So, I know these Thoughts about episode 3 of Natsume 6 are late, but I am just. so proud of how far Natsume has come and so amazed with the show’s character development. Sometimes you forget how much Natsume has grown, because it’s happened so slowly and naturally. But then something will happen that just starkly demonstrates how much more confident and comfortable with himself he’s gotten and episode 3 of this season where he sees Shibata again really really does that.
The fact that Natsume is able to be so openly annoyed with Shibata and bicker with him and calls him on his bullshit and doesn’t just sit there and take it is HUGE.
Especially when you contrast it to the last episode where he interacted with him, seasons ago. Shibata said ALL KINDS of shitty things to Natsume he first arrived and Natsume didn’t really defend himself much or act annoyed about it all that much. He was scared of him- scared of him revealing his secret to his friends, scared of being bullied again and he basically slipped back into having very little confidence with himself.
It never even crossed his mind Shibata should talk to him in a nicer way because being treated that way was still the default for him, he didn’t even feel like he deserved more respect. There was no way he would have gone “you know what you’re not showing me very much respect and it’s super annoying” to Shibata back then.. He also seemed to genuinely think if his friends interacted with Shibata too long, they’d start treating him like Shibata did when they were kids and everything would revert to how it was when he was a kid. He felt his friendships were that fragile.
Of course, Shibata apologized at the end of this episode and showed some understanding towards Natsume, which is partly what’s responsible for Natsume feeling less threatened by him and more comfortable with him- he has changed since they were kids and he bullied Natsume.
But I really think a lot of Natsume’s behavior in ep 3 is a testament to how much more confident and comfortable with HIMSELF he’s gotten since that episode. He’s like “yeah Shibata isn’t very nice so. that’s why we don’t really get along”, like he’s explicitly acknowledging that it’s a problem on Shibata’s end that he isn’t nice. Natsume doesn’t assume, like in the past, that it’s his fault for being weird and that people will be “not nice” to him by default, because he’s now had enough friends and loved ones care for him to know that this is NOT TRUE and people SHOULD and CAN be nice to him.
And for him to be like “Shibata I can’t see you I’m hanging out with a friend” “Haha YOU have friends?” “yeah i sure do also screw you and do you want me to hang up” “no waitwaitwait” like can you imagine Natsume having standing up for himself like that in early seasons? He would have agreed with Shibata that it was weird he had friends. instead he’s like “YEP SURE DO AND FUCK YOU FOR ACTING SURPRISED”.
He was also comfortable enough to take Tanuma to see Shibata. He wasn’t worried that Tanuma would have a magic “oh wait I should really be being a lot meaner to Natsume like this guy is” epiphany when he interacted with Shibata he trusts Tanuma enough at this point to know he’s better than that. In fact, he’s worried about Shibata annoying Tanuma and is alll “HEY TANUMA i’M SO SORRY WE HAVE TO MEET WITH HIM HE’S PRETTY TACTLESS IF HE ANNOYS YOU EVEN A LITTLE BIT TELL ME AND WE’LL LEAVE IMMEDIATELY OKAY SERIOUSLY JUST TELL ME”. And there’s still a little insecurity in that- he’s nervous and overly solicitous there and worried about making Tanuma will be mad at him for having such an obnoxious friend, which is ridiculous considering how chill Tanuma is- so that shows Natsume is still not COMPLETELY confident in his relationships and has a lot of the anxiety and over-attentiveness still, he’s not magically over all the effects of his abuse.
(And how friggin’ adorable was it when Shibata was like “you look like a beanpole” to both of them and both Tanuma and Natsume immediately yelled at him on the other one’s behalf”).
And then overall he was just basically able to comfortably bicker with Shibata, demand Shibata tell him what was going and even tease him and call him a scaredy-cat, which is wow, SUCH a big step to see Natsume confident enough to comfortably do things like that.
Speaking on Tanuma, it also shows how much Natsume has grown that he basically told Tanuma immediately what was going on and took relatively less convincing this time when Tanuma wanted to help. He’s still obviously pretty nervous about burdening people. but he’s come a long way.
