He told me that we couldn’t fix what was already broken.
I told him that broken crayons still color.
He said no one wants to deal with that. It’s much easier to just find new crayons. Throw the old ones away.
And you wonder why I still feel like trash.
I’m on register at work:
~waits patiently behind counter with absent smile until a customer walks close enough and/or shows necessary amount of interest
~has a set script of prompts in my head to follow during transactions
~cheerful yet non-descript customer service voice and can repeat same exact tone infinitely.
~breaking from prompts or skipping through parts may cause minor glitches, such as accidentally repeating the same prompt again or completely skipping necessary ones
~absentmindedly tends to my area using the same five or so actions in a continuous loop until new person arrives
~Abnormally knowledgeable in my craft
~wears same outfit every day
~Nothing unusual phases me
~walking away and coming back is like a brand new interaction. I have little to no memory of you
Hey what’s up everyone? I know seeing this on your dash might alarm you, but you know what I don’t care anymore! I’ve had a problem with this every since her redemption arc began in Log Date 8 6 7 5 3 09 whatever! And I’m sick of it literally being shoved in our face and NO ONE POINTING IT OUT
I’m easy to leave. Good to say goodbye to. Sometimes I laugh about it. It’s the only thing I’m sure about anymore. My mother says my problem is I love anyway. Haven’t learned how to wall the garden. I don’t know I just thought you would be different. I always do. I never listen.
Things I love about each type!! based on multiple personal experiences
ENFJ love: You genuinely care about your family. You’re softies. You have a
way of making everyone listen to you and believe you, no matter what. That
inspires an inner leader in me, well done. You’re usually great at making
friends and meeting new people.
ENFP love: You are energetic when around people you like, which is almost
all the time. I see you have a longing to deeply connect with people. You are attracted
to people that you want to be, or have qualities you wish you had. You are
intelligent, so stop acting dumb. My time spent with you is never wasted, I
always learn something, and feel loved. Thanks for the brilliant and accurate
ENTJ love: You are strong. I can say evil and inappropriate things in front
of you that would be considered socially strange and you either add on to it or
laugh, rather than calling the police or my therapist. You are passionate. You secretly
want people to like you instead of just follow you.
ENTP love: We don’t have conversations, we have discussions. It’s beautiful.
I’ve never heard you engage in small talk. Your emotions are intense. I love
how all you do is argue and debate and invent. I need you in my life.
ESFJ love: You are the most loyal and caring people I’ve ever met. You just
want to have fun, and make sure everyone else is having fun. You cry openly,
but loathe doing it. Despite what you think, people like you, okay? You are
likable. Also, learn to turn your back on people who turn their back on you.
ESFP love: Nothing will stop you. NOTHING. Nobody could survive the way you
do. You have endless energy and love. You are deeper than the internet says.
You people have inspiring messages, and you’re never done saying yes. Everyone
knows your name.
ESTJ love: You’re bluntness inspires me. You are true to yourself. You won’t
let things get you down. You are trustworthy. You don’t care about popular
society norms. You are crazy and hilarious, your quotes are memorable. Fabulous
story tellers. Fucking brave, ruthless, and metal as fuck.
ESTP love: The perfect amount of sadistic. Reliable and loyal. You are
strangely seductive and charming. You know what you want. Decisive.
INFJ love: I want to be more like you. I’ve always been drawn to you people.
You are incredibly organised. The definition of saying nothing and thinking
about everything. You have a likeness for the strange and for the antique. Old
INFP love: Attracted to the fucked up things in the world. Wallow in your own
sadness swamp, and don’t want to get me involved. You guys always put others
before you. Way too selfless.
INTJ love: The way you think. You make people worried, angry, and laugh
without trying. In fact, you have no clue what you do that makes them feel that
way. Keep going.
INTP love: You are mental. You have an amazing brain but you don’t train it
hard enough. Smarter than people think. Generally funny.
ISFJ love: I love that when you are angry or drunk you guys are always the
boss. Great leaders because you see what you’re capable of and cater to people
specifically. Will do anything for the people you love, or people who are
going through a shitty time.
ISFP love: You live in beautiful spaces. You keep to yourselves. I love that
you guys love me. Somehow you see the best in people. You are all secretly emo.
ISTJ love: I actually trust you. If someone tells you something or if you
see or hear something you aren’t supposed to, you keep it to yourself even if people
hound you for it. A brilliant friend, you won’t lie to them. Interested in
things that make you think. Strong moral compass.
ISTP love: Soft, yet hard. Extremely quiet, but when you speak and
contribute you make everything better. Problem solvers. Disappears all the
time, people don’t question it anymore. Really hard to hate.
when ppl describe having bpd as “literal hell” and all the sudden ur spiraling into panic bc is my life actually hell?? if it’s not, do i Not have bpd??? am i making this all up???? what does “normal” even feel like??? is what i’m feeling “normal”???? is my functioning even at all impaired, or is my level of dysfunction “normal”??????? did things used to feel worse????? bc i can’t remember at all what i’ve felt before????????? who would i be without my bpd label???? who am i???? am i ok??????????