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i used to be

i’ve changed. a lot.i’m not sure if this is really a positive thing.i hope..

i used to be…dependent on others. i’m a parasite. haha…joke. before kasi mga tita ko nagpapaaral sa amin, nagbbgay ng allowance, ng gastos sa bhay, lahat. ngayon, i’m more like a breadwinner.kami ng sis ko. we’re working to pay the rent. imba lang sa mahal. grabe yung cost of living dito. nakakaloka. lahat ng bills, sa akin nakapangalan so i have to be responsible enough to settle all our accounts on time, talk to someone about this, do that, even sacrifice my days off to fix paper works about our new apartment (praise God!). plus, kami na magpapaaral sa sarili namin. sana makapasok kami this sem. (fingers crossed*).

i used to be…so nice.ngayon, nabawasan na. a month ago, something happened. some lady mocked me. i usually fight. but at that certain moment, wala. na MK ako. (mahinang klase). i cried. yep. good thing a friend of mine stood up for me. sya nakipag away at nakipagsigawan dun sa customer. i hated myself that time. ang hina ko lang. from that day on i promised myself that i will NEVER let that happen again.besides, here, you fight to survive. i guess i can say that i’m stronger now.don’t worry, i’m still nice. but sometimes i bite. =]

i used to be…a lame blogger. hanggang ngayon naman. before, i post what i like and want to say. even if it’s walang kwenta. haha… naiirita ako sa mga posts na wakwents na mejo highschool ang dating(HS people, sorry for stereotyping, di ko naman nilalahat).at gulity ako, kasi i used to be one of them. yung tipong makapag post lang at may maka pansin. KSP kasi. ako. trololol. pero yun nga. i used to be. now, i’m more responsible in using my social networking sites such as fb, multiply and tumblr. no more nonsense. chos! i mean. lessened na.i have to grow up.

i used to be…skinny! argh! sa lahat ng i used to be. eto pinaka ayaw ko. oo. tumaba na ako. eto mga dahilan: winter nung dumating kami dito, so di talaga ako pinapag pawisan.one month kaming tambay sa bhay.plus, sa mcdo ako nagwowork. free food. haha…i’m on a diet na. haha…sexy na ako pag balik ko sa pinas. wahahaha

i used to be…bitter. i guess i’m a little better now.minsan na lang topakin ng pagka emo.i make it a point to make myself happy and to make others happy each day.instead of crying or feeling sorry for myself, i make my time useful. i try to cook(even though i really suck), i read books, watch nice movies, talk to boyfie,etc. displacement ba. (defense mechanism).

it took me a lot of courage to post this. sometimes, it’s healthy to evaluate yourself. i hope these changes will make me a better individual. 

i can hear wedding bells ringing.

omg. magpopropose na daw kuya ko sa girlfriend nya. bka daw next year kasal.(kung kilala mo kuya ko at girlprend nya, quiet lang kayo.ok? magpopropoe pa lang. bka masira moment.) mejo alam ko na rin naman na ganun kahahantungan pero mejo nagulat pa rin ako. he’s actually in the right age na. 27 na sya. pwedeng pwede na magasawa. actually, napending lang yata kasi nasira ipon nya kapapadala sa amin dito.

waaah.i can’t believe na we’re all grown ups na, kaming tatlo. at eto nga, may plano nang magpakasal ang isa. huhu.wala na kaming ma wrewrestling ni faye. hay buhay. pero i’m really happy for him. excited na din ako sa wedding preps kahit sobrang tagal pa. haha….first time ko kasing aabay sa buong buhay ko you know? lol.

sana naman matino wedding proposal mo.galingan mo tol. magiipon na kami para sa gift namin sayo. =p

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