21p’s merch team continues to roll out the most horrific aesthetically unpleasing apparel i have ever seen in my life like deadass pitching their .bmp MS Paint-made artwork with the text tool and selling it for actual, real money that helps turn the cogs of our capitalistic society

C: Why do adults project their insecurities onto their kids? Like, Im over hear tryna to love myself and be happy before I have to go out and suffer until retirement (if i get one) and you making it hard for me to even fake a smile with that bullshit under the guise of ,“I love you, i wouldnt hurt you” “im not gone help you hurt yourself” “ i dont want you to feel bad about yourself”

do you know how awkward it is when you see a guy you spoke to on a dating app for a good month (before things fizzled out and you just stopped talking) in real life?

turns out a boy i spoke to on a dating app just started at my college and he gets on my train in the mornings

this year is off a great start…

(( I’m genuinely really sorry for my lack of productivity as of late. I had to get a second job irl and its causing a much bigger strain on my time and evergy than I thought it would. I don’t know when I’ll be able to start getting to my replies as often as I’d like to be able to, but I’m really trying to get my shit sorted out. Until then, thank you for being patient with me, and I promise I’ll keep trying to write whenever I can find the will for it.♡


its ya girl lucii back from the clutches of Real Life

i’ve been in and out of the tumblrsphere over the summer, so i hope yall have been doing well <333 just wanted to let you guys know that IRL hectivity (hectic activity) was keepin me busy over the past couple months and that im NOT dead yet,,,, but if you guys are interested in what i’ve been up to, check out my twitter for even more nonsense –>

so, two things. ONE: i am so so grateful to all the lovely people who sent me messages the past few weeks ;u; im sorry i wasnt around to reply, but i read almost every one and they definitely boosted my mood when life was beating my ass!!!!! THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH ;;u;;

TWO: I HAVE NEWS!!! ART NEWS!!!!!! LOTS OF NEW ART!!!!!!!!!! and better yet, ART FOR THE STUCKY BIG BANG!!!! if any of you guys haven’t seen people’s posts about their entries to the big bang, you can check all of them out over at the AO3 collection here:

the lovely people over @thestuckylibrary have been super great with organizing the bang and i am so happy i got to participate this year!! i’ll be posting my pieces tonight and i hope you guys will go read the fics because they are PHENOMENAL (not to brag but im working with some of the best stucky writers and artists in the bizz 😏). i hope yall will go give all the writers/artists some love because theyve worked SO hard to bring all this beautiful new stucky goodness!! :D

aaaaand i think thats it for now? yeah im gonna stop rambling because only like 5 of you read these anyways lol
*MWAH* i love you all!!!!!!!

i have never in my life cared about school. i always said id never let school stress me out. but its only the second week of school and i am so overwhelmed. i have 6 classes and i go to 2 different campuses. not to mention i still dont have a car of my own. when im not in school im at work. all day and then doing homework at night. i keep trying to make plans with my friends but it just wont work out and i havent done anything fun in months.

something else

ok I dont want to sound like I’m always super depressed and like hate myself bc I don’t lmao I love my life but ya know sometimes u just gotta rant. anyways one of my school friends likes one of my other friends and she always talks about how she thinks no one likes her in that way but people do and she doesn’t realize it but I honestly don’t think that’s the case for me I’m just not the type of person to really stand out to guys and have cute quirks that they like or anything special about me and if there was I always keep it to myself basically I don’t feel like I’m girlfriend material ya feel.

anonymous asked:

L is the one that always denies everything cause 1) she started it 2)is the one that's always looking at C 3) she's more serious 4) is the one that misses her private life the most 5) its touching her pride

Yeah, I even think that Lauren didnt necessarily want to become a singer. It’s as if she didnt wanna let down mike so she went on with the career. (Her dad’s a musician) I have a few things that might prove it, because I believe Lauren wants a normal life and I tooootaaallyy understand that. I’d never wanna be in her shoes, you’ll be constantly thought about by people all around the world but you dont know what they’re saying about you, and that would drive me fucking crazy. Plus, you can never be able to go to places without being noticed, like yeah, fame is cool and shit. But paps are everywhere, and false rumors go around and you are unable to stop them. Not to forget how management controls your every move.

anonymous asked:

I feel so far away from God. I feel like im just going through the motions and Im begging God, just desperate to feel something. Because my head is flooded with bad thoughts, evil thoughts about God and i cant stop them, they're uncontrollable it seems like. I dont want to think these things, i dont believe them at all. I need God, so badly, I feel like ending my life sometimes, all ive done is fail God over and over. Please pray for me.

