If it’s even possible, today I give even more respect to
G-Dragon. I had an epiphany about him that made me respect him even more. Care to indulge me a bit?
Loneliness: from his work and interviews, we get that he
struggles with it. He talks about it in interviews and puts it in his music. I
used to think this was because he’s an extrovert who needs a lot of socializing
to feel complete (which I still think, by the way. Heaven knows he’s not like
TOP who would choose to sit in his house alone, drinking wine, for fun). But
G-Dragon’s recent work and interviews have got me thinking a lot about his
aversion to being/feeling alone.
In his Newsroom interview, G-Dragon said something that
translates closely to, ““I think I’m a bit of a.. should I say…mutant,” which
I found surprisingly self-aware. And that got me thinking a lot about his
lyrics. We’ve got his Loser lyrics, “Honestly,
I’ve never fit in with the world” and “I was always alone.”
think this is just about feeling like there aren’t people in his life. I think
this also has to do with the isolation that comes from being different. GD
truly is one of a kind. He’s got this undeniable uniqueness. And that’s just it—he’s
not afraid to be different, either. He’s the guy who will wear that crazy
outfit, change his hair a hundred times, and take major creative risks. He’s
the trendsetter, the ground-breaker. Combine that with his creative genius and
star performance level, and he’s born to entertain.
think G-Dragon knows this about himself and it’s actually a source of confidence
for him. I think he’s aware of his talents and uniqueness, and likes that about
himself. I also believe he genuinely loves entertaining and being the center of
attention (although, not always) and his “differentness” has opened
a lot of doors for him and helped him achieve a successful career for himself.
there’s an isolating aspect to being “the different one” and I think this makes
him feel alone sometimes. I think inside, Ji really is a warm, cute babo who loves connecting with friends. But feeling the isolation of “being a
mutant” can be tough. And when he’s down, I imagine there are times he really
does feel alone. Hence, I suspect his Crooked lyrics represent some of his
worst fears, “Leave me alone, I was alone anyway” or even worse, “I have no
one of my favorite G-Dragon songs, A Boy, his lyrics say, “People say they’re
jealous of me because I have too much, celebrities all live a comfortable life.
Be in their shoes for just a day, you’ll realize what you see isn’t everything.”
I’m proud of him. I’m his fan.
Respect to you, Kwon Leader. Keep smiling and having fun :). I’m loving seeing
him so happy with this comeback.