no this is not about your horoscope

anonymous asked:

I have tried to follow you five+ times over because I see an AU of yours I like and want to follow the creator only to find it's you.

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uhh.. thank you! i suppose? tbh im confused with the message? haha

if you’re talking about the Horoscope AU then its not just me, its also @drawinggheys ‘s AU, we collaborated on it

What The Signs Will Teach You

ARIES: they will teach you to stand up for yourself, even if you risk to be misunderstood

TAURUS: they will teach you to never lose your dignity, no matter how hurt you are, to always get away with grace and to never dumb yourself down for anyone

GEMINI: they will teach you to laugh when you’re not even in the mood to smile because people don’t need to see everything you feel

CANCER: they will teach you to love unconditionally, with every corner of your heart, not expecting anything in return

LEO: they will teach you to appreciate yourself, to know your own value, to accept your flaws

VIRGO: they will teach you to stay honest and pure in this dirty world full of liars

LIBRA: they will teach you to treat everyone equally, to love everyone, just because all the people are unique

SCORPIO: they will teach you to be passionate about everything you do

SAGITTARIUS: they will teach you to believe in yourself above everyone else, to fight for your dreams, not expecting help from anyone

CAPRICORN: they will teach you that loyalty pays itself off, either in love, in hard work or in waiting for something you want, that everything will always be okay in the end, as long as you don’t give up on what you really need

AQUARIUS: they will teach you to show off your imperfections since they are all that makes you who you are

PISCES: they will show you how far the human imagination can go 

SHORT STORIES, my favorite kind of poetry ( meme ).

SIX WORDS .

❝ i heard you were doing good. ❞
❝ you don’t grow your horns overnight. ❞
❝ i promise, it gets better eventually. ❞
❝ & we never talked after that. ❞
❝ am i really, truly, that unlovable? ❞
❝ don’t talk like you’re coming back. ❞
❝ my most dangerous habit is trusting. ❞
❝ we’re made of stars & stories. ❞
❝ you didn’t have to do that. ❞
❝ everything is poetry when you’re drunk. ❞
❝ did i mean anything to you? ❞
❝ real feelings don’t just go away. ❞
❝ you came & changed the weather. ❞
❝ when can you just be mine? ❞
❝ there was no love, only lust. ❞
❝ darling, stop wishing on dead stars. ❞
❝ art is another form of screaming. ❞
❝ silence is the most painful goodbye. ❞
❝ what the fuck did you do? ❞
❝ i’m drunk, dizzy & missing you. ❞
❝ kiss me like you’re losing me. ❞
❝ i don’t feel like smiling today. ❞
❝ not all good people are innocent. ❞
❝ we’re a disaster in the making. ❞
❝ some things are better left unsaid. ❞
❝ we really should’ve talked about it. ❞
❝ i’m so glad i met you. ❞
❝ i wish i knew you earlier. ❞
❝ i fucked (pronoun/name) to our song. ❞
❝ i dreamed of you this night. ❞

TEN WORDS .

❝ you saw the messed up parts of me, & stayed. ❞
❝ all i’ve ever wanted was for someone to save me. ❞
❝ since you left, i have no one to talk to. ❞
❝ i apologize for the nights in which i cannot breathe. ❞
❝ everytime i look at you, i want to kiss you. ❞
❝ we said no strings attached but now we’re in knots. ❞
❝ there’s a difference between missing someone & missing having someone. ❞
❝ for which f are you drinking? fuck, forget, or fun? ❞
❝ my biggest mistake was thinking i could live without (pronoun/name). ❞
❝ whenever (name/pronoun) rose to kiss me, i fell even more. ❞
❝ i wish that ‘goodnight’ was followed by ‘i love you’. ❞
❝ let’s smoke a pack of mentholds & talk about love. ❞
❝ your deep, sleepy voice makes me feel like i’m okay. ❞
❝ i read both of our horoscopes looking for an answer ❞
❝ reality is the absolute last place i want to be. ❞
❝ i didn’t expect that drunk kiss could mean this much. ❞
❝ all i need is a late night drive with you. ❞
❝ feeling pain is nowhere near as terrifying as feeling nothing. ❞
❝ your eyes are the color of summer fading into autumn. ❞
❝ you are the warmest home i will ever, ever find. ❞
❝ the world is less scary when i am with you. ❞
❝ i still can’t tell which of us was the victim. ❞
❝ i just need an excuse to hang out with you. ❞
❝ your expectations for me have been set way too high. ❞
❝ i don’t want to feel this way about anyone else. ❞

What I love of the signs

Aries: how flashy they are. How easily they open to the people. How authentic and funny is without trying. It’s someone I like to look at and I like it very much. 

