It rained tonight and I swear I saw your face 10 times in the drops that fell from the skyline, like you were crying. Or was it me who was crying with water streaming down my cheeks. Your face flashed like a frenzy, come and gone trying to escape from under my presence. My breathe made the air fill with a smoke and I could not see through the fog anymore you disappeared on me again like we’ve been playing games of hide and seek where only you could ever win.
It rained tonight and every time I heard the pitter patter on the pavement and looked at the cement I imagined the sound of your footsteps coming home to greet me after a meeting with the boys. But instead the only thing walking on the concrete is my own two feet looking for a place away from all the noise so I dont have to pretend that you’re on your way up to kiss me anymore.
It rained tonight and the ground smelled so sweet like everything was new and fresh and somewhere in there I caught a waft of that cologne you used to wear just for me. You did a lot of things just for me, like cheat and break everything around me so that I would have nothing to my name and when you would waltz back in to meet me I would need to have something so I had to take your hand and claim it so I didnt feel l so homeless.
It rained tonight and I let myself get drenched. I closed my eyes and felt your skin on my skin the entire time the way it used to be. Like every time a drop hit me I would feel it with everything like you had just touched me but I mean eventually and you used to hit me and try to make me feel everything like you’re touch was too soft for human skin you wanted me to feel you so everything was rough I couldn’t complain. I made a home out of you but one day my home was bull dozed down and in the wreckage I found a text message, said you couldn’t come around anymore. Was there something holding you back or did I just push you away too many times. When I go to sleep at night, though I sleep in a bed I know that home is where the heart is and I think you took mine with you when you left. I can’t tell if I’m whole or not.
It rained tonight and I swear I saw your face.