And this show is so good about characters actually comminicating openly and honestly- that moment where Natsume apologized to Tanuma for asking for his help and Tanuma being like “I actually really prefer knowing what you’re dealing with to being kept in the dark because that makes me worry about you way more. I actually wish you’d let me help you more, but I know that freaks you out and sends you into a guilt spiral when I push it to hard. It makes me happy you’re trusting me and even relying on me even a little bit.” LIKE WOW. A PLUS COMMUNICATION, A PLUS FRIENDING.
Basically this show has an end-goal of showing how much better it is when people communcate and are open with their feelings, but also acknowledges that it takes real work to get to that point, especially when you’re dealing with characters who are dealing with a lot of trauma like Natsume is. But Tanuma and Natsume and the rest of his friends DO put in the work and it’s beautiful to see how that is resulting in really healthy, honest relationships where they truly consider and understand each other’s feelings and that these relationships grow and get stronger with each passing episode.
I also have to praise the development on Shibata’s part too. I was very grumpy with him his debut episode for how he treated Natsume. (not because he didn’t feel like a realistic character or that his growth wasn’t good even in that episode, just. he spent most of it being a fuck so). He did apologize, but he didn’t seem to fully grasp exactly how much hell he put Natsume through. In this episode, though, he had a lot of growth. he fully gets all the scary shit Natsume has to deal with and is horrified and genuinely does his best to help and take responsibility for his part in it and lets Natsume know “hey I know I was shitty to you and I still am a little bit shitty but I really like seeing you and don’t want to hurt you”. LIKE YES EXACTLY THANK YOU. LET’S ALL JOIN THE “PROTECT NATSUME” SQUAD. It’s honestly one of the better “reformed bully” sidestories I’ve seen.
(And Natsume realizing that he gets what Tanuma’s talking about because it also makes him happy that Shibata reached out to him and relied on him!)
BASICALLY ALL I WANT TO SAY IS. I AM PROUD OF NATSUME AND I LOVE HIM AND I’M SO GLAD HE’S BECOMING MORE COMFORTABLE WITH HIMSELF AND THIS SHOW IS SO GOOD WITH IT’S SLOW-BURN CHARACTER AND RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT AND COMMITMENT TO SHOWCASING POSITIVE GROWTH AND COMMUNICATION. I LOVE IT. SO PURE AND SWEET.
also now that Hak has reached the point where he’ll literally mumble “iloveyou” under his breath and Yona will be like “whuh did you say something” and he’ll be like “NO I DIDN’T SAY ANYTHING WAS SOMEONE TALKING. I SAID NOTHING. IT WAS YOU. TALKING TO YOURSELF” I hope it becomes a running gag now. Like I know it’s supposed to be tragic and romantic but i find it hilarious so keep doing that. Like:
Yona: Did you say you loved…?
Hak: I SAID OH MY GOD I LOVE…YOON’S COOKING. WE SHOULD HURRY UP AND RESCUE HIM. BECAUSE I’M HUNGRY. AND NEITHER OF US CAN FUCKING COOK.
Yona: We were going to rescue him regardless, Hak, it’s fine.
Hak: YEAH. IT’S FINE.
and then later:
Yona: *says to Hak she’ll protect him or that he can rely on her or any of the things that are guaranteed to make him spasm with joy*
Hak: I SAID IT…DOESN’T TURN ME ON WHEN YOU DO THAT. YOU’RE NOT GONNA MAKE ME LOVE YOU. SO STOP TRYING TO SEDUCE ME.
Yona: I’m not trying to seduce you, I’m just being sincere.
Hak: WELL GOOD. BECAUSE IF YOU WERE TRYING TO SEDUCE ME IT’S NOT WORKING.
oh my goodness. thank you for this, friend. let’s start this ride, hang on for dear life
1. OBVIOUSLY THIS. OBVIOUSLY. I think this might be my all time favorite picture of them. they are tiny fetuses at max’s 20th birthday party and tiny teenage nev is kissing him and max has the biggest grin on his face AND max was perfectly comfortable posting this on his instagram for all to see years and years later. I’LL BE OVER THERE IN THAT CORNER
2. the only thing better than max calling nev “papa nev” is watching max watch nev around kids. like. the love is all over his face. he’s thinking about husbanding the shit out of that man in this picture, i promise you.
