Become Sherlock, LOL!
Seriously though, I also wasn’t a huge John fan myself when I first watched the series 2 years ago. I’ve always related more to Sherlock’s character, so I immediately latched onto him like a leech. A lot of what warmed me up to John’s character is how much SHERLOCK
warmed up to him. In watching Sherlock develop a fondness and even love for John – despite all John’s trashiness, harshness, rudeness, and faults – I have also grown to see what Sherlock sees in John. That’s the beauty of the slow-build for me: watching these two men with so many flaws fall for each other is so beautiful.
I know I always somehow make all my posts about Sherlock and his pining for John, but in all honesty, rewatch the series again in the mindframe of Sherlock’s character. You will feel all the bumps and hurt John causes Sherlock, but you will also learn to see John how Sherlock sees him. This is obviously easier in S3, as it is in Sherlock’s POV, but watch how loyal John is to Sherlock; how Sherlock laughs with John; how they both have a morbid sense of humour; how full Sherlock’s life has become since John has entered it; how soft John is with Sherlock or how brash he is; and HOW BEAUTIFUL HE IS (watch all of season 3 and notice that any scene in which Sherlock and John are together, John is either lit VERY attractively like he is glowing or very well dressed and handsome; heck, even the mind palace scenes in TSo3 has John so ridiculously attractive EVEN IN A FRANKLY AWFUL CARDIGAN). Sherlock appreciates John for his loyalty, his friendship, his humour, his beauty, and John’s trust in him, something that John does not give freely at all. Sherlock can no longer be alone, and when he is, he REALLY FEELS IT. This is so apparent in TEH, when Sherlock first returns and can only think of getting to John, and later when he and Mycroft discuss friends. Hell, Sherlock even subconsciously associates Redbeard with John in HLV after Mycroft reminded him of the dog in TSo3. It’s so ridiculous. And I’m sure Sherlock’s fondness for military men doesn’t hurt either, LOL.
Alone no longer protects Sherlock. This is why S3 is so hard for me to watch, because Sherlock literally has changed his ENTIRE self to focus on making John happy, simply because he loves John for being John. And while I do agree that John is trash for choosing to be blind to not seeing this change, I still love John for what he has done FOR Sherlock. Sherlock has learned to feel love that he hasn’t felt since his dog died.
I’ve also found that writing John meta and picking apart his character also helped a lot too. I’ve found that the more I learn about his character, my appreciation for him grows. Remember, John, prior to his life with Sherlock, was a doctor and a soldier who has seen horrible horrible things – he saved lives and protected his country as a captain in an elite military group. John then get shot and was literally tossed aside like garbage once his usefulness ran out – he was broken, and no good anymore. All he gets for his troubles is a pension he can barely survive on, a shitty bedsit, nightmares, tremours, PTSD, and pain in both his shoulder and leg. I pity him because the army was a huge chunk of his life, and it was literally stolen from him. He’s sad and depressed before meeting Sherlock, and I’ll be very honest: I don’t think John had much will to live left; the cinematography at the beginning of ASiP suggests he was suicidal pre-Sherlock. Then along comes Sherlock, a man who is a self-professed sociopath, and BEFRIENDS HIM. At the risk of using a meme for this analogy, but Sherlock picked John up out of the trash, fixed him up, and made him useful again. Sherlock gave John a reason to live, and it’s a small wonder he was able to go on for two years without Sherlock.
And Martin plays his character so wonderfully. John is in as much the spotlight as Sherlock is, and I think that is so fantastic.
And I’m not gonna lie, but watching John go from the sad man he was in ASiP to the man he was in HLV was an exciting journey. John’s character has developed so much over the 5 year timeline of the show, and we know for certain that it has to develop even more to have Johnlock happen. I look forward to it :)