no one in this fandom understands my feels

girl-of-ink  asked:

ok i don't know who to tell this to but i finally finished the whole series just now and i'm crying?? it's so good. undoubtedly the best tv show i've ever watched & basically no one my age understands oh my g o d ! i love it so much

Aaaaaah, I so know that feeling! It’s what drove me here and has me feverishly writing fic and churning out all sorts. My heart feels like it’s going to explode at any given moment. So many feelings </3

Thank goodness for fandom 😂

Congrats on making it all the way through the series, and welcome to the club!

Originally posted by majorfrustration

SO KUBO-SENSEI JUST CONFIRMED IN AN INTERVIEW THAT VIKTOR AND YUURI ARE SOULMATES

AND OBVIOUSLY, just like the rest of the fandom i was sCREAMING but then i had a flashback to my philosophy classes and i remembered this:

according to plato, the origin of soulmates is that humans used to have four arms and four legs and a head with two faces. but that annoyed zeus, who determined they should be split in half so they wouldn’t be as powerful and consequentially there would be more people to praise the gods and all that jazz, and it was said that when the two separated humans find each other there would be a deep understanding of one another and they would feel unified, and then they would be truly happy.

AND THEN I THOUGHT “BUT WAIT, THIS SOUNDS FAMILIAR”

THE CONCLUSION OF STAMMI VICINO IS ABOUT FINDING YOUR SOULMATE 

Fandom as a whole is not “minor-friendly”

Nor should it be.

If you want to live in a “Children of the Corn”-style bubble of innocence and purity, well, to me, that’s a startling approach to adolescence, but every generation’s got to find its own way to reject the one before, so: do as you will.  But you can’t bring the bubble to the party, kids.  Fandom, established media-style fandom, was by and for adults before some of your parents were born now.  You don’t get to show up and demand that everyone suddenly change their ways because you’re a minor and you want to enjoy the benefits of adult creative activity without the bits that make you uncomfortable.  If you think you’re old enough to be roaming the Internet unsupervised, then you also think you’re old enough to be working out your limits by experience, like everybody else, like I did when I was underage and lying about it online.  If you’re not old enough to be roaming the Internet unsupervised and you’re doing it anyway, then that’s on your parents, not on fandom.

If you were only reading fic rated G on AO3, if you had the various safe modes on other media enabled, you would be encountering very little disturbing material, anyway (at least in the crude way people tend to define “disturbing” these days; some of the most frankly horrifying art I have ever engaged with would have been rated PG at most under present systems, but none of that kind of work ever seems to draw your protests).  In the end, what you really want is to be able to seek out the edges of your little world, but be able to blame other people when you don’t like what you find.  Sorry.  Adolescence is when you get to stop expecting others to pad your world for you and start experiencing the actual consequences of the risks you take, including feeling appalled and revolted at what other people think and feel.

Now, ironically, fandom’s actually a fairly good place for such risk-taking, as, for the most part, you control whether you engage and you can choose the level of your engagement.   You can leave a site, blacklist something, stop reading an author, walk away from your computer.  Are there actual people (as opposed to works of art, which cannot engage with you unless you engage with them) who will take advantage of you in fandom?  Of course there are.  Unfortunately, such people are everywhere.  They will be there however “innocent” and “wholesome” the environment appears to be, superficially.  That’s evil for you.  There are abusers in elementary school.  There are abusers in scout troops.  There are abusers in houses of worship.  Shutting down adult creative activity because you happen to be in the vicinity isn’t going to change any of that.  It may help you avoid some of those icky feelings that you get when you think about sex (and you live in a rape culture, those feelings are actually understandable, even if your coping techniques are terrible), but no one, except maybe your parents, has a moral imperative to help you avoid those.  

In the end, you’re not my kid and you’re not my intended audience.  I’m under no obligation to imagine only healthy, wholesome relationships between people for your benefit.  Until you’re old enough to understand that the world is not exclusively made up of people whose responsibility it is to protect you from your own decisions, yes, you’re too young for established media fandom.  Fandom shouldn’t be “friendly” to you.  

fandom keith:

  • emo ™
  • “no one understands me!1!!11″
  • angry red boy

canon keith:

  • “maybe I don’t trust anyone because my mom left me… I don’t let them in to just give them the chance to abandon me…”
  • questions his self-worth
  • 100% expects you to stab him in the back because why would you ever stay?
  • “I promised I wouldn’t cry!”
  • “we had a bonding moment!” wasn’t him being gay or petty he honestly and truly felt a bond with lance and is now so scared that it was all in his head
  • deserves so much love

With volume 5 about to come out, I’d like to remind people that you can make a free account on rooster teeth’s website, and watch the new episodes on tuesdays.

You don’t need to pay, you don’t need to wait a whole week, and you’ll be supporting the creators.

Please don’t watch pirated versions. Let’s not forget that every person on earth needs to earn money, and in this case, ensure a budget to continue the show.

Waiting a few days and watching it on their website is the best way to let them know you appreciate their work. They do still offer it for free.

anonymous asked:

Hi! I want to ask advice.I'm learning fine art at a university, and try to do my best, but every day I feel like the fandom groups/facebook etc. slowly but surely kill my passion for 3 years. Ignorance, humiliation, disregard. I'm at my wit's end. I dont know what should I do, I want to keep drawing, but I feel like its pointless, and no matter how hard I try my artwork is useless. I feel like I'm making a mistake by believing, I can work as an artist, and I should search for something else.

This message kind of makes me very sad. 

There’s one thing I can advice. Quit the groups and fandom circles that make you burn out so much. There is no way every single fan in a fandom you love is ignorant, or humiliating, or disregarding. Find YOUR people who will support you and re-charge your passion. 

I feel like it’s in a way how I feel about tumblr recently. I see so many posts on my dashboard that either make me super bitter or annoyed…I kind of feel like a sea of salt after I spent too much on tumblr, but whenever I’m out of it I’m back to the ray of sunshine. I guess there are blogs and posts I feel no longer connected to. And it’s normal.

SO. Try finding someone you connect to. Having a one loyal friend in a fandom you can always talk to is much better than seeing the art (even if it’s great art) from a person you don’t understand. 

