not a reason to love being alive

Today, the amazing Jacksepticeye reached 14 million subscribers! It’s insane! I must thank you man for everything you’ve done. I feel safe and secure as I watch you as I have ASD and anxiety. You make me laugh ando make me feel not ashamed for being a ridiculously loud person 😂. I’m glad my best friend @all-you-sinners-hum-hallellujah introduced me to you. I know how much you mean to everyone and I wanna let you know how much you mean to me. I love you so much, I’m glad you exist in my life. You are in a pile of my reasons why I am alive. I hope you enjoy this as much as everyone else’s amazing art!((P.s.- I am sorry my art is bad but I HAD to draw for you! I am gonna a make sure I do more in the future too!))

some rare things about miraculous ladybug in the young superheroine genre:

  • the protagonists parents are alive, realistic, and supportive
  • the female bitchy villain is shown to have a reason to be that way, and has potential for growth, rather than just existing to be hated

  • the male love interest has a perspective and struggles of his own to deal with, life not entirely revolving around the mc

  • they arent afraid to show adults being faulted and human, in a realistic way where they have their own struggles

  • the male protagonist has meaningful male friendships that get important screen time

  • they hint on the background characters relationships with eachother too, not only having them revolve around the protagonists

  • they are unafraid to drop in mixed-race or single parent families casually, which gives deeper realism to the world.
  • despite the skin-tight spandex, noone is really sexualized.

  • they arent afraid to give the female lead faults, and has them specifically addressed by the male lead, he doesnt de-humanize her. 
  • they show anger as unhealthy and akumatizing, rather than a righteous motivation that gives people strength.
this show is so different to the cliche ones i grew up with and i think it’s a much better example of a female superhero in a relateable way to kids.
feel free to add more that you can think off

Reasons to stay alive: 

- I can’t know what the future brings and i don’t want to throw away my chance to see it

- dead people can’t laugh and i don’t want to give up my chance to laugh, even if i don’t have much to laugh about right now

- I can and will learn to love being alive 

- my pets wouldn’t understand why i’m not coming home

- the moon is beautiful and yes, even small things like that are reason enough to not kill myself

- in a year or two or maybe ten, i’ll be thankful that i stayed alive, even if i don’t think so right now

-  there are so many books i didn’t read yet, songs i didn’t hear yet, movies i didn’t watch yet, conversations i didn’t have yet 

- my future friends i didn’t even meet yet will be happy i do

- my depression can go f*ck itself

- one day, i’ll be covered in tattoos and love my skin 

-  dead people can’t go to concerts

- i deserve to be alive 

- my favorite band members would want me to 

- i can just accept my suicidal thoughts as something i do not need to act on. I’ll distract myself. I can want to die but i do not need to act on it.

-  life has music and music is a pretty amazing thing

- so what if all i ever achieve in life is watching a whole tv show in 3 days? I still have value as a human being and i deserve to be alive!

-  there are reasons to stay alive. Even when my mental illness keeps me from seeing them, they’re still there.

-  a bad day is no reason to end my life. Even a lot of bad days in a row are not a reason to end my life. Better days will come!

- maybe one day my story will inspire somebody else to stay alive

- i know i can do good in the world and i will not throw away my chance to

- staying alive itself is a brave thing to do and reason to be proud of myself

Reasons to stay alive

The sound of a baby’s laugh

The colors of Sunrises and Sunsets

Little kids excitingly wanting to show you something they made/can do

The sound of the rain pattering outside

A dog being happy to see you

People holding the door open for strangers

Old people telling stories from when they were your age

Stargazing in random places

People talking about something they have a passion for

The strum of a guitar by a campfire 

Music that connects with your soul

Cats rubbing up against your legs

Learning something new and interesting

Genially good people, just like you

These may be little things, but they are what make life beautiful.

I don’t want you to miss any of them. Stay alive, okay love? <3

MBTI - Alternative Groups # 2

The Anarchical Dreamers - INFP, ENFP, ISFP, ESFP

Originally posted by blissfullydrifting

People were created to be loved. Things were created to be used. The reason why the world is in chaos is because things are being loved and people are being used.

