there is ACTUAL FOOTAGE out there of my King T'Challa and my boy Bucky with ARMIES and of my other boy Steve with a BEARD and it hasn’t yet been seen by MY EYES, this is some kind of JOKE, some kind of SCAM, i am being ROBBED
first day at school, first doodle that comes out from me brain haha
and guess what, the teacher already gave us 2 homeworks to do the first day of school… ain’t that about a bitch! :’‘‘ybut anyways, hope y’all enjoy this sketch of Cartoonz gonna be watching his vids now to cheer me up waaa ;;;;
starting T is exciting, and for the first few weeks/months you’ll be looking for changes EVERYWHERE, trying to measure how low your voice is going, how much your face is changing, etc.
But there will inevitably be a point (usually some time in your first year) where you will start feeling like nothing is happening; like you haven’t changed enough to where people notice, because your body shape hasn’t changed, you haven’t sprouted a full beard yet, your voice is still androgynous instead of manly, that T just isnt working for you.
And for that I have a little anecdote: I’m around 7 months on T, and I’ve noticed my voice drop, tiny changes in my face, and my peach fuzz has started getting longer. But because of the way my fat has not redistributed, I still get misgendered sometimes because I have a very distinct body type. So I started having those thoughts that I wasn’t changing and that no one was even noticing, and that maybe I was just unlucky and T wasn’t going to do much for me.
And then, something really cool happened - THREE separate people from my work, who only see me occasionally because they’re from different departments, approached me or stopped me to talk when they saw me. After determining that I was okay with talking about it, they each asked me if I was on hormones (a detail I didn’t share with a lot of people at work, but am comfortable with doing so if asked politely) and told me they had noticed because I changed so much since I started working there a year ago. They had noticed my voice dropping, that I looked different. One of them told me it was incredible how much had happened in just 7 months. And let me tell you, that was so amazing and uplifting for me to hear, and it totally changed my outlook on how I think about my transition.
The thing is, we live with ourselves every day. We scrutinize ourselves to measure just how much we are changing, but we miss so many things that happen because they’re so gradual that we don’t notice. But the people around us - they notice, they see and acknowledge that we are changing. I promise, things ARE happening. T is working for you. Sometimes it just takes stepping out of your own shoes to get a different perspective to see it.
First, this is just a friendly reminder that you do not owe these boys anything! We all spend our free time here because we love them, but we all need to remember that our mental health comes first. If the latest round of interviews (Dick Wattpad) has upset you, please take a step back and do something else with your time! Read a book (or fanfic), paint, play an instrument, bake some cupcakes, take a bubble bath, whatever you need to do to unwind. Liam and Zayn will still be here regardless of your personal involvement, and I guarantee that they would want you to take care of yourself.
Second: Don’t be afraid to think for yourself; your instincts are usually right. If something about a situation seems wrong, it probably is! I know it’s difficult to listen to lies coming from our boys in print and in person, and it may be really easy to take them at face value. However, as with everything surrounding this band, nothing is as it seems. A comment in an interview cannot erase the YEARS of history these boys have, just like reminiscing about a relationship and a child cannot erase the ridiculously shady circumstances behind them. We know these boys have been forced to push lies in the past, and we have no evidence that things have changed for ANY of them (all of OT5 is still trapped, regardless of what they say about being “free”). Use your head and call them on their BS. Also, if you do acknowledge that Liam’s comments about Zayn seem odd, maybe you should check into the legitimacy of the rest of the interview. (Dick Wattpad always pushes official narratives, so maybe you can pick out his priorities from that interview).
Third: I’ve been saying this for this whole radio tour, but it’s worth repeating. Liam Payne is an excellent liar. He is fully training to deal with the press and he has had years of experience to perfect pushing the official narrative. Liam saved 1D from embarrassment time and time again in interviews. So, why are people surprised that he is so good at convincing people of a narrative that is favorable to Simon and company? He smiles a lot and moves his hands and talks really fast, and tries to end on an emotional note to distract people into cooing or laughing with him. It’s all about misdirection. Has anyone stopped to wonder why Liam, who is on a radio tour to promote his upcoming album, has spent almost no time actually talking about his music? Maybe it’s because the entire point of his current stuntlationship is to promote a certain washed up girlbander with a nasty past who has convenient ties to good ol Simon, and who is probably going to be working on some music of her own in the near future. What better way to break into uncharted territory (the United States) than to ride on the coat tails of an attractive young singer who is destined for great things.
In conclusion, take care of yourself. Think for yourself. Take everything with a grain of salt. Don’t let current disappointments distract you from the truth.
Oh and buy Strip That Down! Liam isn’t responsible for his nasty narrative; we all know he loves Zayn more than anyone.
It has been a while, but yay! more book characters fanart! Val, Ygritte and Ryk. Ryk isn’t a very prominent character, but I wanted to draw a wildling dude, and I have been having some fun AU thoughts with his sibiling like relationship with Ygritte. Osha and Gilly were top choices to draw on this Free Folk edition, and I do hope to get to them soon. Not going for a 1:1 equivalence to any real world ethnic groups, but I am going for a central asian influence on my take of the ASOIAF characters, and it has been a real fun process, one of my least favorite aspects of fantasy is that it is so european, in that way that not even real life Europe was.
So Restless AU thoughts. Haven’t thought of the specifics of it, but Ygritte and Ryk are perhaps the most prominent Free Folk in Restless. Mance’s power isn’t as consolidated so there’s friction between the factions, and Ygritte and Ryk and their group still haven’t made their mind if to follow him as king so we get a lot of the workings of the Free Folk through them. They will run into Benjen and his rangers at some point, but it the result will be an unlikely truce (if momentary)
Val will run into Rhaegar on his journey Beyond the Wall, and it’s pretty clear it is at Mance’s behest to arrange a meeting between Kings. Perhaps most surprising is Rhaegar’s willingness to accept, to the point even Val ends up advising caution during their journey. But Rhaegar’s focus on the Others and the threat they represent guides his decision making, for better or worse. Jamie knows it’s reckless, but he believes enough on his king to trust on this gamble.