Taurus: there are some Taurus that are so adorable. They are so kind and take care of everyone. I want to hug them all they.

Gemini: they are crazy af in a bad way. I love it. But if we had to spend a week under the same roof, I am not sure who would kill who first

Cancer: they are very cute, they are beautiful. They are in the small group of people that I want to embrace. High expectations, always dreaming and giving me desire to dream too.

Leo: their presence. They walk with confidence. I have to turn to see the king who has just entered.

Virgo: they look mysterious. I want to know what they are thinking.

Libra: how they could be eating like a beast and still being the most beautiful and delicate flower of the garden. I love it sO MUCH.

Scorpio: everything. Seriously. I love every thing about them.

Sagittarius: they don’t have a hard time saying anything. They think it, they say it.

Capricorn: I really love how direct you are.

Aquarius: they interest me. You are very closed, I want to know what there is inside your head. I like that you are aware of your problems, know why they are there and how to fix them.

Pisces: I consider them one of the funniest signs of the zodiac.

Venus in the Houses & what fills you with joy
  • Venus in the 1st House: Knowing who you are/ want to become
  • Venus in the 2nd House: Realizing how much you have
  • Venus in the 3rd House: Showing your mind to others
  • Venus in the 4th House: Finding your safe space
  • Venus in the 5th House: Letting yourself loose
  • Venus in the 6th House: Mastering your craft
  • Venus in the 7th House: People who make you feel complete
  • Venus in the 8th House: Following your guts
  • Venus in the 9th House: Reading about far away lands
  • Venus in the 10th House: Being admired and respected
  • Venus in the 11th House: Connecting with others
  • Venus in the 12th House: Daydreaming away
Positive things about the signs
  • Aries: You have this positive energy and are a really fun person to be around. You make most people happy and you're great at complimenting people. Nobody feels bored around you specially because you know how to party and make everything super fun. You're really fun.
  • Taurus: You definitely give the best and most fun presents. You can make smallest things look so much worth it with all the love and time you worked on the present to make it meaningful and beautiful. Your doors are always open for those in need and you can make your home feel like home to others. You're really kind.
  • Gemini: You have a great sense of humour and make almost everyone around you laugh. If someone is having a gloomy day you can make them forget all their sorrows and misery with your jokes and charming personality. You're definitely the best first date (and ofc more dates ;)) for people because you can make awkward situations almost funny and make people forget that few minutes ago things were awkward. You have a great smile. You make people feel all fuzzy and warm.
  • Cancer: You're someone people find easy to rant to. Probably because you're a great listener and try your best to support people when they're feeling blue. If someone would call you in the middle of the night and ask you to come over, because they're not feeling so good, you will be there with ice cream and you're ready to let the person spill all what is troubling them. You don't judge people and try to give people a chance. You really do have a heart made out of gold.
  • Leo: You're really loving and caring to those you love. You're generous and try your best to make people comfortable. People find you soothing and super charming. You're just a big kitty who wants to hug everyone, except those who hurt people you care about, then you roar!
  • Virgo: If someone stands up for their friends that would be you. Nobody can hurt the ones you love, that's just not going to happen on your watch! You make people feel really secure and you bring people comfort. If someone wants to watch a movie you might not be all that interested in, you watch it anyway, but of course discuss it heavily afterwards ;). You have the ability to discuss about things without making it an argument. You're a peace maker.
  • Libra: You're great at comforting people and make them forget their sorrows, however people who hurt you or your friends you don't let go so easily. Nobody can get get away with being mean! You easily charm people and you show most people kindness and try your best to be understanding and forgiving. You're really sweet.
  • Scorpio: You're really ambitious, if you have laid your eyes on some specific goal you try everything in your power to make it happen, no matter what! Since you have such a strong will power a lot of people look up to you and admire you. You're loyal to your friends and family and almost nothing can change that. You're sort of like a fluffy ambitious dog!
  • Sagittarius: You're almost always in a good mood. Like wow all Sagittarius' I know are always smiling! Everyone around you will sooner or later start smiling because you bring such positive aura. You stand up for people even those you don't know very well because you believe in justice. And you can be really convincing let me tell you that.
  • Capricorn: You're really passionate about things you love and give it your all into almost everything you do. You're really friendly and people flock around you, it's really hard to not like you.
  • Aquarius: You're really smart, like a wikipedia woah! If it's about a random fact you'll know about it. You love teaching people around you and people really appreciate you for it. Almost no one sees an Aquarius mad because you almost never are. You're really chill and people find it cozy to be with you.
  • Pisces: You have a really strong personality. It's hard to forget about you. Just like Scorpio you are very ambitious and try to make it to the top. You'll definitely succeed in everything you put your heart to because you're really strong. Don't forget that!
MARCH HOROSCOPES