Hey there,
I’m sorry to hear that you feel saddened by this. I’m also sorry that you’ve been going through such chaos. I also have been seeking God all the while asking to feel something again. It hurts and your soul is just so hungry for Jesus. Rest in the fact that God is with you and loves you even though we may not always “feel” it. Don’t be too focused on a feeling. However I still believe with prayer, God will bring those feelings back. The next thing I’ll touch on now is those pesky thoughts. I’ve definitely had my battle with intrusive thoughts against the Lord. I have just reblogged two asks I’ve answered from others going through the same thing. Scroll down my blog right under this ask. The answer has some breadth so be sure to check it out! 👇🏾👇🏾

It is imperitive to anyone who has these blasphemous thoughts to know that they are not from them but from the enemy. God understands and he knows your heart so don’t worry. I advise you to stay in prayer that the Lord removes these toxic thoughts. Don’t end your life. It isn’t worth it. You are such a treasure in God’s eyes. People need you. You were created for a reason. There are so much wonderful things the Lord wants you to walk in. Don’t give up. I’m with you. What I wanted to hear everyday is for someone to tell me that everything will be okay, so I’m telling YOU now, everything is going to be okay.

I’ve failed God again and again too. But it was never too much for his grace to cover. Gods mercies are new every morning. God’s forgiveness is always available to you and me. God will never let you go. He isn’t pushing you away because you’ve failed Him. He knows that we will fail sometimes. We were created to depend on Him daily and better yet, moment by moment. Don’t let the devil accuse you. After you are forgiven you are forgiven. Ask the Lord to take away any shame you may have. Dancing in shame is dancing in the devils territory. Shame cripples you and tells you that you are a mistake. It tells you that thing you did was so horrible and that you’ll make the same mistake again. It tells you to keep feeling awful about it so that you don’t make the same mistake. The Holy Spirits’ conviction empowers you. He tells you that you are better than this. That He loves you too much for you to be doing this. This conviction tells you that you are performing below your higher calling as a chosen child of God. If it doesn’t empower you, it is shame. Let it go.

Whatever conviction you may have don’t pressure yourself to try to be a better Christian. Rest in faith. Faith in Gods grace. You cannot do anything in your own strength. Repentance is a gift. Ask for it. Then let God lead you and follow Him. That’s what God told me. He also told me that the first step to true repentance is humility. You must really and sincerely humble yourself before the Lord. Giving all other things a backseat. Let those thoughts, emotions and affairs of life go. Give Him your undivided attention. The one hinderance from getting closer to God may be that you get so caught up in life that you forget that you need him so badly in all places at all times. It was the one thing that stopped me from getting closer to God after trying everything I could in any way I could knocking at his door. God will perfect us and take us from glory to glory. Keep the faith!
I will be keeping you in my prayers for all of this, especially that you will feel something again. You are definately in my prayer journal. Be blessed! The Lord loves you very much.

“Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.” - James 1:12

“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.” - 2 Corinthians 4:1

“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” - Galatians 6:9

- M

Random Facts Tag Thing!

Tagged by cute @ipsalo . Thank you very much for tagging me.😊💗 Love you, hope u r having a good day.💛

1. When I was little I used to eat pieces of papers. ( dont unfollow me please)

2. I have my own language in which I have millions of songs written & I dont remember any of them.

3. I talk to myself.

4. I am more like season in a day person.

5. When I was little I took some hosting classes I was even invited in a program for babies as a host, so yeah, its my dream job.

6. I read tumblr funny posts & try to make it happen in my life too. lol

7. I hate eggs.

8. I get motivated really fast but I lose my motivation really fast too.

9. I hate school but I love learning.

10. Cute animal photos & videos are the reason I am alive!!💙

I tag u awesome people:
@brilliancedme @youtubenetflixetc
@troyler-is-wild @spaghettihos @dxnxndphilgxymemes @aintnoqueenbutloveme

Hope I am not bothering you cause I love you all so much.😘😘😘 I did a tag like this but as I was tagged by someone as nice as @ipsalo I did it again💞 May something amazing will happen to all of you today. 💕

anonymous asked:

hi, i know you really like the film the double and i was wondering what you thought of it/get from it because i really dont understand it. love your blog by the way, youre so inspiring and like so many beautiful things!!

Hey there! I believe it’s about the internal struggle many introverts (such as myself) have against themselves and their ‘ideal’ version of themselves. The main character is incredibly timid and submissive to the extent that he’s indifferently trampled on by everyone around him, whilst his double is the exact opposite; charismatic, popular and confidant. At times it can be soothing to fabricate this sort of alter existence as a means of escapism from the dull reality of life, but I think the film’s ultimate message is that this can be incredibly harmful too, as it can end up taking over your life (much like the way Simon’s double takes over his).

But hey, that’s just my interpretation of it- the great thing is that it’s such an abstract film, it could literally come to mean anything!

Here’s a little quote from the film that supports my theory:

“I don’t know how to be myself. It’s like I’m permanently outside myself. Like, like you could push your hands straight through me if you wanted to. And I can see the type of man I want to be versus the type of man I actually am and I know that I’m doing it but I’m incapable of what needs to be done. I’m like Pinocchio, a wooden boy. Not a real boy. And it kills me.”

i think im having gay feelings