3. while we’re on the subject of how max looks at nev, even when you remove the baby MAX IS STILL SMITTEN. look at that doofus grin on his face. my favorite thing about watching catfish is seeing the way these two idiots look at each other when the other isn’t noticing.
4. CASE IN POINT!!!!! look at how nev is heart eyeing all over the place here.
5. this one’s obvious, this one’s on everybody’s list. this is the photograph version of the fic everybody in a fandom has read. it is the holy grail. and no, i do not enjoy maniping them just a lil closer on my off hours.
6. okay seriously this is a couple selfie. this is that picture that those dating thirteen year olds take in between class and put on their facebook that all of their classmates like. don’t you look at it and just want to ask nev HOW DOES IT FEEL TO HAVE MAX’S HAIR BRUSH YOUR TEMPLE
7. i apologize for the shitty quality but honestly LOOK AT THEM. this is that Road Trip Movie Aesthetic that everybody wants to watch while soft, romantic music plays and the wind ruffles their hair and they hold hands over the console because they are SO IN LOVE.
8. here’s max nudging a banana between nev’s mouth and it needs absolutely no further comment
9. i had to crop this one just so you could see their little hands folded on top of each other. they look like they’re cutting their wedding cake and they also happen to both look SO DRUNK. nev looks like he’s leaning in for a kiss and max looks so endeared by this fool next to him.
10. and here’s exhibit ten, nev’s face of utter longing.
also this doesn’t even begin to cover all the ways they look at each with big doofy grins and max laughs at nev’s dumb jokes but i wanted to take pictures that had both of them in it. the Ways Max Looks at Nev and the Ways Nev Looks at Max are really a whole other post altogether………..
OKAY SORRY FOR THE LONG POST BUT I HAD TO POST THE ENTIRE THING.
WOW IT FINALLY HAPPENED AND THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT THIS SEQUENCE THAT IS NOT GREAT AND HILARIOUS.
1. It started out as a fist bump and Hak was all ~i’ll wait for u~ then Yona was like “no this needs to be a kiss”
2. Yona initiated it because of course she fucking did Hak was never going to
3. she broke him. he just stood there staring off into space and she was like “WELL. BYE.” and only says “..wait” after she already left.
4. Then he starting spinning around in circles repeating “THIS IS WEIRD” and imitates the fucking squirrel? WHY? WHY MAKE SQUIRREL NOISES? oh my god Hak.
5. He asks if he’s dead and has to be assured he is not. also that everyone is just witnessing this extreme complete turmoil and kinda bored about it.
6. I was so joking in my tags that Hak was really upset Yona wasn’t more dramatic about giving away the hairpin because he would have been. but. no that’s canon now. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING DOING ALL THIS SHIT CASUALLY. WHERE IS THE DRAMA.”
7. “YOU DUMMY” jesus christ. He “baka-d” her. wow Hak.
8. “I NEED TO STOP BEING SURPRISED AT EVERYTHING SHE DOES IT NEVER ENDS.THIS IS BAD FOR MY HEALTH” I appreciate this level of self awareness.
9. Meanwhile Yona being like FUCK I FUCKED UP. HE JUST LOOKED SO SAD. I WANTED TO REASSURE HIM I’D COME BACK FROM THE WAR. BUT THAT WASN’T COOL! YOU CAN’T JUST DO THAT OUT OF NOWHERE! WHY DID I DO THAT. HE DIDN’T LIKE IT EITHER HE JERKED AWAY. FUCK.
10. Yona: OKAY WHATEVER TABLING THAT NEED TO FOCUS ON IMPORTANT THINGS LIKE SAVING THE KINGDOM.
they’re both such fucking loser babies. jesus. i love them.
So, I noticed @confidenceatitsfinest, @sugakookiefactory, and some of the other SugaKookie blogs talking about the latest BTS teaser/trailer/thing. And, well, I couldn’t help but be curious. (You know me, I can’t resist a good theory session.) I hope, Rin, that you don’t mind me putting my two cents in, but it might offer you a different line of thought about the apples. I’m not ARMY, but I am a nerd…and it just so happens this falls into one of my random specialties.