There is absolutely no way that your artwork is USELESS. I generally feel that the main point of art should be bringing YOU joy. If you draw there should be something you love about it. I guess it shouldn’t really rely on recognition only. 

Also, I might sound like Katara, but hey, faith pays off. If you truly believe in something it’s going to get you there eventually. 

Cursed Child Scorbus Rec List

This really has become more of an index than a rec list, with categories of: 

Full length chaptered stories, Series, arcs, collections and short chaptered stories, Atmospheric, poetic, ficlets and drabbles, Pre-slash, Fluff, Established relationships, Flangst, Dark Angst, Humor, Holidays, Coming Out, Smut, Fix-Its/Re-Writes, and AUs

Last time I counted there were over 200 fics on here!

Basically my requirements for this list are:
Is it Cursed Child compliant, in the CC universe or do the characterizations feel close enough to CC?
No disturbing side-pairings or themes (i.e. no dub-con, abuse, drug use, infidelity or major character death. Exceptions will have warnings.)
Is it decently written, easy enough to understand and not cringe-worthy?
Did it make me smile or feel things?
Have I actually read it?

There are many stories, especially multi-chapters and WIPs, that I haven’t gotten around to yet, so this list is mostly made up of one-shots. It is my New Year’s resolution to read longer works. Feel free to add your recommendations in your reblog! Happy Holidays you wonderful little fandom! 

Note: I have categorized these fairly loosely. Some fics may fit into more than one category, but I don’t list them twice unless they are individual parts of an arc. The first section is uncategorized. They are a few of my faves, though I definitely have favorites in other categories like atmospheric and fluff, however these ones seemed slightly more complex and are a bit longer. So consider this category…


A Good Place to Start

*Best Mates- picascribit

“You deserve to be with someone who really likes you. Who thinks you’re brilliant.“

Scorpius grinned. “I’ve got you for that.”

One of the first Albus/Scorpius stories I read after CC, and still one of my favorites. This is Part 1 of Pica’s Scorbus Arc, but it is perfect as a stand-alone. The stories do get more mature.

*The First Date- rainystreetlights

“Still under the impression that you should have been the first to get a girlfriend eh? What can I say… Ladies love me.”

“Ladies tolerate you.”

‘One-Shot set in Albus and Scorpius’ sixth year at Hogwarts. When Rose doesn’t show up, Albus and Scorpius end up going on an accidental first date. Pure Scorpius and Albus fluff. Awkward conversations and a lot of strange situations’.

I love this so much. This author has seen the play and it shows. Her characterizations and dialogue are so spot on. So awkward, adorable and heartfelt!

*The Ball- torestoreamends

‘A ball is being held at Hogwarts to celebrate the end of fifth and seventh year exams. Scorpius has agreed to go with Rose, and Albus shouldn’t be as upset about that as he is. Dancing, fancy robes, obliviousness, and a small sprinkling of brotherly advice ensue.’

This is so gorgeous. Just her description of the robes slayed me. Read everything by torestoreamends!

*Seasons- starlightpeddlar

‘From the moment Scorpius and Albus get on the Hogwarts Express for their fifth year, things start to change. Albus starts to gain confidence both in the classroom and out of it, and Scorpius’ realization that he has greater feelings for his best friend threatens to leave him more alone than he’d ever imagined’.

Wonderful four chapter prequel to ‘Quietly’. Quietly is quite long and intense, but this is a nice getting together story, though it is still quite meaty and introduces important themes for the series.

*Put Your Guns Away Its Tea Time- frombluetored

‘Ginny Potter estimates it will only take three days into the Weasley-Potter family holiday for Albus to act on his feelings for his best friend. Albus estimates it will only take three days for him to die of embarrassment. And Scorpius, well. Scorpius is just glad to be there with Albus in the first place.’

I love this so much! The characters are so spot on and we get to see other Next Gen kids as well as all the grown up characters we love. Come for the Scorbus, stay for Ginny and the whole Weasley clan.

Keep reading

A (little) Killing Stalking Rant

I’m not sure where to begin, to be quite honest. I just found out that apparently there is a chapter 18 despite everyone thinking there’d be a break after 17 and of course I instantly read it. Now me being my obsessive, overexcited self instantly went into the tag to see what kind of funny shit this precious fandom came up with this time only to be…well disappointed is such a hard word but I kind of am. Not because the jokes were repetitive (they were, but that is not the point) but because the fandom seems to be split in two entirely and I don’t understand why? Or why people have the need to constantly shade one another. 
Anyway, feel free to ignore this, but I’m going to voice some of my (probably unpopular) opinions.

1) Ji eun is a major bitch and I do not understand why people are glorifying her for punching Sangwoo in the face like she is some sort of hero. She didn’t do it for Yoonbum, but to save her own skin. It also didn’t show guts or anything, just her will to live. I wanna bet that all the girls he chopped off before her tried much the same. Nothing special, moving on.

2) That being said, she most certainly is not a bitch for offering to have sex with Yoobum. In a situation like this, live or die, every last one of us would probably offer much more than sex, trust me on this one. Nothing is more precious than survival, it’s in our DNA to do our best. That being said, she is still a bitch for offering to basically RAPE Yoobum to safe her own skin. Bitch is selfish, not a hero. Yoobum obviously wasn’t down for the idea of getting fucked by her.

3) I really do not understand how people are still surprised that most of the fandom ships Sangwoo and Yoobum. Nor why people are surprised that most of the fandom loves Sangwoo. We basically got half of the explanation for this coming from Sangwoo himself in Chapter 18: He’s pretty so people are drawn to him. Where is the big deal? It’s a cartoon, for heavens sakes. It’s not like we have a bunch of real life Harley Quinn’s running around the street. Now for the shipping part, this one REALLY goes over my head. I literally saw comments about getting help and getting Jesus being thrown around and shit like that irks me for many many reasons, but I digress. We see the story through Yoobum’s and Sangwoo’s eyes. OF COURSE WE ARE ROOTING FOR THEM! Not just them as a couple but them as people! I’m 99% sure that we are supposed to! Yoobum loves Sangwoo so we love Sangwoo.
Yoobum loves Sangwoo, so we want him to get Sangwoo.
We love Sangwoo so we want him to be happy.
We love Sangwoo so we want him to succeed in his murder spree. 

