no really why did i do this

Life is about overcome the fear. And it’s on the other side of fear the most amazing things are. Live and learn. And that’s why I think it’s so important to not limit yourself, and never stop challenging yourself. Because it’s when you challenge yourself and do the hardest things that you can ever imagine to do, that you really feel… it’s like a new door opening! Oh, here was a new feeling! Because on the other side of fear is infinite amount of happiness. A happiness of freedom.
—  Henrik in “Troværdige samtaler” at Roskilde festival

Knox: …and she was just gonna leave without saying anything, too! Now she’s off doing whatever with that other jerk, I guess.

Felix: Wow, that’s like the worst thing anyone could possibly do. Why did you let it just keep going on once you knew, though?

Knox: Some part of me really wanted to give her a chance I guess, but that obviously didn’t work. I’m just glad that Ned doesn’t seem to be bothered at all by this, I think he stopped expecting her to be around a lot sooner than I did.

Felix: Your kid has a lot more sense that you do, that’s for sure.

Knox: Meh, that was expected anyways.

anonymous asked:

im pissed that the liars didn't actually do something bad hat night. WHY THE FUCK did marlene have all the A's torture all FOUR liars when they only liars necessary in this whole damn thing were Ali and Spencer??

I know right! Like i said collateral. Its a joke really.

cheetahleopard  asked:

Hello!! Didn't know you did this until you posted an answer so? IDK if it's a one-time thing or not so I'm just going to ask? I'm working on Oisuga week fics and was wondering if you could figure out your favorite Tooru and Koushi gifs to motivate me? Sorry if I'm overstepping or anything!! <3


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OOOOoooo Oisuga! Sure! WHY ARE THEY SO PRETTY???

Good luck with your writing!!

anonymous asked:

Mister I just want to thank you. You saved my life today. That post you did with the depression hotline really helped me. I was about to do something really really bad and I saw your notification that you had posted and I figured why not one last time. So thank you so much. Because of you I'm still breathing.

No… its not. 

its because of you that you are still breathing. Its because you realized how strong you actually could be and you acted on it. You realized it wasnt worth it.. and that you yourself are worth so much more.

Because thats the truth. You are worth so much more. You are strong. And you have had this strength the whole time. You just needed a little push and reminder. I am humbled by your words, but you should be equally humbled by your actions.

I am proud of you. We all are. Be proud of yourself.
write it down. date it. time it. and come back to it often.

continue to be strong.. and to get stronger. 

Thank you for being alive and being part of what I do. Thank you for following me. Thank you for being you. 

I need your help

Hi everyone! (I’m actually really nervous about this.. but.. here goes nothing..)

I am in need of your help. I’m gonna explain why. One of the reasons is actually very sensitive as I would be risking my family and my own safety if I did so say the sensitive reason why I’m asking for your help. Well, I have a few reasons why I’m doing this. I would be fine with sharing it to any of you if you want to know, just message me. I hope that you’ll read til the end. Please bear with me as this might be a long post. But I’ll try to summarize everything as much as I can. I might not share all the details because as I’ve said, it’s really risky and complicated. 

But I can’t take it anymore, I can’t just keep my mouth shut and let life drag me down as the days go by. It’s really heart-wrenching for me everytime I think about my situation, my family’s situation. This mess we’re in is even tearing our family part bit by bit. My mom and I aren’t in good terms because of this. This “mess” is the root of all the disaster that’s happening in my family right now. Ok, so I’m gonna tell you why I’m asking for your help. I have some plans to help my mom because we’re struggling financially, and by struggling, I mean that we’re really having a hard time financially. It’s actually the reason why I think she’s depressed. I noticed how she’s been irritable and sensitive lately, she’s also a lot more aggressive. I honestly don’t know where it started but I have a feeling that it’s due to our endless problems. 

