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Sweater Weather

SUMMARY  - You read Bucky’s diary after an unfortunate event .

WARNINGS - ANGST , DEATH ( I maybe cried a little while writing this)

Sorry in advance . 

A/N - This is for Annie’s @hellomissmabel 1K celebration shuffle challenge . 

Taw @supersoldierslover Thank you so much babe . 

Everything in italics is from Bucky’s journal. 

MASTERLIST 

Originally posted by merci-angel

I was scared . I didn’t know what to say and if I had to say anything at all. I felt extremely uncomfortable with the number of people around me . I felt guilt . I didn’t understand why they would welcome me to their house after everything I had done . You were the last person Steve introduced me to. The wide smile and the genuine sparkle in your eyes gave me comfort . I hoped to stay away from you in fear of hurting you too like I did to the other in the room .

  All I am is a man
I want the world in my hands
I hate the beach
But I stand in California with my toes in the sand

Well , at first I tried to stay away but wasn’t very effective . You seemed comfortable around me , no hesitance in sparking up a conversation or just sitting next to me watching the television . Your soft smile directed towards me every time our eyes met made me happy for some reason . It gave me ease. My otherwise tense body would slouch a little and I would breathe lighter . It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I didn’t know what to do when you feel asleep on my shoulder . I just sat there looking at how peaceful you looked hoping that one day I could sleep as sound as you were.

Use the sleeves of my sweater
Let’s have an adventure
Head in the clouds but my gravity’s centered
Touch my neck and I’ll touch yours
You in those little high waisted shorts, o

It has been a few months here now and I feel settled . Well you make me feel that way . And the others too have shown so much acceptance that I will forever be grateful . I have become welcoming to touches and conversations. Maybe it is just me but I feel that for some reason you spend a lot of time with me . I like it . I like to think that you care for me . Sam and I don’t really get along that well but I still like him because I heard him giving an earful to an agent who said that I was a monster and I killed people and that I was dangerous . Man !!! I have never seen him so angry . I was very happy to know he cared too .

  She knows what I think about
And what I think about
One love, two mouths
One love, one house
No shirt, no blouse
Just us, you find out
Nothing that wouldn’t wanna tell you about no

I didn’t really expect Tony to ever talk to me after discovering the truth that  I had killed his parents . But today , he started working on a prosthetic arm for me and he called me to his lab . He was so gentle touching my arm . I couldn’t get the guilt off myself and I found tears rolling down my eyes while I whispered ‘I’m sorry .’   He said nothing . He just hugged me . I didn’t think I deserved such kindness but it eased me mind and heart . He just patted my shoulder and walked out of the lab .

  ‘Cause it’s too cold whoa
For you here and now
So let me hold whoa
Both your hands in the holes of my sweater

So…..It been some time since I flirted with somebody . And it was a little surprising to know that girls are pretty good at it . In my time it was the guy who had to woo the ladies . But I didn’t really mind the other way around . Not that I would recognise it if someone actually flirted with me . ‘Listen to me dude , I know for sure she likes you.’ Sam whispered into my ear while we were all sitting in the common room having dinner . I looked at Steve for some help . ‘ I think so too . I mean , she’s been pretty flirty with you lately .’ He said shrugging . Flirty??? You flirted with me??  I liked you but never did I think you would like me back . I found myself blushing every time you looked at me after this new found information .

  And if I may just take your breath away
I don’t mind if there’s not much to say
Sometimes the silence guides our minds to
So move to a place so far away

I tried ok? I tried to be cool and flirt back but even I was cringing at my horrible attempts . I was hoping that the charm back in the 40’s would come back but they didn’t . But thank fucking god you were good at it . ‘ Would you ….Would you like to go on a date with me Bucky?’ you asked and I truly couldn’t my ears . I was screaming and jumping in joy all in my mind . I could only nod with a wide smile etched on my face .