I was happy when he killed that asshole in the last chapter and I most certainly am looking forward to seeing Jieun being killed by either of them, really, because that is what Sangwoo (and Yoobum) want and since I see the story through their eyes, I want that to. Does that mean I’m about to go out and start killing people? No, because I faint at the sight of blood and really don’t like the idea of taking someones life. Nor the fact I’d get a lifelong sentence, really. Just throwing it in there for good measures. So, it’s safe to say I’m not going to go on a killing spree anytime soon. Still enjoy the deaths.

4) To elaborate on that. I really, really am surprised how people go into this story disliking Sangwoo and the relationship between him and Yoobum. Like you do realize it’s all about that, right? About Sangwoo getting satisfaction by killing and Yoobum getting satisfaction by being by Sangwoo’s side. This story isn’t about character growth , overcoming your mental illness or getting out of the shit situation you’re in. Quite the contrary. It’s about giving in to those primal urges, this quiet need to kill in the back of every humans head. The story is supposed to make us route for the killer and the psychosis and that sick twisted part of them so we end up questioning just how fragile our and societies morality is. I had Philosophy for for a couple of years and morality was a big part of that. I have my own opinion on morality and how it is a mere illusion anyway but that isn’t the point right now. The point is, let go of your false morality and get off your high horse and enjoy the comic called Killing Stalking for what it is! About two psychopaths giving in to their mental state to stalk and kill their prey together. 

 I mean seriously, what did you expect?!

And Suddenly There Was Her

Author: see-the-fandom-imagines
Warnings: none. maybe nightmares. but actually just pure fluff
Word Count: 3117
A/N: This will be my first and only story about Twilight. I tried, but I don’t really feel like I’m in it with my full heart. I hope you understand this, and maybe you even like this one (and I hope I got his personality right…Unfortunately I haven’t read the books/seen the movies in years!)
Request: the request about twilight would be that y/n lives in Forks and one day she goes to the beach in La Push (she’s never been there before) because she had a fight with her mom and wants to clear her head at a place nobody would expect her. and coincidentally the boys are there and Paul imprints on her. he can’t tell her roght away so he gets to know her slowly and tells her about shapeshifting and imprinting when they are already together. 



You drove past the road sign that read ‘La Push’, simply heading straight ahead. You had fled from a major argument with your mother and just needed to get away from everything for a moment. And usually you could do that best while driving.
After you had done the dishes, the laundry and cleaned both the toilet and your room, and just wanted to relax a bit she had come inside your room, telling you that you could help her with dinner. Because apparently 'she always did everything alone’.
Everything alone, my ass.
This not being the first time, that she had accused you of not helping at all in the household, you had snapped, which eventually resulted in you and your mother shouting at each other, until you finally took your coat and stormed out of the door.

The moment you left the house you knew that she would try to call you around ten minutes later, but right now you just had no patience for this.
You needed to be alone for a while.


Even though you lived in Forks for almost four years now, you had never once visited the beach in La Push. You guessed it was the typical not-visiting-anything – attitude one would get when living in a place to long. Furthermore your mother was not very fond of this reservation.
So no one would expect you there, and you could be by yourself for a few hours.

It didn’t take long for you to find the beach, given that you had seen around four different signs on your way here.You got out of your car, and made your way over towards the sea.
As your feet stepped into the soft sand, you immediately felt better. The salty smell of the sea calmed your nerves and managed to even get a small smile on your face.
You searched a nice place next to a few trees, and let yourself fall down into the sand.


You sat there like this for maybe and hour, just staring at the sea and thinking about everything and nothing.
You started to think about the argument with your mother, but quickly realised that she most likely would do the same thing tomorrow, and therefore it was definitely not worth to think about.
So you allowed your thoughts to wander. School, your friends, everything that came to your mind. 

Until you suddenly heard voices coming your way.
As you looked up you realised, that the people they belonged to were closer than you had thought. A group of around five boys, who were laughing together, shoving each other around in a playful way. From their looks you cloncluded, that they most likely belonged to the Quileute.
They probably came down here quite often.
Still, you started to feel slightly uneasy as you saw them approaching. You didn’t know these boys, and if you were honest, you seldom had good experiences with a lot of strange boys approaching you at once.
You stood up and patted your trousers to remove the sand, as you realised, that the boys seemed to have seen you. They weren’t too far away anymore, and you could make out single faces.
At least they didn’t seem to interested in you, which made you feel a little better. 

You knew that you would have to pass them, if you wanted to return to the main street. Taking a deep breath, and throwing on your jacket, you approached the group, who luckily didn’t seem to mind you at all.
Somehow this made you feel a little safer, and you even dared to let your gaze wander through the group. Two of the boys had sat down on a log, that had probably been washed up during a flood or something, and they still talked and laughed around playfully.
One boy was just standing there, grinning slightly, and suddenly he turned his head towards you. Your eyes met for a second, and you could see how his grin faded, and he just stared at you, as if suddenly startled by your presence.  
He didn’t move, he didn’t speak, he just stared at you.
And it made you feel definitely uneasy.
Quickly you turned your eyes down to the ground and stuck your hand into your pockets, leaving the beach and planning to go straight home. 

A few metres further you turned around once more, to see that three of the other boys now stood around the guy that had stared at you, and seemed to talk insistently to him. Quickly you turned around again and went back to where you had parked your car.  

But you didn’t get far. 

You had just reached the street again, as suddenly someone behind you called out for you.
„Hey! Wait a second!“

You ignored the voice and headed straight ahead, hoping to get to any place with a few people around, so he would stop bothering you.
„Hey, girl!“, he shouted again, but you just sped up your pace.
Eventually, though, he reached you, and began to walk next to you.

„Hey“, he grinned at you, and you finally looked at him.
He had black hair, like the other boys, and his eyes shimmered dark brown.
But there was something else.
The way he looked at you.
You didn’t know if you were scared, or fascinated, by the way he simply stared at you, as if you were the first girl he had ever seen in his life. But at the same time he seemed confused, as if he wondered, why he even ran after you. 