Then, we had an argument. I talked back because I didn’t like the things she said. Take note : I know she didn’t mean any of the words she said, she was just able to tell us such horrible things because she’s stressed. I know because I’m completely aware of what my family is facing. She said things like how me and my siblings are such nuisances in her life, that we’re such a huge “responsibility”, that she wants to leave us, she threatened to poison us so we’d just die. I have two younger siblings and yes, I’m the eldest. My brother’s 12 while my little sister’s 10. So yeah, I know it sounds crazy and complicated, much like straight from a drama film. I cried, of course, I mean, who wouldn’t? I wasn’t able to contain my anger because I was truly hurt by the things she said, that’s why I was able to talk back. I know it’s wrong, very very wrong, but I’ve apologized. I can’t say that she accepted my apology because now she’s being cold to us. Specially to me. She acts as if I’m invisible. She doesn’t call me by my name, refers to me as ‘it/her’ when she talks about me with my younger siblings. I’m doing all the work at home, woke up very early to cook breakfast because she won’t do it. Me and my brother were even late because like I said, I had to do all the work by myself. It’s really taking a toll on me. And the fact that she’s really mad at me hurts me more.

Just this morning, I almost cried when a friend of mine smiled at me. Yes, it is that hard for me. To see someone smile at me, it’s as if someone lessened my pain somehow. I’m feeling really hopeless that’s why I decided to write this, to you. I am in desperate need of your help. Any amount will be very much appreciated. I will use the money to buy a new laptop for my blog because the laptop I’m currently using is broken, it’s actually a gift and it’s kinda old but It’s about to reach its limit. It might just suddenly break again and I don’t have enough money to have it repaired, (I have created a new blog) and a camera (a cheap or second hand mini dslr camera will do.) I’ve signed up to a blog advertising company and once I earn enough money from blogging or any other online job I could find, I want to make a business to help my mom out. Please, I’m not sharing these details with you to act meek so that you would give me money. I can’t ask help from my friends either because they’re all connected to that one “person” who wants to harm us. My boyfriend is trying his best to help me at the meantime but I don’t want to ask any more help from him like money because my mom doesn’t want to accept it. I’m sharing these details with you to let you know why I need your help. :( But all of our problems have one root, and I can’t tell you that root (unless you message me about it, I’d be okay with sharing it with you) because once I expose it, it’s like I’m calling out to the person who wants to .. I’m sorry, I really can’t say it. I actually thought of making a video about this, to explain everything elaborately (verbally) but I can’t either. Because I really cannot expose myself.  My mom doesn’t know I’m asking for your help, and I don’t have any plans of telling her yet.

If you’d like to send any amount of money, please message me via Twitter or here (on Tumblr) for the Paypal link. I can’t share it on here as well because it contains our location. It’s just really risky. We can’t ask help from anyone in my country because 1.) It could make our problem 10x more complicated and worse. 2.) We are all terrified to death if anyone finds us. 

I will be very grateful to any amount that you’re willing to give. And if it won’t be a bother, could you please reblog this? Thank you so much! <3

When things get better in the future, I will make video about this ^-^

Thank you so much and god bless you. <3

anonymous asked:

Why do you suppose it is that Niall's sexuality is never really discussed? I feel like for each of the other boys, there has obviously been lots of discussion about how they aren't or might not be straight, but with Niall, nothing. People believe in Larry, people believe in ziam, I suppose I did see some ziall believers back in the day, but on the whole everyone just sees niall as 100% straight, even though he's off the radar and never had a serious girlfriend. Why do you think that is?

Because he’s never given off the vibe that he’s sexually interested in men, and the other four all have. I think it’s as simple as that.

Being affectionate and cuddly with members of the same sex just isn’t the same as showing a sexual interest in them.

Marlene King is literally the worst writer in television history.

