norman carnitine

“What?” I looked at him.

“Our daughter was born a month or so before Severin. I told Jamie about what happened and that you were pregnant shortly after she was born. She was upset about it and we’ve been working on our marriage ever since….but when I heard that you had given birth to Severin Jamie was the one who convinced me to go to the hospital to see him. She and I both went, I didn’t bother you because I figured you didn’t want to see me but I saw Audii in the waiting room and he let Jamie and I both hold Severin.”

I couldn’t believe what he was saying “Audii never told me that….”

“He said it would be our secret. He told me that even if it wasn’t his place to decide whether or not I should see Severin he believed that I had the right to hold him at least once….” I noticed tears in his eyes. “I love Severin Belinda. I’ve loved him ever since I held him that night at the hospital and all I’ve wanted is to be a part of his life. I realize that I made a mistake, and I was stupid for not being there for you…and I don’t want to not be there for him. He is my son whether you like it or not and I don’t want to miss out on his life anymore than I already have.”

He wiped his eyes. “But…it’s your decision. If you don’t want me in his life then I’ll leave. I’ll give you child support or whatever else you want but other than that you won’t see me.”

I felt terrible. Here was a man that turned me away when I needed him…a man that I believed never cared about the child whom he helped create. A man who despite all he had done I truly did care for, mainly because he had given me a son who was one of my greatest joys in life. What kind of person- mother would I be if I denied him the right to be in his sons life. I could easily tell that he really did care about Severin….just by the words he spoke and the look on his face. So I decided to make a decision that I hoped I wouldn’t regret…

“I don’t want Severin growing up not knowing you Norman. I never wanted that for him.” I looked into his eyes.

“So I feel it’s best to let you be apart of his life.”

He looked up at me and a smile made its way to his lips. “Really?” he said. I nodded. “Oh….thank you. I- I don’t know what to say” he hugged me.

“You’re welcome” I smiled “Now come on it’s time to blow out his candles”