„Hello“, you greeted, and stopped reluctantly.
He grinned at you and you couldn’t help yourself but to think, that it looked almost challenging, and you didn’t know why, but somehow this made him look incredibly attractive. He stretched out his hand.
„I’m Paul“, he introduced himself. „Lahote.“

Hesitating you took his hand and shook it. „I’m (y/n).“
You had no idea why, but this boy didn’t look like he would do you any harm. 

There was absolutely no reason to, and he definitely looked like you shouldn’t, but you trusted him. Well, as much as one could trust a guy one had met thirty seconds ago.


Paul’s POV

Paul had followed the pack down to the beach. It was not as if he had anything better to do. And he didn’t know if it was because of their shared fate, or not, but he slowly grew to actually like the boys. 

They had just reached the old log, as suddenly a girl caught his eye.
She had obivously seen them approach and stood up to leave the beach.
Jared and Sam had seen her as well, but didn’t really seem to care.
Neither did he.
Or so he thought. 

He had just laughed about a stupid joke Jared had made, as he turned his head. The girl was barely ten metres away, and in the same moment he had turned his head, she had looked up, and their eyes had met.
Immediately Paul’s grin vanished, as suddenly a wave of emotion swept over him.
She was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen. All of a sudden he felt the strong urge to walk over to her, to speak to her, to take her in his arms. And even though he had always imagined this moment to be different, to be a lot more mundane than this what he felt right now, he knew exactly what this meant. 

„Shit.“

He was not able to move, even though he knew he had to go after her, before she would vanish, but he was completely overtaxed with all the emotions he suddenly felt at once. Embry seemed to have realised that something was wrong with Paul, for he nudged him in the rips. 

„Paul?“, he asked, causing him to wake up out of his trance. He still stared after the girl. Now the other’s too, had become curious.
„Don’t tell me-“, Quil said, as he followed his gaze. 

Suddenly Paul felt Sam’s hand at his shoulder, who actually gave him an amused smile. „Go“, he simply said and Paul didn’t wait a second longer. He knew that Sam had understood, and the other’s probably as well. He ran as fast as he could after her. She had already reached the street. 

„Hey! Wait a second!“, he shouted, but she didn’t even look around. He scoffed, and clenched his jaw. Of course she didn’t. He had to seem to her like a lunatic, running after her like this. But he couldn’t stop himself. He had to talk to her.
„Hey, girl!“, he tried once more, but again no reaction. Angrily he sped up his pace, until he had finally reached her.
But she didn’t stop. She just continued walking. 

„Hey“, he said, and she looked at him.
Even though he had been frustrated and ready to punch a wall only a second earlier, as soon as she looked at him, he felt calmer, and he couldn’t help himself but grin. 

Close up, she looked even prettier he thought, as she now finally stopped. 

„Hello“, she answered, and he stretched out his hand. 

„I’m Paul. Lahote“, he said, and grinned even more as she took it. „I’m (y/n)“, she introduced herself. Even her name sounded beautiful.
„Are you new here?“, he asked letting go of her, and she shook her head.
„Not really. I live in Forks“, she answered, and smiled slightly. „I just never came here.“ Her gaze wandered over to the sea. „And now I wonder why.“
Paul smiled down at you. „Well, if you would like a little tour, I don’t have anything to do right now.“
She smiled up at him, and checked her watch, giving him an excusing smile only a second later.
„I’m sorry, I would love to, but it’s getting late, and I’m pretty sure my mum worries already.“
Slowly Paul nodded. 

He needed to see her again. He were meant for her.

But he also knew, that he couldn’t force her. He knew how the whole imprinting thing worked. And he knew that he did not have the same effect on her, as she had on him. 

He pulled out his phone. „How about we exchange numbers, and when you come down here again, I’ll show you around a little?“
She seemed to think about it, before pulling out her phone, too.
„Sounds great!“


(Y/N)’s POV

After you had given him your number, Paul had written to you on the same evening. You had answered instantly, and so you had made up for a meeting on the weekend.
He had showed you around La Push, the beach, the forest, his favourite places.
You could tell that he liked you, and you had to admit, that you had fallen for him as well.
He was always nice to you, and even though you had realised pretty soon, that he was kind of a hothead, you knew that he would never hurt you. And it hadn’t taken long for you to realise how to calm him down when he got angry. 

And around your fifth date, he had finally asked you how you felt about him. Slightly embarassed, you had stuttered around, until he had taken your hand and looked into your eyes.
„Because I cannot describe what I’m feeling for you. I want to be there for you, and I will always protect you“, he had said,and you had never seen him so serious as in this moment. And you knew that he meant every word of it. 

And this was the moment you had finally admitted to him that you had fallen in love with him.

Since that day, exactly one month ago, you had been a couple, and you were happier, than you had ever been in your entire life.


Today Paul had asked you, to meet him at the beach in La Push, exactly where you had seen him the first time. You didn’t really know what he planned, but you had a smile playing around your lips, as you sat on the log, much too early and stared at the sea, waiting for him.
It didn’t take long for him too arrive, Paul, too, slightly too early.
He hugged you from behind and you could see him grinning as you turned your head towards him.
„Hey“, you greeted him and turned around, to press a quick kiss on his lips.
„Hey“, he said, and sat down next to you.
He had taken his hand in yours, and looked at you, a somewhat weird expression in his features.
You raised your eyebrows. „What is it?“, you asked, slightly worried, and shifted a little, to get a better look at him.
Paul licked his lips and suddenly seemed grim. The only thing that stopped you from freaking out at his behaviour were his fingers, still gently stroking over the back of your hand. „I need to tell you something“, he said, and shifted, too, looking directily into your eyes. „Just… Promise you will listen until the end, okay?“

Utterly concerned you nodded, waiting for him to speak up.
„Well, I have… uhm“, he started and you saw the muscles on his jaw harden as he seemed to think about the right words. „…Special abilities“, he finally said, leaving you almost more confused than before.
„Abilities?“, you asked. „What kind of abilities?“

