“apparently, there’s no way to extricate the parasite without eliminating the host. fancy way of saying we gotta kill the fucking kid. and now they’re asking for my go ahead. the tests just keep getting harder and harder, don’t they? i’m so tired. i’m exhausted and i just want this to end… so be it.”
I’ve been feeling really frustrated with the lack of pansexual categories in queer book lists, so I’m going to make my own list of books with pansexual characters to share with y'all, because I know I’m not the only frustrated one. I have a few so far, but if y'all know any, please let me know! any genre is fine!
I’m looking for books with
characters who are canonically pansexual, either stated in the book or by the author elsewhere. an example of this is basically when the word pansexual is actually used.
characters who are strongly hinted at being or implied to be pansexual. an example of this is when a character says that they just like people or gender doesn’t matter (in regard to their attraction), something along those lines.
I know there are books with pansexual characters, they’re out there, they exist. we just have to do a bit of digging to find them. and apparently no one else is willing to help out pansexual people looking for book rep, so I’m taking it upon myself to do the job (with, hopefully, a little bit of help from y'all).
okay, I’m gonna end this here before I start ranting about how shitty it is for someone to compile a list of “queer books” that only has lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender books, because there are so many other identities that are included in “queer”, and they were just not even mentioned a single time in the entire post, so, why specifically entitle a post as “queer”, when "lgbt" more accurately describes the post?
The room smells like disinfectant, medicines and something ferrous you
can’t quite define. Everything is white – almost blinding, you think – the walls, the floor, the table you are
sitting behind, the chair in front of you and also the sole window on the left.
A window equipped with bars, of course.
Request : No, just a thing I
thought about and kinda liked?? Hope you enjoy, and if you don’t..
Note : There might be some
mistakes, tell me if you find some ! + GIF is not mine xx
It was nearly 10pm in the Gryffindor
common room, the boys, Lily and you were sitting on the floor around
the small table near the fireplace. The beautiful red headed girl was
sitting on your left and Remus was on your right, facing Sirius and
next to him, James. Peter had been really sick lately so he went to
bed early, leaving the five of you alone for what was supposed to be
a homework session which of course took quickly another turn, much to
Remus and Lily’s disappointment. They always held the title of the
« nerds » of the group, though they didn’t mind it and
couldn’t even try to deny it.
« Let’s play a game ! »
James had said these words with way too
much excitement, and the smirk that started to grow on his face was
enough for you to know that he had a bad Potter idea, again.
The exaggerated eye-roll Moony gave him
after that proved that he thought exactly the same thing, actually
only Sirius seemed to be enjoying the idea because he knew that his
best friend always had the best plans to have some fun.
« Which game do you wanna play,
Prongs ? » asked the dark haired boy sitting next to him.
« Well I was thinking about Truth
or dare, I know how much Y/N loves this game. »
He winked at you and you just sent him
a death glare that only made him laugh harder. You didn’t like that
game, in fact you hated it. The last time you played you had to ask a
Slytherin guy out on a date, and he had had the great idea to say
yes. It had been the worst date of your life and when you came back
to explain it to the boys, they found it really hilarious and teased
you for days. Well, all of them except for Sirius who strangely never
said a single word about it.
« Do I really have a choice ? »
« Nope Y/N, I’m really scared you
don’t.» answered Lily between two giggles, as you just laid your
head on Remus’ shoulder as a sign of resignation.
You had been playing for almost an
hour, and right now you were watching Remus and Lily coming back from
their respective rooms, wearing each other’s clothes. Lily looked
more cute than ridiculous, but the black skirt that was barely
covering Moony’s thighs made you all cry from laughter -except him,
of course-. His cheeks were red and he mumbled something
incomprehensible before sitting down next to you again, waiting for
the four of you to calm down and get back at the game.
« Well it’s my turn and since you
laughed at my face so bad, I’m choosing you my dear Sirius :
truth or dare ? »
« You are evil. Truth. »
On the opposite side of the table,
Sirius and James were looking at you, both smiling slightly and
waiting for the question. Your eyes met Potter’s first and he winked
at you in a childish way, before meeting Sirius’ gaze. Merlin, those
eyes made you weak. To say you liked him was an understatement, you
always had, since day one. Well how could you not ? He was
charming, nice, funny but yet, you never had the courage to tell him
about how you felt. He was so popular with the girls of the school
and even though he only talked about it with his « mates »,
you knew he had a lot of hook ups and assumed he just wasn’t into
stable relationships. You got back to reality when Remus cleared his
throat, before he spoke again.
