no love lust

  • me: yeah if i lived in the renaissance i’d seduce the king and establish myself at court and make powerful alliances and have myself made consort and rule with grace and strength
  • me, in 2017: i did 1/15th of my assignment. time to sleep for 48 hours.
I had to let us go. Not only for me but for your sake. I didn’t want to be around, constantly reminding you of what could’ve and what would’ve been.
I know what i have to offer and i know that i just might have been the best thing that you ever got to call ‘yours’. But you just weren’t ready.
So i had to let us go.
—  September 26, 2017
11:15 PM

my love,

I want you so much.
I don’t want to hold you in my arms,
I want us to hold each other because we’ve always been equal like that.

I want to complain about your coconut oil hair,
but I secretly love it.
I want to feel love leave my eyes, lost and lonesome until it reaches yours.
I want a dead arm from you lying on me,
but I’d rather die than move.

I want to be cold,
I want you to complain but you’ll warm me up anyway.
I want to hold your hand all night,
Intertwining fingers like we locked our love and clipped it to a bridge.

I want your freshly-brushed teeth to push breaths of air onto my face, making me wear your love like a mask for everyone to see.
I want to kiss the tip of your nose,
So that you know I love you like you’re my childhood best friend,
But I also want to kiss you for the truth,
That I’ve been waiting years to love you like I do.

I want a lot of things,
But I want you the most.