Gone away are the golden days
Just a page in my diary

You were sorting through your stuff, deciding on what to leave behind in your parents house and what you would take with you to your own apartment. This wasn’t the first time you were moving out, but it was the first time you were going to live all on your own. Unlike the first time, leaving seemed heavy, like something you’d rather avoid even though you know it’s what you have to do.

You grabbed a box from underneath your bed and looked though everything it contained, when you laid your eyes on your old diary. Curious as you were, you opened it and scanned through the pages. Looking at the date, the last time you wrote in it was three years ago, just before you and Luke broke up.

You read all the pages, getting overwhelmed by how happy you and Luke were just before everything came crashing down. You closed the book and stuffed it in another box, one you were going to take with you. It still hurt to think about Luke, even after all those years, but it felt good to keep the diary because you could look back on the happy days you spend together. And despite of everything that happened, those memories could still bring a smile to your face.


Memories they’re following me like a shadow now

Calum didn’t like to talk about the things that hurt him, he’d rather avoid thinking about it. Unfortunately for him, ignored feelings have a way of coming back when you least expect them. Everywhere around him he saw little things that reminded him of you, and it drove him absolutely insane. He wanted to forget all about you and about the breakup that caused him more pain than he could ever admit to anyone, even to himself.


I’ve seen your acts
And I know all the facts
I’m still in love with who I wish you were

Michael had been in complete denial for years. He didn’t want to admit that the only girl he ever loved didn’t feel the same way in return. Instead, she used him to get herself a career in the show business, and she dumped him as soon as she did. Even after he found out about the truth, he couldn’t help but defend her. He couldn’t get over her, he couldn’t wrap his mind around the fact that she played pretend for years, and how good she was at doing so.


Tell me when I’ll finally see your shallow heart
For what it is
Cause I don’t want to keep on believing in illusions

It was very difficult for Ashton to adjust the way he felt about someone, especially if he loved them at some point. He wanted to be able to change his view, he wanted to see people for who they really were, not for who his naivety made him believe they were like. He struggled with that a lot, since he didn’t want to be swallowed by negative opinions on people, even though sometimes there was no other way to see them.

I don’t think this even makes sense, especially Ashton’s part lol. 

- Naomi  xx