The biggest feedback I’ve received this year is that I’m “chill” and “laidback” and “too nice.” And I can parse out the “student speak” to figure out what that means.

I’m fully aware, but I’ve honestly been so focused on planning and meetings and grading and getting through each class without having a panic attack that I hardly have the mental capacity to be “stricter.” My policies need revamped, and I need to be so much more consistent, no-nonsense, and clear on my expectations.

Next year. Next year I will be better. Next year I will be more sure-footed and less anxious in my own classroom. Next year.