‘choose.’ i said, ‘me or her.’
but it wasn’t that simple
not for you
it wasn’t coke or pepsi
cats or dogs
sun or rain
it was the difference between ‘i love you’ and ‘i need you’
soft goodnight kisses or rough morning sex
big smiles and tenderness and a girl that just made you so happy
or late nights and alcohol and a girl that made you feel alive
so when i said, ‘choose.’
when i said, ’me or her.’
you looked at me like i was asking you the most unfair question in the world
you said, ‘i love you,’
and my heart fell on cracked pavement
broke right down the middle
because i realized that it wasn’t the difference between coke or pepsi
it was the difference between ‘i love you’ and ‘i need you’
and you told me you loved me
which could only mean
you needed her
—  DizzyDaisyThoughts

I think you know you’re really over a person when you don’t wish anything bad upon them. You’re not filled with anger anymore, and you don’t want revenge. You just genuinely hope they’re happy.

Even if they did you wrong. Even if they never checked on you.

I really hope the people I’ve loved are getting home safely every night. But I’m not up all night wondering whether they did or not anymore.

“I know you’re not even mine but i want you all to myself.”

T.D

“Do you believe in love?” asks someone.

“Not really. But, don’t get me wrong. I do believe in love, I do believe in soulmates, happily ever after, someone you believe as the ‘one’. I have seen other people find that, that’s why I know it’s real out there. I just think that love is not meant for me.”

—  Excerpt from the book I’ll never write #69 

when you find the right person they won’t take all your problems away. they won’t make your rent any cheaper or your parents any nicer or your workload any lighter. but oh, your life will feel easier. when you find the right person you’ll smile brighter without even trying. food will taste better, and you won’t even need alcohol. when you find the right person you’ll get dizzy and drunk off their laugh, or the way they tuck your hair behind your ear when it falls in your face. when you find the right person they definitely won’t take all your problems away, but they’ll make your problems feel a whole lot more bearable. when you find the right person you’ll know. you’ll know that they are it for you, forever. and you’ll do anything you can not to lose them. when you find the right person, god, you’ll never want to let them go. sometimes you’ll lie awake at night, staring at the ceiling, wondering how the hell you got so lucky, and how the hell you’ll ever be able to live without them when they’re gone. ‘don’t worry,” they’ll say “i’m not going anywhere.” and then they’ll hold you until the sun rises. that might just be the moment when you realize that there is nobody else you’d rather see the sun rise with. when you find the right person you’ll fight. there will be 2:00am screaming matches and slamming bedroom doors and hot, salty tears running down both your face and theirs. but when you find the right person it won’t even matter, because no fight is too big that it can’t be fixed with flowers and an i love you. actually, the flowers won’t be necessary. all you’ll need is an i love you. when you find the right person all you’ll ever need is an i love you.

you will know love and loss and lonely nights. you will know what it’s like to laugh until your sides hurt and you will know what it’s like to cry until you’re left gasping for air. but when you find the right person—and you will find them, i promise—it won’t matter that life is hard and unfair and unpredictable. because when you find the right person, you will know that you won’t ever have to go through it all alone.

You said you cared but you’re not here to hold me while i cry. You swore you’d never hurt me yet you are the one that hurt me the most.
—  T.D
Careful,
There are craters
Where my heart
Used to beat.
—  poeticallyordinary, I am so full of holes.
If five years from now, you decide that you miss me, there’s a possibility that I’d take you back.
—  Late night thoughts #89 // Possibility
sweetheart don’t be stupid
if he really wanted to be with you
he’d be with you right now
—  DizzyDaisyThoughts

you love people and you lose them and you go your entire life pretending like they weren’t really there.


but they were there. and they were real. and you held them in your arms and called them on the phone every night and pictured a future with them in it.


how can you just pretend like none of that ever happened? like you never called him when you were drunk and begged him to remember you forever.


and now you’d give anything to forget.

The way the moon falls,
Dripping ink through the midnight sky
Is enough to empty me.
—  poeticallyordinary
I don’t blame you for wanting her.
She’s everything I am not.
I just wish you hadn’t been so kind to me.
—  I didn’t mean to fall in love. // Excerpt from the book I’ll never write #70
the hurt that you feel
when you think about him,
that’s not love.
—  DizzyDaisyThoughts
How can you forget someone you’ve loved for so long if thinking about them became a habit?
—  T.D