not ambitious but rubbish

A ‘Eulogy’

I don’t have the proper words to express what I’m feeling at the moment, but I’m damn well gonna try anyway because I need to get some stuff out of my system. How hard can it be?

It’s been nearly 7 years since I discovered my love for Top Gear, and I can pinpoint it exactly, but I won’t bore you with that story again. At that time those three idiots and their ridiculous antics pulled me out of hole in which I’d found myself buried in - a place where it felt like life would never be good again. Who knew that three middle aged men falling over could have such a profound impact on someone’s psyche? 

Since then Top Gear has had such a massive impact on my life, and I’ve followed it religiously - as may be quite visible from the fact that I run, and have run this blog since the beginning quite a few years ago.
There’s nothing like the excitement of watching a brand new Top Gear episode - the rush never gets old. Any fan will know this. 

I am not ashamed to say that when I was lucky enough to experience seeing two of the boys do Top Gear Live back in 2011, I teared up. Seeing someone who has had - and continues to have - such a massive influence on your life is quite indescribable and very emotional. 

It seems, though, that this is the end. At least as we know it. 

There is, of course, massive speculation going on at the moment as to what will happen now; will they go to another channel? Will the other two continue with a new host? Etc., etc. 

Here’s what I personally think will happen: I don’t believe that they will continue to do “Top Gear” (in a different version since the BBC own the rights to that particular name) on another channel. I honestly believe that this will be, for them, the end of the road of that particular endeavor. It would be too difficult to try and start up a ‘new type’ of show somewhere else, after having done 22 series of this one. Neither do I believe that James or Richard wishes to continue on the show without Jeremy. This is something I believed even before James stated that they were ‘a package’. These men have spend 12-13 years working together so closely, that there is no way they were going to just ‘abandon’ one and keep going as a twosome with a new third wheel. 

My hope - and I do believe it is a slightly unbelievably optimistic and unrealistic one - is that the three of them will maybe do something like, I don’t know, funny documentaries or whatever together. They could find something to do as ‘a package’, because, in my mind, that’s what they always will be. Realistically I’m pretty sure that they are just going to do their own things, and just see each other in their spare time. 

At this point I am just sat with a very hollow feeling, something I know that many other people are too, so I can’t imagine what it must feel like being any of the three boys at this moment. 

Despite all the sadness it is important that we at this point remember that we have been lucky enough to be granted nearly 22 Series of the best TV show that has ever existed. That is an exceedingly large number of series, and for that I am eternally grateful. I cannot put into words how saddened I am by the fact that the end has come about so abruptly, and that we will never get to have a proper goodbye. We knew the end was coming eventually - the last couple of years it’s been stressful with every new series, fearing that it would be the last - and now we have reached the end, far too prematurely. 

I would just like to thank Richard, James & Jeremy for their endless hours of entertainment, and for always being able to put a smile on my face even in the darkest of times. I know that they will never read this, but it is still something that I wish to express, and I hope they know how many people in the world that feel the same way that I do. 

Forever and always, ‘Ambitious, but Rubbish’, 

TopGearAddiction xxx