I've had a complicated relationship with Odin. He did something for me that I regretted asking for because it hurt someone far more than I intended, so I hated him for it and spoke badly of him. I've forgiven him because it was my request he granted, and I've learned he's still holding me to the oath I made to him. He's also pissed, because not only has he heard me - I expected that - but he's apparently been next me this whole time. (Communication Troubles with Odin, Part I)
(Communication Troubles with Odin, Part II) Trouble is, I can’t hear him. I can’t hear beings in general, aside from the mundane. And I should really learn how to do that, since it was my assumptions which messed things up in the first place. If you have any tips on how to hear Odin in particular, and other gods and beings in general, I would appreciate that, because I can’t always rely on using the runes to do so.
First, I want to address something for you, and the pagan community at large. Oaths are not to be taken lightly. They are not promises you can break and necessarily come back from. An oath is a serious binding thing that you enter into with your god and it depends on the actual wording of your oath, but most oaths last for life. And oaths aren’t something that gods normally let go.
Next, I’d like to address the way he answered your prayer. You have to be prepared for things like this to happen, especially when asking for something malicious. Now, I don’t know the details of this or why you asked for what you asked for, but it could’ve been a lesson, it could’ve been that he caught on to what you thought you wanted, etc. Theres a lot of reasons why he could’ve fulfilled your prayer the way he did. And it’s only to be expected that he’s angry with you for being angry with him when all he did was fulfill your prayer. Whether you intended for it to happen or not, you did ask something of your god, so it’s only to be expected that he’s angry with you for speaking badly of him for doing something for you.
Now I’d like to let you in on a secret: people don’t generally actually, literally, hear the gods. Tumblr pagans will boast and brag about their gods saying this and that and the other thing but generally it’s either an exaggeration or it’s simply false. Literally hearing the gods isn’t the goal. Aim to communicate better. Divination is an important part of that. If you’re new or not so good at using your runes and interpreting them, maybe get some more practice. If you don’t feel like you’re getting correct answers, maybe try a different type of divination. Maybe try talking to Odin to see how he wants you to get his messages.
Overall, I would come to terms with what happened and apologize to Odin, because your oath isn’t something he’s likely to let you out of. Good luck.