  The goosebumps start to raise
The minute that my left hand meets your waist
And then I watch your face
Put my finger on your tongue
'Cause you love the taste yeah

It was the most wonderful 4 months of my life . I couldn’t be happier . Laying beside you on the bed with you wearing my maroon sweater with your head on my chest made me want to stay like this forever . It’s the best night of sleep I have ever gotten . I couldn’t take the images of last night from my head . The feel of your lips against my body , your soft hands running over my scars , looking at them like they are the most beautiful scars you have ever seen . They once made me feel ashamed of myself , a constant reminder of the day I turned into someone I hate now . But you make them look like battle scars . Like I endured all this pain and came out alive .

  These hearts adore,
Every other beat the other one beats for
Inside this place is warm
Outside it starts to pour

2 years and I still get butterflies in my tummy when you smile . I hope I can always see you smiling that way .I hope I save you from the horrors of the world and keep you say . I will never let anyone make you cry . I found myself blankly staring at you and wondering how the fuck I got so lucky .

Coming down
One love, two mouths
One love, one house
No shirt, no blouse
Just us, you find out
Nothing that I wouldn’t wanna tell you about, no no

After everything I did I didn’t think I would have a chance at a normal life much less a chance at love . But you….uhhhh I don’t know what to say . I could have never imagined the life I am living today . I want to hold you in my arms and cherish you forever . That’s when it hit me…..

 Cause it’s too cold whoa
For you here
And now
So let me hold whoa
Both your hands in the holes of my sweater

It wasn’t just Steve who was helping me out but it was also Nat , Wanda and Sam. How the fuck did they even know ?? Steve and Sam were mostly useless since they only teased me all the time but Nat and Wanda actually gave me tips . Nat helped me pick out the ring and Wanda helped me out in calming my nerves and helping me with the speech . I had to get this all ready before the mission and Tony also promised me that he would make a romantic atmosphere on the roof for when I come back so that my proposal could be the best .

'Cause it’s too cold whoa
For you here and now
So let me hold whoa
Both your hands in the holes of my sweater
 

I was going to be off to the mission by tomorrow morning and I knew I will miss you a lot . So I kept you close to me all day . Kissed you and hugged you every chance I could get . And at night I when I found you on the bed hugging my sweater to your chest already asleep I pulled you against me chest and fell asleep . I wanted to tell you before I went but you were fast asleep and I didn’t want to disturb you . I can’t wait to get back .

But he didn’t . Well technically he did get back . But he didn’t get back alive . You held the book against your  chest , tears flowing down your face staining the sweater as your body shook violently against Steve’s chest . You didn’t understand how he was able to contain himself . You knew he was dying inside . So were you .You couldn’t believe it . How could this happen? It’s not true !! Bucky can’t be dead!! He said he’s come back . He said he’d propose to you .

“Steve??? Please!!!! Bring him back !!! He wouldn’t leave me like this . He loves me !!!” You cried turning around to face Steve ,clutching his shirt shaking him trying to get him to speak . But he didn’t . He just wrapped his arms around you and pulled you close as he silently cried .

You pushed him away .

“Steve!!! He’s…..He’s not dead . I love him . He..he…..please….” You begged . You couldn’t accept the fact that he is gone . The man that you love , you will never be able to see again .

Everybody’s heart broke to see you this way , Tony wanted to come and console you but he couldn’t get himself to do it . He was in shock too .

“Do you want to see him?” Steve asked softly as he wiped his tears with the back of his hand .

You shook you head no . “ No.. I don’t ….My Bucky is dead Steve!! Our Bucky is dead Steve…I…” He pulled you back against his chest as you sobs grew louder . You stayed there hoping that this was all just a nightmare . You kept staring at the door hoping that Bucky would run through it and kiss you . Hoping that he would hold you against him as you slept . But that never came . Steve slowly lifted you and took you to where Bucky’s body was kept . You felt nauseous . The tears crept back in threatening to spill.

And they did as soon as you saw his lifeless body on the bed . You couldn’t go closer . You didn’t want to touch him and make it all real . Still hoping that this was a horrible nightmare .

