not anymore

Realizing that I don’t want or need you anymore is a beautiful thing. I don’t survive through your compliments or compulsively check to see if you’ve texted me. Your opinion of me no longer makes or breaks my day. I don’t need you anymore. I don’t want you, at least not as a lover, either. It’s beautiful.
Darling, you hurt me. But like I said, I will always love you. Even if I don’t want you in my life anymore I will never stop loving you. I just, realized I’m better without you.
—  Unknown
When you’re around someone, so much, for so long, they become a part of you, and when they go away, you don’t know how to live without them.
Sagittarius & Libra
  • Sagittarius: There is so many things I have to do before I get ready for that party tomorrow night... So, what are your plans for New Year's Eve?
  • Libra, smiles: Netflix and self-pity!
  • Sagittarius: Oh.
  • Libra: Yeah. Bitch.
Something I wrote when we were still in love

“That is always my favourite part. Waking up together.”

A ray of sun has found its way through the curtain. It knocks on my eyelid. I try to move, my arm is stuck. It’s asleep. Carefully, I separate lashes smudged with mascara to realise it’s underneath him. I gently stroke his nose, cheek, lips with my other hand. He lets out a soft murmur. I pull my arm out and put my head on his chest. Nuzzling the crook of his neck, placing soft kisses all over it. The corners of his mouth curl into a smile, and when he opens his eyes and looks at me the smile is all over his face, all over him. I feel a flutter in my chest, he still makes me tingly just like that. We eat each other with our eyes until we can’t wait any longer and then we kiss each other, soft at first and then hard, hard. We chit-chat. We fall asleep. We wake up again. We make out. Maybe we fall asleep once more before we start searching the room for t-shirts and panties. No, wait, no, not just yet. I fall backwards back in bed with him on top of me. Giggles, make outs, cuddles. I think about how lucky I am to be the one that gets to wake up with him. It takes time, we let it take time. And it’s the best time of the whole day.

- j.h.j.h.

hi just want to let y’all know that avi brad and johann when on date at the chug n squeeze. brad threw the literally ugliest most lopsided bowl anyone has ever seen. avi made an alright looking cup with no handle bc fuck making a handle. johann sat in a chair between brad and avi’s wheels bc this really isn’t his creative medium