no matter what i'm sure about that

“This card is asking you to put your focus on your heart’s desire, and being completely honest with yourself in what it is that you would like to bring forth in your life.” 

My health (stomach) is acting up again and I did myself a reading regarding the matter. Cards spoke about desire, like stated above, and I’m feeling it’s something VERY important. But I can’t figure out (yet) what it is. What do I HONESTLY want. I feel like its on the tip of my tongue. It’s both exciting and also kind of like “when you figure this out, life kicks in in a completely different way; much stronger and more positive”

Sure, I have lots of plans and dreams, but I feel this is something I haven’t noticed yet. I definitely need to meditate upon this and let the answer come. I know it will be very good one!

Shout out to everyone who is trans/nonbinary/questioning their gender and identifies as ace and/or aro - spec but aren’t sure if they are actually ace and/or aro or if it just dysphoria acting up.

You are valid in using the ace or aro labels. If you find out later it was dysphoria or something else that made you identify as ace or aro and you want to change labels, then that’s completely ok and great!! And if you always identify as ace or aro, that is also completely ok and great!! I love you all and I wish you all the best!~

When Alec lets out that heavy breath and shakes his head after saying “I don’t care how many people you’ve been with.” What’s being left unsaid, but communicated loud and clear is:

“I want you anyway.”

“I want you more than that matters.”

“All I care about is how I feel with you. Right now.”

“And I’m willing to fight for you.”

Alec has always been more physical in his expression, using body language and actions to speak for him when his words fail. The beauty of this simple action is that Magnus got ALL of this. Loud and clear. And Alec pours all of that and more into another physical action. A kiss.

After Alec says “I hear relationships, they take effort,” Magnus’s smile says he knows what Alec means is:

“I’m here to stay.”

“You are what I want.”

“And I’m willing to fight for you.”

Magnus’s reply of “I’m all for effort.” Is the last piece Alec needs, to know that Magnus is right there with him.

“I’m here, now, with you.”

“I know you feel what I feel.”

“And I’m willing to fight for us.”


i’ve been formulating this……..concept

that may or may not get written

it doesn’t matter, what DOES matter is this minor concept that has become a spin-off of the main one and i HAVE to share:

in this au, soulmates can feel each other’s emotions constantly - it’s like an automatic connection, one that’s on all the time, no matter how far away you are from your soulmate

so jake and amy are soulmates (obviously) and have found each other (obviously) and it’s all peachy

and then he gets sent to florida

(they’re not married - she’s not allowed to go, for all WITSEC knows they’re lying about being soulmates and the risk is too great)

so for six months, amy can feel the full depth of jake’s depression

and for six months, jake can feel every ounce of amy’s heartache

and when the moment comes that they’re reunited, the awkwardness stems from the fact that they’re both so jittery with nerves that they can’t quite seem to function around it all

the moment that amy finds figgis with a gun pressed to jake’s temple and she’s looking into jake’s eyes, all she can feel is this overwhelming, open sense of trust (with just the tiniest hint of dread - he knows it’s gonna hurt)

she finds him in the back of his ambulance and once she’s told him that the police chief is okay, she kind of trails off

they’re both grinning at each other - there’s still a ghost of an ache, the wound of six months spent apart slow-healing - but when amy tentatively steps into his space, he feels like his whole body is opening up to her

and he can feel hers doing the same for him

and the kiss is - well, it would be enough to knock him off his feet if he were standing; he feels the sparks of electricity running through his body and the sudden heedy relief that originates in amy and it’s no surprise to anyone that they both start crying in the middle of the kiss

(and later when he’s on painkillers, it’s all kind of diluted in the haze, but he can feel her affection settling over him like a warm blanket and he loves her all the more for it. all she can feel is this dopey, dizzy kind of adoration that makes her head spin, and it’s all she can do not to squeeze him to death in relief)

anyways i’m


My Day, in Summation

8:00AM: Get cocky that I was ready 30 mins before my dad was going to take me to the airport, contemplate a nap

8:03AM: Decide to check my flight first…it’s canceled.

8:10AM: Confirm a new flight…instead of taking a single, hour-long direct flight, I am now going to take three 90 minute flights to get there instead.

9:00AM: Dad comes to take me to the airport

9:30AM: Arrive at airport; receive word that my jumbo flight has been canceled as well.

9:35AM: Find out that literally all flights into Boston have been canceled. The earliest they could get me on a flight to Boston would be 7PM TOMORROW. I take the next best bet and switch to an 8:45AM flight the next day to Providence, to then take a train to Boston.

9:37AM: Realize that’s a dumb plan; Dad turns around and picks me back up from the airport and I just book a train from home to Boston for today.

12:46PM: The time my original flight was supposed to arrive, just for context.

1:35PM: The time my train was supposed to leave.

2:12PM: The time my train actually left.

8:12PM: The time my train was supposed to arrive.

10:27PM: The time my train actually arrived.

