no self esteem as you can tell

so there’s this terrible spotify ad (i don’t have premium because unemployed. boo) from biore, about their ridiculous nose strips, and i want to throw something across the room every damn time i hear it. FIRST OFF, those “blackheads” on your nose usually aren’t even blackheads, they’re sebaceous filaments. if your skin is properly washed and exfoliated, then they’re not dirt, they’re supposed to be there. they’re just going to come back and biore KNOWS THAT, so they have that awful ad telling you that they look “dirty” and disgusting (their words!!! idk about the word disgusting but i know they used dirty and the entire ad is very very self esteem-killing) so you’ll keep on buying the damn nose strips for a fake condition that isn’t going to go away. you can diminish their appearance using AHA exfoliants, but they will be back within 24-48 hours if you try to remove them.

in other words: fuck you and your predatory scam, biore. throw out ur biore strips guys.

trauma doesn’t often feel like trauma is ‘supposed’ to feel. it feels like indifferent detachment, watching from outside yourself because nothing can hurt you there. it feels normal, just how people interact, so why are you making a big deal about it?  it feels like a joke – just how kids play, just how adults tease, just how some relationships work.

you wake from nightmares five years later and still wonder if you made it all up.

trauma can look like bad behaviour. like the stubborn refusal to get better, to stop self-destructing. trauma is putting yourself in harm’s way because you don’t really mean it, or because it’s funny, or because you just want to feel something, or because you just want to stop feeling. it’s wanting to destroy and reassemble yourself into another person entirely, so your real life can begin. because this isn’t real. because really bad things don’t happen to people like you.

trauma is the constant feeling of being an impostor. it’s the drive to survive twinned with the impulse to make yourself more sick in more ways. to hurt yourself to prove how bad you feel, or to punish yourself for exaggerating. you want people to believe what you’ve been through, to tell you your feelings are real, that your memories really happened. but when people do take you seriously, you play it off as a joke, apologize for bringing the mood down.

you go on and on about how it wasn’t that bad. you seek permission to still love the ones who hurt you, because it’s the people closest to us who can hurt us most deeply.

you can feel like the people who hurt you are the only ones who really knew you. in low self esteem, you can mistake cruelty for honesty.

there will always be people who have been through worse. that doesn’t make what happened to you okay.

there will always be people who don’t believe you. that doesn’t mean you are lying.

at some point, you have to take yourself seriously. you have to make a life you can stand to live. it’s the only way to survive.

There is a time and a season for everything. Life is all about change.

Jan. 2016
August. 2016
March. 2017

One of the most valuable lessons I have learned through out my journey is that our bodies go through seasons.

Seasons of growth
Seasons of resiliency
Seasons of strength
Seasons of weakness
Seasons of pain

Our bodies endure it all.

I’ve also learned all seasons are valuable in their own way.
That one is not superior to the other.

Just the way that life changes day after day, so do our physical, mental & emotional states.

And the best thing I could tell you & myself is to embrace these seasons of change with love & compassion.

You are doing the best that you can at any given moment. Give yourself credit for that.

Humans Are Weird (Pride)

Another « humans are weird » thing! So, what if humans are known throughout the universe for being extremely prideful and stubborn. Of course, all aliens have some self-esteem, dignity and will defend their opinion, but humans just bring it to another level. Like, imagine something broke on the spaceship, but the mechanic is really busy and they can’t fix it before a good hour. One of the humans aboard just goes “Don’t worry, I’ll fix it!”, tries to repair the broken part and will not accept ANY help because he can “do it by himself”.
After 3 hours of work
Alien: hum…Human-Thomas, you can get out of here now. The mechanic finished his previous job 2 hours ago, he’ll take care of it.
Human: Then tell him *pulling on something* urg…to work on something else! *trying to grab the hammer* I can totally handle this alone*stands up and hits his head on a pipe* ow!
Alien: Human-Thomas I think I would be wiser to let the mec-
Human: I CAN DO THIS!!!!!

