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The good thing about this cast is I can still hold a knife
So if you ever twist my arm again I’ll be sure to put up a fight
You see I just don’t wanna do the things that you want me to do
But I’m a sucker, so I do them cause I am still in love with you

She said
“Honey, y'gotta learn that love is simple just like mud.
If you play the dirt, then I’ll play the water. All we gotta do is touch”

Cause I was young, I thought I didn’t have to care about anything
But I’m older now and know that I should
Cause I was young, I thought I didn’t have to care about anything
But I’m older now and know that I should

And it’s freezing
And I am watching you shovel snow off a driveway
Across from my parent’s home
Now it’s summer (now it’s summer)
And you are laying out on your lawn
You look so sexy, Chelsea, with your polkadot bikini on

Come on, Chelsea, speak a little French to me
Heard you spent two whole semesters drinking wine
While I was stuck in Jersey trying to save some money
I guess I’m just another thing you left behind

But you were young, you thought you didn’t have to care about anyone
But you’re older now and wish that you could
Cause you were young, you thought you didn’t have to care about anyone
But you’re older now and know that you should

It’s funny you should ask
Cause I don’t remember
It’s funny you should ask
I coulda been a contender

1, 2, 3! Everyone say cheese!
Thought you got the best of me
Turns out it was a video
Me and my best friend, me and my cousins
Sitting there smiling
Turns out it was a video

But I was young, I thought I didn’t have to care about anyone
But I’m older now and know that I should
Cause I was young, I thought I didn’t have to care about anyone
But I’m older now and know that I should

It’s funny you should ask
Cause I don’t remember
It’s funny you should ask
I coulda been a contender
It’s funny you should ask
No I will not surrender
It’s funny you should ask
Cause I don’t remember

Star Wars Does Not Have a “Girl” Problem

I wanted adventure so bad. I was overweight, terrible at sports, unlucky with girls, into punk rock, stuck in suburban New Jersey. When I first saw The Empire Strikes Back, all I wanted to be was Luke Skywalker, fighting AT-AT’s in the snow. I wanted to be part of a rebellion, be part of something, aspire to have more than I had. In those characters, there were heroes, scoundrels, good, evil, all the parts of myself that refused to come together and make a whole person. There are whole worlds to get lost in that are better than the world that might be around you. And, for that, I’ll be forever grateful to Star Wars. Part of that gratitude, and any gratitude really, is being willing to let it go. Star Wars is for the next generation. While I love it, criticize it, analyze it, talk about it, I realize that I don’t see it the same way I used to.

Today, a new trailer was released for Rogue One: A Star Wars Story. It comes fresh off the streaming release of The Force Awakens. If you’ve seen both, you know that they share something fundamental: a female protagonist. When I went to read fan reaction to the new trailer, it was disheartening to read how disappointed fans were with the choice to have “yet another female main character.” Users called it “overly politically correct” and stating that they hope the casting of a female lead doesn’t water the movie down. I could present a slew of counter-arguments, but maybe all we need is one.

Despite every best effort at sabotage, there are still girls out there who are looking for the way they fit into the world. They aren’t good at things they’re expected to be good at, they’re stuck in ruts, they’re marked as endlessly weird rather than authentic. Feeling like a fuck-up loser isn’t a male-centric thing. It’s an “all of us” thing … and you know what gets us out of it? Strength and escape. Fully embracing what Star Wars is meant to be means looking at the hero’s journey, answering the call for adventure, and developing into a more complete character. But that’s the hope for all of us, not just boys, girls, men, women…all of us.

I can’t imagine what it feels like to be told “you can’t” over and over again. I can’t imagine control over my own body being taken away from me by law. I can’t imagine not finding aspiration in movies, books, on TV, in bands. Younger me, back in Cedar Grove, NJ seriously had dreams of so much more. When I saw how powerful storytelling could be, I started studying film, storytelling, English, poetry. I’m still telling stories. I get to do that every single day. I make a living telling stories, inventing things. I fill my free time up with creating characters, conflict, feelings. All that because Star Wars helped a kid find what he loved doing. That’s not a gender thing, just something every single person deserves.