„Don’t think I am crazy, okay?“ You shook your head, furling your brows once more, at his slightly aggressive tone. You knew he wouldn’t hurt you, but this simply proved how difficult this was for him.
„I’m… a shape shifter.“
You didn’t move, but simply looked at him, trying to process what he just told you. „A…shape shifter?“, you asked, and he nodded.
„I transform. Into a wolf.“ He looked at you and you shook your head, laughing. He clearly made a joke. There was no thing as shape shifters in real life.
„Paul, if you try to freak me out, you definitely succeeded“, you said, but he just shook his head.
„I prove it“, he said, suddenly determined, and let go of your hand.
„Paul, what are you talking about“, you asked and looked at him. He looked around, and as he didn’t seem to see anyone, he stepped away from you. „Paul you’re scaring me“, you admitted, and he held up his hand.
„Don’t be scared“, he said, before taking a deep breath and breaking into a sprint. Confused you looked after him, as he suddenly jumped into the air… and transformed. His body stretched and as he landed not one second later, a gigantic wolf trotted your way, his fur dark-silver and his dark eyes directed at you. Your mouth stood agape, and you had opened your eyes wide as you tried to process what just had happened.
Your boyfriend had just transformed into a gigantic wolf!
He had reached you now, and stood in front of you. His eyes still looked the same, still the same dark brown you had fallen in love with. Slowly you stretched out your hand, and the wolf stepped close enough for you to touch him. This has to be a dream, you thought, as your hand touched the soft fur, and you managed to finally speak.
„P-Paul?“, you asked and the wolf seemed to nod. „But how?“

The wolf made a small noise, not really a growl, and not really a whimper, as he turned around and ran away.
Still in some sort of shock, you just looked after him, until you couldn’t see him anymore. A few minutes later Paul ran back to you from the same direction, his shirt, you noticed now, ripped on the beach and he was wearing nothing but jeans. You still hadn’t moved, as he had reached you.
„I’m sorry“, he said, sitting back next to you. „It’s always a little problem with the clothes.“
You looked at him, not really able to say anything. „Sorry“, he apologised again. „I just didn’t knew how to tell you otherwise.“

„How long?“, you asked finally, and he wet his lips. „Around a year and a half now“, he said, looking at you. He was serious.
„Sam… Jared“, you started. „Are they too…“
„Yes. All of us“, Paul answered. „We belong to Sam’s pack.“
„Wow“, you finally whispered, staring at the ground in front of you, trying to process everything you had just witnessed.
„But there’s something else“, Paul said, taking your hand back in his. You turned your gaze back up to him.
„Fire away“, you sighed. „It’s not like anything could shock me now.“
Paul smiled slightly at your commentary and nodded.
„We have something that we call 'Imprinting’.“
You raised your eyebrows, waiting for him to speak on.

„It’s hard to explain. At one point in our lives we see someone, and… something happens. We imprint. As I saw you I knew that I never want to leave your side. I want to be there for you in good and in bad, and I will be whatever you need me to be. A friend, a lover, the worst enemy of everyone that ever hurt you. Especially the worst enemy of everyone that will try to hurt you in the future. As I saw you, I thought you were the most beautiful, the most fascinating girl I have ever seen in my whole life.“
You looked into his dark eyes, as you slowly understood what he told you. „So, you’re…imprinted… on me?“

He nodded. A smile grew on your face. The whole situation was so absurd, so abnormal, but here you were with a shape shifter that had just turned into a wolf and now swore you his eternal love. And you were surprised of yourself for simply accepting everything he had just told you, so easily.
You chuckled, before smiling at him. „Does this work the other way round as well?“, you asked, cupping his cheek with your hand and slowly leaning towards him.

„Because I’ve fallen hopelessly for you, Paul. And I don’t care whether you are a wolf, or a duck, or a cockroach in your free time. I love you.“

A tiny smile spread on Paul’s face, as he leant down to you. „I love you“, he whispered, before pressing his lips hard against yours, his hand buried in your hair, while pressing you closer towards his body.

 He moved his lips against yours, wrapping his free arm around your waist, before he rested his forehead against yours, his eyes still closed.

„You are my life.“


requested by anon

Morning.

And also a big fuck you to anyone ever having sent hate on or off anon, bullying people or making this fandom feel like not a safe, good place to anyone.

I woke up to see one of my fave blogs has deleted - not because they needed a break, or stopped believing, or because they wanted to leave. They wanted to stay and support the boys, were vocal about it but I guess one post, one opinion was deemed so unworthy by so many that they got showered in hate and felt their own fandom was not a safe, happy place for them. This all in less than 12 hours.

And that’s just one example. I truly cannot understand when did people stop understanding that different opinions exist? That not every opinion that differs from yours, means that it’s a chance for you to roll up your sleeves, get typing and get ooh sassy! (i.e.mean and bitchy) because you somehow think the other person’s different opinion is not as thought-through and strong as yours? That you can make them change their mind if you get sassy enough? Make them see the light?

There is still good discussion, respectful exchange of opinions and considering different viewpoints that exists, yes. And that’s good, this is not what this is about. If you have a blogger you hate, love to hateread, or you see a post that makes you want to get mean (and that is honestly the first sign that you should not send anything to that blogger), what do you get out of sending hate? Like what do you think is the end result going to be? Them answering publically and saying ‘yes oh smart one, you helped me see my ways’? Or just to make them feel shit and purposefully hope they get sad and cry and maybe delete?

There is no harm in not reacting. None. I see posts I roll my eyes at, I have bloggers I think have absolutely lost the plot and have no respect for their opinions. I know this so I avoid their blogs. I know we don’t agree. I see from posts that ‘oh I don’t agree with that at all’ and scroll further, maybe go unfollow/blaklist/block. It has yet harmed my life in no way to not send hate to a person I do not agree with.

We all have our faves and opinions and this fandom has been a very rough place for a long time. I know people and feelings have gotten volatile, but please for the love of everything, be nice or be nothing. It’s ok to disagree. It’s ok to think someone is a dickhead who should choke. It’s not ok to go to another person’s safe, happy place and personally attack them. You are not doing anyone a favour or defending anyone in a good way.

