no motivation to do my hw


My first attempt at trying to draw an actual background/room/thing that has furniture inside.

psssst dirty laundry

Down 5.5 pounds!

Since Christmas Eve? I think that’s the last time I weighed myself. Not bad for all of the holiday shenanigans that went on between then and now!

I finally feel like I’m back in a good routine after moving and starting a new job Jan 3rd. Having my own apartment and kitchen is THE BEST!

HW: 225 lbs.

CW: 190 lbs.

Total lost overall: 35 lbs.

Goal weight 1: 195 lbs.

Goal weight 2: 190 lbs.

Goal weight 3: 185 lbs. (5 lbs. away)

Goal weight 4: 180 lbs. (10 lbs. away)

Goal weight 5: 175 lbs. (15 lbs. away)

Goal weight 6: 170 lbs (20 lbs. away)

Goal weight 7: 165 lbs. (25 lbs. away)

Goal weight 8: 160 lbs. (30 lbs. away)

Goal weight 9: 155 lbs. (35 lbs. away)

Goal weight 10: 150 lbs. (40 lbs. away)

I’m getting a CHIN! 🤗 Can you see a difference? Let me know if you do; because sometimes I see it, but most times I don’t!

I used to read people posting about how they can’t see a difference, and I’d say “Are you crazy? Of course there’s a difference!” But now I totally get what they meant. 12 weeks. 3 months of eating clean and working out. IM PROUD OF MYSELF

HW: 96 kg
SW: 90.6kg
CW: 81 kg? (Too scared to step on the scale. Haven’t checked my weight since two weeks. Last I checked I was 81.7 kg)

I need to keep this going because my amazing personality could use a banging body 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥better keep this going.


with-happiness-lies-confidence submitted: 

 Hw: 205+- lbs
Sw: 195 lbs
Cw: 155 lbs
Gw: 115-130 lbs

It’s been a little while since I last posted on here, but I finally lost another 10lbs since my last update! I kept falling off track, it gets hard sometimes trying to eat healthy all of the time. Especially when you start craving sweets lol. But I have been doing good for a little while now, so hopefully I can stay on track better this time around!!😊

See more Before and After weight loss pictures  or  SUBMIT yours.

March 3, 2017
wow that dream.
broOoOoOoO i’m disappointed in myself. i accidentally ate meat UGH jahn pls.
i went through my email and deleted a lot to make room in my phone. i mean, i still have a lot, but i don’t like that fact that i used more than half already.
picked up the sib and laila. when aren’t my dad and tito marlou together?
i’m surprised i was actually motivated to do work lol. i finished reading and now i just have to do chem and stat work online.
rough night, but at least i had sushi. when am i not craving japanese food? fricking love ramen and sushi.
watched bob’s burgers when i really should’ve done chem hw but oh whale.
talked to omaid and he talked about how char and i are nothing alike. he called me “the super nice angel sibling” LOL
it’s hard to fall asleep since i use youtube to help me, but i gave it up for lent.


30.6.16, 18:41 // day 29 out of 100 days of productivity

I mean I shouldn’t rly be posting rn instead of doing work but eh

• did pressure groups 3 sheet today in the frees where my teacher wasn’t here
• (mostly) packed for tmr
• half of my Russian history homework in the lesson today

need to do:
• rest of Russian history hw
• research 1983 general election (n maybe 87 too idk)
• personal statement webinar @ 8 tonight

tmr me n my dad are off to Vienna for the European cheerleading championships!!!! I’m so hella excited BC I’ve never been to Vienna but I rly hope they don’t put me on the floor if someone gets injured (I’m a reserve ATM) cos I can’t deal w that pressure. I just hope no gets injured BASC.

we will be leaving quite early in the morning but we still kinda need to plan lmao. I probs won’t be getting that much work done over there cos u know I don’t wanna lug all my stuff there n I probs won’t get time.

here’s my bujo spread for (the first half) of this week, with the weekend + Friday on a different page!! I put a packing list because is normally always on my phone but now I can write it down n stuff!!

I will be journaling/logging what we’re doing over there so stay tuned to see what we get up to (when we’re not at the competition)!

happy studying and productive days! XXX


5th April // 9:45 AM

Things to do by 11 PM:

1. Put up the April calendar
2. Cross of three boxes in Maths
3. Clear all hw tidbits
4. Make a list of academic goals
5. Have no regrets about my day


1. Put up the April calendar.
2. Cross of three boxes in Maths. (Probably more than three?)
3. Clear all hw tidbits. (A little bit left)
4. Make a list of academic goals. Done.
5. Have no regrets about my day. Hell YEAH. Today was one of those good days. :)

Its exactly 11:01 PM here. I think I should probably do this more often?  

About Me // FAQ

Starting a FAQ that I can update as I go 🌸

HW: 159
SW: 145
GW1: 137
GW2: 130
GW3: 123
UGW: 115

Height: 5'4"

“Do you do meanspo?”
NO, I don’t do meanspo. There are plenty of blogs out there who do meanspo, and I admit I follow some. However, I noticed I responded better to being built up rather than “guilted” up. Meanspo makes me lose motivation. So it’s my hope that being sweet and encouraging, I will teach myself and others how to naturally talk myself/ourselves up to keep going, so that we can be satisfied with our goals instead of pushing into dangerous territory fueled by self-doubt and self-hatred.

“Do you hate meanspo? It works for me!”
NO, I don’t hate meanspo. Sometimes we need a kick in the can to keep going. I get that. I’m just trying to spread more positivity. Again, if you’d like meanspo, there are tons of great blogs for it.

“Can you help me starve myself? Can you make me a diet plan? Can you-”
NO, I will not teach you to starve. If you ask for a meal plan, prepare to hear that you need between 1000 and 1200 calories taken in, per day. Prepare to hear that you should NEVER skip breakfast.

“Why do you only post ‘ana’ in the tags? That’s not the full word.”
The full word is triggering, to me. I don’t mind others saying it for affirmation or when seeking help, but I don’t like it for myself.

“You post lots of thinspo, how do I find the sweetspo?”
All of my sweetspo is tagged “#sweetspo”

I have been doing this thing lately where I motivate myself more and have been noticing a bit of change in me. I still sometimes feel a bit self-conscious about my body because I’m a bit chunky and sometimes I don’t care. I’m embracing my body a bit more. I tell myself positive things and always try and push myself to do better. Perfect example, I would lay down on my bed knowing I had a whole bunch of hw and say “5 mins” but that would turn into hours. Now I don’t even lay down I just get home straight from school and do hw, give myself a short break and keep doing hw. I’m proud of myself. I also notice that I’ve been getting ready more often, doing my hair and make-up which I haven’t done for a while now. But I feel more cute and I feel more happy. I just need to keep motivating myself.

so i recently tried to establish the first time i began to show significant signs of depression and i realized it was when i was 13. at 13 i was thinking shit like “wouldn’t it be nice if i just stopped existing for a few hours” and i would have moments while doing hw where i would lose all motivation and question what would happen if i never did anything ever again. and my parents used to complain that i would sleep in til 1pm every weekend but looking back i think that was also a sign of depression?? like fuck my dudes ive been dealing with this shit for nearly ten years, and i somehow survived the first 6.5 years without any medication?? how the hell

i recognize that my depression sky-rocketed once i got into college, probably due to the major increase in stress, but still. goddamn.