non verbal abuse

Not a feel asks

I feel like autistic people often mention struggling with hygiene but for me it is a thing!! of!! top!! importance!! and if I don’t get to shower at least once a day it’s a one way trip to melt down land for me hahaha            

-There are a lot of autistics who feel like they have to be completely clean or they will have sensory issues / meltdowns (I’m the same way).


I’ve just realized that whenever I’m happy I get jittery and tap my feet on the floor, or twitch my body excessively. It that stimming? I’m sorry I’m new to this.  

-Yes, absolutely.


I discovered the disability community on Tumblr long befor I even considered that I might be autistic, but even then (I dont have any other disabilities, so it’s not like I actually knew that I belonged ther), I identified really strongly with the community. Is that common for undiagnosed autistics?            

-Yes, I would think so


I want to be nonverbal, but my parents would always scream at me/punish me if I didn’t answer them as a kid, so now whenever I try to be nonverbal around anyone and they say something to me, I feel like I NEED to respond. But when I am loud, I’m really loud, and my mom would hit me/dad would yell, so what’s the difference? Why can I be loud, but can’t be nonverbal? I hate that I’ve conformed to neurotypical standards            

-I’m very sorry you had to go through that. I have the same problem with feeling like I’m required to respond, even if it’s to someone who has no control over me. If it helps, you could tell your friends that you don’t want to talk when you’re nonverbal, so they won’t expect you to. I also give very short responses if my friends speak to me in a way that needs a response after I state I don’t want to speak, and they tend to expect me not to respond as much after that. (As in, they can talk to me but I make it clear I don’t want to talk back)


~Mod Brendon~

Artist Claims Preview

This year instead of me being bombarded with asks on the day of claims opening, instead artist will be able to see the summaries of stories, decide upon which ones they like (and yes chose more than one in case someone else claims your fav before you). Come the 1st of august a link will be posted where you can go to a website called signupgenius.com and claim your story there (this website will ask for your name and email, in the name slot put your URL).

Without further ado, the story summaries:

Title: How I Wonder What You Are
Bang:Big
Summary: He awoke in an alley, buried under a centimetre of snow, to the feeling of its malicious sting against his naked body. Sloughing the ice crusted over his eyes, he saw at last that he was drenched in blood, filtered black in the light of the blue star shining from his chest.
Without his memories, he isn’t really Tony Stark. As time moves on and they start coming back, after vivid dreams and violent headaches, he still isn’t Tony Stark, not really. He knows his own name and he knows he’s missing, but it feels like another life, a past life. While he may be vague on what was done to him in Hydra’s captivity, he knows he isn’t quite human anymore, not when he can punch through walls, when cuts heal within hours, or when he can absorb information with a touch. His plans to start again go off the rails when a familiar face starts to seek him out, a former Hydra lab-rat like himself, who seems to think they know each other.
His anonymous lifestyle is further interrupted when SHIELD sends its own welcoming committee, including one crazy agent determined to make him into one of the good guys, lest the bad guys get him first.
Warnings:Mature Rating. Character Deaths, Graphic Violence, Body Modification, Human Experimentation, Captivity, Memory Loss / Amnesia, Inexplicit Sexual Content. Brief, implied, or unrequited ‘relationships’ include Rhodey/Pepper, Rhodey/Tony, and Clint/Tony, with stronger and/or eventual focus on their platonic dynamics. Non-Linear timeline.

Title: Justin Case VS The World.
Bang: Big
Summary: He wakes up without a name and without memories. Mr. Stark holds his hand and tells him everything is going to be okay, that he will take care of him. He believes him.
Warnings: None.

Title: Looking into the Heart of Light
Bang: Big
Summary: Tony Stark of Earth-616 has deleted his brain to save his friends from Norman Osborn. Bucky Barnes of Earth-199,999 has gone back into cryosleep to save people from himself. Neither of them much expects anything to happen afterwards, but instead they find themselves together in a dream-space between universes. They quickly find that they are not alone– here, the monsters and demons that haunt their minds are on the outside, and they want blood.
Warnings: explicit mildly kinky sex (gentle dom), some violence and minor injury with scarring, offscreen temporary character death (616 Steve), alcoholism (and some related internalized ableism), self-loathing and guilt, and emotional issues all around (including putting themselves through life threatening situations purposefully). Oh, and Bucky spends like 98% percent of this story without his metal arm (or any left arm), but it’s not a huge deal for him.

Title: Like Winter Nights, the Stars, the Ice
Bang: Big
Summary: Tony wakes up to his mother playing the piano, in the last moment he ever saw them alive. He decides to go with them, only to discover that Bucky seems to have also been caught up in whatever brought Tony there.
Warnings: Mentions of canonical character deaths; references to and portrayals of PTSD and other mental health problems; Tony does something that he thinks might kill him because he’s pretty sure it’s all a dream, but mentions that he wouldn’t mind so much if it turned out to be real and actually kills him; Bucky freaks out a little because Wanda can mess with people’s heads and willingly worked for Hydra in the past.