« Are you in love ? »
The question was simple, but everybody
in the room froze, staring at Sirius. If his eyes had been knives,
Remus would have died ten times already. Lily gently hit Lupin’s
shoulder, saying something about how it wasn’t nice to ask such
personal things. You took a sip of your tea, acting as if everything
was normal but deep inside you, you could feel your heart beating
fast and you weren’t even sure you wanted to hear his answer. Your
Y/E/C eyes met his again, before he looked back at Remus and answered
with the most calm and clear voice you had ever heard.
« No, I’m not. »
You instantly felt dumb about
thinking he could have given the opposite answer, and finished your
tea, avoiding him for the rest of the night.
It had been five days since you played
the childish game, and five days since you last spoke to Sirius. You
were avoiding him and everyone could tell that, but only Lily knew
why. She always knew about your feelings towards him and she tried
to talk about it with you but you didn’t want to. Right now, you just
needed to move on and concentrate about the essay you were working
on. The library was almost empty and you were alone, now that your
best friend had left you to go to one of her classes. You jumped when
a hand found your shoulder, turning around quickly to meet a certain
dark haired boy you knew too well. But for once, he didn’t smile at
you nor did he seem happy at all.
« For Gordic’s sake Sirius, I
nearly had a heart attack. »
Completely ignoring what you just said,
he took a sit next to you, frowning and letting a loud sigh escape
from his lips.
« What did I do to you ? »
He didn’t let a single sound escape from your mouth and continued.
« You haven’t even looked at me for days, don’t tell me you
just need some time alone or one of those silly excuses, because
you’ve been acting normally with everyone. Everyone except me. »
He spoke louder with every word,
clearly mad at you and not giving a damn about the fact that you were
in a place supposed to be quiet. You sighed, looking at him
right in the eyes, something you didn’t think you were capable of
« I didn’t think you would notice
it, why does it matter to you? »
He gave you a confused look, while you
were just praying that somehow he would just shrug his shoulders and
leave, but you knew him well and Sirius was not gonna leave until he
had a clear answer to his questions.
« Maybe because you’re my friend,
maybe that’s why I fucking care about it ! »
This time he was shouting, half angry,
half frustrated. You let out an ironic laugh, closing your book
quickly before standing up, knowking that if he kept on yelling you
would get just as angry as him and you didn’t want to fight. Not with
him, not now, not here.
« Yes, I’m your friend. But
you’re not mine. »
He stood up with a speed you didn’t
think was possible, and your heart broke when you saw the deeply hurt
expression on his face. His dark eyes were staring right into yours,
and you could feel his body tense in front of you.
« If I’m not your friend, then
tell me, what am I ? »
You opened your mouth several times,
but words didn’t come out. You knew you couldn’t escape, you knew you
had to tell him, here and now. You took a deep breath, staring at the
ground because you didn’t have the courage to look at him.
« I can’t believe you never saw
it. Maybe you didn’t want to after all but here we go. I like you
Sirius. More than a friend does, more than Remus likes James. I
always did and now I feel so stupid for thinking even for a second
that you could feel the same. I feel stupid for thinking you, Sirius
Black the great women magnet, could feel anything at all. »
In a strange way you felt released, but
now all you wanted to do was get out of this place and that’s why you
didn’t let him a chance to say anything and started to walk towards
the great Hall as fast as you could. Before you could reach the exit,
a large hand grabbed your foreharm and made you turn around, bumping
in the tall chest of the boy you left just seconds ago. He didn’t let
go of your arm, holding it even more strongly while you slowly looked
up at him. There was a look on his eyes that you had never seen
before, and you couldn’t tell if it was grief or anger.
« That’s the way you see me ?
Like I’m some kind of monster that can’t feel a damn thing? Well I’m
sorry to tell you that you’re wrong Y/N, just plainly wrong. I knew I
shouldn’t have lied the other night during that stupid game, but I
thought you knew me enough to know I was lying. I do feel things, and
yes, I’m.. » He looked down for a second, closing his eyes
while inhaling, before staring right back at you again « …
I’m fucking in love with you. »
His words were rough, and his lips even
more. He crashed them on yours as soon as he finished speaking,
cupping your face between his hands. The book you still held fell to the ground and it took you a few seconds to realise what
whas happening. You moved your hands to his hair, pulling him closer,
as you felt him smile through the kiss, moving his lips against yours
while gently brushing your cheek with his thumb. You slowly broke
your embrace, your foreheads still touching and couldn’t help but
smile, giving him a peck on the lips.
