Pairing:Jungkook x Reader
Genre:Angst and smut.
“I hate you.” You mumbled again as you bit your lip, trying anything to get him to have a fit and storm off, but of course, that wasn’t it — that just got him angrier. “I’m gonna get you to take that back.” He said in a low tone, pulling his t-shirt over his head before unbuttoning and unzipping his jeans quickly.
Happiness was something you couldn’t afford. It was something that only the lucky got and somehow you turned out to be just another unlucky fool. Happiness was overrated anyways. All it meant was that you got to live your life without trial and error, without pain, without hurt, and god you wanted that so badly. All you wanted was for a chance to be happy, and not feel the ache in your chest that you felt now.
There was the thought, that maybe you never would be happy. Maybe you were destined to live a life of loneliness and pain, and never overcome it despite how hard you tried. Maybe you were never supposed to make it over the mountain and just continue falling down like you had been your entire life.
You thought for a while, that there was finally an end to the pain, and you had found it in a man named Min Yoongi. Everything with him had been perfect. Nights and days were meaningless to both of you as you had each other. Everything you ever needed could be found in one another, and that was how the both of you lived during your relationship.
I’ve been keeping a practice journal recently and it’s helped so much so I wanted to talk about it.
at the front of the journal I have a list of all the reasons I like my instrument and should practice, which is really helpful on the days I have no motivation.
then I have a general list of all the things I want to improve. it can be really generic things like posture or be able to play faster, or something more specific like a chromatic scale or being able to do wrist vibrato. once I feel like I’ve made a noticeable improvement or have completely conquered something, I can put a check mark next to that goal.
then, every day I make a list of daily objectives. usually it’s something like an f minor scale (with tuner), a difficult passage in my ensemble music (with metronome), carefully play through my solo, and whatever etude I’m working on (with metronome and tuner). then I make a very general time goal, usually to practice for at least an hour. at the end of the day, I make sure I’ve met all of my daily goals, and then I make some goals for the next day.
I’ve heard of practice journals before and haven’t taken them seriously, but it has genuinely motivated me to have good, productive practice sessions every day and I highly encourage everyone to start one