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I just wanted to say that i love you all and you all are honestly the best, most intelligent and lovely people I’ve ever met. I dont think i will ever find a place which feels so much like a second home. Im sorry things didnt turn out to be the way they should have, the way history was waiting to be corrected and expressed at the right time in the right era. Im sorry our hopes were put down by two men who thought that introducing a lunatic in the middle of the show would be a groundbreaking idea. I’m sorry all our clever analysis of the show was thrown to the trash like that with these “insane wish fullfilmment” plotlines.

But more than being sorry, I’m GLAD we all were here together at a time when LGBT community needs to be together more than ever. I’m SUPRISED by how amazing and clever ya’ll are with your theories and predictions. I’m PROUD to have been a part of this conspiracy, this family which helped me at my lows, and constantly supported me at my highs. I’m HONOURED to know ya’ll, all of you who are going to be so successful in life because you are smart, hard working and deserve the best. I am greatly inspired by you all.

So thank you.

themes commonly found in international friendships

- ‘u dont have (insert food/music/restaurant here) over there??’
- ‘wait what time is it. shouldnt u be asleep’
- alternatively: timezoned/clockblocked again
- 'do u need a hug. have a virtual hug’
- weird slang terms
- 'i will fight everyone thats mean to u. i will fight them rn’
- vague embarrassment regarding ur accent
- 'dont maKE ME COME OVER THERE’
- 'oh yeah i have a friend who lives in (insert country here) and apparently’
- no real hugs :((
- suffering
- fahrenheit vs celsius
- the measuring of things in feet fucks one of u up, probably

Hi! Okay so there is a crisis situation right now and we need help fast. A lot of you know @ lyrra or @ trainerlyra on here and her boyfriend Red is in extremely desperate need of a life saving surgery but his abusive parents dont want him to get it. I dont want to go into details publicly but if you want more information about the situation feel free to message me.

The surgery will cost nearly 3000 dollars and i am only able to contribute 1000 at this time and we can not afford to wait any longer because his health is deteriorating by the day. We dont even have enough time to set up a gofundme before i made this post like we planned because literally every hour counts right now

We still need to raise at least 2000 dollars becsuse we dont know what other hospital fees there are but we have to raise it as soon as possible. it sounds like a daunting number but if 500 people donate about $4 he can get the surgery and we really really need your help

I dont have a lot to offer in return at the moment hut maybe i can draw you something or pay you back later but we are in DESPERATE need of any help we can get

you can send a donation to maxbaumgar@gmail.com with paypal until we can get a gofundme set up

and then i can put it in there and show you where your money has gone once we can!!

if you arent able to donate please reblog this post we really truly need all the help we can get as soon as possible and i cant tell you how much even a few dollars could mean to us.

thank you so much for your time

its been so long but im still trying to figure out how you could go from “i love you” to “i don’t care about you anymore” in such a short amount of time

One more week until V3 release!
I preordered THREE copies of the game but still can’t play it on the day it comes out. THIS IS ULTIMATE B_LLSH_T. OUTRAGEOUS.

Japanese Limited Edition(PSVita)- waiting for shipping. prob get this first.
US/EUR Limited Edition(PSVita)(I HAD to get this too, it comes w different bonus items)- waiting for NIS America to do its thing.
LimitedEdition V3 Collaboration Monokuma engraved PS4 - waiting for shipping. i wanted a PS4 for a while now. V3 comes up w a collab. talk about perfect timing….they DID NOT take foreign credit cards so pre-ordering this was a HUGE hassle….had to ask a relative that has a bank account in Japan. its almost like they dont want my money. TAKE IT!! JUST TAKE IT SPIKECHUNSOFT.

I can still technically play it on the game release date if i DL it, but that will mean ill have FOUR copies of the same game…FOUR. you hear me? FOUR.

and that’s just batsh_t crazy.

Mbti Reacting To A Crying Friend ( ಥـْـِـِـِـْಥ)

INTP: … “look at that weather” … “its nice” 

INFP: “DONT WORRY ITS OK. HERE LOOK ITS THE PIC OF THAT VIRTUAL CHARACTER U LOVE SO MUCH” … “Hey but … you’ll be fine. The world is…” *goes on and on ends up having an existential crisis themselves*

INTJ: *ERROR … ERROR … ERROR*

INFJ: if you want to talk I’m here to listen … Really just take your time. You are fine really really. I’m here to listen.