Pisces, plant seeds down your spine and become the careful gardener of your own life.

Aries, choosing to stay alive is a talent.

Taurus, the solution you found for yourself isn’t necessarily what will work for everyone else.

Gemini, you are too clever and influential to let minor setbacks block your path to success.

Cancer, it’s not fair to make someone play a game if you never explain the rules.

Leo, if you have to convince them to love you then it is in your best interest to leave.

Virgo, know how much your friends appreciate you even when you don’t always see them.

Libra, be easy on yourself and know you are doing the very best you possibly can.

Scorpio, recognize your keen ability to make people feel either insignificant or unstoppable.

Sagittarius, don’t let anyone dilute you to just an anecdote they brag about at parties.

Capricorn, forgive your father even if you still settle for lovers with his same stubborn temper.

Aquarius, you still have the same good heart that you did as a child.
—  MARCH HOROSCOPES, by Blythe Baird (2017)
The Signs as Unexplained Feelings
  • Aries: Rubatosis- The unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.
  • Taurus: Altschmerz- The weariness from the same old issue you've always had.
  • Gemini: Adronitis- The frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone.
  • Cancer: Kuebiko- The state of exhaustion inspired by senseless acts of violence.
  • Leo: Kenopsia- An eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that is usually bustling with people but now is abandoned and quiet.
  • Virgo: Ellipism- The sadness from never knowing your destiny.
  • Libra: Occhiolism- The awareness of the smallness of your perspective.
  • Scorpio: Exluanis- The tendency to give up talking about an experience because others are unable to relate to it.
  • Sagittarius: Onism- The frustration of being stuck in one body that inhabits only one place at a time.
  • Capricorn: Lacheism- The desire to be struck by disaster.
  • Aquarius: Nodus Tollens- The realization that the plot of your life doesn't make sense to you anymore.
  • Pisces: Mauerbauertraurigkeit- The inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends and family.
How to tell if the signs like you

Aries: stares at you and whips their head away when you catch them

Taurus: talks super excitedly with you and is super bubbly

Gemini: will probably be really mean and sarcastic to you

Cancer: hardcore stalks your instagram but will never let you know

Leo: smiles from ear to ear for no apparent reason, just for being around you

Virgo: asks a bunch of questions about you, feels almost like an interview

Libra: makes a lot of eye contact to the point where it might be creepy

Scorpio: “accidentally” bumps into you on the way to class but really figured out your entire schedule

Sagittarius: gives really obvious signs but thinks they’re being low-key

Capricorn: will make up a really corny but cute nickname for you

Aquarius: cracks terrible jokes and looks at you each time to see if you laugh

Pisces: blushes every time they speak or even make eye contact with you

February Horoscopes

ARIES: Take a nice, firm grab of the dial that controls your aggressiveness and crank it way down. You can relax a little bit and still be able to defend yourself (this of course does not apply if someone crosses the line, then you have every right to be as aggressive as you’d like (however maybe the line needs to be redrawn because you have a tendency to get upset over very small things)). Don’t forget to breathe every once in a while. Things can work themselves out without you getting worked up.