We have literally wasted 7 years of hints and clues towards so many characters. To get a character who didn’t make an appearance until the very end. I’m so bitter. Hot For Teacher was the best reveal ever. I really wish they made Ezra or even Wren the twin. It would have been 10x better. This twincer BS is dumb. What was the reason to go after ALL the girls? Why did poor Hanna get tortured? What the hell did she do to the dumb british bitch…. ugh im so mad. I will never watch a Marlene King show ever again.

anonymous asked:

Do you think when Lydia said I didn't say it back she did expect stiles to react the way he did? Or she just jumped, even regardless a possible negative reaction?

I think that’s a really interesting question actually, and almost a bit loaded! Here’s why: Lydia spent the whole season thinking that she was missing a boy who had loved her and she had loved him equally. She thought he knew. And then she gets her memories back and realize that she had been a fucking coward. She’d let herself be scared of how big it is to love Stiles– and she’s angry at herself. So, in Lydia’s head, it makes sense that Stiles would be angry with her too.

Stiles had told her “remember I love you” and Lydia had remembered that. I don’t think she ever really questions whether or not he has feelings for her after that. But I think there was this fear that Stiles was angry with her and was going to not believe her because he’d liked her for so long and she hadn’t appeared to reciprocate. He’d done everything for her, and on Lydia’s eyes, she owes him over and over and over again. He has every right to reject her, to make her wait, to believe that she’s lying to him.

But instead he says “you don’t have to.” Because while Lydia has been undergoing this character development of missing a person who isn’t there, Stiles has been going through one of his own. We’ve talked about Stiles going from puppy love to adult love– this is another level of that. He’s already in adult love with Lydia, but that reciprocation that he sees the night he gets taken allows him to settle into that on a more confident level. It allows him to examine everything he had been brushing off because he thought he was crazy.

Ultimately, I think Stiles got exactly what he needed by being able to sit on that bench and think about the two of them. That night, Lydia told her with her actions, with her expressions, that she loved him. And I honestly think that, for Stiles, he could trust that even more than he would have trusted her words.

anonymous asked:

Hihi. Could I ask for some angst pls? As the 1st year anniversary approaches, Ushijima's female s/o has a realization and tells him, “I couldn’t make you fall in love with me. I thought I could do it, I really did, but… But I know you… And this isn’t love.”

I don’t know why, but I feel like I can write good angst for Ushijima..

It came as a shock when Ushijima actually accepted your confession. He was quiet and reserved while you were more talkative and outgoing, you’d never think he’d accept it, though you kinda knew it was a one sided love.

You spent the next few months trying to woo Ushijima over even though the two of you were dating, you just knew that he wasn’t in love with you. 

You were desperate for his love, you did everything for him. Attended all his games and cheered for him, walked with him home, made him small bento, everything. 

But it still didn’t work.

“What are you trying so hard for? You’re already dating!”

“He always acts like that, don’t think too much of it!”

“He’s just too shy to tell you he loves you, I can tell he loves you.”

You sat on your bed thinking about what everybody said to you when you tell them you wanted to win him over some more, but even you could tell he wasn’t in love with you.

Why were you trying so hard for his love when you knew he never loved you back? 

Tears filled your eyes as you looked at old pictures of you and Ushijima. You looked so happy but you remember all the effort you put into that date to make Ushijima happy. 

Everything was going to waste.

Looking out the window, you let out a sigh as you thought about your anniversary tomorrow. It was surprising but also nice to know that you made it through one year, but none of it really mattered anyway..

As you met up with Ushijima early in the morning before school started, you asked him to meet you in front of the gates after his practice ended and like always, he agreed.

The sun began to set as you looked up at the orange sky, eyes gazing over the multiple colors that made the day so beautiful. You turned around when you heard a group of voices chatting away and in front was your boyfriend.

“Hey,” You say happily as he nods at you in acknowledgment. “Let’s get going shall we?” You bid your farewells to the team before you head off with Ushijima, silence surrounding the air around you.

“Happy anniversary (Name),” Ushijima says and you blush a little, pushing a strand of hair behind your ear, “You remembered.” 