Title: What the Heart Wants
Bang: Big bang
Summary:
Between his best friend’s upcoming nuptials, said best friend’s new status as future ruler of the kingdom, and trying to fit back into his old life while dealing with the aftereffects of his imprisonment during the war, Bucky has more than enough on his plate. But when an attempt on Howard Stark’s life leaves the royal court in chaos, Bucky still steps up and offers to go fetch Stark’s son, Lord Anthony - the future heir to the throne, and Steve’s fiance - in Steve’s place, in part because keeping Steve safe and out of trouble is second nature, and partially in the hope an actual mission will distract him from the difficulty that has become his life.

What Bucky doesn’t count on is Lord Anthony getting himself kidnapped before Bucky can bring him home, or getting captured himself during his attempt at a rescue. But a promise is a promise, and Bucky has sworn to return Tony to Steve safe and sound - no matter what.
Warnings: Brief descriptions of torture and violence, nightmares, minor character death, arranged marriage, canon-typical violence, mentions of and references to brainwashing.

Title: Re-armed
Bang: Big
Summary: Steve thinks he’s so funny, playing matchmaker. It’s driving Bucky up the wall, and Tony’s not far behind.
Warnings: ALL OF THE PINING, no powers AU, references to PTSD and past suicidal ideation

Title: Arsenal (Working Title)
Bang: Big
Summary:Two years after the Civil War that tore apart everything she’d bled to build, Toni Stark sacrificed herself for her newly-reinstated teammates and ended up stranded in the past. Freed of her name, her fortune, and her hostile ex-teammates, she built herself a life as an agent for the OSS, the American secret service, and, having nothing to lose, accepted a mission to infiltrate the newest player in the war: an organization that call themselves HYDRA.

Then, she met a young draftee with a dreadfully familiar face, and they clicked like she had never clicked with anyone before. By the time she realized she’d fallen for the man who’d cost her everything, it was too late, but she’d always been an all or nothing type of girl, and if she was damning herself, well then…might as well go all the way.
Warnings: Brainwashing, torture, mentions of child abuse, war, mentions of antisemitism and genocide.

Title: Who You Are To Me
Bang: Big
Summary: Bucky started a YouTube channel to give himself something to do after he lost his arm in combat, and quickly became popular. Bucky is invited to a charity event, where he runs into a gorgeous man named Tony. Little does he know Tony is none other than Tony Stark, the richest man in the world.

They manage to keep their relationship private from fans and media for a whole year before Tony blows it by interrupting Bucky in the middle of a live broadcast. Yeah, Bucky warned him, but… Tony missed that part.
Warnings: Mental Health Issues

Title: The Dragon in the Tower
Bang:Mini
Summary: On a journey to save his best friend’s life, Bucky meets a dragon that defies all his expectations and turns his life completely upside down, in more ways than one. Bucky’s not sure when his life turned into a tale of magic and ancient curses, but as long as his village and his dragon make it through okay, he won’t complain.
Much.
Warnings: unwilling magical transformation, serious illness as a driving part of the plot but not actually depicted or described in detail

Title: Twice As Hard
Bang: Big
Summary: After an unplanned one night stand with billionaire and
CEO of SI, Tony Stark…Bucky Barnes has a lot on his plate. Struggling as a young veteran in a shared apartment with his two close friends, he thought he’d manage. Though the aftermath of his liaison has left him with impromptu feelings for Tony and a large bout of self doubt. But Tony may be just the man he’s been seeking for a long time.
Warnings: Explicit. Sexual content. Depictions/references of
graphic war violence. Coarse language. PTSD/Anxiety (references,
possibly some depictions of it).

Title: Thaw (My Heart)
Bang: Mini
Summary:“Bucky is warm.
It’s the first thing he becomes aware of as he slowly drags himself back into consciousness; that he isn’t cold anymore. He can’t remember the last time he was really, truly warm. Not while tracking through snowy forests with a 30 pound pack on his back, or during rainy days spent crouched in muddy trenches, or strapped to that damned table in that godforsaken HYDRA hellhole. Certainly not on the train, clinging to freezing metal with numb fingers, or while falling, falling, falling, before being swallowed whole by pain, surrounded by endless, blinding whiteness.
But now, Bucky is warm.”
1985; Bucky wakes up after four decades spent frozen in the Austrian alps. HYDRA has been defeated, the Commandos are all alive and well, and Steve is happily married to Peggy, who is just as beautifully fierce as Bucky remembers her. An AU in which (almost) everyone lives, but things still get complicated, because Tony without baggage wouldn’t be Tony.
Warnings: sexual content (including unsafe sex/discussion of HIV), non-graphic verbal abuse, and manipulating behaviour (neither of which happens between main characters)

Title: And They Don’t Have a Clue
Bang: Mini
Summary: Bucky is in love with Tony, who he thinks is in love with Steve. Tony’s in love with Bucky, who he’s pretty sure is dating Steve. Steve really needs less oblivious friends
Warnings: Self-esteem issues, mentions of infidelity although none actually happens. From Steve’s POV.