10:34PM: The time I realize there are no cabs at all and I’m going to have to order a Lyft and I was the dumbass who walked outside without gloves and my fingers are frozen solid within minutes.

10:43PM: The time my buddy Christian arrives in his Lyft (which was confusing af bc all cars look the same in the snow) and I get into a luxuriously heated car, however, my fingers are so numb I literally can’t tell if I buckled my seatbelt or not.

10:48PM: The time I arrive at the hotel and the heavenly angels sing.

11:02PM: The time I get to my room, then realize food service stopped at 11, so I guess it’s just some packs of almonds for me

All I can say is Randy, I s2g, you better give the best performance of your young gd life.

Going to continue trying to warm up my toesies before drowning myself in the shower.

I did a Thing today
There’s a free creative writing group at my local library and I actually… went to it… on my own… There were about 10 people with an average age of 65 (possibly 70), mostly women, and each week someone puts forward a theme and everyone has half an hour to write something related to the theme and then reads it out to everyone, and they comment on it. The theme was ‘going on a journey’, which I duly forgot about, and after about 10 minutes of staring at the paper thinking ‘oh god what am I doing here’ I finally thought of a starting sentence. I wrote about an eight y/o boy called Theo who is at the beach with his older brother and finds a stray kitten. I didn’t actually get to the kitten part. But I wrote about a page and shakily read it out (quite badly, because a great deal was messily crossed out) and they seemed quite impressed haha. Most of the other people wrote anecdotes about their train journeys… They were more fluent/confident writers than me but their writings were more like diary entries than fiction. But the people were all really nice, anyway. The organiser said I wrote well, and the lady next to me liked my descriptions. Others were very complimentary. An old seacaptain-like man with a soft Northern Irish accent sat opposite me, and told us about the time he was away in France and went to a patisserie and the lady behind the counter was so pretty he forgot all the French he had learned and stumbled back out of the shop without buying anything. There was a woman with Alice in Wonderland syndrome who has a fear of travelling on the tube on her own in case she has an episode. I remember these things because I relate to them, to some extent. In short: woo I left the house and did a really scary thing which doesn’t seem like a big deal really but reading out a story that I wrote in 20 minutes without editing it to a group of strangers is……. An Awful Lot for me

It’s weird when your friends die, because they don’t stop being you friend

They’re always going to be you friend, they’re just not around anymore, and it becomes your job to make sure people don’t forget them

Never forget the way they smiled and laughed, how they brightened a room just by walking in, how everything they did was to help those they cared about

These are the things that matter, what they deserve to be remembered as, because being remembered is all we can hope for after we’re gone

I still miss you, but I don’t want to forget you ever, and I don’t want anyone else to either. You remain alive in our memories and the ghosts you left in the machines. You are still here in pixels and data, your words and creations are preserved through wires and WiFi

A living memorial to everything you loved, and everything you meant to us

It doesn’t make the pain go away, but it is comforting

drawn-to-space  asked:

For another input on the matter, but more serious: This type of thing is reccurent for me. like, my family is filled with very affectionate people constantly checking up on me because... y'know... and it can be draining sometimes! so i DO have times that i just need some space and tell them to leave me alone, which is not often. they probably felt the same was as Sans did but, dissapearing kinda makes things worse... it makes YOU feel like the bad guy, even though no one is really at fault :/

Yep, exactly. And it wasn’t like Papyrus screamed at him to gtfo, he politely asked to be left alone for a bit. Normal thing. No reason for Sans to react badly.


do you ever think about harry and louis’ routine when they’re apart like…they would be texting as much as they can, probably leaving voice messages on whatsapp when they know the other is going to be tied up for a few hours…they make sure to say goodnight and good morning to one another without fail no matter what the time difference…they probably set skype or facetime dates and stick to that time and sometimes they have long conversations and sometimes it gets dirty and sometimes they watch a movie or cook together…they share weird memes and random news events and they bring friends and family members into the conversation occasionally when they can…and they’re strong individuals who can spend time apart but they have a count down to when they will be reunited again anyway



“Any job that I care about when I first start it is just a tremendous amount of stress. Because you’re not sure you can do it. If it’s a job that I’m like "oh yeah, I would totally rock that”, I don’t really want it. I have to be afraid that I’m gonna mess it up. If you’re not challenged. If you’re not afraid to fail, then you’re not really pushing yourself.“

okay no. Do you know what one of the most annoying things about cc is?

the fact that she claims that malec is really important to her. Like where is the proof? certainly not in her books that’s for damn sure.

she made their whole story revolve around each other. She didn’t add any defining qualities to Alec other than the fact he’s gay and an archer. She didn’t really care much about him being an archer either for that matter considering she had Simon outdo him.

also, near enough all of their story was written off the page. Their first kiss wasn’t in the main books, she wrote that later after she saw how popular the ship and characters were and wanted to use that to get fans to like her again. she’s doing the exact same thing with writing their first time and trying to get involved in the show.