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I just want to express how I respect BTS and BIGHIT for always coming out with new revolutionary concepts for each comeback. For example the way they dropped the trailer for Boy meet evil only 1 HOUR after announcing BTS comeback date. Then later dropped a short movie of each member. This time, the scale is even bigger: they are hiring actors and writers and making a mini drama to tell the story of each member. Can we also talk about how they ALL challenge themselves? Most of them think acting is hard and complicated but I am sure they will work hard to make another masterpiece. The theme (LOVE YOURSELF) is also very fitting with the current state of the world, where society’s standard is so high, you get compared to better people by family, friends, media and so on every day. Automatically your self-esteem gets lower. Loving oneself is important to keep going in life and BTS are here again to make sure we do not forget it. I am stanning the right group.

How to be Less Socially Awkward

1. Recognize that you’re not the only person who feels this way. Many of the people around you will be feeling self conscious and ill at ease as well.
2. Try not to over-analyze every situation, and how you come across, or appear to other people. That will only undermine your self confidence, and make your behaviour seem unnatural and forced.
3. Try to figure out the source of your feelings. For example, have you been criticized, bullied or shamed, or been made to feel that you’re just not good enough?
4. Recognize the thought patterns that are common at these times – like “I’m useless, inferior and don’t know what to say.” Then tell yourself you’re playing the same old record again.
5. Notice people who like you and who affirm who you are, and notice why they like you – then remind yourself of that.
6. When you start to feel anxious about being with other people remind yourself that others seem to like your company.
7. Imagine a scene where you’re feeling confident. Replay that mental picture as often as you can. It will help to change your feelings so you feel more confident.

Fat shaming is not about health and it’s total bullshit.

1. You don’t care about random strangers or acquaintances health. If you did, you’d remind them to go to the doctor or to take their vitamin every day.

2. You can’t always tell somebodies health by looking at them. Even if someone is clearly very overweight, they could have a condition. If someone is skinny, they could still be unhealthy. You don’t know.

3. Nobody deserves to be miserable and hate themselves because of some bad health choices. Everybody does stuff that’s probably not great for them. Smokers, drinkers, tanning bed users, even people who take Tylenol too often, are doing something unhealthy. But nobody goes up to smokers on the street or sees someone online whose a smoker, and comments that they’re disgusting and gross and need to quit smoking. Nobody makes smokers feel like they should hate themselves and be miserable. So if this whole thing was really about health and not just hating fat, then you would treat everyone who you think is unhealthy the same way. But you don’t.

Nobody deserves to feel horrible and disgusting because of unhealthy choices. Also, it’s nobody’s damn business what you do with your body. It’s completely about hating fat and it’s not about health at all. Don’t for one second let anybody convince you that it’s about health.

Krasivaya-Chapter 14

Summary: You and Bucky Barnes have been friends for years. You are deeply, completely, in love with the super soldier, but he sees you as nothing more than a little sister. What happens when Bucky starts to date in earnest?

Pairings: Bucky x Reader, Bucky x OFC

Warnings: Smut, Angst, Self-Esteem issues, Depression, Anxiety. Violence.

 Under  18s Avert your eyes, this is pure sin. 

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Props to StevenBomb 6 for making me like Lars more as well.

The Good Lars shows how low his self-esteem is and how hard he’s trying to make himself come off as cool.


Meanwhile in I Am My Mom, he really did want to rescue Sadie, but he panicked and ran away. You can actually tell from just those few seconds that he obviously cares about Sadie a lot.


Maybe these next few episodes will make him one of my favorite human characters.

From the moment a child is born, they crave touch. They want to be held, not just to eat, but for safety, for warmth, for comfort, for affection–for love. A newborn will show preference in who they want to be held by, especially when they’re tired or sick or scared. We are born ready to be loved. Our first need is to be cared for, to be fed and changed, and held. To learn that we are loved.

Don’t let anyone, anyone tell you have to be able to love yourself before you can be loved. You were born ready to be loved wholly, and having self-esteem issues or a mental illness doesn’t make you any less lovable.

You don’t need to fulfill any condition. You are worth loving. You deserve to be loved, and have deserved to be loved since the moment you were born. You are worth loving.