What really caught my attention about Rin’s post was the equivocation between the apple and sin. I’ve actually seen that a lot, but particularly in regards to this comeback. But what if I were to tell you, apples were never sin.
A lot of people say, “But Eve ate an apple in the Garden of Eden, which was the first sin.” Lots of people believe that to be the case, but if you actually look in the Bible the fruit eaten by Eve is never named. (In fact, there are scholars who claim a pomegranate would be a more likely candidate for the fruit.) The association between apples and “sin” actually comes from a dead old white guy named John Milton. Now Milton is famous for a big huge fanfiction about the creation story called Paradise Lost, which is considered one of the greatest works in the English language. In Book Nine, he specifically describes the forbidden fruit as being an apple, which is where that construct was born. Legit, Milton was just like “Ugh, you know what are super delicious and tempting? Apples. Imma make apples the forbidden fruit.”
-takes a deep breath-
But when you actually look at the account, the apple (we’ll call it apple for ease) was not the sin. In Genesis 2:17, it actually says: “But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.” The apple isn’t the sin. It literally just has the ability to give the eater knowledge of good and evil. The sin, if anything was, was in eating the fruit and going against the direct orders of God (that whole “don’t eat it” bit). So apples are innocent victims in the bigger picture.
That’s all well and good, I’m sure you’re thinking, but what does that have to do with BTS? Well, first off, let’s revisit that idea of knowledge. Jimin and Yoongi are seen chilling, one with an apple and the other with a blindfold.
Now to me, it looks like Yoongi is considering putting that blindfold on. But, in a way, Jimin is offering him the apple - maybe. If that were the case, Yoongi gets to choose between ignorance and knowledge. (Still not convinced apples are knowledge? The Apple logo is a bitten apple, because they are a source of knowledge. Teachers are traditionally given gifts of apples, because they represent knowledge just like teachers.)
Jimin also seems pretty happy with his apples. He’s pictured with them, and in his short film he even eats one.
Much visual. Many important. After he takes this bite, though, he half-smiles at the camera…kind of like he knows something you don’t.
So I guess what I’m saying is, what if we saw the apple (and by association Jimin) as something instead of sin? How does that change the way people are reading the teaser? To me, it seems less like the video implies YoonMin chicanery and more like Jimin represents knowledge, both good and bad. Maybe Yoongi has to choose between ignorance and knowledge - of what, who knows?
1. the thoughts that give me the creeps—hellogoodbye 2. sleeping with a friend—neon trees 3. faster—matt nathanson 4. you always make me smile—kyle andrews 5. paris—kate nash 6. anyone else but you—the moldy peaches 7. rather be—clean bandit ft. jess glynne 8. ribs (ryan hemsworth remix)—lorde 9. here in your arms—hellogoodbye 10. you and i—ingrid michaelson 11. u + me—dan black 12. this road with you—big little lions 13. my best friend’s hot—the dollyrots 14. my best friend—weezer 15. cheer me up—victoria justice 16. something to talk about—bonnie raitt 17. little secrets—passion pit 18. drove me wild—tegan and sara 19. friends—ed sheeran 20. why can’t i—liz phair
ZERO TIME DILEMMA: in which Akane really likes Back to the Future and thinks we should all respect it as a scientific text
My title is not at all an exaggeration, which is the best.
Shit’s gettin’ real in ZTD land, we’ve only got 3 endings left to unlock.
We start of course with C-team who are still my faves even if Junpei makes no sense. They have the best banter.
Hilariously at one point Carlos tells Akane to stop acting cutesy because it’s more disturbing than anything and everyone in this room knows you’re faking it oh my god.
Also hilariously at one point we realize it’s the new year and Carlos is all “I always spend new years with my sister but she’s not here. this is already the worst year. :(”
Akane then is literally like “that’s nice Carlos anyway JUNPEI IT’S THE NEW YEAR DON’T YOU WANT TO MAKE OUT WITH ME IN FRONT OF CARLOS TO COMMEMORATE IT.”
