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BG by Côme. The smoke on the ground around the man’s feet has been done by Benji. And Camille helped me A LOT with the rendering of the smokes because we had no time left:) Also I managed to loose my last animation file (clapclap) so the 2nd thing is just a part of the final movie and we don’t see everything clearly but whatever:)

Edit: No gif for today sorry it was to big so turn the HD button on it’s a bit better

Listen up, allistics.

After what happened yesterday, I’ve decided to teach you the single most important thing you will ever learn about dealing with autistic people, especially under stress:

A meltdown is a defensive response, not an aggression.

Meltdowns happen because we are in pain - either the direct sensory pain of too much light or too loud noise or terrible textures or what have you, or the emotional pain of just being overwhelmed by so much input we can’t handle it, of being told were horrible burdens who can’t love, etc.

Meltdowns are born of pain.

In particular, they’re what happens when we can’t escape that pain. Y’all know about the fight-or-flight response? Well… that’s what a meltdown is. And all of those stories of autistic people destroying things or hurting themselves or lashing out at people? That’s what happens when “flight” is no longer an option. That only leaves “fight.”

We’re trying to defend ourselves from things that are hurting us, and you won’t let us. You stand between us and an escape from pain. That’s what makes us lash out, as surely as if you cornered an animal and poked it with a stick.

So how do you prevent this from happening? Simple. Find out what’s causing us pain, and give us an escape from it. Too much noise? Give us earplugs or a quiet place. Too-bright lights? Maybe we need sunglasses or a darkroom. Draining social expectations? Let us be alone for a bit.

Just let us escape the pain. That’s all we need.

(The implication of this, of course, is that people who think autistic people are inclined to violence? Are people who hurt us and keep us in pain. They’re abusers. This is something that has held up literally every time I’ve heard someone talk about how terrible and violent we are, and then describe their interactions with us. Every. Single. Time.)

There are some specific issues with a late diagnosis which are rarely talked about. The most noticeable one for me is how the environment fails to adjust to a late diagnosis.

I was diagnosed a few months prior to my eighteenth birthday. Which is actually not even that late.
However, many of the people who surround me seem to think that my diagnosis was “too late to take it serious”, in a way.

Whenever I ask for things that I didn’t ask before, I’m not only met with reluctance but with resistance.
It’s always the same - people say “well, this hasn’t been an issue prior to your diagnosis, so I don’t understand why it is now”. What they don’t understand is that I’ve always been struggling but only since my diagnosis, I know that my struggles are real and valid and that I’m allowed to ask for accommodations or changes that make my life easier. And when I explain this to them, they always tell me off. They tell me that I’m lying even though I’m known for my honesty (which is actually a huge indicator for me being autistic, but somehow they’d rather turn the facts and see me as a liar than admit that I have always been autistic and even noticeably so. They don’t want to acknowledge it because they don’t want to admit that they don’t know a thing about autism. Like, some of my friends literally said that autism to them means “a person has issues to talk with others”, which they don’t see in me which is why they deny that I’m autistic and even refuse to look into the resources about autism that I send to them). Before I got diagnosed, I was treated badly every time I spoke about my needs because people saw me as “overreacting”, “overly sensitive” and “overdramatic”. I’ve been bullied for YEARS because of these things, because to them, I was being “a sissy”.
And after almost two years as a diagnosed autistic, I can say that many people STILL perceive everything I self-advocate for in this mindset. That people STILL see my behavior as overreacting instead of keeping in mind that I am autistic and yes, for me it is as bad as I’m saying it is. That yes, I really get overly anxious around people (which leads to me rambling instead of not saying anything, which again doesn’t match many people’s view on autism) and that certain noises, lights and textures feel like someone is sticking needles inside my ears, eyes, brain and body.