The next few days went so quick. You had no time to register what was happening around you . You just went with the flow and so did Steve . Still unable to accept that he lost his best friend for the second time.

After the funeral and everything you came back to your room and hopped on your bed . That’s when you realised . This was all true . Bucky is gone . Your breathing became heavier as you head started to ache . His sweater on the pillow , and you bought it to your body . You turned around not able to look at the empty place on the bed next to you . The book that you had read had a box on top of it which caught your eye . You knew what it was . But you couldn’t …you couldn’t look at it . You didn’t want to look at it . The reality of never seeing him ever again , never hearing his voice , never able to touch him , never able to look into his blue eyes again but most importantly look at his beautiful smile that you would die for. And even though you had his sweater with you , you felt cold . Cold and empty. 

Life is cruel. As soon as it gave him a second chance it snatched it away from him .

It’s too cold,
It’s too cold
The holes of my sweater
 


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anonymous asked:

Hey could you do something for RFA+V reacting to MC that's a waitress ,please? Thanks so much.

🌹Yoosung
- you worked somewhere near his school
- He thought you looked so cute
- Like he would just stare at you
- All the time Wtf
- Only comes there for you Tbh
- But he never has the courage to talk to you lol

🌹Jumin
- he had to make a quick stop
- Traffic and all that
- Normally driver Kim would order for him but this time he decided to do it himself
- He saw you and was like woah
- He was blown away
- He would definitely tell driver Kim to take him to you More often
- After a while he’d try to talk to you
- “ do you like cats because I have one”

🌹Zen
- It was a long day at work
- He wanted to relax so he found this new café
- You didn’t really expect much of it to be honest and then he saw you
- He doesn’t even think about it and he immediately walks up to you
- He’s super flirty like no doubt that he’s not into you
- Tries to come multiple times a day like chill out
- Stares at you like it so obvious he doesn’t even care if you see him staring at you like he just like hi

🌹V
- it’s a hobby of his to explore new places
- So when he saw the place you work at he decided to drop by
- The food smells nice to coffee smell nice and then he heard a very soft voice
- He was like whoa I didn’t know that a nice place came with a nice waitress
- Not that he would ever say that out loud though
- thinks you are a very soft and would definitely drop by more

🌹Seven
- honestly this boy he never leaves his house like what is he even doing outside
- Only reason why he stopped by was because he ran out of food and he just needed something to eat real quick
- He was super cranky because this boy doesn’t like being social but then he saw you
- He thought you looked super cute in your uniform and started talking to you without even noticing
- He was like “hey I do cosplay and I wear stuff like that too ha ha cool right”
- you might’ve sounded a bit weird but honestly he was just trying his best to sound cool

I hope this is ok lol

QuickTypes: Power Rangers (2017)

UNOFFICIAL TYPING by anonymous

Trini Kwan/Yellow Ranger: ISFP

Probably the most under-developed of all rangers character-wise. One thing is for sure is that she is a hardcore Fi. Very tough, independent and stern but when she finally opens up, she says she hates her family for not understanding who she is and forcing her to become something she’s not. Like 4 of the 5 rangers, she shows prominent Se as well.

Zack Taylor/Black Ranger: ESTP

Zack lives for action probably more than the rest of group, for one thing, immediately riding his zord against all restrictions (Se). He is a bit cocky and smart-mouthed (Ti). He is very close to his mother and acts as her sole caretaker, he openly professes her love for her to others (Fe).

Kimberly Hart/Pink Ranger: ESFP

Yet another SP ranger, Kimberly also gets off on the excitement of her new found powers, grabbing Trini and throwing themselves off a cliff in sheer exhilaration. She commands her pterodactyl zord effortlessly. Like Jason and Trini, she internalizes her angst and pain (Fi).