She didn’t even write Alec coming out in his point of view like wtf? that was obviously a big moment for him and we didn’t even hear his thoughts on it or magnus’ for that matter. Did we see how his confrontation with his parents about his sexuality and relationship went? Nope. But at first we all thought ‘you know that’s fine, we’ll get to see their relationship in the next book’.

Except oh wait, we didn’t because she shipped them off on a vacation for the most of the book and only brought them back so she could create drama.

then she had them have all this angst and then break up and they didn’t even talk to each other for ages. then we got a paragraph about Alec setting ground rules before they got back into their relationship. what happened to the Magnus ‘looking in the book of white to take his immortality away’ story? abandoned because God forbid these characters actually get a happy ending.

So excuse me for not believing her when she says that malec are super important to her and she wants to write them well because I don’t see any proof of this. None at all. Nada.

Y’all remember these lyrics from The Little Mermaid’s “Under the Sea” right? Well here’s my question to all of you. How do creatures that live exclusively in the sea know about lakes? How do they know about what life for humans ON LAND is like?

Or FISH on land for that matter??

Wouldn’t any captured fish never be heard from again? Wouldn’t the fish need eyes both on land and in the air to even know about the existence of fishbowls or lakes?

This could only make sense if the fish had some kind of system for gathering intel…

A…FINformation network if you will…

on the topic of offensive jokes

you have every right to be offended. sure. I don’t deny that. context matters, though. it’s human nature to judge ourselves by our intentions and others by their actions, so try to think of intentions when it comes to this bc honestly it helps. the person making the edgy™ statement did not mean it the way you interpreted it. 

so voice your concern to them & watch them reply “humour is subjective but i’m sorry if i offended you bc I didn’t mean to do that.”

having anxiety is horrible
having depression is horrible
having an eating disorder is horrible
but what definitely fucking annoys me the most is having borderline personality disorder
The fact that I will never be able to think like a healthy human being makes me so mad
No matter how many therapies I undergo, no matter what medication I take, I will always struggle with bpd and that makes me incredibly angry and sad at the same time


today my 15 yr old sister was sent to the office bc apparently, what she was wearing was inappropriate. she literally has NO SKIN showing and was dress coded. bc leggings are inappropriate??? she even took the extra measure and made sure to wear a long shirt that covered her butt but the outfit was still deemed inappropriate. they wouldn’t even let her walk about thirty feet to the cafeteria to get her books.

the principal even told my sister that “girls really love to push the limit” with the dress code. no, girls want to be able to wear what they want and no be sexualized for it and robbed of precious class time bc some boys are gonna get horny over legs.

//this has been a rant.


“I love how he’s such a complex character. He’s not just about looks or talent which people seem to mistake. I wish some people would take the time to think and actually understand him.”

Bayonetta   {Sentence Starters} 

  • “Rise my child! Rise to realize your true potential!”
  • “You know, I still don’t get why the hell you drag me out here for these things.”
  • “Don’t worry about quality. I’ve got quantity!”
  • “Those assholes sure know how to get attention.”
  • “Let’s go! Just stay close to me!”
  • “What’s the matter sweetie? Afraid of something, are you?”
  • “As long as there’s music, I’ll keep on dancing.”
  • “I’ll always see to it no harm comes to you.”
  • “But you’ll have to forgive me, do we know each other?”
  • “Hey! I’m not dead yet!”
  • “You only run away so fast because you’ve got something to run from.”
  • “Out to find some answers about your past, are we?”
  • “You again? And here I thought I’d seen the last of you.”
  • “Just a child? What are you doing running around?”
  • “You’re much too ugly not to put out of your misery.”
  • “Damn it! Who did that!? I just bought the damn thing!”
  • “If you get in my way, I will, how do the Americans put it? Oh yes. Bust a cap in yo’ ass.”
  • “I’m sure you will be more than hospitable to me this time around.“
  • “We both know you came here for something.”
  • “You have any idea how much this is going to cost to fix!?”
  • “This is a waste of my time. You’re still not ready.“
  • “Yours is a face only a mother could love, and one I could never forget.”
  • “Whoa! Whoa! You’re getting the wrong idea.”
  • “You’ve been cheating on me, haven’t you? Someone else caught your eye?”
  • “Do I look like I have any interest in children?”
  • “I’ll hazard a guess this isn’t your home, so what on earth are you doing here?” 
  • “I told you there was nothing to worry about!”
  • “You’ve got to be a strong little one to survive in a place like this. “
  • “You’re really not going to like what comes next. I hope you know that.”
  • “Holy crap! For fuck’s sake, that’s overdoing it!”
  • “Monsters? I don’t think you know who the real monsters are.”
  • “ It’s a celebration, bitches.”
  • “You want to touch me?”
  • “ I should have been a pole dancer!”
  • “Right! Turn Right! Get off the road!”
  • “You think you’ve got me figured out, don’t you?”
  • “Do you have anything you really like? Something really important to you?”
  • “You here for business or pleasure? Either way, I’ll hook you up.”