Choose that damn love every day or at least decide not to be a hateful person ✌

*throws a zen with a little flower to catch your attention*

Alright, now that your attention has been caught, please bear with me. I hope you’ll take some time to read this until the end. Or, if you don’t have the time, bookmark it. I just want to get my point across. The picture is clickbait, hahah sorry. But I’d appreciate it if you could stay for a bit. Ok. Where do I begin.

Let’s stop trying to deny it okay, all fandoms have some really shitty people. It’s inevitable. I’ve seen ‘em all, the bashers, thought-imposers, unwanted-critiquers, “my opinion is best”-ers, and all the other -ers. I daresay a few hatERS will drop by my inbox later after I post this. By all means, feel free and go ahead. All I ask is you read what I write.

I’m just sad that these people run rampant in the Mystic Messenger fandom. Out of everyone, the Rika vs. V discourse and some overboard Zen fanatics are probably ranked at the top of my primary concerns as a (still young) fan (but filled with motherly instincts). Still, I understand that maybe these people didn’t WANT to do it. Maybe they acted on impulse and received a lot of hate because of one slip-up, which FORCED them to defend themselves. In turn, they ended up looking worse than they ever intended to be and hate just continues to pour in the inbox.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not defending their actions. If they did something wrong, then it’s wrong. But I’m just begging you to remember, that we are all humans. Cliché as it may seem, we aren’t perfect. Nobody is. We all fucked up at one point in our lives. All I’m asking for is for you not to be the douche who engraves it into history with a permanent marker and ruins a person’s reputation forever.

Do we really have go into the gray areas? If a painter intended for something to be so obviously jet black, what’s the use of trying to find the white pigments that he used to mix the colors? Must we really psychoanalyze every single detail until the things meant for simple entertainment turn into the reasons behind a world war? Idk guys, I just think that the whole discourse with V and Rika is absurd. It’s a waste of time. Rika abused V and brainwashed Saeran. That’s bad. V kept secrets from the RFA. That’s also bad. Each romanceable character has a bad ending which probably exploits their fatal flaws. Goddamnit, the word is already in there, it’s BAD. Nobody deserves to be bound by their flaws.

Look at the reason behind most, if not all the fandom fights: “This character is (insert negative trait here).” “This character did this (insert negative action here).” “This character didn’t do that (insert positive action here).” At some point, people are going to bring in a character WITH A REALLY COMPLEX PAST AS THEY TOO ARE A COMPLEX HUMAN BEING, and they’re gonna slap that three letter label on them to serve as an argument. And just like that, they’re going to expect to win the debate. For heaven’s sake, I just want to say that no matter how many evidences you think you can provide, all your arguments are invalid until Cheritz confirms it to be canon. Can’t we just live in happiness and peace that we AT LEAST have this wonderful game to play? Or am I just being a hopeful, idealistically stupid teenager.

Let’s all try and stop looking at the bad things that people have done, just for a moment. Notice the good things. Think positive. Stop being so critically harsh towards people who just want to experience the joy of playing a game. Stop sending unnecessary hate to each other because c'mon, what benefits do you get from that? Do you really get satisfaction when you watch someone’s soul break under the weight of your words? Do I have to invite that one guest from the party to stop you guys from bombarding each other with cyber grenades?

Is what I want the kind of world that Rika wanted? Because damn, if it is, that’s meta af. If I could get the world to be at some kind of blissful tranquility for just three seconds, I’d do it. What lengths would you go through to end all this fighting and killing, all the hate crimes and injustices, and just bring everyone into Paradise? Because apparently, Rika was willing to give it her all and more.

In one way or another, Cheritz predicted all this (or it could just be me being wild with my imagination), but look at Zen’s…uh…overenthusiastic fanclub. Look at that one guest who was all about bringing positive comments on people’s profiles. No, actually, look at ALL the guests. What do they have in common? Nothing!! And yet look at them at the party: people from different walks of life, enjoying the afternoon with each other.

Rika wouldn’t have to commit all her shitty crimes if the world didn’t give her a reason to. In one way or another, we’re all at fault here. But here’s the thing: what Rika failed to see was that there was happiness in RFA’s party, where opinions might clash every now and then but friendship would still hold strong. Cheritz is trying to tell us that hey, you know what? There’s still hope in this world, despite all the horrible stuff that has happened! It isn’t the end. It never is, and it never will be so long as people continue fighting for what’s right. We can change right now if we just opened our hearts to the people around us.

In the end, it’s all up to you if you want to take my message to heart. It’s a really long one, and I don’t expect many to read. But still, please just listen to your heart. Be the amazing user that I know you can be. Be the fan that Cheritz wants you to be. Be the human that the world needs you to be.

Yeah, that’s all. Thanks for reading, hope you have a great day/night!

P.S. Also, will probably repost the picture again minus this essay hahah, for a more convenient reblogging experience. Just wanted to get this out of my chest.

Ok Hamilton fandom hear me out

I really hate the way Lafayette is written in fanfics. He always speaks in broken French and English, which is probably my number one pet peeve because I feel like it is just a way for fanfiction writers to avoid making him an actual character. It’s always FRENCH FRENCH FRENCH Lafayette and that is his one personality trait. We understand how he is French. We know. Also, he is always written as this hyper feminine man but also super sexualized at the same time. He is always incapable of having a conversation without flirting or using the phrase “mon ami”. I also understand how people want more gender/ lgbtq representation and headcanons for characters making them trans, gender fluid , ect. are usually pretty great but I don’t really understand why the fandom is so attached to Genderfluid!Lafayette. Sometimes if fanfiction writers choose not to use that headcanon they are attacked, and that really has to stop. It’s the authors choice. There is no historical evidence for it ( correct me if I’m wrong please). Not everyone has to use that headcanon. I’m sorry I just felt like ranting about this.

