All this leads me to a consideration tbh: honestly if you know a friend of yours struggled so much/still does how can you go around mocking him that bad? The nerve people have of dismissing other people’s struggles and feelings like that, it makes fee sick. This isn’t new or anything but it’s making me feel even worse right now than it ever did in the past 1+ year. I stand with people who are compassionate and and understanding and know how important empathy is. If you don’t have those qualities I can’t even think of taking yourself seriously as artists and songwriters because music simply reflects who you are, I don’t believe one sec people who say that art and personality are two distinct things. I never did. I just can’t. Zayn’s music speaks to my soul because he speaks to my soul. He puts out good music because he is a good person, and I feel his music because he’s brave enough to make me feel it. He questions himself, he reflects upon himself, he talks about himself, and that’s when I know how good of a person he is. People make songs about others all the time, and it’s so difficult to talk about ourselves, but he took the risk after all he’s been through and it says a lot about what kind of deep, reflecting, intelligent, honest person he actually is.
I can't help feeling extremely sad. I'm still in bed at 2pm and haven't slept at all the previous night ugh. Why is this affecting me so much. Why do I feel so broken? You've helped with your msr/gillovny posts though. Thanks! How are you feeling yourself?