ENFP: “OMG YOU ARE CRYING!! (/゚Д゚)/  OMG TEARS !! ARE YOU OK ?? Wait !!!! What am I saying?? You are crying of course you are not ok” *BIG HUGE HUG* “lets go out for a drink or something” :)

ENTP: *unconsciously cracks a joke* … *shows Memes* … *Puns* … *Cute animal pics* … … … “If you wanna talk I really don’t mind” … *more memes* … “I KNOW LETS GO GET DRUNK!!!”…. “ oh you need a hug???” … … … … … … “Fiiiine” *gives them a hug until they stop crying* … unconsciously cracks a joke again*

ENFJ : “WHO THE FUCK MADE U CRY????” (╯°□°)╯︵   “I’LL KILL THEM FOR YOU I SWEAR” … “Oh oh no no wait you’re alright”  *gives them a hug* *cracks a joke at the end*.

ESTP : “Hey don’t worry it’ll be fiiine like seriously. Please. Stop crying. Look memes. Want to join me in on a prank?? … no? WHAT DO I DO IN THIS SITUATION???”

ESFP : “YOU ARE CRYYYYING (ʘ_ʘ) . LOOK SHE’S CRYING  (/゚Д゚)/. EVERYONE SHE IS CRYING  \(*Д* \) . What to dooo???? X_X” *acts like some clown to cheer them up*

ENTJ : “well, life’s a bitch” -_-

ISFJ : “oooh dear don’t worry. You are ok. I’m here. Its fine”  *a big hug. gets them some food* (idk why don’t ask)

ISTJ: “U can always solve the problem its not the end of the world. want me to help u put out a plan??”

ISFP: (the clumsy one): “oh daamn. uuuuuh hey! i know! wanna go with me see some flowers?? its in this rly nice calm place. And um they r rly beautiful too” *gives a hug* “hey hey hey! don’t worry u can tell me whats wrong! rly … WE CAN EAT SOMETHIN’ TOO …. MUSIC IS GOOD TOO…” *ends up crying with them*  ( ಥـْـِـِـِـْಥ)

ISTP: “oh well. wanna go out for a drink?”

ESTJ: “oh…. crying…. uuh…. ok….. welp?…. want me to kick someone’s ass for you? or nah?”

ESFJ: “ TEARS! oh damn. WHO DID THIS???  oh dear. Don’t worry I’m here if you need anything”

10

You have to pick your battles. Wait, no. I want to be right all the time. And you will be. After a few years they just… they give up.

3 days ago I got this message from Taylor Nation that changed a lot of things.

It changed the way I feel about myself. I no longer feel invisible in those huge crowds.

I now feel blessed and that people are here supporting me, that I have MANY friends. And that people can be beautiful and selfless. Even people that dont know you very much.

It also changed the way my year is ending, Im ending my year with hope and love and happiness.

It changed the way im waiting for next year. Im eager, im excited, im overwhelmed in a really good way.

but mostly, it changed the view of February 4th.
This time im not alone. This time people took their time to help me. This time I was noticed.

This time I dont have to suffer on my own. This time my sister is going to be on my heart, as every day on my life, but this time she will be enjoying this life of mine. We will be dancing to Taylor Swift. I will get to be with the only friend that I had during my sister’s illness, and when she passed away.

I hope I get to hug her and tell her that, if not in Houston, someday. Because today I feel I can say it out loud and that people wont judge me. Most of them wont, because there are so many GOOD people around that all the hate I can get, all the jealousy I had to face it was just so small compared to all the love and support and the real selfless happiness so many of my FRIENDS felt for me.

And thats right, everyone that felt this way for me. Everyone that said something nice. That thought I should go. To everyone who helped me, who congratulated me from the heart. Who is excited for me. Who is HAPPY for me. YOU are my friend, and I love you for making me feel I belong. To make me feel I matter. That I should have a chance for once. That I deserve nice things too.

Thank you.

Thank you Taylor Nation for making my christmas miracle

Thank you AT&T for the tickets and for allowing my best friend @coffee-midnights to join me in this day that is so important for me.