For myself, I was able to make a lot out of my diagnosis. I gained a lot of self-esteem, unlearned internalized ableism in big parts and found new ways of coping. I also have a better sense for my needs now, because even though most people who surround me still don’t take them serious, at least I do now.
Many people mistake this again as “playing pretend”, because how can I only know now what I need? What they don’t want to understand is that as an autistic person, you have to pay much more attention to yourself in order to know what you need because living in itself is overwhelming and taking up a lot of space in our brains. (Heck, I don’t even realize when I’m thirsty 99% of the time… I can go three days without drinking and I don’t feel like my body is missing anything until I black out. Same goes for food. I need to pay conscious attention to how much I’m drinking and eating because I don’t even have this connection to my body that allistic people have.)

But it’s so tiring to not be acknowledged as an autistic person because my parents failed to send me to the right specialist when I was younger. Because they send me to an AD(H)D specialist and failed to send me to another after the results came out negative because they perceived me as a child who is “weird because they are gifted”. Who speaks like a grown up because they’re smart, who plays alone even if they have friends around because they have too creative daydreams and so on.
It’s tiring to always fight so that people treat me right because they are dismissive about my needs because they don’t even UNDERSTAND that I have them because I’m perceived as “too allistic” due to my late diagnosis.

As a late diagnosed autistic, I feel like I get automatically treated as some kind of “Watered Down Autistic™”, who just got the label “autism” slapped on themselves in order to have an excuse for all their quirks and “character flaws”. I feel like people view late diagnosed autistic people as “even less autistic than high-functioning autistic people” which is why they inflict further abuse on us and never consider us as autistic.

But what gets me most about this is how they don’t even realize what they do. That they’d rather keep on pretending that I’m not autistic no matter how much I speak up and tell them that it actively harms me and our relationship because it’s easier and more convenient for them to just dismiss my disability and demand from me to be like them. Because apparently, they hate disabled and autistic people too much to actually accept that one of their friends/family members is one of them.
Keep in mind that these people I’m talking about are my friends and family. They are the people closest to me, the people who claim to like me and have my best interest in mind… And to think that even people who interpret their relationship to me like this abuse me on a daily basis without even noticing or caring about it says a lot about ableism. And it also says a lot about how people who don’t like me or are close to me would treat me if they knew I was autistic.

Here’s an animation test from before we began the animation of the film. I had almost no time to figure out the style of the smoke and a way to animate it but yeah it was fun to experiment and I’m very happy with the result !:)

Edit: So you can put 10 images up to 10MB each in one post but it seems like a single gif can’t live here on tumblr if it’s more than 3MB.. So as this stuff is mostly texture work, below 3MB there’s nothing left thank you tumblr I love you so much so much.

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anonymous asked:

Could you do a tutorial on yt or here on how you make your scrapbook style edits please!!! I'm desperate

since every scrapbook page is different and a lot of it is down to personal preference i figured i’d answer this by posting some resources and then my general tips/process under the cut! it’s photoshop specific since that’s what i use. if you were looking for something more specific then feel free to message me again :)

resources:

tips/process below!

note: this “tutorial” assumes you have basic photoshop knowledge but also explains(ish) some silly, fairly self-explanatory things. i also skip quite a few steps but that’s largely because there’s no one way to do anything when it comes to scrapbook pages.

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Single Dad AU

I have been writing almost 20K of angst and I’m in a need of some fluff. I love and protect all the Voltron HCs and AUs, but I especially love the AU where Shiro is an actual Dad™ and the others are actually little babies. But just imagine combining certain HCs with this AU:


• Single Dad Shiro and his little son, Keith, go to a daycare when Shiro has to work
• This makes autistic Keith very uncomfortable. All the loud noises, gross textures and kids constantly wanting to touch him makes Keith freak out more than usual
• Shiro worries about how much he has to take off work to get Keith. The whole point of daycare is to allow him to work more, in order to keep their house and keep Keith happy
• Lance tries to befriend Keith, as the friendliest kid in the class, but Keith is at a nonverbal point and lashes out at Lance instead. He realizes that Lance is just trying to be nice, but he’s too overstimulated to care
• Shiro has to pick up Keith early and learns that he got into a fight with another kid. Shiro constantly apologizes to the headmaster, but they don’t listen and kick Keith out for his behavior
• When Shiro leaves sadly with a stressed Keith, Allura (a secretary working her last day) recognizes him as a war Veteran, who saved his entire team from being executed and recognizes the autistic behavior in Keith
• She talks Shiro into bringing Keith to the daycare she has just opened, and states there will be less kids for Keith to worry about
• Willing to try anything, Shiro agrees but worries for Keith. Keith is his first priority and doesn’t want to see him stressed again.
• Allura’s daycare has several classes but her personal class only has 3 others kids besides Keith. Shiro hopes this works
• Lance is one of the kids
• Upon seeing Keith, Lance declares him as his “ETERNAL RIVAL, WHOM HE SHALL FIGHT.” But then he’s distracted by the dinosaurs that Pidge is playing with
• Lance has ADHD
• Pidge has OCD
• Hunk has anxiety
• Allura explains she made this class specific for children who require a different way of learning and have different needs
• Keith seems to make friends with everyone, though he doesn’t realize it. Pidge likes how quiet he is and appreciates how he doesn’t touch their toys or disorganize them. Hunk enjoys when Keith gets angry at other kids during one of his anxiety attacks. Despite being rivals, Lance likes Keith’s energy once Keith warms up to them
• Keith doesn’t understand the term “rivals” he also doesn’t understand jokes
• Shiro is the dad that waits until all the kids’ parents have picked them up. He’s waited on several occasions with Keith’s friends
• One time Lance waited for almost an hour and cried that they didn’t love him anymore. Keith was annoyed by the sound of his crying and told him so. Shiro went to scold him when he noticed that Lance had stopped crying to argue back.
o Shiro told Lance that his family loved him very much and would never forget about him and the smile Lance sent him was worth it
o Shiro didn’t realize so many people could fit into one car when Lance’s family finally pulled up. Dozens of people got out to thank Shiro and hug Lance. It turns out their other car broke down on their way to pick up Lance
o Shiro offered to fix it and learned how gracious Lance’s family could be
• Shiro has PTSD from his time in the army. He wakes up some nights with his hand reaching for a gun and sweat dripping down his back and screams ringing in his ears. Sometimes he stays awake all night just watching Keith sleep
o Some nights Keith wakes up and silently crawls into Shiro’s bed
• Allura suggests that Shiro look into a getting a therapy dog for Keith, that can help him calm down and stim
• Turns out Keith prefers dogs over people and instantly bonds with the trained dog picked out for him. The dog adores Keith and always alerts Shiro when Keith becomes overstimulated or is about to have an outburst
o The dog has also silently helped Shiro with his PTSD, waking him up before a nightmare gets bad, providing his fur against Shiro’s real hand when he’s experiencing a flashback, reminding Shiro to take off his prosthetic after a long day
• Lance, Hunk and Pidge love Keith’s dog (named Red by Keith)
• Lance has to be reminded that Red is not a play pet, but something that helps Keith and if Keith doesn’t want them near Red, they have to respect that
o Pidge understands this best
• Pidge learning from Allura that non-binary is real and a thing, thus Pidge starts referring themselves as they/them
• Keith helps to “pretend bake” with Hunk when Hunk gets too nervous around other kids. Both of them bond with just being with one another
• Lance and Keith get into many scuffles but non are as bad as their first encounter
o Lance introduces Keith to his family as his “boyfriend”
o Lance’s family coos and instantly takes videos of the moment; Keith is confused as he was promised a cupcake but he isn’t nervous around Lance’s big family as he is with others
o Shiro makes copies for himself of the videos
• Pidge and Keith usually silently sit together with Pidge building a tower and then letting Keith knock it over, only to repeat the process all over again

Just please, I love little kiddies AU and dad Shiro. Never let that AU die. Welp, I suppose its time for angst again.

Manga Studio 5/Clip Studio Paint Brush Guide

Okay, so I’ve had Manga Studio 5 (EX specifically) for almost a year now. I just loaded it up onto my new computer and so I thought I would play with some of the brushes since it had been a month or two since I used the program. And I decided that I would post the results here. 

