I never really considered that the happiness of others might be a motivating factor to Seto’s goals here. It flat out did not occur to me that Seto might be deeply and altruistically motivated by the thought of a bunch of smiling children. Although I’m not as personally touched by this interpretation, it seems to be highly parsimonious with what we’re shown in canon: little Seto’s joyous agreement when Mokuba say ‘we can all play together?’, the fact that Seto also seems to feel a deep concern for people victimised by Gouzaburou’s war mongering, Seto saying his ‘heart’ was buried in ruins. Upon reflection, it seems completely plausible that Seto was acting out of concern for others.

In the final analysis, it may not matter. On a practical level, Seto’s plan to open theme parks will bring happiness to a lot of unprivileged children. Regardless of whether the motivation is that happiness, or the the power to grant it, the result is a net positive. (And I don’t think Seto is so unaware of his position in the world as an adult that he doesn’t truly wish to do more good than harm.) But I do feel these fragments of canon really effect how you understand Seto, especially in a developmental manner. What child Seto’s purpose in dreaming of opening theme parks worldwide? What is it that Seto reaching for and accessing in these memories of him and Mokuba? Was Seto a caring child that had all the kindness stomped out of him by Gouzaburou? Or was he already an asocial and self-important (but harmless) little brat whose worst instincts were built-upon and taken and twisted into something far crueler and more destructive than they ever should have been? Or is there a third/forth/fifth option here? Is this an important distinction in how people in this fandom interact with Seto’s character?


and thank you so much @nenya85 for discussing things with me and letting me use her manga scans~

About Cosplay

Real quick, before I go completely MIA, I want to share something you probably would’ve have known if you haven’t seen my DA, that being my first full cosplay, of Sans. I had forgotten to post about it when I started uploading my Undertale art, so I guess now’s as good a time as any. So, if you have the time, I want to tell you about and show you the process.

First off, I live near the Phoenix area in Arizona, so I’ve been to Saboten Con (when it was still around) and twice to Phoenix ComiCon. First time was probably two or three years ago. Back then it wasn’t nearly as expanded as it is now. Last time I went, I was barely in costume, if at all, but I had wanted to create a full cosplay. At first I wanted to be a Pokemon trainer, but it fell by the wayside. After some time, I took on the endeavor of creating a Sans cosplay. 

I started this cosplay in December of last year. This was the first iteration of the foam mask, back when I hadn’t quite gotten the hang of my drawing style for Sans. Looking back, it’s pretty fugly to me, but ya know, it was very early in, before I had gotten a grasp on what I was doing.

I had actually struggled to make the base underneath the face. It took looking up a fursuit tutorial on YouTube for me to realize, “Oh! That’s how you do it!” The black cloth in the sockets here was temporary while I worked on them. The teeth also got majorly redone later on. 

And here’s my cat Milo chillin’ out on the scraps. Just thought I’d throw that in too.

Here, I had realized that he needed a bit of a subtle brow ridge that most skeletons have. Plus, while the temporary cloth was out, seeing it placed perfectly over my tablet’s blue light, I had to take a picture. 

I was also figuring out the temples and realized they were a bit anatomically incorrect. The mouth was going through a redesign as well. Meaning I had to cut out the teeth that were already there and start over.

Then, the new semester started and I was feeling pretty demotivated to work on it. I did work a bit on it here and there, but it mostly sat in one corner of my desk, unfinished. After the passing of my grandma, I almost couldn’t bring myself to work on it. It sat unfinished even longer. But once the semester started coming to a close and I heard Phoenix ComiCon was coming up, I had the urge to pick it up again. After a metric ton of cutting, trimming, gluing, and trimming again, this was the result:

At this point, I was getting more and more excited about actually seeing it finished. I constantly reminded myself of how proud my grandma would be of me, since I was able to show her the earlier stages before her passing. I’m still sad I’ll never get to show her the completed piece, but I hammer it into myself that she would be immensely happy for me. Anyway, the jacket shown here, turned out to be a darker shade of blue than what I was going for. When I searched up Sans’s in-game sprite, it turned out I needed a lighter shade of blue, so I ordered one off of Amazon after seeing a blog page linking to ideal pieces for a Sans cosplay. I kept the original jacket, since it does get cold in Arizona during the brief winter season.

After this stage, I did a bunch of running around, much to my parents’ expense since I can’t drive, finding a bunch of other materials, such as polyester padding, a white medium shirt to put over the padding, black and white fabric for the pants, tights and polyester cloth for the leggings, black opera-length gloves, white and black fabric paint, polyester clay, grey fleece for the jacket hoodie, a pair of fresh socks that stretch above the ankles, a pair of perfectly pink fuzzy slippers from Sears, wood filler, sandpaper, LED lights, batteries for said lights… Whoo! Okay, yeah. Bottom line, I got a crap ton of stuff.

For the padding, I sewed a pair of old shirts together, one inside the other, and stuffed the padding in between, around my whole middle, and in the shoulders, to give Sans his shallow, stout look. That all took me under a few hours to figure out and put together. After that, I believe, I made the shorts using a pair of existing shorts as a template. They were a bit saggy in the crotch area, but they worked nicely, especially when fitting them over the padding. I also did the hand bones, using the gloves, fabric paint, and polymer clay bones, which I hot glued onto the top of the gloves. Wearing them was also a bit weird. I couldn’t close my fist all the way, but they worked all right.