The quiet walk continues for a few minutes before Ushijima speaks, “Is there something you want to talk about?” You look up at him before you look back down with a smile, “You could tell huh?”

Stopping in your tracks, you turn to face him and let out a shaky sigh as you hold his large hands. “Wakatoshi-kun, thank you for being my boyfriend. It’s made me really happy.” 

“Of course,” he responds but he notices the tears forming in your eyes as you struggle to spill the words from your mouth, “I’m probably terrible for telling you this today of all days, but I just couldn’t keep it away from you anymore,” you say with an uneven breath.

“When you accepted my confession a year ago, I was ecstatic. I was never so happy before, but as the days passed by, I could tell you weren’t in love with me the way I was with you, so I desperately tried to make you fall in love with me.”

Ushijima listens intently as you share your heart-wrenching story with him. Your small hands shook in his and he could see your body trembling as tears slowly fell from your eyes.

“I couldn’t make you fall in love with me. I thought I could do it, I really did, but… But I know you… And this isn’t love.” Finally, your eyes look up and meet his as you let go of one of his hands to wipe away your tears.

“We can still make this work (Name),” Ushijima responds, but you shake your head. “I don’t want you to force yourself to love me. It should come as a natural thing.” 

Letting go of his hands, you wipe all the tears from your eyes before you smile up at him, “Thank you for this year Wakatoshi-kun and, I’m sorry.” 

Turning on your heel, you pick up your school bag and clutch it tightly as you continue your way home. Ushijima looks down at his hands and notices how some of your tears fell on his hands. 

He didn’t know why, but he wanted to run after you.

There are a bazillion ways to interpret Ardyn’s character and his past but I really don’t think he’s lying or sugarcoating the fact that he was ostracized and demonized unfairly. Why would he? To get Noctis to feel bad for him? If he wanted that, he wouldn’t have done everything he did.

I’m not saying this to stir up discourse btw. Like I said, there’s many ways to interpret him. And without any canon information on his past besides what little we do know, nobody knows anything for certain.

But he was chosen by the crystal. He was to be the King of Light. That’s absolute. That suggests to me that he was a man of benevolence and good will. So how did he become tainted? … hard to say. Might be that he fell in with the darkness he absorbed to save countless others, and I definitely think that played a big part of it. But that couldn’t have been the only thing. Ardyn must have consciously done something to trigger his own downfall. What does Bahamut call him? The Usurper. Perhaps he’s not referring to the throne. Maybe he’s talking about the gods’ own place in the heavens. Ardyn could very well have tried to challenge the gods. But why? Vanity? Lust for power? Or was it a foolish attempt to bring something more powerful to humanity that the gods and the crystal don’t seem to offer?

Perhaps he fought for free will.

And maybe the daemons festering inside him gave him the idea? They don’t want to be purged, but they’re also trapped in the body of a man chosen to save the world. Convincing him to choose another path is their only hope of survival. And he fell for it.

MAYBE. This, of course, is speculation. But then what of the jealous king?

Ardyn may have been rejected by the crystal after becoming tainted, but perhaps was less bothered by that than what happened afterwards.

I’ll continue this post later. I need some breakfast. :3

anonymous asked:

Why did you leave the army?

I got medically retired unfortunately!
I was enlisted then I decided that I wanted to do it as a career and I’ve always wanted to be a psychologist or do something in mental health. So in order to be able to do that I had to be an officer.
So I worked really hard to get into West Point Military Academy.
I was there about five months was doing really well in school and all other spectrums of how their curriculum works there..

..and usually this is where I tell people I just got into a car accident and had to be hospitalized for a few months and that’s why I got medically retired.

But I’m not going to lie about that anymore..
my page and everything I stand for is about helping people and being kind and embracing who we are and our hardships and obstacles.