Just a warning, this is going to be a pretty long post. 

So, just a few things to note before we get started: 

  • Like I said, I have the EX version. Not too sure what the differences are because I got the program as a gift and that’s just the version I got. So if there are any brushes that are in the EX version that aren’t in the normal version, sorry. 
  • The photos I put up will show how the brushes interact with each other in different circumstances - 
    • Do they blend into each other without the use of a blending tool? 
    • How do the brushes look with just a single stroke? 
    • Do they darken upon layering in a single stroke? 
    • Do they darken upon layering at all? 
  • I used every brush (minus the effects brushes) in each of these circumstances, even if it isn’t logical to. (Ex. obviously the pens aren’t going to blend into each other, but I still did a blending test). 
  • Blending tools weren’t at all
  • Some tools are harder to blend into each other. You just gotta mess around with them and see what works. 
  • The names of the tools are only listed in the blending test, but the other tests have the tools in the same order. 
  • I haven’t messed with any of the tool settings. They’re all set to their original settings. 
  • I used the same sized brush for everything. If it looks smaller, it’s really just smaller and has nothing to do with my size settings. 
  • Also, keep in mind that the brushes may have a slightly different effect if seen from farther away/closer up/with a different sized brush
  • I’m not very good at describing textures, so hopefully you’ll get the point 

Before I start, here’s the full test image. You can save it to your computer for reference, but PLEASE don’t repost it anywhere. 

Okay, onto the blending test. The point of this test is to see if/how well the different brushes bend together with themselves without the use of an outside tool, such as the blending tool. It also shows if/how well lighter colors show up on top of darker colors. 

Pen

  • G-pen 
    • Does not blend with itself
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors
    • No texture 
  • Mapping Pen
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors
    • No texture
  • Turnip Pen
    • Does not blend with itself
    • Light colors can be layered onto darker colors 
    • No texture
  • Calligraphy 
    • Does not blend with itself
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • No texture
  • For Effect Line
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors
    • Very minimal texture
    • Some of the colored area goes away once the pen is lifted 
  • Textured Pen
    • Does not blend with itself
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Bumpy texture around edges 

Marker 

  • Milli Pen 
    • Does not blend with itself
    • Light colors can be layered onto darker colors 
    • No texture
  • Felt Pen
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors cannot be layered onto darker colors 
    • No texture 
  • Fill-in-Mono Pen 
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto darker colors 
    • Slightly pixel-y around edges 
  • Marker Pen 
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto darker colors 
    • No texture 

Pencil 

  • Darker Pencil 
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto darker colors 
    • Every so slightly streaky 
  • Lighter Pencil 
    • Blends with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto darker colors 
    • Texture can be built up 
  • Mechanical Pencil 
    • Does blend with itself, but it takes some work and layering 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Texture takes some work to build up 
  • Colored Pencil 
    • Blends with itself pretty easily 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Nice, smooth texture 
  • Rough Pencil 
    • Blends with itself a bit, but it takes quite a bit of work 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Rough, grainy texture 

Pastel 

  • Chalk 
    • Blends with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Rough but also kind of soft, grainy texture 
  • Pastel 
    • Blends with itself, but it takes some work 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Slightly grainy texture 
  • Crayon 
    • Blends with itself pretty easily 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Grainy, stippled texture 
  • Charcoal 
    • Blends with itself easily 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Soft, stippled texture 
  • Noise 
    • Blends with itself easily 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Soft, ever so slightly grainy texture 