TAURUS: Remember that not everyone is out to get you, Taurus. Yes, there are people in this world with bad intentions, but that doesn’t mean you can just push someone away because you’re suspicious of them. Talk to those individuals. Don’t jump to conclusions and assume that they aren’t good people; you might lose someone who really only ever wanted what was best for you.

GEMINI: Time to take a pair of metaphorical scissors and snip the negativity out of your life! If you know someone is dragging you down rather than supporting you and building you up, say sayonara!

CANCER: You know that thing that you want to do but you might be too afraid to do? Do it. All experiences, good or bad, are still experiences. Take a risk every now and then! Ask that person out! Put your application in! You can do it.

LEO: Try looking at things a new way this month, Leo. You might be in the midst of a problem or you might be trying to reach a goal you’ve set, and things are just not working out no matter how hard you try. Take a step back and try a new route. Do something different if what you’re doing right now isn’t making you successful.

VIRGO: You may not be meeting all of your own expectations right now, and that’s okay. This month focus on persisting through your troubles. Keep your chin up, Virgo. Good things are on their way.

LIBRA: Libra, you sort of have a tendency to be very good at picking out problems and flaws, and then doing nothing about them. Take a stand and start fixing things that you don’t like, whether it be with the world or within yourself. Email your senator. Attend a march. Donate money. Accept criticism. You can literally do anything that you think you can do.

SCORPIO: This month remember that not all relationships that you create have to be romantic. Creating a bond or a connection with another individual does not mean that by default that you have to be in love with that person. Cherish your friends and don’t focus on romance at the moment. 

SAGITTARIUS: Embrace your emotions this month. If you need to cry, then cry. If you need to scream, then scream. If you need someone to talk to, then find someone you can trust. Do not ever be ashamed of the way you feel.

CAPRICORN: Decisiveness is key. You may find yourself unable to choose between this and that, but you have to learn to make tough decisions, especially under pressure. Don’t let a decision keep you up at night. Do what you feel is right and good is bound to come of it.

AQUARIUS: Seek out some counsel this February. There are plenty of people in your circle willing to listen to you, you just have to speak. Focus on your needs instead of everyone else’s. You are a wonderful listener, and now it’s your turn to be listened to.

PISCES: Break out of your shell a little bit this month. You don’t have to do anything insanely drastic, but maybe inviting someone new over for a movie, or simply messaging someone you’ve never talked to before to get to know them. You have a very intriguing air about you, Pisces, and whether you believe it or not people do want to be your friend.

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Moon Elements

I’m certain of the fact that the elements play one of the biggest roles in astrology. And the Moon is the planet that can be best determined by the element of the sign. So here are a few characteristics that always approach the moon element.


Fire Moon

It is all about PASSION. You are wild and uncontrollable, they shouldn’t even think of taming you. Quick to fall in love and immediate to turn on, you’re even easier to get hurt. Your affections are strong but temporary, they play the main role in your life, though. Your feelings will always have priority, you’re ready to give up a lot for the ones you care about, this is what makes you vulnerable. Your emotions are obvious, you can’t hide from them, neither can you bring them under control, you’re completely unprotected. This passion can be destructive just as to you, so to the people around you.


Earth Moon

It is all about FAITH & DEVOTION. Your eyes will drive them crazy. They are gorgeous, deep and full of different kinds of feelings. You are hard to understand if they don’t know you well. You have a completely different approach to different people. If you care about them, you are able to sacrifice your life for them in a matter of seconds. On the opposite, if they didn’t make it to your heart, you will be colder than the snow, harsh and insensitive, it will be impossible to get to your true feelings. If you picked someone, you will stay with them until the very end. You will be faithful to a fault, but you’ll expect the same from them, so any betrayal is unforgivable.


Air Moon

It is all about FRIENDSHIP. Communication and understanding is the key. You absolutely need to feel the support and acceptance. You like to be taken as you are, you like seeing people falling for your little flaws. Your soul belongs to art, though, aesthetic beauty is what makes you emotionally complete. You are the one to fall for someone who surprises you with beautiful presents and flowers, you need attention. You’re fully in control of your sexuality and affections, you know your worth and you won’t allow yourself to settle for less.