Zordon: ESFJ

Zordon’s entire purpose is to find a new group to defend Earth, work their potential and rally them to defend Earth (Fe). He gets really impatient when they don’t abide by his protocol (Si) Zordon is still really affected by his past failure even if it was no less than 65+ millions years ago, he’s afraid of the same events repeating themselves. He constantly draws parallels between Jason and himself, being the former red ranger. When he thinks the new group of teens just don’t seem up to the task, he figures he should just go out and confront her himself against all odds (Ne/Inferior Ti).

Rita Repulsa: INTJ

Rita is obsessed with one thing: Gold. She gathers all the gold in Angel Grove with one goal in mind of summoning Goldar (Ni). She will destroy anyone in her way to accomplish this (Te) She is also known to be opportunistic, turning her back on the other rangers millions of years ago for her own benefit. She still harbors hatred and resentment towards Zordon to this day (Fi). She seems completely lost as she stumbles down the streets in the present day and prefers not to face the Rangers head on herself, rather leaving the dirty work to Goldar (Se). 

We need clarity.

It’s laughable, really, going into a shop and seeing papers with headlines screeching a Scottish recession is around the corner.

Because that’s what the media learned after the financial crash in 2008. The word ‘recession’ was spammed by media outlets. They’d found a new word to stir up fear and sell papers.

Now don’t get me wrong, a recession is undoubtedly a bad thing but the mainstream media in Scotland are being deliberately misleading when it comes to who is to blame.

Scotland doesn’t have many financial powers. And we don’t have the proper data to actually do anything concrete with the powers we’ve got. Richard Murphy, a London-based economist, says that the powers over tax that Scotland currently has is the equivalent of playing golf with only four clubs.

You can’t tee-off with a putter.

Scotland needs not only full control of all of the economic levers but we also need accurate data on what the current position of Scotland’s finances are. The data that the Scottish government are actually given are rough estimates from a sub-sample of UK data. Scotland is merely assigned GDP percentage portion of that data.

If we want to build the Yes movement, and build an independent country, we need to be able to debate at a high level beyond what media hacks and rags have to say.

Plus it wouldn’t be really stupid if unionists were to argue against having more data to make better decisions, wouldn’t it?

my view for a good 20 minutes while waiting for sum 41 to play at warped tour. fun night. // 08.05.2016

  • Man Overboard: I miss my girlfriend.
  • The Story So Far: I hate my girlfriend.
  • Neck Deep: I hate my girlfriend even more.
  • New Found Glory: I miss my girlfriend, but I love my friends.
  • Chunk! No, Captain Chunk!: My girlfriend doesn't realize the importance of having friends.
  • Motion City Soundtrack: I miss my girlfriend so I'm gonna self-medicate by drinking this bottle of Jack Daniels...
  • State Champs: My girlfriend doesn't know a damn thing about me.
  • Four Year Strong: Who cares if I don't have a girlfriend? I'm gonna rise up and prevail anyway, also where's the pizza?
  • Green Day: I really fucking hate the government, so I dumped my girlfriend.
  • All Time Low: I've lost track of how many girlfriends I've had in the past year, also I'm covered in bras for some reason.
  • Real Friends: My girlfriend didn't appreciate my sleepy eyes and bony knees, so she dumped me.
  • Saves The Day: I wrote a 600 word essay on why I can't get a girlfriend.
  • Say Anything: I wrote a 1200 word essay on why I can't get a girlfriend.
  • Brand New: I wrote my masters thesis on why I miss my girlfriend and can never get over her.
  • Yellowcard: My girlfriend gave me PTSD.
  • Joyce Manor: My girlfriend left me because I didn't last that long in bed.
  • Tigers Jaw: Man, fuck having a girlfriend, what's the point?
  • Sum 41: I act as if I don't want a girlfriend, but I'm secretly very lonely and dislike being single.
  • The Wonder Years: I don't have a girlfriend, but I really hate my town.
  • A Day To Remember: I hate my girlfriend AND my town.
  • Blink-182: I fucked ur girlfriend in the ass, lol.

watching a band grow up and get bigger is simultaneously the happiest and saddest thing