Watercolors 

  • Opaque Watercolor 
    • Blends with itself easily 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors, but it takes some work 
    • Texture can be built up 
  • Transparent Watercolor 
    • Blends with itself easily 
    • Takes quite a bit of layering or pressure to layer a light color over a dark color 
    • Smooth, slightly build-able texture 
  • Dense Watercolor 
    • Blending takes a lot of work 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Texture can be built up 
  • Smooth Watercolor 
    • Blends with itself 
    • Takes a bit of work to layer light colors over dark colors 
    • Soft, slightly blurry texture 
  • Paint and Apply 
    • Blends with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered over dark colors 
    • Soft, blurry texture 
  • Watercolor Brush 
    • Blends with itself 
    • Takes work to layer light colors over dark colors 
    • Texture can be built up 
  • Blurred Edge Watercolor 
    • Blends with itself easily 
    • Light colors can be layered over dark colors, but it does take a little bit of work 
    • Blurred but also slightly rough texture 
  • Watery 
    • Blends with itself 
    • Takes work to layer light over dark 
    • Texture can be built up 
  • Emphasizing Texture 
    • Blends with itself easily 
    • Takes work to layer light over dark 
    • Texture can be build up 

Oil Paint

  • Oil Paint 
    • Blends with itself, but it takes some layering 
    • Light colors can be layered over dark colors 
    • Texture can be built up 
  • Oil Paint Flat Brush 
    • Blends with itself, but it takes a little work 
    • Light colors can be layered over dark colors 
    • Texture can be built up 
  • Color Change 
    • Difficult to blend 
    • Light colors can be layered over dark colors, but result will depend on what color the BG is set to 
    • Texture can be built up somewhat 

India Ink 

  • Bit Husky 
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Slightly bumpy around the edges 
  • Smooth 
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Smooth texture 
  • Rough 
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Slightly streaky 
  • Lighter Ink 
    • Blends with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Soft texture 
  • Darker Bleed 
    • Does not blend with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Bumpy around the edges

Airbrush 

  • Stronger 
    • Doesn’t really blend with itself, but it may work better if they brush size is a lot larger 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Slightly soft/blurred around the edges 
  • Soft 
    • Blends with itself 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Very soft/blurry 
  • Highlight 
    • Probably doesn’t blend with itself too well 
    • Might be able to build up lightness? 
    • Probably soft around the edges 
    • Only shows up when used against a darker color
    • Probably behaves a lot like “Shadow” 
  • Shadow
    • Doesn’t blend with itself too well 
    • Lighter colors cannot be layered onto darker colors; layering only makes it darker 
    • Soft around the edges 
  • Spray 
    • Doesn’t really “blend” with itself, but the dots do layer/mix together, so color transitions can be smooth 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Soft, stippled texture 
  • Tone Scraping 
    • Doesn’t really “blend” with itself, but the dots do layer/mix together, so color transitions can be smooth 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Stippled texture 
  • Blurred Spray 
    • Blends with some layering 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Very soft/blurred stippled texture 
  • Droplets 
    • Doesn’t blend too well, but it might have a smoother transition if you work it a lot 
    • Light colors can be layered onto dark colors 
    • Larger stippled texture 

Okay, that was a lot. To keep this post from being eight miles long, and to keep me from repeating myself, I won’t be adding any notes on the next section. Remember, I stopped adding the tool names here, but they’re in the same order as they are above. 

This next test is to show how the brushes look after a single stroke (no layering, and only one color) 

Pen 

Marker

Pencil 

Pastel 

Watercolors 

Oil Paints 

Just a note on this one though - the BG color for “Color Change” is set to white

India Ink 

Airbrush 

Okay, this next test is to show if/how much the color darkens when layered. The top row will show the brush layered over itself in a single stroke (the pen was not lifted) and the bottom row will show the brush layered over itself in two strokes (the pen was lifted and the line crosses itself in one layer) 

Pen 

Marker 

Pencil 

Pastel 

Watercolors 

Oil Paints 

India Ink 

Airbrush

So yeah, sorry that was so long, but hopefully it was helpful. Let me know if any of the information is incorrect (people make mistakes!) or if I need to clear anything up. 

anonymous asked:

hi it's the drawing anon again. Is it okay if you can post the color palette publicly? I feel like there are other people out there who want to draw your soft boys as well. I love the warm palette you use and you have a distinct art style that I love to pieces.

((Heck yeck!! Here are the boys with no overlay for ur drawing needs))

((Also the overlay i use!! Its just a noise texture with a orangeish/pink gradient overlay and a few tweaks here and there but!))