Water Moon

It is all about FEELINGS. Though those feelings are changeable. You fall in love with full intensity, but you’re able to get over it quite soon. You are compassionate and sensitive, easy to hurt. Your intuition is incredibly strong, but you are trusting it too much and forget that it’s not always the right thing to listen to. Your emotions are like an open book, you can’t hide anything.

Negative things about the signs
  • Aries: Why must you be so damn impatient? When someone is speaking and they are speaking kind of slow for your taste or whatever you interrupt them and start talking about something else, preferably about yourself. Just no.
  • Taurus: Ok girl just chill, you are not always right and even though you know you're not you're just too damn stubborn to admit it that you were wrong. Seriously chill.
  • Gemini: Omg make up your damn mind, do you want this or do you want that? You can't play people like that. Oh and think before you speak because you tend to hurt people's feelings because you're not really thinking that it might hurt them or just don't care. Please no more.
  • Cancer: Oh dear Cancer please don't take everything so harshly. Not everyone is out to get you, you know? And even though someone tells you that you need to improve on something it doesn't mean you are a failure and should give up on everything. Not everything is that black and white.
  • Leo: Oh my god. Why are you like this? You don't have to act so egoistical all the time because in reality you are just so damn insecure. You get angry too quickly and are way too possessive. You might scare people off if you keep acting like that.
  • Virgo: You're very dismissive when things aren't going your way and if you don't think something is perfect you judge people really harshly. And for some reason this doesn't apply to you. Hypocrite much?
  • Libra: You may act all nice but in reality you are the biggest gossiper out of all the zodiac signs. You might even backstab people and not realise that you are actually in the wrong and not the one you were just "gossiping" about. You're pretty shady my guy.
  • Scorpio: You're pretty manipulative and you don't even realise it. Things have to go your way. Also you must take revenge on someone who wronged you 10 years ago. Relax and drink water or something. The person who wronged you has probably forgotten anyways.
  • Sagittarius: Well...you people are pretty moody. Actually you are in a great mood most of the time but when something isn't going your way you get reaaaallllyyyy moody. And everyone will know about it because you take it out on everybody. Even that guy in the store you don't know has to know and feel that you aren't in a good mood.
  • Capricorn: You never take responsibility for anything that happens in your life. If something happens you make someone elsa take care of it for you because well it wasn't your problem. Or so you believe.
  • Aquarius: You're sooooo...Unpredictable! What's going on in that head of yours!? Where are you going? Anywhere you feel like going. Please stop.
  • Pisces: If I'm going to be completely honest with you, you can be a total bitch when something you want just isn't happening. Also overly emotional. You cry over everything! Honey, get a grip!
special things about the moon signs !

Aries moon - you have incredible perseverance and you are a natural achiever

Taurus moon - you have extraordinary inner wisdom that never goes unappreciated and you make people feel safe

Gemini moon - you have remarkable communication skills and bring enthusiasm to any room you walk into

Cancer moon - you’re highly intuitive and know just what to say to make someone feel good

Leo moon - people can feel your optimistic aura from a mile away and it usually rubs off on them

Virgo moon - you’re probably the most intelligent and self-controlled person your friends know

Libra moon - you’re a natural problem solver and probably give out great advice

Scorpio moon - you’re very observant and know exactly what’s going on around you at any given moment

Sagittarius moon - you have a unique love for humanity and a strong sense of justice

Capricorn moon - you’re extremely productive and thorough in everything you do

Aquarius moon - you’re all about bringing people together but at the same time have a strong sense of self

Pisces moon - you’re tremendously creative and have the ability to think far outside the box