B.A.P  Collectible Figures

Congratulations! You are now the proud owner a B.A.P figure! Please refer to this handy instruction manual for care. And don’t forget to save up purchase points to get a matching Matoki mascot accessory for your B.A.P figure!

Yongguk – Model # 3311990

Accessories included: ramen, tigger toy

One of the more low maintenance figures, your new Yongguk will keep to himself most of the time. This is his normal. However if he seems especially morose your unit has slipped into brooding mode and can only be returned to original factory settings when paired or grouped with the other figures in the line. When sad or nervous use the included tigger, take him to a museum, or engage in a discussion on world events to distract him. If your Yongguk disappears for a short time don’t worry, he is probably acquiring another tattoo or doing volunteer work. This model has a hidden ‘mentor’ feature that unlocks when paired with the Zelo unit.

Himchan – Model # 4191990  New Limited Edition with Pink Hair!

Accessories included: coffee, grilled meat

Your Himchan unit may be boisterous on occasion, but usually only when paired with the later models of the line. His self-esteem switch is touchy and can flip from confident to insecure quite easily. Tape may be required. To ensure this model keeps his pink hair as long as possible you must only wash with cold water. Your Himchan unit will be cranky about this but he’ll forgive you if you tell him he’s handsome. This unit has some boundary issues so it won’t be uncommon to see him with accessories from the other figures or even resting with them in the dormitory (sold separately).

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anonymous asked:

Could I get a scenario and/or headcanons of the chocobros with a chubby s/o? Sorry if it's a weird request;; I need the self-esteem after being called fat a lot recently :,)

Noctis wouldn’t mind your size at all. If you take away the fact that he’s royalty, he’s acutely aware that he’s a total dork. So the fact that someone likes him for being himself amazes him. He knows you adore him completely, and he’s totally devoted to you. He always makes sure that you’re showered in love and attention and makes sure that people acknowledge you when you’re in social situations or meeting newcomers. 

Prompto used to be bigger, so he knows the societal pressure that people put on you and he thinks it’s totally unfair. He loves every bit of you––your stomach, your thighs, your arms, and he tells you so every day. He loves taking photos of you and showing them to you so that you can see yourself through his eyes, and so you can see just how beautiful you truly are. 

Gladio enjoys physical activity, but he never pushes you if you’re not into it. He doesn’t mind if you’re on the chubbier side, it’s just more of you to hold onto when you’re being intimate. He’s fiercely protective of you when it comes to your self-esteem issues and he’ll be the first to go after someone who says anything sideways in your direction. He just wants you to be comfortable in your own skin.

When Ignis goes blind, you get a little more self conscious because he’s touching you constantly. But he assures you that he absolutely loves your curves. He didn’t care either when he could see, which he reminds you of constantly, and enjoys indulging in rich foods with you whenever it suits your fancy. You enjoy food and Ignis enjoys cooking––really, it’s a match made in heaven.

Harry Styles’ sexuality is none of your goddamn business. It’s a private thing. Only he knows it. No “fan” can tell you his sexuality and when he is going to “come out.” Bashing him for talking about dating women is no different than bashing a gay person for talking about dating the same sex. Both are inappropriate, wrong, and unacceptable. Don’t base your life, self-esteem, self-worth on what a celebrity’s sexuality is. 

If you need a LGBTQIA person to look up to, that’s understandable, but pick someone who is actually LGBTQIA. Don’t try to force a sexuality on someone, and then try to force him or her out of the closet. Let Harry live his life and date who he wants, and write songs about who he wants. Don’t try to turn Harry’s support of LGBTQIA into him being a certain sexuality or “queerbaiting” because a fan on Tumblr told you he is gay. 

“To The One Who Loves Her Next." - Grayson Dolan X Reader

Pairing: Grayson Dolan X Reader

Word Count: 932

Prompt: Grayson writes a letter to a girl he’s still in love with’s new man.

Warnings: Sad Gray:(

A/N: I’m sorry I haven’t been working on the blurbs and prompts and stuff. But I wrote this to hopefully make up for it. More imagines will be out soon! xx



“To the one who loves her next, 

 She’s terrified of bugs. So if you’re out one night with your friends and she’s home and she texts you freaking out because there’s a spider on her window, please go home and kill it. She’ll get upset and won’t sleep otherwise.