Title: A Few Good Men (working title)
Bang: Big
Summary: Tony Stark, Deputy Chief of Staff to the President of the United States, navigates through political agendas, national security, and diplomatic relations on a daily basis. Crises are never-ending, and so are the pitfalls of working with politicians.
A West Wing AU (working summary)
Warnings: swearing, politics, mentions of police misconduct, mentions of bombings and death

Title: Regrettable
Bang: mini
Summary:No one had any choice over what they said or where they appeared, they just showed up from one day to the next; the first words your soulmate would ever say to you.

Bucky’s appeared on his torso when he was thirteen and were a source of amusement and pride. Tony’s came when he was six and he hated them, they made his mother cry.

No one had any choice over what they said or where they appeared, but Tony was going to hide his and Bucky, well he got the feeling that they weren’t quite so funny anymore.

Warnings: Self esteem issues, injury from fighting, underage drinking (and alcohol abuse), swearing, happy ending though. Soulmate AU.

New Stories

Title: Hello, Soldier
Bang: Big
Summary: Finally home after getting discharged with a brand new arm, Bucky’s glad to be back home, with Steve there like it’s always been. He needs to keep busy though, and meets up with some Black Ops acquaintances, Barton and Romanoff, for a position with their Private Security company. There are rumors that someone is stealing, and producing, Stark Industries weapons, and selling them to the enemy, and they have a lead on who’s doing it.
No one has seen Anthony Stark for years since his return from being kidnapped in Afghanistan. He quickly shut down weapons manufacturing, and started working on armor for their troops, advancements in medicine, and enhanced prosthetics for returning military members.
Bucky hadn’t been expecting to hear that Steve was working for Stark industries now, but he’s not complaining when he goes to meet his best friend for lunch, and runs into Tony Carbonell. Who incidentally was the one who built his new metal arm. But why does Tony end up in the middle of his job to find a traitor? He hadn’t expected things to turn this quickly.
Warnings: Mentions of war, loss of limbs, light swearing, Modern setting,Non-Powered AU, mild Secret Identity

Title: Iron Fists and a Blue Heart
Bang: Mini/ Big
Summary: Steve Rogers died on the courthouse steps and Bucky Barnes went after Tony Stark to get his revenge. Something stayed his hand though and changed the history of the world.For the better or the worse is yet to be seen.
Warnings: Major Character Deaths (They get better), major character injuries (again, they get better), Minor Character Deaths (they don’t get better)

Title: Warriors
Bang: mini
Summary: No one saw them.
No one heard them.
And no one knew they were coming.
When the Chitauri attack, the streets of New York become a battleground- people get hurt, they die, they’re gone.
Sometimes Tony wonders if he’s the last human on earth.
Sometimes, he hopes he is. At least when he dies, it’ll be with the knowledge that the last of humanity went out with a bang.
At least he’ll have fought.
And then, maybe, he can find the person he lived and died for.
Warnings: mild sexual content (maybe?), violence, no others so far


Title: Flying High On Blue and Silver Wings
Bang: Mini
Summary: Civil War AU. Bucky stops Zemo from bombing the UN meeting while a young intern reveals the truth of the Accords. Tony collects Bucky from the police and learns the truth of his parents’ deaths. Strange encounters abound in a different world while things get bigger on Earth. Tony and Bucky are at the heart of it all.
Warnings: Sex scene and violence, minor slurs and curses

Title: Dancing in the Dark
Bang: Mini
Summary: ‘The Avengers’ is a new Broadway show, and dancers Tony and Bucky are rehearsing like crazy with the rest of the cast to be ready for opening night. However, when a man tries to follow Natasha home, they realize that their production may be being used to cover up something illegal …
Warnings: Some minor violence.

Title: Let Us Love, In Reverse
Bang: Mini
Summary: When your team currently consist of a Sythezoid and a Highschooler, you make plans; tons of them. Not one of those plans included stumbling upon a human experimentation lab, Tony becoming a parent or James Buchanan Barnes. Now, he had to use that phone. (A.k.a. Winteriron babies without Mpreg)
Warnings: Possible sexual content, talks about human experimentation, feels, angst.

Title: Shoulder Denizens (Working Title)
Bang: Mini
Summary: When Tony and Bucky, his shoulder devil and shoulder angel, first pop on his shoulders, Steve thinks he’s going crazy. When they don’t go away, Steve learns to live with the craziness. Tony and Bucky follow him through his various trials and tribulations in life, including his transformation into Captain America and his subsequent fall into the Arctic. When Steve wakes up seventy years in the future, his shoulder denizens are gone. But hey, who’s this Tony Stark? And who the hell is the Winter Soldier? This story involves angels, demons, and Hydra, but really, it’s just about a Brooklyn boy and his shoulder denizens.                                                                    
Warnings: None