Who is my favorite Nico Nico Douga utaite? This is easy.
My favorite NND utaite is Mafumafu.
But not only because he is incredible at mixing his own music which are so top-tier that more than 7 companies have sought after him. Not only because he creates his own PVs which accompanies his songs almost as well as his lyrics do. Not only because his lyrics speaks volumes about who he is as a person, his values, goals, dreams and aspirations as an utaite.
But because he’s incredibly strong.
After listening to his cover of Goodbye Liar, I have a newfound respect for Mafumafu. Both as an musician and as a person who is fearless enough to walk the path of self-made artist, his voice conveys what words can’t. And it’s saying that “although the future is just full of unobtainable things”, he still continues this uncertain road, “because he wants to find the sun no matter what.”
Because the old Mafumafu has gone through a lot in life, “struggling regardless, avoiding feelings that can’t be thrown away.”
But he understands that those “emotions become the road sign” to the unobtainable things of the future. Good or bad, “if you can obtain it, any scars are worthwhile.”
The frustrations of reality. Income. Dreams. Stability. Passion. Health. Values. Happiness. Popularity. Aspirations. Depression. Motivation. Loneliness. Uncertainty. These are things that are on everyone’s minds once the music stops playing.
“You hate yourself even though you love yourself the most.”
Mafumafu doesn’t have to be under a well-known label to do what he loves. He doesn’t have to follow a schedule that cuts out time for his namahousous. He doesn’t have to give up time to spend with Soraru, Amatsuki and the rest of his friends. He doesn’t have to give up anything.
“To protect everything and gain everything, there’s no person like that anywhere.”
This world is not made of only bad endings or only happy endings. We have to sacrifice things in life, accept our selfishness, and we will inevitably experience everything that heals us and tears us down at the same time.
But in order to move forward, we can’t live with closed eyes.
“You have to shout one thing. Goodbye to the liar’s heart.”