out of the apartment; it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. It hurt as
much as the injury at the World Cup. I was broken.
have thought that football would be the reason to my unhappiness in love; that
would make me hurt this much.
someone called me. Pai.
did not see you come inside.”
with her? I saw her just driving out.”
you decided to take it the easy way.”
way? I am devastated.” I said confused.
did not need to leave her to get your head back in the game.”
“Yes I did.
Everyone said so, she was distracting me.”
think, but she was making you happy, this is different.”
“Can we don’t
talk about this please.” I said annoyed that this conversation was still
around, when all I wanted to do was forget (y/n) and what happened.
He did not
continue so we went on the table, got some food and talked about the game we
had the next day with Levante. I wanted to do my best, show people I am not
failing, that I am on top of my career.
I went to bed, since we had a flight early in the morning. However, I could not
sleep. I changed my cover on the phone, since I had a picture of (y/n) and me
hugging. That lead me to some other pictures I had of us in my gallery, and as
much as I wanted to delete all of them, I could not find that strength that
would confirm everything is over.
It was not
just that, but also I was tagged on different photos taken of the two of us, or
just fans posting some photos in our fanpage. There was no way of forgetting
all of our memories in one night. I knew it would take time, a long time.
day when I woke up I realized it was all true when I looked at my phone and
there was no more (y/n) on my locked screen.
I went to
get ready and wait for Rafinha to pick me up, since he decided to travel with
the team and attend the game.
he said as I walked inside.
really, I already had my therapy, they said it won’t be much long now.” Rafinha
hear!” I said but not as excited as he used to be.
you talked to (y/n) yesterday.”
“Okay is it
so obvious?” I said annoyed.
face is depressing; everyone can see something is wrong. I just know it’s about
her, you told me you would break up after training.”
me to fight for us, to try make the relationship work. You know what hurt me
the most, the fact that she said, that I always choose football over her.”
she is right.”
not see? You two were in love since high school, but every time it looked like
you two would finally end up together, you choose football. And I’m glad you
did, because look how far you came, but still, you cannot live forever alone,
because of your career, plus I don’t think she is not the reason you had a few
but still… Coaches, fans everyone is expecting me to do my best and I can’t let
myself get out of the game because of my feelings. It’s not the time.”
“Do as you
want, just know that she won’t be waiting forever. She waited for more than 6
I did not
comment on that, and we finally came to the airport. The entire team was
already there, and I had to pretend everything was okay, since the only ones
who knew about my decision were Rafa and Dani, who I called last night and knew
When we got
in the plane, I told everyone I would sleep, since I did not sleep much. When
we finally landed I turned on my notifications form the flight mode and got a
text from Gil, saying to look at (y/n) Instagram photo.
I was about
to get out of the plane when I read the quote,
“We had the right love at the wrong time” and she added, “We always did.”
I felt like
shit. She loved me more than I could have imagined, but she did not understand
I loved her even more. I was walking alone, and then called Dani to show him the
said as he read.
her heart, I hurt her.”
always like this when it comes to love and you know that. You need to focus on
the game now, or else you did this for nothing.”
are right.” I said, and put my phone away.
began and the entire team was playing good, Suarez scored first, the second
goal was mine then twice Messi and once again, to finished the match on point I
was happy and enjoying the won game, but something did not feel right. I was
not happy at all, I scored twice, I was nominated player of the match yet
something was wrong.
those congratulation texts I always got before even leaving the pitch. I always
walked in the changing room and she was already there, her kind and happy words
that could make me smile and feel proud even when I played badly.
what I meant” Rafinha suddenly said as he sit next to me, “you lost confidence
after one bad game and blamed her for that.”
I did not
say anything and went under the shower, he was right I knew he was, but somehow
until hearing that from someone else I did not admit that to myself.
we landed, I told Rafinha he would need me to take me somewhere, he smiled,
because he knew where I wanted to go.
Rafinha said as I walked to (y/n) apartment.
you doing here?” She said shocked as she opened the door.
“I came to
It’s your life; you are taking care you succeed at it.”
“But I realized
today that I can’t succeed without you. There is no point winning if you are
not there with me, if you are not in my life to support me and cheer for me. I
might succeed in football, but not in life. I need you (y/n), I love you more
than football, I love you more than I imagined.”
you always did this. You go, break my heart. Then you come back and make me
fall in love. It’s always this circle. I need to know that you won’t change
your mind once again, because I can’t take any more of it.” She said almost afraid.
letting you go ever again, I lost you too many times. I was immature; I blamed
you because it was easier than to admit I was the reason for my bad games. I
made the biggest mistake; I almost lost the person I most need in my life.
(y/n) I’m going to fight this time.”
she smiled and walked in to a hug, I missed her perfume, her beautiful hair and
those nice hands around my neck hugging me. Then she moved a little and I
Rafinha is waiting, let’s go to my place.” I smiled as she took her purse.
this was not the last of you two!” Rafinha said excited as we walked both in
the back seats smiling. “Glad to have you back (y/n)” he said as if we were
apart for more than a month.
When we got
in my house, we went to sit on the sofa and I made her take down that photo on
“No, it was
already posted; there is no point delating it now.” She said and then added a
new photo of us that we took while cuddling in our hoodies.
“But we always found our way back to each
other. I love you gordo @neymarjr <3”
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