Literally every song of In Trousers has an average of about 27 different meanings/possible interpretations/metaphorical layers and each one deserves its own 5-page analytical essay and i am willing to do just that hi welcome to my ted talk

Hi I would just like to remind everyone that if your an adult (18+) and sending minors on here hate because of what they ship/characters they like, you need to stop immediately. Not only is it wrong but also can get you into legal trouble for cyberbullying/harassment. Also if any minors feel uncomfortable with an adult (like me) following them/reblogging their edits/commenting on their posts, please let us know and we will unfollow/stop. I understand people are frustrated with the writers and the characters story lines but some of you are crossing the line between stating an opinion and verbal abuse. Also minors please feel free to block/report anyone spewing this hate. Keep a record of what they post but do NOT engage. Stay in your lanes people. Especially if you’re an adult.

anonymous asked:

I used to look up to Taylor and think she had my (gay) back but she wants us gone and so ok, we are worthless to her, I will go. She can keep her special Toe groupies and fuck off.

I don’t think it has anything to do with you being gay, like I truly don’t. I don’t know why Taylor reblogged that post about “300 people know.” but I do agree it was messy, and I completely understand why you feel alienated. I guess for me, I don’t understand why she felt the need to tell the secret session attendees that the song is about her “heaven sent, angelic boyfriend of a year” (girl you are 27 years old, please stop) and instructed said attendees to “get” anyone who theorizes differently. It creates a superiority in a fandom that already has a MASSIVE problem with that.

For me, one of my favorite things about Taylor’s music (and all music/art really) is that it’s subjective and people can relate it to their own personal experiences in their lives. In my opinion, her so aggressively demanding that people spread the word that this and all other love songs on “Reputation” are about Joe kind of takes that away, because now it’s like “oh, I like girls, but I can’t think of this song in that context because that’s absolutely not what it’s about” or “I think Joe is cute at best, but he’s gorgeous and if I say other wise Imma get GOT.” People are ALWAYS going to tinhat and theorize that the songs are about other people (in this case Tom/Calvin/Karlie etc), but most people would’ve assumed it’s about Joe on their own, so I really don’t understand why she feels the need to push it so hard.

It’s only twelve in the morning but I’ve already got a lot on my chest because I feel like I have something to say.

I don’t think a lot of people understand how it feels to produce content in a fandom whether that be a writer, an artist, an editor and etc. I know that there are a lot of people who do have one or all of these skills under their belt. I just want people to know how extremely hard it is to post a creation of yours out there. It’s really scary and it takes a lot of courage. I’ve even spoken to people who have wonderful ideas but have refused to post them due to fear of response. Fandom is something that I’ve talked about a lot and that was one of the main topics of discussion I had with a really wonderful friend of mine yesterday.

I had received a negative comment on one of my fics. It was definitely surprising at first because I had been really excited about this chapter. It’s dark, it’s not filled with the usual fluff that I do and I put warnings so people could know and avoid it. But I guess someone didn’t like it anymore which is more than fine as not everyone’s going to like the direction your story takes or the whole thing together. The comment was basically them telling me how my fic was doing what they wanted it to do. I think they were expecting some kind of fast romance where everything moves in the fifth chapter and the main couple are kissing and having sex in the sixth.

It really hurt.

Honestly, it did.

And it doesn’t really help when your mind is very fragile and anything could break it.

It hurts when you put a lot of effort into something you really love and feel proud about and someone comes in and decides to bulldozer that down. In fact, I was contemplating on deleting that chapter all together because it wasn’t what they wanted.

You see the problem there?

I was, for a few seconds, actually thinking about taking down the chapter I wrote and was happy with because one person hated what I decided to do with my fic.

Listen.

I understand that some of people may feel the need to leave negative comments on a person’s fic or post or work but please don’t do that. The amount of questioning, doubt and hurt that a person goes through after that is really terrible. It can make a person want to or actually stop writing because that one person made them doubt their skill as a creator and made them feel like their work doesn’t matter if it’s not up to their standard.

Constructive criticism is fine as long as it’s done in a helpful way and not hate disguised as help. I know that a lot of people do that because they say they want to help. But that’s a double edged sword.

Of course being in a fandom and creating content is going to earn some negativity from people. People aren’t always going like what’s being created because they have strong views about a certain character, they don’t feel the same way you feel about a particular thing or they’re just dicks.

But it needs to be remembered, and this is so important, all those who produce content for fandom are people and they have feelings. They’re not robots who are here to do your bidding and create what you please. They have their own ideas and develop on those ideas which turns into the beautiful pieces of work that we continue to get from them for free. They don’t charge, they’re willing show us these creations because they’ve made them and want to share them with us. They’re proud of that work, have put hours into it planning and creating it, are happy to show it to the fandom because hey look, this is something I did and it’s pretty cool!

So don’t leave any form of negativity on someone’s work and don’t be that person who makes someone stop creating because they didn’t do something that you wanted them to do.

If you get the feeling:

  • Exit out of the work or close the tab. Block it and that creator if it’s bothers you that much.
  • Go talk about it with a friend so you can have somewhere to complain if a friend is up for that.

And if you don’t like the content that’s being made:

  • Find something that does have what you’re looking for.
  • Make your own content.

As I’ve said so many times before, stay in your lane and avoid things that you don’t like. Adding to this, don’t comment negatively and don’t be a dick

Tldr: Stop being negative on people’s work. If you don’t like then leave it alone and carry on with your day.

When I see HateTags in the ShipTags I'm Looking Through

I love Meihem and Gency but (like a lot of SJWs and ppl who don’t respect other opinions) there are people who tag the ship in with the hate. I don’t respond to them or anything, what I PERSONALLY think people should do is block that person so you don’t see their hate. Responding with equal amounts of hate or responding to them in general in any negative manner (unless in a civil matter, like asking why they hate the ship/posting in the tag for the ship), shows that they “won” and basically fuels them by saying that the fans of said ship is “toxic” and “intolerable of others” (hypocritical of them, I know). So basically, my advice is: 1. Block the intolerant jerks, let them cry because of someone having a straight ship in the OW fandom. (Seriously, they like to throw out “homophobe” like beads at Mardi Gras) 2. Just live life and continue loving your ship. Because that’s YOUR opinion and there’s many people who love and share the opinion with you. :) You’re not the only one who loves the ship, people who like to bash on the ship you enjoy usually try to make you feel like the 1%, when you’re not. 3. Anything is possible. There’s a lot of hate for Meihem, saying that Junkrat is abusive (or Mei, considering she’s a little mean in her banter with him), but there’s potential still to see an actual development in character and relationships. 4. Don’t bash on others for their own ships you disagree with. For example, I dislike Pharmacy, McHanzo, Reaper76, ZaryaMei (idk ships names). And a few others (I only have a few ships in the fandom xD), but I don’t dwell in those tags, make HateTags to put in them, or bash on others for liking them. I let them have their tags and don’t bother them in hopes of the same respect in return. Well that’s my views on the whole situation anyway, because the hatetags in some of the ships I like is out of control. :)) Thankfully not a lot of people are that immature, it’s just the very intolerant ones that have no logic behind their claims and just go off feelings (or spout words they probably don’t understand like “homophobic” or “cishet”) that grind my gears. Have a good day.❤️❤️❤️