 She’s a total book worm. She adores all types of genre’s, and will always make time to read. Do not take that time away from her. Make sure she always gets some reading time in. It helps her decompress. She is also very big on studying and making sure she does well in school. She won’t reply for hours and sometimes you won’t hear from or see her for a week. You’ll take that personally. Don’t. She’s simply taking care of herself so that she does well in the future. She’ll tell you she loves you and will talk about how much she missed you when she was gone. 

 Some nights, when she goes out and drinks a little too much, she’ll call you to come pick her up, hiccuping into the phone until you arrive to the bar. When you get her home and into bed, she’ll fuss and pout for a bit before she gets playful. She’ll keep you up all night giggling and tickling you repeating “I love you and i’m sorry i’m obnoxious.” She is not obnoxious. Be sure she drinks plenty of water before she passes out or else she’ll be miserable in the morning.  

She gets extremely jealous. My god, she gets so jealous. And when she does, it doesn’t take long for her to do so. Those soft hazel eyes will turn cold. She beats herself up about that, and she doesn’t mean to be so possessive. Just keep in mind that she loves you. Reassure her that you love her too.

 On that note, she needs constant reassurance. Tell her you love her whenever you can, and mean it. If you can’t do that, then leave her. She deserves so much more than that.

 She is the most kind hearted, beautiful, strong, and independent woman i know. But her self esteem is low and she is so insecure. It still breaks my heart. So when you two get into a fight, which i know you will because she’s stubborn as hell, she will say “you don’t love me.” Do not get upset. Simply remind her that you do and name every possible reason why and she’ll come around again.  

Please remember that her dog comes first. Always. Rocky means the world to her, and she’d do anything for that pup.

 Pay attention to the little things about her. Notice how she clicks her tongue when she’s thinking, how she kicks her feet when she’s sleeping. Notice how she’ll turn red at the slightest compliments or slightly ignore you if you’ve upset her. Notice how she takes her coffee and how she puts 3 spoonfuls of sugar in her tea. She will notice. 

 She is very sensitive. Do not raise your voice at her. Ever. She may be stubborn but it doesn’t take much for her to start crying. Watch what you say around her. If you say something stupid and uncalled for, it will be stuck in her head and start to think it’s true. Do not tease her for being emotional. She cannot help it. She is the sweetest girl to ever walk the Earth. Do not ruin that.

 When she’s having a breakdown or an anxiety attack, wrap her in your arms and do not let her go, no matter what she tells you or how hard she tries to get out of your grip. Rub her back and whisper soothing things in her ear. It will calm her down immensely. Tell her she’s okay and that she’s safe with you, and that she has medication if she needs it.

 If you cannot treat her like royalty; like the princess she is, then let someone else. That girl deserves the world. Give her the love, care and respect she deserves. And if you know you can’t, give someone else the opportunity to do so. 

 Losing her is a pain you will never shake. It’s a feeling I would never wish upon anyone. Your world will come crashing down and you’ll feel helpless and lost with no direction. You’ll realize that she meant more to you than you’d ever realized and your heart will fall out of your chest and onto the ground beneath you, smashing into a thousand little fragments. Those pieces will never fit together like they used to. Do not let her go. It will be the biggest mistake you’ll ever make. I’d know because I’ve done so myself. 

 Don’t let her go, because not only will it break you, but it will break her. She’s gone through so much in her life already and she can’t handle much more. That, I know for a fact. She is fragile. She will love you with every bone in her body and everything she has to offer. Please give her the same. Don’t take advantage of the love she’s providing. 

 I am begging you not to hurt her. She is such a bright girl. Don’t let her sparkle die out.

 Give her your all and she’ll return the favor. She’ll change your perspective on life and make everything okay again. As long as you give her the world, you’ll never need to ask the universe for another thing ever again.

 Please remember that. 

 Sincerely, a man who couldn’t give her what she deserves.”

✮ —————— SUPERGIRL SENTENCE STARTERS.