Not pictured here was the fabric paint on the palm side. Unfortunately, I had to constantly reinforce the glue to keep the bones from popping off. Polymer, as I realized too late, doesn’t like sticking to glue very much, especially with hands that need to be used. Very unfortunately, my fears came true and two of the finger bones popped off during a panel I went to. Lesson learned. This is one baby I have to kill. I’ll go back and completely redo the hands in a different way. They may not be entirely anatomically accurate, but they’ll function. At least the old ones, which I’ve thrown into the garbage, looked cool. They had a nice dimension and were fun to look at.

So, after that, I covered the mask in paper mache (which I forgot to take a picture of. Sorry.) and started laying on the wood filler for the mask.

The wood filler was pretty nice to work with, as it allowed for additional sculpting I couldn’t do with the foam. At this point, Con was coming up fast and I was running out of time. I needed to start sanding. Much to my frustration, it was taking forever. I had left many spots unsanded where the filler didn’t quite stick. It was especially noticeable when I started laying on the gesso. Mom was trying to help me realize that the cosplay may not be complete in time and that I should take more time to work on it and just not go in costume. I hated admitting even to myself that she had a point. I refused to believe I couldn’t do it. I wanted to feel like I had accomplished something by finishing this sucker in time for Con. I was already frustrated at the shoddy work and I stormed into my room (I had been working for hours on end in hot weather just outside the house, doing nothing but sanding and laying on gesso). 

I had the biggest fit of my life. Tears streamed down my face. I cried and moaned and even screamed. I pounded my bed like an enraged monkey. All these revelations were going through my head during my fit. Then I thought, why not fill the patchy spots with more wood filler, even over the gesso? I had clearly skimped on it anyway. Once my fit was over, I went right back to work with my idea. It worked. After all the patches were filled, I went back to sanding. I filled where I needed to and sanded again until it was all smooth. I accepted that I wouldn’t get it done before Con started and that I’d miss the Undertale meetup, which, yeah, I did miss it.

I spent the next day at Con, taking pictures, marveling at the more impressive costumes and squeed anytime I saw a fellow Undertale cosplayer. I even came across two young ladies dressed as gender-bent Sans and Papyrus. The Papyrus cosplayer was awesome enough to do the voice when I asked if I could take their picture. That, by the way, is something I appreciate with cosplayers, when they not only dress up as a fun character but play the role as well. It really enriches the experience for me.

Later I went to the exhibition hall and stood in line to see renonwed comic artist George Perez. Needless to say, standing in line wasn’t very fun, but I had brought a few prints of my work with me and was determined to have him evaluate it. Seeing him draw and interacting with the fans was definitely a treat. He had such an energy about him that was very infectious. He had a clear love for his work and his fans that he is capable of staying at his booth for hours on end and very rarely take a break. Eventually, I and my sister, who was also there to get her portfolio evaluated, approached him. Sadly, because of how many people were in line to see him, he couldn’t evaluate our portfolios, but he was very nice about it and directed us to another great comic artist named Tony Parker, who I hadn’t heard of until then. He gave me some very good pointers about pushing a character’s pose and about visual flow when it came to comics. Some of what he had to say I had already sort of known, but it was more than valuable hearing his professional opinion. By that time, my feet were screaming at me and we went home.

Over the next couple days, I went back to finishing my cosplay. I worked on the leggings by cutting out some leg bone shapes out of polyester fabric and hand sewed them straight onto the tights as I wore them. Yes, I did poke myself a number of times. I also had to bend over pretty far to reach around my shins and down to my ankles. On top of that, I had gotten back to sanding the mask and spent the rest of the day laying on several coats of gesso. While waiting for the gesso to dry, I went out and bought the slippers I needed. Once the leggings were done, I finished the gesso and painted the inside of the eyesockets black to minimize light reflection. I then painted the little wrinkles under the eyes and the teeth details. After that, I hot glued the once temporary black fabric into the inner edges of the eyesockets and the nose hole. The LEDs I left for absolute last. These were crucial to the entire look. I mean, obviously. Unfortunately, I didn’t have time or the technical know-how for a complex wiring hook-up, so I stuck the LEDs onto two button batteries with black electric tape and then placed them behind the eyesocket fabric using more tape. I also taped tissue paper around the lights to cut down the ultra brightness. And because I have no switch to turn the lights off, the LEDs had to stay lit up. But they functioned and they actually looked pretty frightening, especially in the dark.

Once I’m able to, I’ll go out and get the parts I need to create a proper and better hook-up. I stayed up until after 2am just to see the eyes finished and I still was able to get up early the next day.

And this is what came from it all:

That’s me on the far left along with a bunch of lovely Charas and Frisks. This was the only picture I was able to get of my full costume that day, so I apologize for the cut at the bottom. I assure you I am wearing the slippers here, and they are comfy as hell. The mouth made it a bit hard for people to hear me and some cracks did appear around the edges, but the mask held up very nicely overall. I could not tell you how many people stopped me for a picture. Seeing their faces light up when they saw me made it all worth it. I want to do this again sometime soon, once I’ve made some improvements, and hopefully make it to the next meetup at whatever con may be coming up next in the future. What a journey this was. What an amazing experience! 10/10 Would cosplay again.