« I feel like an idiot. »
He chuckled, wrapping his arms around
you before whispering in your ear.
« Well now you’re my idiot. »
Hidden behind a book shelf, a brown
haired boy smiled childishly to his lover, holding his hand out to
« Sorry Lils, but it looks like you owe
me ten galleons. »
this is a smol rant but this literally peeves me every time.
Like I get McHanzo is popular, but why do people have to literally hint it in every fucking hanzo post ever, even if it doesn’t involve mccree. Everyone has to always force that pairing into a post and it literally pisses me off
like I would totally reblog that but nope, instantly it has to inolve mccree
anxiety is in the middle of talking while giving something to logic when the new kid, affectionately referred to as 'Prince,' walks in. anx drops the topic, his jaw and whatever he's holding
This one’s for you. I hope you like it. It’s really late, and I’m getting up early for tomorrow’s flight, so this one is really really short. It’s cute. :)
“Anxiety, you promised to give back my notebook today. Don’t tell me you forget it again.“ Logic looked at Anxiety disapprovingly and said.
“Wait, I think I have it this time. I…Um…I just…Need to find it.” Anxiety searched in his backpack, trying hard to find Logic’s notebook.
Logic sighed, “You know, you really should organize your bag. I can see papers everywhere, and some of them are tragically torn apart, like my heart.”
Anxiety rolled his eyes and grunted, “Come on Logic. He just turned you down. That’s all. Plus, I cannot believe you have a crush on Moral-” And he stopped talking.
Prince walked into the room with dazzling light, according to Anxiety’s description. Prince was the popular new kid in the school. He was known for his friendly personality and the bright smile that was always on his face.
Anxiety’s jaw was dropped. So was the notebook. He stared at Prince. His eyes moved to wherever Prince was going.
“Hello! How’s your day?” Prince delightfully greeted as he passed by.
Anxiety blinked. He replied, “I’m, I’m fine. How are you?” Anxiety cursed himself for being tongue-tied. Now he must look like a mess.
“I’m okay! Thanks for asking! See you later!” Prince’s voice came from a distance. Anxiety blushed furiously when he heard “see you later.”
Logic shook his head. “Looks like someone’s going to be like me.” He teased.
Anxiety returned to his previous conversation with logic. He retorted, “Nope because I won’t be turned down.”
“Do you really have to remind me of that?” Logic snorted.
Anxiety laughed, “Well, it’s not me who pick the topic back up.”
nope, I do too.. a lot of people are just really upset rn (myself included) but I think we as a fandom are stronger than the cast’s ugly behaviour
I’m never gonna watch supergirl again because the show isn’t about the strong supergirl I fell in love with anymore, I won’t support a cast who makes fun of their fans and I’m done with the show’s shitty pro sexism, it’s been going downhill during season 2 and with all that’s happened now, I’ve had enough..
that doesn’t mean that I’ll stop shipping supercorp, kara and lena are perfect for each other and the cast won’t ruin this for me!! I understand when people can’t really look at it the same way now after what happened, I’m still kinda struggling a little bit too.. but are we really gonna let them “destroy” us? I don’t think so!!
so let’s create our own supergirl universe where kara and lena can actually be together, our fandom is so talented, there’s so much fanart and fanfiction, let’s have our own safe space where noone makes fun of us and thinks we’re a joke, we don’t need the show or any of them!!
..and tbh katie mcgrath would support this and that’s really all I care about
“Sawamur–” Miyuki started as they had finished revising one of their practice matches, he wanted to check Sawamura’s pitching condition before the match but he was interrupted by the very same person that he was calling out to.
“Koushuu, catch for me!”
Miyuki wasn’t sure how to handle this situation, normally it was Sawamura that was bothering him to catch his pitches left and right but it wasn’t like that anymore. Was he no longer the brunet’s first choice? Miyuki could feel his chest tighten as he watched the younger male walk out of the room together with the fellow catcher.
“Oh ho ho~” Miyuki heard a familiar snicker sneak up behind him but he didn’t want to fuel any thing.
“Looks like he’s moving on to someone younger huh, Miyuki?!”