Today was my day in the NICU! It was amazing! Its definitely an amazing unit. Those little babies are just so cute but it can be so sad at the same time. I think I’m adding NICU to my list of units I wanna consider after graduation. 💕
Hayden is off the bili blanket, they said she will probably be off the IV tomorrow night and they have lowered her fluids and upped her feeds to 23 ml. They said she has had a bit of reflux but nothing to abnormal or worrisome. I held her today and she was a lot more awake, I didn’t get a picture of her eyes being open though. :/
Peyton’s feeds have been upped to 30 ml and she’s lost a bit of weight but aside from that nothing has changed!
Both girls are doing well taking pacifiers while being fed which is really cool. Hayden has more interest in the pacifier but Peyton is starting to like it more too. I’m really proud of my girls.
This is probably annoying, but I have to get it out. A girl on my facebook is celebrating ‘NICU awareness day’ for her ‘favorite NICU grad’. Her son wasn’t even in NICU for an entire day. She has no idea. He was back with her in her hospital room before she went to sleep that first day. A NICU stay isn’t something I’d wish on anyone and overcoming it is a struggle. I think that’s why her post annoys me. She is taking credit (kind of bragging about it, really) for something that was my absolute nightmare. I don’t want to hear it. She has no idea how incredible it feels to actually watch your baby “graduate” NICU. To see the tubes taken out and the machines turned off after weeks of ups and downs and wondering if your baby is ever coming home. And my son’s stay wasn’t half as long as some others. I am probably being too sensitive, but it bothers me.
It almost feels like we aren't doing enough to help you
What do you mean? Helping with what? With fundraising?
Do you know how hard it is for me to even ask for help with anything.
I don’t ask for help..
But guess what. I need help, now, more than ever.
If that too much for you to deal with, then I am sorry.
I didn’t ask for this. I didn’t ask to get sick. I didn’t ask for my child to be in the fucking nicu for 100+ days.
So thank you, for putting my asking for help in check.
I won’t do it again…