get to know me meme → [2/10] favorite female characters » amy dunne (gone girl) “I’m so much happier now that I’m dead. Technically missing. Soon to be presumed dead. Gone. And my lazy lying shitting oblivious husband will go to prison for my murder. Nick Dunne took my pride and my dignity and my hope and my money. He took and took from me until I no longer existed. That’s murder. Let the punishment fit the crime.”
Nicholas and I met on tumblr 4 years ago. I was in Georgia and he was in California. Crushes developed quickly but we also never expected anything to come of it. We both went in and out of relationships and hardships, but somehow remained friends via social media. I frequently had dreams that I married him and we would laugh about it… until fall of 2014, when I made the crazy decision to move to California with a dear friend… just because the opportunity was there. What I didn’t know is how close Nick lived to where I was moving. He picked me up from the airport on September 3rd, 2014 and both of us went home to tell our roommates that we found “the one”. Our first official date was Dapper Day at Disneyland on September 13th. On October 11th, he told me he loved me at midnight in Sleeping Beauty’s castle.
On April 29th, 2015, Nick took me on my favorite ride- it’s a small world (relevant to our past living arrangements)- and proposed to me while on a boat by ourselves. It was perfect. I wanted something meaningful and private. We walked off the ride, rested for a few moments, and the first person we saw was Peter Pan. Not only is Peter Nick’s favorite character, but I’ve always said I was most like Tiger Lily. Getting to see and take a picture with him was super special.
After we called friends and family, we went to an amazing lunch and Carthay Circle Theatre and spent the rest of the day enjoying each others’ company. Today was practically perfect in every way, and I will never forget it.
Have we talked about Kelly? About how everything that happened with Nick and Liam hurt him? About how he felt shut out? Not to mention Miami.....oh and how incredibly hot Badass Kelly is?
I don’t think we really have. Granted, I haven’t been scrolling tumblr much now that I am 9 months pregnant since my ability to sit still has been shot all to pieces. So if I missed a Kelly (or any) meta, I do apologies. If you want me to comment on one, please drop me a line. I hate to miss meta.
But sweet Kelly. We got to see him so very, very angry. To the point of actually raging, which was a sight to behold. It is such rare an event even the rest of Sidewinder didn’t know what to do with him.
And Nick just took it. Thought he deserved it. Oi. But that is another meta. This one is about Kelly. Rage monkey Kelly as we came to call him during beta time.
The fact Kelly was more hurt at the fact Nick didn’t let him help than the fact Nick did it, says a lot. Kelly was so hurt that Liam took the special slot Kelly thought was his. At first on the Fiddler when Kelly found Nick, he got aggressive at Nick, but once he knew the full story, all the aggression Kelly built up was directed purely at Liam leaving him just sad towards Nick.
“You told me once, remember? Back when you still trusted me.”
Then he learned Nick was captured…then probably killed on the street…Kelly, in this book, went through an emotional grinder similar to the physical one Nick went through. And at the end of the book, Kelly is left in limbo similar to Nick as well. They are tethered to each other now.
I find it interesting how Kelly latched onto Nick here. It is not purely physical lust but a partnership thing. Kelly wanted to be the one Nick turned to in order to help him get shit done. Kelly constantly says it.
“We’re a team.” (loc 1521)
“Then we’ll be things in the dark together.” (loc 4573).
Kelly wanted that place, the place of distinction, in Nick’s world, and the fact Nick thought he needed to protect Kelly and not include him (even for good sniper-Liam reasons) just hit all the wrong places in Kelly. Kelly was left feeling second best. Feeling inadequate. Feeling like a possession and not a partner. Kelly wants to be more dark than Nick wants him to be. Nick puts things up on a shelf to admire and protect. Kelly says fuck that and climbs off the shelf. (huh, I know that feeling)
The hard part of these two is the fact they do know each other so well and they are still working out what they really mean to each other. They are laid back together and comfortable, but there is a formalness to their relationship that is lacking that they both seem to feel. Maybe it is the fact they are suppose to be engaged yet both don’t consider it that official. Like Ty and Zane were calling each other fiancée from the moment Zane said yes, yet Kelly was reserved to bring it up to sober Nick. That fear has been there long enough that it has tainted their relationship a bit, especially now that Kelly understands why Nick never brought it up. They really need to root that out and disinfect it. Maybe in P&P. It doesn’t have to be addressed now though, but for them to move on, it really should be.
As for badass Kelly, it was so lovely to see him in action. I love love when he threw the knife at Liam (loc 3765). That is the most deadly accurate rage Kelly moment to me. More proof that Kelly is right in that he is an equal partner with Nick. Now if only Nick would let him tarnish his soul with Nick…but again, that is another meta about Nick and his religious hangups that I will get to.
Heh, “let him”. Yeah, that is also why Kelly was raging. Kelly realized Nick wasn’t “letting” him play with him. Maybe this is just a Melody me-thing, but I bristle at the word “let”, so I imagine Kelly does too. Though based on evidence from C&B, Kelly doesn’t appreciate “being handled” either. Kelly would prefer to make his own mind up, thank you. I hope Nick will honor that next time.
Huh, I didn’t realize I saw this much of myself in Kelly. I wonder if I am projecting…which I don’t normally do but with this early a development of a character, I might. We shall see. If I am wrong, I will change my views. But as of now, I am understanding Kelly’s rage quite a bit.