And Junpei’s like “Um no??? we’re in a murder game right now Akane”
“ugh that never stopped us from getting it on before. >:(”
But yeah soon enough PLOT happened. Akane collapses conveniently so Carlos and Junpei don’t have her to explain things logically for them (this has happened 3 TIMES, I guess because otherwise AKANE WOULD SOLVE EVERYTHING she is just that great) and it turns out they have to do the ally/betray bit from last game, only if Junpei gets betrayed Akane and Phi also die, same for Carlos with two others.
So Junpei then just leads Carlos outside just so he can give this big speech about how much he loves Akane. It goes basically like “so hey Carlos Akane is really super smart but also kind of scary? Like seriously all the other kids were kinda creeped out by her it was all “here’s a girl who will grow up to be a Machiavellian mastermind” so she was very lonely. BUT I PERSONALLY FOUND IT KINDA HOT. Yep, even as a sixth grader i knew what I was into. So I decided I’d be with her and protect her and help her 5ever. Then she put me in a murder game and I was like “wtf” and wanted to ask her what that was all about but anyway here we are and i love her”
I just imagine the whole time Carlos was thinking “I didn’t need to hear this why are we talking about this right now”.
Being Carlos truly is suffering.
(The fact Akane was apparently always a little terrifying and Junpei was okay with it explains a lot about his initial under-reaction to her being a mastermind)
Anyway after that we chose ally, just like Captain American would, which means Junpei of course chose betray and killed us
He even was all like “Let me teach u a Japanese proverb- “assume everyone you meet is a theif”. That’s right Carlos. I just gave you a little CULTURAL EDUCATION before you died. You’re welcome.”
He was also all “lol sorry gotta save Akane”. UM, I’m pretty sure Akane won’t be impressed with this Junpei. You read her all wrong. She may be a Machiavellian mastermind but she’s one with standards.
Anyway, then we meant back and did betray which of course means Junpei now does ally and is SO OFFENDED we betrayed him and left him to die, how could anyone do such a thing. Then Akane comes out of nowhere and bashes in Carlos’s head while screaming “how DARE you kill Junpei!!!” It’s super amazing. She hits him so many times too it’s one of those “OKAY HE’S DEFINITELY DEAD NOW AKANE YOU CAN STOP” things. then she just…tosses the extinguisher aside and is like “JUNPEI ARE YOU OK” I’m just…
Then we travel back again and interrupt Junpei while he’s giving his “I love Akane” speech and he’s really is like “HEY EXCUSE ME LET ME FINISH MY STORY”
at which Carlos is basically like “NO I’VE HEARD IT BEFORE AND IT WAS BORING THE FIRST TIME”
Turns out all we had to do was wait 10 seconds for Akane to wake up, because she does and decides to explain everything using Back to the Future as a point of reference. I’m not kidding guys. She says “remember that movie with the kid traveling back in time and the skateboard” and Carlos is all “the one where the kid almost got it on with his mom?” and I died.
Then she says “IN A WAY MARTY MCFLY- who we will call M-kun for the sake of copyright- COMMITTED A MURDER. He made the version of himself that remembered growing up rich and never traveled back in time VANISH and replaced him. So he basically KiLLED him”
THAT’S RIGHT EVERYONE MARTY MCFLY IS A RUTHLESS KILLER.
but then she’s like “of course it’s also possible is what happened is the Marty from the rich timeline switched consciousness with the time-traveling Marty from the poor timeline and now rich Marty is stuck in an alternate timeline where he stopped his dad from punching the bully when he time traveled and nothing changed and he’s poor and he’s just miserable forever”.
Junpei’s like “WOW THIS IS DEPRESSING THANKS FOR RUINING BACK TO THE FUTURE FOR ME, AKANE, I LIKED THAT MOVIE YOU KNOW. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO TAKE EVERYTHING FROM ME?”
Akane’s like “anyway my point is Back to the Future is a serious scientific text and we are all basically Marty McFly jumping timelines to survive. So I’m gonna have us blow ourselves up so our consciousness will be motivated to jump to another timeline”
Then Junpei’s like “wait what about the versions of ourselves that will get blown up in this timeline” and Akane’s like “lol sucks to be them who cares”.
To which Junpei says- and I quote- “AGH I FORGOT YOU WERE LIKE THIS”.
Forgetting your girlfriend’s actually a Machiavellian mastermind- JUST LITTLE JUNPEI THINGS.