The Inquisitive Inventors - INTP, ENTP, ISTP, ESTP

Originally posted by ipusheveryoneaway

The truth, and reality hurts, So we lie.. to everyone, but specially ourselves.

The Fierceless Warriors - INTJ, ENTJ, ISTJ, ESTJ

Originally posted by whysolina

Don’t call it a fight when you know it’s a war

The Wise Kind-Hearted - INFJ, ENFJ, ISFJ, ESFJ

Originally posted by alwayssleepyneversleeping

That’s how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can’t breathe. that’s how you survive. By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won’t feel this way. It won’t hurt this much

Sadness is my power.


I heal people’s wounds with it. I heal my own wounds with it. I teach people how to wield it but more sadly—people dismiss it for pessimism or nihilism, and I can’t really blame them for telling me that I should be more positive and that I should choose to be happy and that I should avoid thoughts that make me sad and think of positive thoughts instead.


The thing is—sadness cannot be buried alive with positive thoughts. Positive thoughts will only serve as fertilizer to the sadness that is planted deep beneath a person’s heart. And when sadness is neglected for a long period of time—it could grow into anger and irritation. And that’s the reason why some people experience burnout in life because we live in a society that romanticizes over exhaustion and over positive thinking that we forget that expressing our sadness to the people we love in life is the key to our total well-being which is much better than temporary happiness that is caused by sadness suppressing self-affirmations that are a common practice these days.


So rather than using over exhaustion to improve ourselves why don’t we give self-care and self-love a chance by being more truthful in what we truly feel. And then find the energy that we need in whatever we do in life from the comfort and sympathy of the people we love in times of sadness and happiness. And then we can reciprocate by spending quality time with the people we love whether they’re happy or sad. Because the human emotion is like a piano composed of white and black keys. And the black keys creates beautiful music too when combined with the white keys.


In conclusion, the key to successful well-being is being emotionally literate. And it all starts by accepting the emotions that we’re truly feeling. After all the truth will always set us free.

—  Juansen Dizon // The Healing Power of Sadness
Okay so season 2

So I loved season 2 a lot. Like it had a lot of good things like KEITH BEING HALF GARLA and MATT BEING ALIVE but then some other things happened that got me super salty so I’m just gonna list then
1. Lowkey KeithxAllura moments…like I’m sorry but no. I get it if you ship it or whatever but it’s not something I like very much. For reasons that I more ship Allura and Shiro if anything. Also I don’t want this new Voltron being like the old version. I want it to be something new and from what it looks like it’s kinda going that way but hopefully season 3 will fix that
2. Lance had hardly any screen time it felt like and I love him and I just want to see him more :(
3. Shiro might be dead or gone?! Like wtf noooo bitch back off. I swear if Keith become the black paladin I’m going to explode. I also don’t want my fucking space dad to die
That’s pretty much all my thoughts on what I hate tbh. Everything else was gr8

Imagine being the Winchesters' friend and falling back into old habits after Zachariah told you Castiel no longer loved you.


“You are nothing but a maggot inside a worm’s ass. Do you really think someone as important as Castiel would ever love you?”

Zachariah’s words floated around your head for the millionth time today. The glowing blue necklace around your neck couldn’t even distract you from the angel’s words. Maybe he was right. Maybe Castiel didn’t love you.

Castiel is the only reason you’re alive, and even the Winchester’s know that. He came to you in your time of weakness and showed you where to find the light at the end of the tunnel again. He pulled you from the edge multiple times. You had him to thank for the beating of your heart. For a while, life was good up until now.

“Y/n?”  The familiar voice brought you back from the depths of your thoughts just in time before the tears came falling. Quickly, you jerked your sleeves down to hide the pain from the night before. If Castiel saw…it’d break him. “What are you doing? Are you okay?”

“What? Of course I’m okay,” you smiled, but your words didn’t add up with your appearance. Sitting on the edge of your bed dazing off while your eyes were in a dead stare at the ground didn’t seem too okay. Even an angel with no experience with human emotion could see that.