Thank you @taylorswift for being my only friend for so long and for introducing me to all this wonderful people

and THANK YOU all, my friends, all the swifties that read my story and thought it was worth sharing. Thank you for giving me love and support and for making me feel like I do belong somewhere.

Im crying happy tears this time, and I know somehow, in someplace, my sister just make all of this happen. And I get to celebrate her birthday and her life dancing to Taylor Swift for all that we’ve been through.

I cant find a way to end this post without being repetitive, but just thank you, everyone for making one of my biggest dreams come true.


Taylor, see you in Houston on February 4th, we are celebrating my sister together babe💙

anonymous asked:

Usually boys act like babies when they're sick so I can see Shawn having a little cold but would act like he was dying and it'd be the cutest thing. He'd be wanting you to cuddle him all day long.

“This is it… The end is near…”
“Shawn… it’s a cold…”
“my lovely Y/N… take care when I’m gone…” *flushed cheeks from slight fever*
“Oh for the love of god…”
“Wait where are you going??? DONT LEAVE ME IN MY TIME OF NEED!”
“But I thought you were dying? Beyond help? I might as well go and look for a new boyfriend if you are gonna die soon…”
*shocked gasp* “this is betrayal in its basest form Y/N”

anonymous asked:

So I donated to your kickstarter so long ago that I can't even remember when it was and you haven't been making updates about the progress of the album in a very long time. I know life happens and sometimes things get pushed back but I'm starting to wonder where my money went and if I will ever get the vinyl I paid for. It's been well over a year and it's making me think you just took everyone's money and don't really care how long they have to wait to see what they paid for come to life.

this mite be a long post! please for the love of god feel free to scroll beyond if u dont care, i truly hate when people fuck up my feed with their essays so ya. that is my disclaimer here. ok.

ok. deep breath.
i talk about this/my campaign/my project VERY often on twitter (it’s distracting and often harmful for me to use tumblr and facebook regularly. sorry if that’s inconvenient). i realize most people aren’t actively checking my shit & that my tweets get buried in the constant avalanche of my stupid thoughts, so i’ll summarize the past year or so. hopefully whoever left this anonymous message will check back to see the answer and if so, i IMPLORE u to read the entire thing instead of picking out details from the first 4 sentences and sending me another message about how i stole your fucking money.

my album is almost finished. i’ve said this multiple times over the course of the past year, but this time it’s like, legitimately fact. i’m feeling extra sensitive right now and reading this message felt like stepping on a rusty nail, so i’ll go ahead and give you as many details as possible to explain why it’s taken me over a year to complete my first full-length album. 

i am an independent artist, as you probably know. i am also an extreme perfectionist. when i began my kickstarter campaign in september of 2015, i had about 30 songs written that i’d poorly recorded in my shitty apartment, many of which i hoped to record professionally for my first proper (and physical) release. i could not fucking stand the thought of being contractually obligated to make music via label and figured kickstarter was my last hope. i honestly thought it would fail miserably and decided that when my campaign came to a humiliating end, i’d move on from music and do something else that wouldn’t make me feel so fucking horrible about myself. somehow, thanks to you and everyone else who made my dream come true, i made enough money to actually make a record.

two months later in january of 2016, i went home to florida from LA to visit my family for the holidays. thanks to my incredible fucking luck, some kind of crime ring was hitting licks on every major airline’s baggage claim at LAX post-holiday and my luggage containing 3 notebooks filled with all of my lyrics, 2 external hard drives and a bunch of little USB drives containing 2 years of my work were stolen. hmu if u want the police report for proof. 

i lost a lot of work (and learned the value of The Cloud- i hate to trust it after my nudes were leaked and my fucking whole bank account was emptied after someone hacked my shit in 2014, but here we are) and basically all morale but pieced together what i could from what i had left. i hired a producer i’ve admired for years to be the executive producer of my record and decided this fucking bullshit was an opportunity to make my shit better. due to unfortunate, unforgivable and honestly criminal circumstances, this fucking psycho wasted an upsetting amount of my time and decided to back out of my project. THAT particular situation keeps me up at night and i fucking live for the day i can tell that goddamn story, it truly shocks me that a human being could do me like that fool did me, yall will find out one day but ahem. anyway. 