So the TRUTH about why I got medically retired is this.. one of my friends died, I got them to give me like emergency leave, I went to Louisiana to go see my best friend who is now my girlfriend (I’ve like been in love with her forever but that’s a different story), it was complicated it is complicated. But it was really hard for me, I’ve lost many people in life.. many close people, but I look at death differently than others.. I’ve never been afraid to die I’ve always been afraid to live. I’ve experienced many suicidal ideations and tendencies throughout life, I couldn’t understand it or myself for so so long. Anyways I spent the weekend with her. I flew back to NY, I started to lose it beginning on the plane, I felt disgusting about myself, I felt survivors guilt, how could whoever or whatever take this amazing person away who touched everyone’s lives and inspired everyone and leave me? When I had wanted to die so many times throughout life and they WANTED to live. I fell into the rabbit hole like never before. My suicidal ideations and tendencies were manifesting in a way that idk I snapped. When my plane landed I got into my car to drive back to school. I couldn’t get out of wanting to kill myself, wanting to stop feeling or existing, wanting to just be gone. I lost myself completely. I had no hope. Nothing mattered anymore. I tried to call a few people, I even told them how I felt but NOTHING anyone said mattered. I love you didn’t matter. I need you didn’t matter. From anyone. I didn’t feel anything. I didn’t care. I could of spit in their faces. The people that were closest to me. I got in the car and started to drive, all I could think about was dying. I pulled over for a while. Still couldn’t stop. Finally I just decided I was gonna do it. I pulled over one more time, trying to find something anything to stop this. To come back to reality.. but I couldn’t. It wasn’t me, I was empty, I was nothing. I decided that I was going to crash the car at a great speed into a concrete wall.. they had like ache ways that were solid concrete I was gonna go fast and go right on my side. It was fool proof right? As I was going I started going too fast, I was at about 150mph and I started to fish tail and lose control of the car before the wall. I lost control of the car and crashed and totaled the car.. but I didn’t get to the wall bc I went up in speed too fast adrenaline kicked in and my foot became a brick. Losing control of the car before I hit the wall saved my life, I still totaled the car but I walked away with not a scratch on me. By this time I was in a full psychotic break. I tried to walk into oncoming traffic. Someone called the cops. I was hysterical and ranting about how I wanted to die. They took me to the ER I waited there for four days before they transferred me to a psychiatric hospital I spent over three months there. They diagnosed me with a bunch of stuff, basically through the book at me. But I didn’t wanna get out of the army, I refused medication and told them they were crazy nothing was wrong with me. Finally I knew I had no choice but to do what I was told, I was going to be let go no matter what I did. For 9 months I was in the deepest depression I had ever been in, in my entire life. I was getting medically boarded out of the army, it takes forever usually a year at least. They had me start working at the school and told me I couldn’t have contact with anyone that went to school there.. so I had no friends. I was in isolation. I had to go back to the hospital for two weeks then do an out patient program. Then I started bar tending on the weekends for something to do, it turned into me getting blacked out all weekend. I was so lost.
That’s how I got medically retired from the army.
They deemed that my actions and my diagnosis’ were not only there and happened but army related or triggered. But I felt like I was losing my whole entire life, I loved the army. Felt like it gave me purpose.
So I felt like I lost everything.
Worst year of my life by far probably.
Also they found out something was wrong with my heart and some other things while they were doing a complete medical testing of me.

Sorry this is so long.
But I finally told the truth and the whole truth.

Much love fam, stay wonderful.

A Touch of Magic

Yooran Week Day Five - Vacation // Strawberry Festival

Genre: Fluff

Pairing: Yoosung x Saeran

Word count: 1604

Disclaimer: Characters are owned by Cheritz co. I do not own Mystic Messenger or any of the characters.

A/N: I’m a bit late due to life being hell but this is for @yooranweek

I’d like to thank Mod Andi (@11daysofhell) and Mod Amy (@dragonpigeons) for being my betas for me. Also, Andi again for helping me brainstorm a title. You guys are the best.

