Hi, I'm a bit confused, maybe you cab help me. I'm not sex-repulsed but I'm 21 and I haven't had a physical/romantical relationship or a crush on someone. I wouldn't mind being aro/ace but I don't know if I am? The whole 'no sexual/romantic attraction' thing really bugs me. How do you know you're not feeling something if you don't know how it would feel like? Like, how do you know you're sexually attracted to someone? I just don't understand the concept, all the definitions sound just so empty..
I get how the definitions could seem empty. It’s like trying to describe a negative number. How do you show or touch -1 apples? In a perfect world I’d think we’d talk more about that void of feeling. That ‘I don’t think I feel that but maybe the attraction is hiding in the attic?’ And personally, I always tend to lend towards if you are asking yourself if you do and your gut isn’t like yeah of course?? then you likely somewhere on the scale of asexuality. Because being on the scale at all is like… when everyone knows what a word means and you are just like ’?? why yes I’ve heard of that word. everyone mentions it, of course I know… that word.’ When in reality you personally don’t know the word or feeling like everyone else does. To really mix metaphors here I feel like it’s being in an art class and the teacher says and now use the blue paint. And you are looking at your paints like blue? None of these are really blue? I have this teal? Do they mean this or does everyone else have a different than me? And so you kind of crane you neck to try to see if you are working with the same paints.
To answer your question directly, you trust yourself. When I paint with blue it always comes out different. This experience is notability different to me.