Originally posted by luhbrazart


Originally posted by blizzekawaii-blog

In some way, I’m always put off how the fandom at large misinterprets the “No attachments” thing as “not allowed to make emotional connections, nor allowed to place importance or great value on someone or something in your life, or not allowed to feel or have things” or something to that effect.

In my understanding, it’s about not prioritizing these things above everyone else. It’s about letting things go in due course, accepting that all things and all people and all relationships and all emotions are temporary. Do not tie yourself to this one thing, do not pour yourself entirely into it. Yes, you can care, you can feel, you can have, but do not anchor yourself entirely to a possession or an emotional or a person or a relationship. That often is not healthy, and often it can destroy you. Let go when it is the time, understand all things end, understand that you are not your connection to this object or concept or person. Do not let it consume you to the point that you cannot go on without it. Something to that effect, it’s not coming out right.

Like, I get that the Jedi often misunderstand it themselves, but it frustrates me when the fandom seems to also. Because, how are you to understand the Jedi have lost the original meaning of it if you also misunderstand?

sipsofmymiind  asked:

han! hello! it's been a while! I've just finished watching seasons 1 & 2 of wynonna earp (mainly because you reblog it so much) AND I JUST SAW YOU'VE WRITTEN AND/OR RECOMMENDED FICS FOR IT? help me out here. where should I begin?

hey! you want fics? i got fics!

so if you only read one fic off of this list it should be this one:

it’s like i wrote every note with my own fingers [wayhaught, side wynhaught brotp, 46k, complete] by @piratekane.

it’s an 80s high school au; a beautiful tribute to the era, fantastic music choices throughout, gives me all the feelings, and even comes with its own mixtape. it’s probably my favourite fic in any fandom ever ever ever. it also has a series of ever expanding one-shots you can find here by @piratekane and @iamthegaysmurf. i’m really lucky that i’ve become friends with both of them, so now i live text my breakdown whenever there’s an update. their favourite is my regular freakout about nicole’s clothes. you’ll understand when you read it. rolled sleeves and cuffed jeans are v important. pls come suffer with me.

as for other recs:

reckless [2k one-shot. nicole centric. complete]

a short and sweet one-shot centred on nicole featuring good dad nedley.


The Storm is Raging Against Us Now (We’re Walking the Wire, Love) by @ainewrites [wayhaught, waverly centric, 9k, complete]

waverly fill in the backstory one-shot. just beautiful writing; it’ll make you feel all the feels.


Icarus is Flying (Too Close to the Sun) by @iamthegaysmurf [wayhaught, 5k, complete]

i honestly can’t sum this up better than the description smurf gave it on ao3: “There are many things about Waverly Earp’s mouth that Nicole loves. But sometimes it gets her into trouble.” Waverly and Nicole play pool. One of them maybe hustles the other.


I’ll spread my wings (and I’ll learn how to fly) by @jillianholtzsmann [wayhaught, 40k, complete]

a fic seemingly created to appeal to my very specific interests, au in which waverly is a history phd and searching police stations for archival material about wyatt earp. nicole is working in one of the archives, at a station across the country, and responds to her email enquiry. featuring rosita and jeremy as waverly’s phd college buddies. probably the only thing in the world that has ever made me miss being in grad school.


i wish you’d live like you’re made of glass by @piratekane [wayhaught, 91k, complete]

retelling of s1. nicole gets visions of the future she’s not supposed to change. enter waverly earp. who she keeps seeing die. ruh roh.


whenever, wherever [wayhaught, 6k, complete]

Nicole keeps seeing Wynonna and Waverly’s younger selves and helps them as best she can. this fic is one of those ones that just absolutely kicks you in the heart, but in a good way. 


Stop Making Eyes At Me (But I Don’t Really Want You To) by @iamthegaysmurf and @youreagoodliar [wayhaught, 30k, complete]

softball college au. waverly and nicole play on rival softball teams. rivals to lovers all over the place. being british, i didn’t understand half the softball references but damn if i don’t love this fic.


soaring still above your head by @belikebumblebee [wayhaught, 5k, complete]

honestly the thing i just want to say about this is that it’s absolutely gorgeous. the mood of it just sunk into my bones and i love it. it’s such a huge story in so few words. i was emotionally compromised.


since you did ask if i’ve written any myself, i currently have one fic here: if we never take the first step [wayhaught, side wynhaught brotp, 8k] five times waverly doesn’t say i love you and one time she does. i’m currently working on a longer multi-chapter fic but i wanna finish before i start posting so that’s coming soon! it’s currently at like 27k and counting though so it might be a monster when it’s done.

I’m so happy Lili is sharing her poetry with us, because she’s a wonderful writer and her words are absolutely beautiful. She has clearly been feeling very happy and very loved for one reason or another and, naturally, that’s amazing for us to see as a fandom who care so much about her.

However, please try not to read too much into her poems and most definitely never address her directly with what you assume she must be writing about.

As a poet myself, it is one of my biggest fears that people will over-analyse my words and look for a meaning that I feel belongs only to me. And Lili has clearly expressed these fears, too. I, personally, don’t believe poetry is written to be picked apart and analysed.

Just a general thought, as I completely understand how daunting it can be, let alone when you have such a huge audience as Lili does. Again, I’m so happy she feels she can now start to share something as raw and personal as a poem with all of us & I really hope she feels she can continue to do so 💖