Vague Horoscopes (April 8th, 2017)
  • Aries: Rebellion isn't always necessary. It doesn't always hurt, either.
  • Taurus: Love what you do, and others will follow suit.
  • Gemini: War on the home front.
  • Cancer: Even the honest words we speak can cause negative and positive situations.
  • Leo: Save gluttony for another day.
  • Virgo: Regret ensues. The choice you have made will bring good things, even if it may take time for them to appear.
  • Libra: The lump in your throat threatens to throw you off balance.
  • Scorpio: Who are you committing to? They hold your thoughts, but who holds who's hearts?
  • Sagittarius: The calm you possess in the middle of a storm is mildly unsettling.
  • Capricorn: It feels as though lust holds more cards than love.
  • Aquarius: On a rare occasion, a physical bond may bring about an emotional connection.
  • Pisces: You will heal from today's wounds.
How to attract the signs
  • Aries: smile, be direct, make them laugh, be confident, voice your opinions, give them space
  • Taurus: be trustworthy and loyal, slow and steady, learn their likes/dislikes, touch them, invite them out
  • Gemini: flirt, joke around, be exciting, be kind of dominating, keep the conversation going
  • Cancer: Reassure them in times of need, be kind and caring, talk about family, ask for help, be their friend first
  • Leo: flatter them, show affection, give them full attention, compliment them, emotionally support them
  • Virgo: don't be fake, ask for help, run errands together, start conversations, be patient
  • Libra: win over their friends, give them freedom, look good, be funny/dorky, take them somewhere
  • Scorpio: be mysterious, know what you want, tell them about yourself, be honest and loyal
  • Sagittarius: flirt, joke around, have a carefree attitude, be adventurous, give them space, suggest new things
  • Capricorn: be hardworking and ambitious, make them laugh, be friends first, take your time, show respect
  • Aquarius: debate with them, give them freedom, surprise them, become friends first, be yourself
  • Pisces: be romantic, talk about your dreams, boost their self esteem, be sensitive about their needs
I will love you until...

ARIES: I get bored

TAURUS: you hurt me  

GEMINI: you treat me unfairly 

 CANCER: you leave me 

LEO: you stop appreciating me 

VIRGO: you start keeping secrets 

 LIBRA: I find someone better 

SCORPIO: you lie to me 

SAGITTARIUS: it holds me back

CAPRICORN: you screw up 

AQUARIUS: you lose your magic 

PISCES: you stop caring about me

i. domesticity

I drink milk every day because my doctor says I need it to grow. Kind of like I need this calcium rush in order to make my bones stronger so I stop cracking them so easily. Preventing them from ever reverting to the weak, knobbly knees of last summer when a boy I had a crush on. Had a crush on, crushed me. Like a pulp. Into grains. Like a spoon grinding up soggy cereal swimming at the bottom of a bowl. I wake up in the middle of the night, remembering I didn’t drink 3 glasses today, and run to the refrigerator in my socks and chug it straight from the gallon, barbaric and yearning like a schoolgirl hitching her skirt up too high, and picture the white flowing through my veins. Softening me. Rounding me out. Giving me curves. I get a brain freeze instead and pray I’ll stop crying over spills and that I can sleep with this cold lurching in my stomach.

ii. vicinity

Maybe one day my hair will stop being so limp in the heat, but I don’t think that kind of thing can be anticipated, so I just have to wait. Girls like me live in the back of an un-air-conditioned convenience store, ratty sweatpants, tight tank tops, and crawl out with week-old receipts bursting from their pockets. Like glued ribcage kind of girls, like elastic hair tie, red marks around the wrist kind of girls. The cashier doesn’t mind when I snag a magazine from the rack and browse through it without paying because no matter how hard I try, I end up looking pre-pubescent anyway. And they let things slide. For a girl like me, at least. I’m saying, lopsided bun, wide eyes, a mouthful of crooked teeth, stars pulling them into their places, I was always too scared to get braces. The cover has some headline about how to enlarge your breasts naturally, which I think might be useful, and another about how to communicate effectively with others without saying hurtful things, which makes me laugh. I flip to the back to check my horoscope and eat that prophetic, adolescent shit catered to the teenage soul up like Eucharist laid under the tongue. Swallow down a spoonful of March’s: “Prepare to face some stress this month, but that’s okay! You’ll be able to get through it and find time to relax.” I want to rip out the page and shove it into my bra, like keeping these soft, meaningless words close to my chest will make them seep into my heart and change me. Stop making me think so much, fill my brain up with Arizona tea and static instead. But I’m cheap, and I shove the magazine back. I think my chest will stay flat forever.