“Why didn’t you tell me you made it back home?” he asked.

You shrugged. “Figured you didn’t care.”

His ocean blue eyes faded to a dark stormy sea. “Y/n, what are you talking about? I thought we were in what you humans called a relationship?”

“We are,” you scoffed, “but-”

“But, what?”

“I don’t think you love me.” There. It was out. There was no taking it back.

The angel’s head cocked to the side in confusion and shock. For the first time in a very long time, he felt the true pain of sadness. The heartbreak of love. “Why do you think that? I thought I clarified that you are the only human that has ever made me feel this way.”

“But why? Why do you love me! I am nothing but a maggot inside a worm’s ass and you are actually someone…someone that is needed…You, Castiel, have a purpose. I do not. I am a poor excuse of a human being.” Hearing those words in the air once again caused the damns to break. Staring your lover in the eyes, tears fell onto the floor where the two of you danced on your anniversary night.

“Why say such terrible lies about yourself?”

“They aren’t lies-”

“Yes they are, Y/n,” Castiel insured. His tone was one not to be argued with. Hearing you say something so awful about yourself caused Cas’s blood to boil to the point of snapping. “I love you, and I am sure of that. You mean more to me than I could ever imagine. I thought all humans were horrible creatures until I met you. You showed me that there is still hope for this Earth!” He stepped forward only to wipe away a tear that was making its way down your streaked cheek. “You are important. You are needed. You are loved. Without you…I’m nothing. Don’t you understand that?”

“But, Zachariah said-”

“Forget what he said. Listen to what I’m saying. I fell for you. I burned in the fiery pits of hell for you…but I’d do it all again."  



Requested by @heirofthejedi

Reasons for a Tokyo Ghoul:RE Anime.

Even if they are bound to butcher it…

  •   Half my babies are dead or absorbed by the main personality. I need to see them alive and well again.
  •   Haise needs all the love…
  •   Tsukiyama’s growth as a character need to be seen by anime viewers! 
  •   Same goes for Takizawa and his downfall, he needs love and understanding plus people not calling him a wimp…
  •    Akira Holy Mother of the CCG
  •    I just… want more people to scream about everything with fervor.
  •    I want to see Saiko calling Haise mamman on a screen and him responding to it. and him being comfortable dressing as a woman. It just… makes me so happy seeing a main character of an anime/manga like that…

Anyway BPD is an awful and evil and consuming and self-destructive illness that will drive you to loathe your entire being so much that you feel like 1/8th of a person. It will make you not feel like you are worth the same as people around you because you’re abusive and nasty. It’s a constant cycle of saying “I’m worthless because I’m awful, I’m awful because I’m worthless”. BPD is not an illness that should be romanticised by people without BPD. You can’t sit there and say “people with BPD are so brave and loving and they will give you their all” - because if you actually had BPD you would understand the reason you give your all is because you feel guilty for existing, guilting for breathing, guilty for taking up space, guilty that other people have to look at you, guilty that somehow you are manipulating the people in your life purely by being alive. BPD is tiring and consuming and will ruin your whole life so stop trying to say that this illness is secretly a gift.

you being in love
will tell who softly asks in love,

am i separated from your body smile brain hands merely
to become the jumping puppets of a dream? oh i mean:
entirely having in my careful how
careful arms created this at length
inexcusable, this inexplicable pleasure-you go from several
persons: believe me that strangers arrive
when i have kissed you into a memory
slowly, oh seriously
-that since and if you disappear

solemnly
myselves
ask “life, the question how do i drink dream smile

and how do i prefer this face to another and
why do i weep eat sleep-what does the whole intend”
they wonder. oh and they cry “to be, being, that i am alive
this absurd fraction in its lowest terms
with everything cancelled
but shadows
-what does it all come down to? love? Love
if you like and i like,for the reason that i
hate people and lean out of this window is love,love
and the reason that i laugh and breathe is oh love and the reason
that i do not fall into this street is love.”
—  e.e. cummings
Eyewitness Season Finale

Reasons why I love the finale:

•R Y A N I S D E A D (which means justice for the dog and others)

•Helen and Gabe are happy again and are OTP as fuck like Philkas (can I get an amen)

•Philip and Lukas arE HAPPY AND ALIVE AND GAYER THAN EVER

•Bo is accepting!!!

