Ok I guess this is the dream that helped me pick my new ultimate.
In a previous post I think I mentioned that I had a dream about joining JYP and becoming a trainee. Well it’s a kind of continuation of that.
Apparently it was made into a reality show, mine and other trainees paths to debut, so in out dorm there were cameras that went live to a website I guess?
I think the dorms are mixed in with already debuted groups because Jackson walks into my room a night or two after coming back from spending time with his family, and he tells me he had a bad dream and asks to stay with me.
I’m super asleep, well my body is. My mind is totally awake but I can’t get my body to do what I tell it to.
So I say “What about the show? It would give the wrong idea.” But it comes out more like “Wh–mmbout- shoo…..badea…”
And Jackson is all like, “We can put your giant bunny plush between us.” This sounds like a totally logical solution to prevent scandal at the time, so I agree and we fall asleep holding hands with the bunny between us (which i do have in real life that is about ½ my size).
Of course because it’s streaming or some shit, there are articles announcing super scandalous activity by morning. (stupid media)
Ok so after all the articles come out, we’re getting scolded by JYP and we’re both like “It was recorded you can see nothing happened.” And I just tack on “Our relationship isn’t like that.”
So an awkward-ish silence falls over the 3 of us and JYP gets this look on his face while looking at Jackson. That makes me look at Jackson and I can see he has this really hurt look on his face and of course I’m like “Oh no” and this is in the dorm so this is being filmed too. (whhhyyyyyy)
And I continue on like “Oh, Jackson…I …” but he just shrugs me off and he shouts, “When are you going to see me as a man?!” and stormed out.
JYP goes into papa mode and follows Jackson out so I’m left in some room standing there thinking, “I fucked up. I so fucked up.”
So Im standing there trying not to cry on film or whatever thinking I just fucked up the best and possibly only friendship I have currently in dreamland – And this kind of starts a mini fanwar.
Like Jacksons fans are saying I deserve to be upset because I didn’t see his feelings and the few predebut fans I have are confused as fuck, and fans who barely pay attention to the show except for gossip understand that it might have been a cultural misunderstanding on how friendships/relationships are handled.
But that’s where the dream ends and I woke up feeling like my heart was gonna explode.
And honestly I dont know if this new ultimate is because I woke up feeling like I needed to take care of Jackson because the dream didnt finish or if its because I have finally taken notice of how talented he is.