no i don't have actual work to be doing why do you ask

anonymous asked:

Do you even do anything at work? You're always on tumblr.

If you do everything you’re supposed to do in three days because your anxiety makes you feel like a two week deadline is actually due in five hours so you work through the night for no real reason other than your anxiety making you think that you have to get this done Now which gives you nothing to do when you’re actually at work then you too will be on tumblr during office hours. Plus like. I work fast.

doodley  asked:

29??!! (also aren't u updating htmf today?)

I’m gonna update tomorrow night bc I was too slow today r i p!!

29. Do you have a beta reader? Why/Why not?

I don’t!! Okay this is going to sound horrible but,,, I generally don’t work well with other people?? So I prefer to fly solo but I can definitely see the perks of having a beta reader, and I probably do need one hahaha

ask me fic questions !

Please don’t post my drawings on instagram

At least not without telling me/giving me credit. The least you could do is write my tumblr name in the description! People don’t seem to respect artists enough to actually acknowledge them and spread their work in a positive way. It makes me anxious to see my work uncredited like that and I ask you to please stop ;o; I know that fanart is a risky “business” and many handle it very poorly but I would think that people actually had respect for the artists who put time and effort into creating content for our community and enjoyment. I don’t only see my own work but my friends’ too! So I ask you to please give credit, make artists visible, or don’t post the drawings at all

Let’s talk about Jerza

While I am a Jerza fan, I do acknowledge that their relationship wouldn’t fly in real life (or maybe it would, since he would have never been magically brainwashed in real life). Still, Erza is fully aware that Jellal was not fully in control of his actions at the Tower. In real life, this could be paralleled to drug or alcohol abuse, but those are conscious decisions. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I don’t remember Jellal asking Ultear to brainwash him. On top of that, Jellal is a fugitive. A relationship between the two of them would be extremely stressful, and both of them know it. Jellal knew that it wouldn’t work, and he took responsibility. In addition, while Jellal has caused Erza a lot of emotional pain, she was strong enough to understand and move on. He wasn’t. Jellal has constantly tortured himself over the things he was brainwashed into doing, and has developed an extremely unhealthy guilt complex. He constantly puts himself at risk when he shouldn’t or when there are better options, because he sees no value to his own life. He doesn’t want to die solely because Erza told him not to. Until very recently, the only thing keeping him from killing himself was her, and even now he doesn’t always make the best choices. He challenged four extremely powerful wizards to a fight, and, while he was able to win, he was temporarily blinded. In his line of work, that’s pretty goddamn dangerous. In the fight against the mini dragons, Jellal states that he and Erza can accomplish anything if they work together. Since they’re both absurdly powerful, this is probably true. However, by himself, he loses confidence. The battle with the dragons is the first time post-insanity when he takes initiative in a real fight. While battling Jura, he also lost confidence and decided to use magic that he knew would give away his identity, forcing Merudy and Ultear to cause him to lose. If he’d just gone for a tie, he likely would’ve managed it. He’s slowly gained confidence over the series, but he still values pretty much everyone over himself. This makes him very sensitive and empathetic, but it also makes him reckless. He wants to make amends for what he’s done, but he also clearly stills holds onto the belief that he deserves to die, if only a little. He puts up no fight against Erza when they are reunited after seven years, even offering to let her kill him, and he does very little to communicate with Millianna - Ultear stepped in because she knew Jellal wasn’t going to pin the blame on anyone but himself, even though he knows that it was really her fault. The biggest obstacle in the Jerza relationship is Jellal’s guilt complex and inability to value his own life. Erza knows that Jellal isn’t ready to be in a relationship, and she’s willing to want for him. Jellal needs some serious therapy, and then maybe they can get together.

Margaret was only seven when she was first stung. It was the only time she could remember being in a hospital. Her entire face was swollen, and she was having trouble breathing. She woke up a day later in the hospital, and since that day she had been afraid of bees. 

Margaret was a junior in college the second time she was stung. She was walking alone in the park on a warm summer’s morning. She leaned down to look at a lone rose along the side of the path, pulling up the camera app on her phone. While she was taking pictures, a small honey bee crawled up over the rim of the rose. Startled, she took a step back, but quickly regained her senses and went back to taking pictures as the bee took off. She moved to another set of flowers, a small collection of orchids. She was bothered by a small itch on her neck, which she quickly scratched, returning to her work. The itch reappeared, this time directly underneath her right ear. She swatted at it. A small but angry buzz responded. Realizing what she had done, she made a dash for her car. Not before making it 20 feet, a hot pain, not unlike a doctor’s needle plunged into her shoulder blade. Halfway to her car, her breath became short, and difficult. She started wheezing, and she could feel her throat closing up. She dials 91- but was interrupted by the taste of mud, and the hard ground against her face. She is too tired to get up. She finishes dialing, and passes out. 

A small honey bee floats gently to the ground, settling into it’s final resting place, most of it’s abdomen missing. 4 minutes pass. A paramedic’s shoe crushes the bee’s small body.