•Lukas saying he’ll kiss Philip at the party (can I get another amen)

•Lukas being a lil cute geek with that deja vu mess

•THEY HAD S E X IM ALIVE

•Camilla is alive and well and so is Jake and I believe she will do great with him

Basically the season finale was really fucking good and I am honestly content with this possibly being the series finale.

👏👏👏 I applaud all the actors and crew for this amazing show and now the only real question left is

WHO TOPPED? HMMMM?

OVA ideas!

1) Claude Faustus and Sebastian Michaelis pre-contracts. This could be sad, this could be fun, this could be feels. Imagine them being like brothers when they were both young demons. Claude might even have been the one to train Sebastian in the early days… We could also look forward to Bassy being a rebellious little teenage demon shit and literally raising hell while Claude tries to turn things right… 2) more like The story of Will the shinigami but with Grell!! I can’t be the only one who want to know how Grell had it when she was still alive and human. How did Grell become the badass reaper in the first place? We need pre reaper stories for all the reapers… Literally, we in general need more shinigami because they are love, life and reason to die to be reaped by Knox, Sutcliff and Spears!

Originally posted by fresh-note

Originally posted by neovongolaprimo

I’m still thinking about Swiss Army Man and honestly I’ve decided this movie with the farting corpse is one of my favorite movies ever. I feel it’s like the one movie I needed to see in his particular period of my life. It’s an ode to ugly people, and people who feel shame for whatever reason, and lonely people and people who feel ashamed of being lonely and desiring love and beauty. What i’m saying is, watch Swiss Army Man. 

I’m so sick of breathing. I’m so done with trying. I hate me. I hate the world. I have nobody. I’m so alone and being alone is my biggest fear. It’s so sad that one of the reasons I’m still alive is because I’m scared of death. I know that I have no place on this earth and I know that nobody really loves or cares about me. So why do I keep on suffering.
It’s sad knowing how bad I am suffering mentally at the minute and nobody around me has noticed. Nobody has noticed and difference in my behaviour, attitude or even notice that i always have my arms covered up. It hurts to know that nobody really cares.
My mind is telling me to just end it all. My heart is telling me to fight, telling me everything is going to be ok.
Turns out nobody is really willing to put up with a syco like me. Nobody is really willing to find that help that I need. Nobody is willing to be healthy so I have more confidence in myself. Nobody is really willing to give what I need.
I didn’t ask to be like this. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I just want to be happy. And not for just a day or two. I want to wake up every morning and be glad that I did. I want to smile at the flowers and the sounds of the birds chirping. I want to wake up at 7 am go running and make myself a smoothie. I don’t wanna be me. It’s 11:38 am here and I haven’t left my bed. And I doubt I will today.
Because I am hurting.
😭💔

V route

Yo Mystic Messenger kiddos, here’s a theory for a V route! (Not really a theory, per se, but why I think it can work and stuff)

SPOILER ALERT!

So basically, whenever we play a new route, the game and the timeline resets right, which is why 707 is always so sad cough, and at the end of each route, V dies as seen in the secret ending. 

Some people use V’s death as a reason for a V route not being possible, since ya know, he’s in the heavens where he belongs FIGHT ME ON THIS, and you can’t date someone who is dead (or can you *stares at otome games and their limitless illogical universes*). But the thing is, the timeline ALWAYS resets, and everyone who died or suffered some injury ALWAYS reverted back to their original state a.k.a. we can date V because he’s alive! (Although it’s a bit tough because he still loves Rika somehow bless that poor boy)

I think that V’s route would be a bit more tricky to figure out because it’s much deeper than even Seven’s, and his is like the freaking Mariana Trench. But I really, really think that it’s possible (and I hope in this route we can stab a biatch a.k.a Rika).