after this incredible fucking scam, i decided to ONCE AGAIN start anew considering the legal and financial obligations of releasing music that had been co-written by this bad fucking person. i left my home in LA and went to stay at my dad’s house in florida, spent literally all of my time mastering production software and learning to play piano, and filled in all the shit i’d lost with new things i’d written and produced entirely on my own. then i got married, but that’s unimportant to this story. actually it is like, kind of important, but whatever.

i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in january 2016 and in march of 2016 i attempted suicide. i left an organized folder of songs, mockups for art, my bank account info and a note to my manager to make sure that my album was released because i literally could not comfortably die knowing that i let down the people who gave me money. im not tryna make anyone feel bad im just like saying cuz its part of the whole shit. anyway, i failed at killing myself and woke up in a bathtub of puke ready to go the fuck off. haven’t wanted to die since.

ahem. so. since i’m honestly 100% unable to trust a single fucking human being with my work and my thoughts after what happened up there ^^^^, i decided to set up a room in my new home for recording. i wrote, recorded, and produced (with some help, but like please bitch give me credit here) a fucking entire new album that i actually LIKED. im not shy about the fact that i think my music is stupid gimmicky- after trying to die and not dying and then getting help i realize i have like a little bit of talent i should actually appreciate. i finished recording and producing it, hired a person i trusted with a degree in music production to help me polish it and alas, he ran off without a single fucking word. thankfully i didn’t pay him a cent but like hey there u follow me on twitter and FUCK. YOU.

so now, as of about a month ago, i’ve absolutely perfected my songs (as much as i can- i still lose sleep over the imperfections im just not good enough to fix) and i’ve found the most trustworthy, hardworking team i’ve ever met to finish this shit. it’s demoralizing to recap the past year, mostly bc it was so fucking horrible for me, but i can promise you the last thing i would ever ever ever ever do is take a bunch of money and dip out with it. i do literally every single piece of this shit on my own, from the music to visuals to branding, and it’s hard. it’s time consuming. i have a job outside of music to provide for myself and for my family, and that takes up my time too. 

so i really apologize for the amount of time it’s taken for this record to be released. it fucking kills me to be waiting and i didn’t spend your money; god knows i would never in my fucking life just STEAL your money. the fact that anyone would ever accuse me of that makes me ILL.

i just want ya’ll to know there’s nothing easy about releasing music as an independent artist, especially one who refuses to accept anything less than perfection, and ESPECIALLY one who refuses to be disrespected and taken advantage of. i’m doing my best, and it took me a while. i feel like it’s worth it. it’ll be another 2 months or so. hit me up if you want a refund on your vinyl.

I dont think there is enough Clace fanart in the Shadowhunters(TV)  fandom, so I doodled some Clace from a happy AU, where no one hunts anything and they live happily as mundanes.

Weirdly anough they have both grown on me over time, just like any other character in this show, and seeing Jace unhappy breaks my little heart.

I want to draw some more shadowhunters art, maybe some Izzy/Alec/Jace sibling bonding or Clizzy, Luke/Simon/Clary family stuff…? There are way too many adorable relationships in this show haha

when all my friends are in relationships and im sat here waiting for a girl to give me even the time of day to just have a decent conversation 

sorry for being inactive ive had my mock exams and have spent 5 hours drawing things i dont like woooo! 

If youre looking for a sign this is it. I know its one of the scariest things in the world but You have to tell people how you feel. Tell that special person you love them and that you cant stop thinking about them. Tell them that something as simple as their presence makes your heart race. Tell them that the days youre with them you can’t stop smiling and happiness wont let you go. If youre waiting for the perfect moment stop, that doesnt exisit Life is too unpredictable and short to wait, WE DON’T HAVE TIME TO WAIT. Please say what you need to say, I promise you those what ifs will haunt you if you dont. So go ahead and tell that girl/ boy that they make you happy, do it now in the moment, when its real. If you don’t get answers you like hey, at least you got it off your chest. People are unpredictable life is unpredictable. We need to stop hiding behind our feelings out of fear. Honesty is so important and special even if its not always beautiful.
—  S.M // This is your sign you’ve been looking for