no eating for a week

Officially moved in with my s/o now, which is why you may have noticed me ghosting a few times earlier today. I’m tired as hell from moving all my junk, so I’ll respond to messages and tags tomorrow. Also I’m free almost all of tomorrow, so imma do my best to get at least SOMETHING published on my writing blog.

indiepunkloser  asked:

I think i'm asking a little early, I forgot the date but I just wanted to know if your surgery went well? I figure you'll make a post about it but I just wanted to know if you're doing okay. Anyways if this is pre-op good luck and if it's post op I hope things went well. much love I hope you get back to full health soon!!!

Tomorrow will be a week exactly since I went into surgery. The surgery finished almost an hour early, roughly 4 hours total. I lost almost a litre of blood but I didn’t need any blood transfusions, thank God. The tumor was also bigger than I thought it was, a bit bigger than my actual kidney. 

The first day was very rough; they tried to make me walk and I blacked out and threw up. The second day I was unable to urinate on my own for 6+ hours so I was stuck on a catheter for 2 days. Luckily by Sunday I was able to go on my own. They allowed me to go home on Sunday afternoon, but after removing my drainage tube from my side I got a fever that night of 101.5 degrees and couldn’t move/breathe well. There was fluid in my lungs too, but I think I fended off pneumonia for the most part by practicing the spiromiter thing. I was told to call the hospital if I had a fever or anything but I chose to sleep and drink water instead. My fever went away a couple days ago.

I can’t sleep long hours and still am in constant pain. My parents bought me a walker to walk to the bathroom when I need to, and I went to the hospital today to see my surgeon. He is giving me more pain meds and muscle relaxers to help me sleep at night. Luckily he told me the tumor was tested and wasn’t cancerous, though since I’m so young there’s a chance I’ll develop one on my liver or my kidney again in my lifetime. For now I’m not going to worry about it.

Thank you guys for all the prayers and kind thoughts. They helped a lot while I was in the hospital, and still help as I’m continuing to recover. Hopefully in a week I can move and get up by myself. For now I’m playing it by ear.

An Emo (Pop Punk) Christmas

Just a compiled lists of christmas songs/covers:

All I Want For Christmas Is You - My Chemical Romance

Every Snowflake Is Different (Just Like You) - My Chemical Romance

Merry Christmas Kiss My Ass - All Time Low

Fool’s Holiday - All Time Low

White Christmas - Panic! At The Disco

Sickly Sweet Holidays - Dallon Weekes    (Bonus ft:Amelie Weekes)

Christmas Drag - Dallon Weekes

Don’t Jump (It’s Christmas) - Dallon Weekes

Yule Shoot Your Eye Out - Fall Out Boy

What’s This? - Fall Out Boy

Christmas Time Is Here(Live) - Fall Out Boy

Nothing For Christmas - New Found Glory

Ex-Miss - New Found Glory

This Christmas - The Summer Set

Christmas Lights - Yellowcard

I Don’t Wanna Spend Another Christmas Without You - The Ready Set

I Won’t Be Home For Christmas - Blink-182

Happy Holidays, You Bastards - Blink-182

Xmas Sux-Frank Iero

Don’t Shoot Me Santa - The Killers

O Holy Night - Brand New

Right Where You Want Me To Be - A Day To Remember

Last Christmas - Jimmy Eat World

Ho Ho Hopefully - The Maine

Do You Hear What I Hear? - William Beckett

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays - Issues

I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus - Bowling For Soup

O Come, O Come, Emmanuel - Tyler Joseph

Christmas By The Phone - Good Charlotte

Merry Christmas, I Missed You So - Taking Back Sunday

My Christmas List - Simple Plan

30 Days - Nevershoutnever

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas - The Academy Is…

Winter Passing - The Academy Is…

This Christmas (I’ll Burn It To The Ground) - Set It Off

Bonus:

Brendon Urie singing Christmas songs on periscope 

Seasons Greetings from:

  Cobra Starship

Panic! At The Disco 

Fall Out Boy

Ryan Ross

Today on twitter someone told me I should SUPPORT the shows and movies I’m talking about instead of just tweeting about it because “tweeting about it doesn’t get them views/money” and I’ve never, ever, encountered someone who so badly missed the point of my entire online brand. Wildest thing someone ever said to me. 

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One week apart.
6 days of workouts.
More water. Less sugary drinks.
Feeling less bloated.

Still working on finding foods I’ll enjoy that are actually healthy for me without doing a complete 180° on my normal eating habits. Trying to ease into it and enjoy it.

nice transparent thing bc valentine is coming and all my ace ass has is this son and my laptop

have a good one too people