So I know I rambled a lot and hopefully hit all the points you were wanting, but Kelly in Crash & Burn is an angry open sore wanting to make all of Liam burn.
NICK JONAS – FIRST LOOK AT OUR EXCLUSIVE SHOOT FOR FAULT ISSUE 21’S FRONT COVER
We are very proud to announce that Nick Jonas is our Cover star for FAULT Issue 21! As one of the Jonas Brothers, Nick Jonas was at the heart of a global phenomenon that spanned nine tours, four albums, and over 20 million in record sales- all before he had turned eighteen. It seems that Jonas is about to embark on a second wave of global phenomenon, and this time in his own right. See what he had to say about satisfaction, creative control, and finally calling the shots.
Photographed by Matt Holyoak and Styled by Fashion Editor Kristine Kilty at Soho’s The Unit Gallery (also featured within the issue) the ‘POP Issue’ will celebrate everything and everyone pop-music, popular- culture, pop-art and more!
We caught up with Nick days before Jealous took over the airwaves and racked up 60 million views on Youtube! With an album out June 30th, we’re truly excited to share these special preview images!
With track titles like ‘Chains’, ‘Jealous’, and ‘Warning’, there’s a definite edge to the record. Did you feel like you were trying to get something off your chest in writing this album?
I felt like I was able to have total control over the music, and able to really open myself up creatively- ‘Jealous’ was actually the first song I wrote. I think there are definitely topics that I’m more comfortable to speak about at this point in my life than I was a couple of years ago, and naturally there are darker tones to the music.
Do you feel more vulnerable releasing as a solo artist, as opposed to when you were part of The Jonas Brothers? Are there certain difficulties that you find yourself facing this time around?
It’s very different. The biggest thing is in the promotion of it all; before, I had my two best friends with me all the time, but now it’s just me. I’m thrilled to see the reaction to the music, but that’s the one thing I miss.
Looking forward, are there any dream collaborators you’d love to work with?
Prince. I would love to collaborate with Prince! And The Weeknd would be a fun collaboration, if it was the right thing.
Finally, what is your FAULT?
I’d have to say my level of stress. I push myself pretty hard, and I don’t think you can be as free as you need to be creatively when you have that.
Nick took you into a separate room in the building. It looked like a small meeting room rather than an interrogation room. He closed the door behind the two of you, before sitting down. He motioned for you to take the seat across from him.
“You know what I’m talking about,” you accused as you sat down. “I saw it on your face as I was talking about it.”
“I’m a detective. I see a lot of weird things. What do you know about what’s going on?” Nick asked.
“Just that people have seen weird things,” you replied. “I’ve talked to a couple of them. One person says that he saw a couple werewolves in the woods near here. It seemed like a man and a woman, based on the sounds of their laughs. They killed and ate a rabbit, but the guy left right after. He didn’t get too good a look, but he knows he saw more hair than would be on a normal man or woman.”
“And the witches?” Nick asked.
“Their faces have been described as being able to turn into a form that looks like decomposed flesh. And they can cause weird things to happen. The girl I talked to said she saw a woman change to look exactly like her, before somehow knocking her out without touching her,” you explained. “That one happened a little further outside the city, though. I know this all sounds crazy, but the craziest part is that so much of this happens right around here. And you know something about it.”
“There’s probably a mild hallucinogen in the water supply or something. I’ll get someone to check on…”
“It’s not that,” you interrupted Nick. “There was a test done soon after this stuff started happening. They say the timing was coincidental, but I doubt that. They found nothing wrong with the water or air.”
“There’s something you’re not telling me,” Nick stated.
“I can say the same about you,” you countered.
Nick sighed and shook his head with a slight smile. “Just as stubborn as ever.”
“Even more so, I would say,” you replied with a smirk. “The most recent weird thing was a woman who apparently looked like a cross between a demon and a dragon. She was seen around your crime scene. Sam, Dean, and I are just trying to figure out what’s up with the weird sightings, and why a woman would look like that.”
“That’s still no excuse to be snooping around an active crime scene,” Nick scolded. “I’m becoming more and more convinced those FBI badges are fake.”
“We are on your side. Let us help with the investigation. In my experience, weird things are either really good things or really bad things. I’m just trying to figure out which it is before someone else gets hurt,” you stated.
“And you have experience with really weird things?” Nick asked.
“I’ll just have my friend tell you for me,” you said with a bit of a smug look. “Oh, Castiel! I could really use some help!”
Nick looked confused as you spoke into thin air. However, a man in a trench coat soon materialized in the room right next to you. Nick scrambled to his feet in surprise, suddenly on-guard.
“You called?” Castiel asked, looking at you. He barely even seemed to notice Nick.
“Just explaining to my old friend there that I’ve seen some weird crap,” you told him, before looking back to Nick. “You can relax. He won’t hurt you.”
“Okay, point taken about the weird stuff,” Nick said, relaxing a little.
“Cas is one of the good weird things. Sam, Dean and I have kinda taken it upon ourselves to defend people against the bad weird things that nobody will believe exists,” you explained.
Nick sighed. “Okay, fine, you can help. But I should probably fill you in on the special brand of weird that goes on around here.”