no more no more need sleep

thoughts 25.2.17

  • man I’m in a really good place right now; things are really coming together
  • really need to prioritise sleep more
  • I want someone to cuddle 
  • haven’t got to really practice my handstands in a week, that’s poor!
  • it’s weird, but I really was considering taking a more permanent job over travelling, I’m not even sure how I feel about that now
  • did any of my emails go through the other day because I’m stressed that I haven’t gotten a response about the uni interview
  • it’s funnily I really didn’t think I was that into the ocean, but only now do I realise that was because I hadn’t & wasn’t going to the beach much if it all so hadn’t even remembered how it made me feel or the connection I had with it
  • desperately want to fit in time to get a piercing tomorrow but just unsure where, how & transport
  • it’s funny to think that I’m actually thinking more seriously about tattoos which was never something I ever though would happen
  • I really want to meet new people
  • how am I so busy, but also not ?
  • man I’m behind in WholeSim posts, but hopefully will get that all sorted tomorrow 
  • I’ve been making some bomb ass food lately & just been really good with trying new things & not overeating as much & just feeling proud man
  • I’m really proud of who I am, who I’ve become & I’ve just genuinely found self-love (without trying to sound to narcissistic)
  • my creative juices have definitely been going off lately
  • I love my co-workers
  • I love fashion
  • geez I really need to sell those clothes so bad
  • keen to re-design downstairs
  • this earth is so beautiful
  • half of me absolutely loves working, but the other half of me is just dying to be adventuring 24/7; to be in the air or on the road & just have no plans, meet new people, have fun with friends & just live in the moment
  • man I wish I had more time though, by the time I”ve gone to work, gone to the beach & had dinner it is already sleep time 

gotta go & catch up on my journalling before it’s too late to remember what has happened over these last few days! xxxx

anonymous asked:

im 18 5 feet tall and 122 but I need to be down to 90 by June help pls

That is a huge jump! Like i say to everyone else.
Get atleast 8 hours of sleep wach night, don’t go to bed unless it’s been 2 hours since you’ve last eaten. I work out more calories than I’ve eaten and fast 24 hours a few times a week. I also try to stay under 500 calories. Cut out any carbonated drinks (sodas), no more juice unless you squeeze it yourself. Only water, tea and coffee (try to drink decaf on an empty tummy). Try to cut out carbs as much as possible (its okay to have some). Try to eat fruits and veggies as breakfast and if you need a snack. Stick to turkey as a low calorie meat! That’s pretty much what i do

just know that I’m only 16 years old and not certified, im just going off my own experiences

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

Hey guys, have we cried over episode 9 of Yuri on Ice enough yet?

I think not!

Let’s talk about that airport scene (my precious, beloved airport scene).

It’s beautiful and tear-jerking on its own.

But how about we remember that Yuuri said that he will retire after this year’s Grand Prix Final?

Let’s look at that scene from that angle.

What he’s saying here is basically “Please stay with me, please take care of me for these last few weeks before everything is over.”

And this line, this line especially sounds melancholic. As though Victor is saying “I wish I could stay with you longer but we both know that we can only stay together until the Grand Prix Final. I wish we had more time. If only this didn’t have to end so soon…”

And Yuuri knows that’s exactly what he means. He wishes it would be a promise that they’ll stay together forever, but really, it’s only a reminder that what they have is temporary, that even though they wish it would last longer, it won’t. That everything between them will end, and will end soon.

It’s no wonder there are tears in his eyes.

And of course, we can imagine that Yuuri’s plans can change, that he will compete again next year, or that Victor will stay by his side not as his coach, but as something more.

But they don’t know that yet.

They’re clinging to each other for dear life because, for all they know, this is all the time they’re going to get.

They want to make the most of it while it lasts.

a visual representation of my inauguration day anxiety