The sun was unbearable. It was hot. Humid. And loud. Why did they come here? Saeran looked around at the people everywhere. Tons of children all of who were laughing, crying, or yelling. It was all really annoying. What was so good about this place? He glanced about the area as he sat on a bench in the shade. Maybe he shouldn’t have worn black.

Noticing the rails on the ground, his eyes followed them and he peered into the stores lined up along the street. His nose caught quite a few different smells, one of which was definitely a nearby bakery. He spotted a sweets shop down the line of stores and wanted to head over there but he knew he’d get lost if he went.

He wasn’t sure how big this place was but according to MC there were four different parks and they had to visit them all and do everything in order to experience ‘the magic’, whatever that meant. He rolled his eyes and they landed on Yoosung running over to him. He sat up slightly trying to smile as best as he could.

“Hey!” Yoosung slowed down as he reached where Saeran was sitting. He must have noticed the forced smile as he took a seat next to him. “Doing alright?” He laid his hand on top of Saeran’s.

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anonymous asked:

how do you think eric would react by people shooting up their schools because of him and dylan?

Probably annoyed. Eric would see it as them trying to copy him rather than doing it as a way to honor him. Eric was really obsessed with the idea of Columbine being the number one tragedy in America and that there better not be copycats trying to outdo their destruction. So I’m not sure why there’s so many out there that think Eric and Dylan would want them to commit the same act as they did, if they were so adamant of not wanting people to copy them.

anonymous asked:

(More of a rant than NTAMW) Why do men think they can lie to me about what happened between the two of us?? If there's only you and me in a room and you cut a massive fart, do you really think you can convince me I did it? Don't fucking tell me that the events I remember (and have text/phone records of) never happened. That's bullshit.


It’s a good thing to be able to keep screenshots or other types of records of things he might try to deny if you have trouble remembering

Thoughts on the finale

I was shocked, but at the same time, it was a disappointment because I feel like there was a lot of wasted potential.

What was the whole point of the board game? I mean, the writers made it seem like AD was only torturing the girls because of Charlotte… and yet when she finds out it’s Mona, she does absolutely nothing to Mona.

I like that Jenna actually turned out to be a good person. I wonder if she actually could see but didn’t let anyone know. How else would she have known that Spencer wasn’t Spencer?

I so called it that Mona was bad, even though she did somewhat help the liars. She never truly recovered.

So Mary wasn’t really bad? Why didn’t Spencer check up on her and try to look for her. I do kind of feel bad that she’s trapped with Alex.

I so knew there was going to be something shady about a cop based on his imdb page, being listed as “Cop / FH.” I wish I had theorized about that, but at the same time, I never would have guessed.

Also, the writers dropped so many useless clues. Like, why was Rollins listed as Mona’s psychiatrist if at the end of the day his character was completely useless?

And to have the final A, Uber A, to be a completely random character the girls didn’t knew is just a huge disservice.

Plus, it’s really bad writing. I mean, Alex wanted to kill Spencer and replace her just to have friends and get Toby. Umm… the UK is full of people. I’m sure she could have just as easily had friends there. And she even had a “Toby”, but she killed Wren just because he kept calling her Alex? Could you get worse writing than that?

Also, they wrote Alex as if she was a sociopath, but I don’t think sociopaths want friends. They want to control people, but not necessarily want friends. So that’s even more bad writing.

I feel like this was just the writers grasping at straws because they found out the show was renewed, yet they gave us the somewhat big reveal with Charlotte.

But that’s another thing, they never explained all the lies Charlotte told in the 6a finale. It would have been better if Charlotte was alive, working with Archer. Would have made more sense.

Meh, disappointed with the reveal and how many lies the writers told (will never trust Marlene King to actually tie up plot holes again), but I do like that the characters all got happy endings and no one died. I may be the only person, but so glad Ezria got their happily ever after.

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