’ This is… this is great news! ’
’ Hey, get away from the ledge, you’re gonna get hurt. ’
’ This one has the “S”. For “Super”, just like your cousin. ’
’ I just can’t hear you over the loud color of your cheap pants. ’
’ I’m the hero. ’
’ Oh, God. Is that smell you? ’
’ I see you share your cousin’s appetite for wanton destruction. ’
’ Three showers and I still smell of reek oil. ’
’ I went from superhero to eco-terrorist in a single bound. ’
’ I am not doing that interview. ’
’ How can you be so sure? ’
‘ I watched it happen for years with your cousin. ’
’ Reading glasses and a good slouch? ’
’ I see a city full of people who need help. Who need a hero. ’
’ Oh, no. I’m sorry. I meant to say who are you? ’
’ Trademark pending. ’
’ Have you lost your mind? ’
’ What were you thinking giving interviews? ’
’ It was more of a private conversation that’s being published. ’
’ What’s next? A book deal? A reality show? “Keeping Up with the Kryptonians”? ’
’ When did you even call him/her? The second I left? ’
’ I made a promise to your cousin. If anything ever happened to you… ’
’ I’m just trying to keep you safe. ’
’ It wasn’t supposed to be this way. ’
’ Your story… Your story is just starting. ’
’ I’m just dealing with an escaped alien prisoner. ’
’ You’ve spent more time in the Friend Zone than the Phantom Zone. ’
’ I am not in the Friend Zone. ’
’ Well… did you notice any of her/his other attributes? ’
’ Tell me, what do you think makes her/him a hero? ’
’ What can I get you? Or are you not allowed to drink and fly? ’
’ I was surprised, you’re usually a little more glib. ’
’ You said, tonight, you always build in fail safes. ’
’ I would never barter a child’s life. ’
’ I just can’t figure out why you did it. ’
’ For the record, I care about everyone. ’
’ You may have fooled this city, but I know you were behind this. ’
’ Finally, something we can agree on. ’
’ The fun is just beginning. ’
’ Can you hack into hospital records? ’
’ Easy-peasy, fresh and squeezy… ’
’ You were really mad, at something else. ’
’ You need to find, find that anger behind the anger. ’
’ You let that thing get away. I thought you were on our side. ’
’ It fought harder this time, harder. Faster. ’
’ It’s like it knew you’d choose to save those people. ’
’ Would you like me to call your mother a car? ’
’ I am the sole survivor of my planet. ’
’ You never get sick. That’s the best part about you. ’
’ Bow your head when you approach me! ’
’ Are you sure you want to do this? ’
’ It’s time for us to be a family again. ’
’ You’re gonna wish I’d died with the rest of them! ’
’ But can you look me in the eye and tell me that you are prepared to kill? ’
’ I’m very boring and really normal. ’
’ So, um, I’ll just get out of your hair. ’
’ You know, you guys could have told me. I can keep a secret. ’
’ I know there’s nothing anyone can say to make you feel better right now. ’
’ We are going to bring this thing in together. ’
’ I’m not leaving you alone with that thing. ’
’ That is not some anonymous alien you’ve brought in. ’
’ You’re compromising the security of this entire operation. ’
’ I would think you’d understand that better than anyone. ’
’ It is what makes you a hero! ’
’ That’s the difference between soldiers and heroes. ’
’ You waisted your ammo. ’
’ Without you, the world is a better place! ’
’ Without me, you’d be dead! ’
’ Please remember I would never try and hurt you. ’
’ I hate a generic sports metaphor, but that interview was a touchdown. ’
’ You wanna fight about it? ’
‘ I have too much self-esteem to kill myself. ’
’ I’m making stupid mistakes, like today. ’
’ The public will forgive you, I promise. ’
’ Ah, you do have a cell phone? Can I get that number, please? ’
’ You think I wanna do this? It’s the only way to win. ’
‘ I mean, that was terrible, but it was awesome. ’
’ We’ve never saved anything together. ’
’ I’ve dreamt of this moment. The two of us teaming up. ’
’ Um, not exactly sure you have to tell them that. ’
’ I can’t believe I didn’t see it before. ’
’ This is it for me, this is my calling. ’
’ The enemy has come in the guise of heroes. ’
’ You don’t get a chair ‘cause you don’t work here. ’
’ They have not left you, even in the face of death. ’
’ You ever spend time inside a foster home? ’
’ So just chill with the attitude, okay? ’
’ How can you, of all people, say that? ’
’ I know what you’re gonna say. I should have waited for you. ’
’ You didn’t give me a story, you gave me a half-baked idea. ’
’ I got the impression you didn’t want to spend time with me. ’
’ So, I memorized that fake ID for nothing? ’
’ I was shooting some hoops last night and hurt some ribs. ’
’ My whole life, I have been a sidekick. ’
’ I hate to break it to you, dude, but you don’t have superpowers. ’
’ I have a black belt and you’re right, I don’t have powers. ’
’ What do you have against a good old romantic comedy? ’
’ Yeah, your punk rock phase was very strange. ’
’ Are you slurring your words? ’
Camp camp season 2 prediction:

David has a big ass breakdown.

I mean, he already did it once, kinda, in the last episode of season 1. But in the first episode you can see he has “friend” prescription pills and Daniel points out that “[he’s] sung [Daniel’s] praise but not [his] own and well, [Daniel] thinks that’s pretty telling” like hahaha, David, do you have self-esteem issues? What are you taking the pills for?? And the way David looked during the song…. like holy shit my man is about to be out this season. David is going to fuckig lose it and I will LOVE IT. If Gen makes an actual appearance I bet 50 that she’s going to comment on David’s appearance or say something malicious about David and his dependence on Camp Camp. David isn’t completely oblivious or impervious to emotional pain (the pills), you guys.

I want David to be without CC and fucking crumble, honestly.

anonymous asked:

hey my angel could you possibly write a how monsta X would say they love you for the first time?? Like how long would it take, where would it happen.. anything like that? You don't have but I keep thinking about how cute it would be!! LOVE YOU

Shownu would take the longest, but that’s only because he’s old fashioned and wouldn’t want to come on too strong. For a long time, he’d keep it inside of him as to not scare you off with such big feelings. He’d tell you after you’ve been together for a while, most likely when you’re alone and he can whisper it against your hair while you hold him tight. 

Kihyun, even though he’s charismatic and affectionate, doesn’t throw around ‘I love you’ all that easily. Kihyun will say it in a moment where he finally sees how loyal you are to him, how much he can trust you. Maybe when he’s at his lowest in terms of self-esteem or will and you’re there, never moving from his side. That’s when he’ll feel like it’s the right time to tell you, and it’ll mean everything, not just how much he loves you but how much he needs you. 

Hyungwon will slip it in casually, so much so that if you’re not paying full attention you might not even catch it. It’ll come in the form of something like, “You make me laugh so much, you know I love you.” or “It’s good to have you here with me, I love you.” With him, it’s more of when he’s comfortable enough to say it and not feel like he said it too soon. But even though he doesn’t make a big show out of it, it’s really special. 

Minhyuk is someone that will always affirm how he feels to you, outloud or with gestures. He isn’t shy about his feelings to you, and it won’t take him long to harbor strong enough ones where he feels like “I like you” isn’t cutting it, he wants to express himself how he really feels, “I love you”. It’ll probably happen after a date as you’re being giggly, holding hands, and saying things like “You were so cute during the movie!” or “I don’t want to let you go just yet!” and just as you lean in to kiss him, mumbling about how much fun you’ve had - that’s when Minhyuk will say it because it feels right. 

Wonho is a romantic at heart, he’d want the first “I love you” to be special and he’d save it up for a day where he can treat you lavishly and instead of just hanging out he could take you somewhere more fancy or get you something sentimental. He’d probably want to say it on an anniversary or some kind of celebration because he’s the type to remember the exact date he said he loved you for the first time (and then get teased about writing it on his calendar by monsta x). 

Jooheon wouldn’t fret over it too much, but for him it’d be easier to say it after you’ve said it first. Underneath it all, he’s kind of a people pleaser and he’d want to know that you feel just as strongly before he says it and accidentally ends up making anything awkward. Plus, hearing you say it first would really make him happy because he’s special to you - in a way that no one else is. You’d say it and he’d pull you closer and be like “Me too, I love you too.” 