iii. mobilization

I seek healing. Mending. I’m fingernails deep, sitting in the back of a subway at 3 a.m., pressing crescent moons into the leather seat, trying to dig up salvation. You can’t find that here, you can’t find that in the cracks between the tiles, you can’t find comfort in the ground up cigarette butt stamped into the floor. I’m wishing against this fogged up glass I could say anything, anything that would make sense for once, so someone could help me. Like please, my mind is bending in backwards, like please, I don’t think this underdeveloped chest can take any more of this resentment or it’s going to explode through my ribcage, out of my flesh, like please, I don’t want to hurt anymore. And it’s not my fault that I launch myself around like I’m in some sick little competition, pretending I don’t care, like I’m having the time of my life. Of course I’m not, of course I’m not, I don’t think having your hands shake and your brain go fuzzy whenever you think a little too much is fun, something to be documented for the world to see. I guess I’m different from other people that way, I’d rather people think I’m having a good time than actually have one without anyone knowing. I wish I knew how to sew, so I could stitch up my fibrillating heart, no matter how sloppy and crooked, but the needle jabs my finger as the subway lurches left, and I bleed, I bleed, I bleed.

iv. unearthliness

My mom told me not to walk naked in front of the altar. Disrespectful, she called it, and even though I agree, sometimes I test my divinity and emerge from the bathroom, the steam from the shower wafting off smoke like the incense in its pot. Young god, skin tinted green from fake gold. Young god, empty stomach, fruit scooped out of its rind, leaving me seedless. This hatred has roots, and I don’t know whether I want to dig out my insides with my hands or fill myself up until I’m close to bursting. I let people think the scratches on my knees are from a night of alcohol and a boy tugging my hair. Of course, it’s that and not child worship on a scratchy rug, not begging for forgiveness, not praying for glamour and glory, not hoping for. Of course it’s not hoping for something better.

—  this pain lasts in every location
The Signs Falling/Being in Love

Aries: Appetite Loss - All you think about is him or her. Producing more dopamine, you feel little need for food or other basic necessities while floating through each day on a cloud of hope.  

Taurus: Abandon Regular Routines - You may abandon your work or your responsibilities.  Your thoughts and actions become devoted to your love interest.

Gemini: Fresh Complexion - You feel different and it shows. Others might catch you smiling or blushing for no apparent reasons..

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Each sign’s strongest and weakest personality trait

Aries
 strongest: always fighting for the right thing, no matter how much it costs
 weakest: whatever they feel, they feel it too much. and sometimes they forget to look at other people’s emotions too

Taurus
 strongest: they’ll find a solution to everything and if there isn’t one, they’ll make one
 weakest: too lazy to change their habbits/move out of their comfort zone

Gemini
 strongest: they’re very good at any sort of communication; argumenting, compliments, even when manipulating…
 weakest: always try to adapt into every situation and befriend everyone

Cancer
 strongest: they can feel like home
 weakest: they can’t accept the fact that things aren’t always going to be the way they’d want it to be

Leo
 strongest: they’re confident and know how to love themselves
 weakest: they need attention. a lot of attention

Virgo
 strongest:
they’re honest. no matter what
 weakest: even if they’re very close to someone, it seems like they’ll always keep a bit of distance

Libra
 strongest: they can make you feel like world and calm you down no matter the situation
 weakest: they’re very easily manipulative

Scorpio
 strongest: won’t let anyone manipulate with them, always true to themselves
 weakest: it takes them a lot of time trust someone. and even then they don’t trust them

Sagittarius
 strongest: they aren’t too clingy and needy for others, very independent
 weakest: they sometimes don’t care about other people’s opinions and emotions at all

Capricorn
 strongest: never hesitate to speak up if neccessary, for the things and people they love, themselves including
 weakest: self pity, sometimes they act very insecure

Aquarius
 strongest: they can show you the true beauty of life
 weakest: poker face, they always keep everything inside them which can  destroy them

Pisces
 strongest: maybe the best person you can ever have by your side
 weakest: sometimes they’re a bit too naive and blind for their own good