Changkyun seems like he’d actively avoid saying it just because he’s flirty and straightforward but commitment can be the most scary to people with the most confidence. He’ll be saying it a lot, just not in the form of “I love you”, but more like “Why can’t I handle a day without you?”, “Stop appearing in my dreams, it makes me want to see you even more.”, and “You like me so much, right? I like you even more,,,” With him it’s about getting past his teasing and seeing that what he really wants to say is how much he cherishes you. 

Updated Master List

Work was a bit slower this week and the inspo bug hit me, so I wrote a couple fics! you can find them in this newly updated Master List of written fics. :) Thanks ya’ll for sticking with me through lulls!!

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In honour of @omgcpwomenfest a quick rambling not!fic about the women of the day Mandy and Jenny, sorry I wasn’t more active and only joined in the eleventh hour (get it because it’s the 11th? (☞゚ヮ゚)☞ my sense of humour continuous to be flawless).

And a massive thanks to @fatlardo for organising such a wonderful event!!!


A fic in which Farmer accidentally gets possessed by both Mandy and Jenny, and so there’s now 3 people sharing one body.

Things that would totally happen:

- Farmer suddenly loses all ability to coordinate herself for long periods of time, this makes volleyball a difficult thing.

- She tells Chowder; he believes her no questions asked.

- Chowder and ‘Farmer’ have a long ass discussion about how hot Ransom is, Holter joins around the 40 minute mark, (Ransom: this is great for my self-esteem, but you’ve been talking for an hour and it’s getting weird, you know I can hear you right?)

- Farmer tells people she lost a bet and that’s why she’s using 90′s lingo randomly.

- Mandy and Jenny get the chance to have some closure about their deaths. Farmer pretends to be writing a story for the newspaper and interviews their family members so they can see them again. It’s sad but they feel better afterwards.

- She also tracks down some of their old friends, and it totally weirds them out to see how old everybody has gotten/but on the other hand look how cute their kids are.

- Farmer does publish the story, Mandy and Jenny are glad to see they won’t be forgotten.

- They finally figure out how to leave Farmer’s body when they get super bored while she does her exams. They just suddenly show up at the haus.

- Farmer comes panicked thinking she won’t be able to see them again, but she finds them floating around and they are all relieved. Also, pretty nice to talk to them out loud instead of in her head.

- As graduation for the seniors comes around, they both decide they are ready to move on. Farmer is sad but happy for them.

- She lets them possess her one last time to play a truly epic prank on Ransom.

- They say goodbye to Farmer and it’s sad, loads of tears to go around. Farmer gets everybody out of the haus so they can have their privacy.

“It’s kind of scary isn’t it,” said Mandy, looking around for ‘the light’ they are supposed to see or maybe it’s a door? Hopefully not a staircase.

“A little,” replied Jenny but smiled at her friend, “not so much with you here.”

“Hey, whatever happens-” Mandy paused, “I’m glad I wasn’t alone, but mostly I’m glad I was with you.”

“I’m glad I was with you too,” said Jenny softly, “this might be late to say it, but- I love you, like, a lot, and even if we are stuck in this dump for the rest of eternity, I’ll still consider it a happily ever after.”

“You know what they say, it’s never too late,” said Mandy and grabbed her hand, “I love you too, you’ve always been the best thing in my life- and after too.”

Jenny let out a squeaky sound, that was a half laugh and half sob, and placed her free hand on Mandy’s cheek. They both gasped.

“I can feel you, you are warm,” whispered Jenny in awe, “and you are shining! God you are beautiful.”

Mandy felt herself blush, she pulled Jenny till their bodies were flushed against each other and it was hard to tell with the light where one ended and the other started, “we aren’t leaving this world behind till you kiss me.”

Jenny laughed, and they clumsily pressed their lips together, it was a long moment that felt endless and still too short, they broke apart laughing.

“Those lips of yours are going to kill mebabe,” said Jenny while the light around them swirled and a warmth sensation embraced them.

Mandy winked, “yeah, but what a way to go.”